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He places his hands on my rib cage just below my breasts and fans his long fingers across them and over my aching erect nipples. He kneads my heavy swollen breasts gently, and I instinctively arch my back in pleasure. My stomach and my sex clench as a jolt of electricity shoots through me. I’ve dreamt of his hands on my breasts for
weeks.

“My turn,” I say teasingly. This undressing scene is unfolding very slowly. This is some of the best foreplay I’ve ever engaged in. I reach over and unbuckle his belt, excited that I’m moments away from finally being able to touch him. I put my thumbs into the belt loops of his pants and gently pull upward, indicating I want him to stand. Julian is so tall that when he’s on his feet in front of me, his crotch is directly in front of my face. I take a deep breath as I look at the outline of his erection straining against his pants. I’ve yet to touch him there, and I’m dying to. As I unzip his pants, my fingers gently graze his dick. He gasps loudly and shudders. When I look up at him, I can see the passion burning in his eyes. He has been holding back for hours now and is definitely a man on the brink of losing co
ntrol.

“You are unraveling me, A
lexa.”

“That’s the plan,” I say as I yank his slacks down. He steps out of them, and I literally am left with my mouth hanging open. Surprise! Julian is naked under his pants. His big, beautiful, hard dick is now free and right in front of me. Before he has a chance to move away, I reach over, wrap my hand around the base, lean forward, and guide him into my
mouth.

“Alexa. No. I want to taste you f
irst.”

Julian makes a halfhearted attempt to pull away, but I grab his ass and pull him deeper into my mouth. He’s bigger than anyone I’ve ever been with, and I’m not sure I can take all of him in. I swirl my tongue across his plush head and down around his shaft. I keep pumping him with one hand and gently knead his balls with the other. He growls and grabs my hair. His excitement spurs me on, and I take him in deeper. He needs more and gently pushes my head down until I’ve taken him all the way in. I want to give this to him, so I ignore the burning in my throat. I feel a small spurt of pre-cum on my tongue, and I suck harder. I don’t want to rush him, but I’m eager to feel him explode in my mouth. I love how in control sucking him off is making me feel. He’s been in charge since day one, and now I’m the one with all the
power.

“Your beautiful mouth feels so good on my dick. You see how hard I am, how hard you make me. What are you doing to me, Alexa?” Julian moans and pushes his dick deeper into my mouth. I know he must be about to come, so I suck harder. But despite my best efforts, he doesn’t come. He abruptly stops and pushes me away instead. What the hell? I’m giving the best head I’ve ever given, and he’s stoppi
ng me?

Julian answers my unspoken question. “The first time I come in you, it’s going to be in you. As good as your mouth feels, that’s what I’ve been dreaming about and waiting
for.”

I have no chance to argue as Julian pushes me back further onto the bed, climbs over me, and positions himself between my shaking legs. He has pulled the comforter down, and the exquisitely soft feel of what I’m sure are very expensive sheets caresses my body. He stares down at me like he’s admiring a piece of expensive artwork, and I’m thankful for the approval I see in his eyes. Overall I’m pretty comfortable with my body, but I know Julian probably has had many models with perfect bodies in this exact same position, in this bed. His next words put me totally at ease, even if they aren’t entirely
true.

“You are so beautiful, Alexa. So beautiful. I can’t wait to sink myself into your perfect body.” Yeah, well that makes two of us. I grab at Julian’s shoulders and try to pull him up toward me. I need his lips on mine. He resists and sits back on his heels. Uh-oh. He looks se
rious.

“Are you on the
pill?”

Oh, here comes this conversation. If I could think straight, I would have brought this up first, and I definitely wish we would’ve discussed this sooner. It always seems to be a mood k
iller.

“Yes, I am. But you still need to use a condom.
Please
tell me that you have
one.”

I’m pretty much begging. My thoughts quickly go to the time when Luke didn’t, and I remember the absence of a condom derailed a promising night of sex. That better not happen now. I need this man inside of me, and there isn’t a chance I’m agreeing to not using one. After Brady, I had myself checked, and I know I’m clean. I imagine Julian is the type of man who is careful too. I’m sure he sleeps with a lot of different women, and aside from catching a disease, I would think he worries about some woman trying to trap him with a baby. But I’m not interested in taking any ch
ances.

