Love Survives (12 page)

Kat put her head between her knees. I wasn’t sure if it was to increase her body heat, or hide me from seeing her expressions.

“You look like shit.” I wanted her to smile at me, not turn the other way.

“Thanks. I appreciate that.”

“No, I mean I’ve never seen you look so upset. Is it because of me? I didn’t mean to be so harsh with you. I just couldn’t let things happen between us. You understand, right?”

She shrugged, also avoiding eye contact. “Yeah, I know.”

“Branch will make you happy.” I hated saying that. I didn’t even know why I had. Helping her makeup with my brother was the last thing I wanted.

“You don’t know that.”

“Yeah, I do. It’s his life’s mission to love you more than I do. So I figure that as long as I still love you, he’ll worship the ground you walk on.”

This time I had her attention, and she wasn’t even blinking. “You just admitted that you still loved me.”

I reached for her hand, hoping, pleading, that she wouldn’t pull away. “I will never stop loving you, Kat. For as long as I am breathing I will love you with everything I have in me, not because I hope  someday to have you, but because nothing could ever make me stop, even you marrying my brother.”

“You know, you have everyone fooled. They all think you’re the son that they could never count on. It turns out that you’re the most beautiful soul they’ve ever known.”

We sat there looking at each other for couple seconds, not saying anything.

I expected her to tell to me leave, but it hadn’t happened so far. “Don’t go calling me a saint just yet. I’ve been reconsidering that kiss since I let you walk away earlier.”

Each word that came out of my mouth was like a test. I wanted her to push me away; to tell me that us being alone was all wrong. It was important that I keep my guard up. At any time someone could walk out and find us in this compromising situation. They’d see the truth immediately because it was written on both of our faces.

“Please don’t hate me for saying this. I’m probably already going to Hell anyway. The thing is, I’m not married to your brother, not yet at least. If I had one wish in the world, besides seeing my parents one more time, I know what it would be.”

I smiled, but only because she was insane if she thought it was a good idea. “We can’t, Kat.”

I hated seeing her react like she was disappointed. I understood how mixed feelings and distance had made our time together so intense, but I wasn’t sure if I was willing to let myself fall, not here, not now. “We shouldn’t,” she whispered as she inched toward me.

“It’s wrong on so many levels.” This was impossible to resist. I needed this to happen as much as I needed air to breathe.

“We should probably call it a night then.” Her lips were right there. I could feel her words as they came out of her mouth. This was going to happen, and I wasn’t going to be able to stop things once it did.

I inched closer until I felt her soft skin grazing over mine. “Yeah, we should.” I couldn’t back away, or stop myself. I wasn’t going to restrain, because not only did I need this to happen, but I’d wished for this my whole life.

“It’s just one kiss, Brooks,” she whispered against my mouth.

The insatiable desire I had for her was overwhelming. I’d been with other women, but just a kiss from Kat opened up senses I never knew how to control. She consumed me, so much that I craved more. This wasn’t going to end well, and I was done caring. As our tongues played together, the vicious truth was apparent. I needed to make her mine even if we had to drive away from the hotel and never look back again.

It was impossible to stop once we’d gotten started. I didn’t have an urge to continue; it was a necessity. The fact that she wasn’t pushing me away was enough incentive to press on. This woman, who I’d clearly loved my whole life, was finally letting me in. I realize at this point we were only making out, but something told me it wasn’t going to end there.

I nuzzled my nose on the inside of her neck, savoring the way her soft skin smelled. My tongue drug