I expect Julian to tease me about the pleading, desperate tone I’m using, but he remains serious. This isn’t good. “I have condoms, Alexa. I’m not happy about using one, but I will. My dick has been aching to be inside of you for weeks, and I need to feel all of
you.”

How in the world did he make that statement sound romantic? “Once we prove to each other we’re both clean, I promise you’ll feel me, bare, in every part of
you.”

I let his words sink in, and my sex clenches at the promise of additional nights of fucking Julian. I’m so in. I know Julian meant that comment purely sexually, and it did turn me on to think about him being in every part of me, but what Julian fails to realize is that I already have started to feel him in every part of me, emotionally, and I have since the night we met. I’m uncomfortable with that mental admission and decide to keep those thoughts to m
yself.

Julian gets up and walks to a nightstand next to the bed. He takes a few condoms out and places them on the bed next to him as he gets back in between my thighs. He’s kneeling there and looking at me hungrily. I tell him I want him to wait until he’s ready to be inside me before he puts one on because I want to feel his bare dick in my mouth
again.

He groans. “Keep saying shit like that to me, Alexa, and it won’t be long.” I feel so empowered when I see how much I affect him. The feeling is
heady.

Julian kisses his fingers and reaches up and puts them on my mouth. My lips are already slightly parted, and I stick my tongue out and lick them. I can taste myself on him, and it feels so intimate. He moans deeply and runs his fingers slowly from my mouth, down my throat, across my chest, and between my aching breasts. His fingers stop when he reaches my belly. He leans over, softly kisses my belly button, and runs his tongue inside of it. He blows gently on my skin with his warm breath, and a shiver runs all the way down my body. Julian is completely naked, and I feel his rock-hard erection against my leg. My panties are still on, but I feel the heat from his body pressing against my sex and reaching all the way to my core. I’m thoroughly enjoying his slow descent down my body, but I’m overwhelmed by the anticipation of him being inside of me. I really can’t wait an
ymore.

“Please … I want you so badly.” I’m so aroused I don’t care that I’m begging fo
r him.

His voice caresses me. “You have me, Alexa. I’m right here. I’m going to take such good care of you, baby.” Julian says this as he runs his finger back and forth across my stomach just underneath the elastic of my panties. He does that for a few minutes, and pretty soon I’m trembling beneath his hand. I want his hands on my sex. Or his tongue. I
need
him to really tou
ch me.

“Please,” I whisper
again.

Julian reaches his other hand up and pulls my panties off in one swift move. His mouth is on my dripping sex in an instant. I’m so wet. His tongue is moving slowly up and down my cleft, and he pauses to put pressure on my clit with each pass. I’m writhing in ecstasy, and I literally can’t lay still. Every muscle in my body is clenching in delicious anticipation for the orgasm I know isn’t far off. I reach down to grab the back of his head and lift my hips into his mouth. I hear groans, and I realize they’re coming from both of us. Julian is licking me with such intensity that I know this is turning him on as much as it is me. Oral sex is one of my favorite parts of sex, and until this moment I believed my past lovers had been good at this. Yeah, not so much. Right now Julian could be teaching a master class. His tongue is amazing, and I find myself actually holding back from coming because I don’t want it to end. His tongue feels so right on my sex. He knows exactly how hard to lick, how fast to lick, where to lick, and he continues to taste me until I just can’t hold back anymore. Julian pulls my clit between his lips and sucks, then lets go and flicks his tongue rapidly over my bundle of nerves. That’s it. I push his head hard into me as I come apart from the most intense orgasm I’ve ever had. After the shudders run through me, I release my grip on his head and try to squirm away from his mouth, which is still on me. My clit is so sensitive now from my back-to-back orgasms that it almost hurts to be touched. He looks up at me from between my legs and gives me a slow
smile.

I’m sure my massive orgasm proved to Julian how good he’s making me feel, but I still need to tell him. “Oh my God. That was amazing. Sorry about the death grip. I didn’t want you to
stop.”

“Don’t ever worry about me stopping, Alexa. I’ll always take care of you,
baby.”

His use of the word baby for like the fifth time tonight both touches me and throws me off balance. I’m not his baby, and he needs to know that, right? Should I remind him this is only about sex and that he needs to keep the terms of endearment to a bare minimum? I’m not ready to be anybody’s baby or sweetheart or angel. As those thoughts short circuit in my brain, I realize I’m acting a little crazy. This gorgeous man is doing everything he can to satisfy me and is calling me baby during the heat of passion. He doesn’t mean anything by it. I mentally tell myself to get a
grip.

I watch as Julian reaches for one of the condoms he has laid beside him on the bed. He quickly rips the package open with his teeth and skillfully rolls it on over his hard shaft. I watch his every move, admiring his dick with my eyes. He sees me watching him and strokes himself slowly. Seeing him touch himself is a total turn on for me too, and I tell h
im so.

“One day soon I’m going to sit across the room from you and watch you play with your big, beautiful dick until you come.” I hope he’s as turned on by the visual as I was when he said it to me ea
rlier.

Apparently he is. I watch as his eyes get bigger and hear his desire as he lets out a small groan. As I watch him stroke himself from the head of his shaft to his balls, I begin to feel a little apprehensive about him being inside of me. He’s really big, and after all the restraint he’s been showing, I’m no doubt in for a hard ride. He doesn’t take his eyes off of me and once again seems able to read my mind. “Don’t worry, Alexa. You’re so wet that you’ll have no trouble taking all of me inside of
you.”

Before he enters me, he begins to kiss his way back up my body. He gently caresses each of my breasts and drags his tongue across and around each of my nipples. I know if he stays there longer, I’ll be coming again in no time at all. After a few minutes, he resumes his upward journey, and when he reaches my mouth, he slips his tongue just inside my parted lips. He’s wet with my juices, and I’m so incredibly turned on by his desire to share that with me. I grab his head with my hands and deepen the kiss, never taking my eyes off of him. Every move he makes is so carnal and so raw, and he seems so intent on making this experience as satisfying for me as it is for him. I’ve had lovers in the past that were all about taking care of their own needs over mine, so I’m enjoying every second of pleasure Julian is giving me. I find myself wanting to reciprocate in ever
y way.

Julian is so hard, and I’m so wet that he slips easily inside me. I’m completely filled by this beautiful man, and it feels amazing. He pulls away from our kiss, closes his eyes, and lets out a deep moan. He’s been so controlled during every sexual encounter we have shared up until this point, and I sense he’s finally about to really l
et go.

“You feel so good, Alexa.” The words come out in a tortured hiss. “I’m so deep inside of you, baby. Can you fee
l me?”

The answer to that would be a big
yes
. I can feel every inch of Julian’s hard penis as he grinds it into me. He has settled into a steady rhythm that perfectly suits my need to be taken. His balls are heavy, and I feel them slap up against my sex with every thrust. I reach up and run my hands all over his chest, across his nipples, and down his arms. He has a beautiful physique, and his skin is smooth and warm to my touch. I want to wrap my whole body around his and melt int
o him.

Aside from the sounds of our heavy breathing and moans of pleasure, we’re both pretty quiet. Julian has alternated between being very vocal and very quiet all night. He was actually that way the first night in the hallway as well. I’ve been following his lead on this. I don’t understand him yet, but it seems to be a way for him to stay in co
ntrol.

Julian briefly slows down and wraps his arm around the back of my thigh. He gently pushes it up toward me. The shift in position allows him to go even deeper inside of me, if it’s even possible. It seems as if he can’t get deep enough to satisfy whatever craving is consuming him, and I have a gut feeling he’s fighting his own emotional demons. I’m completely wide open for him, and he looks down admiringly at my sex. I look up at him, and he slowly licks his lips in an incredibly erotic gesture. He’s leaning forward, and I feel the weight of his strong body pressing hard into mine. As our bodies, slick with sweat from our passion, fuse together, I’m lost in the sense of how incredibly right this feels. His free hand finds mine, and he threads his fingers through mine and holds it tight. Every time Julian takes hold of my hands, it’s with a possessiveness that suggests he’s afraid I’ll try to get away. He has made me feel so taken care of tonight that I want to give him the reassurance I think he
needs.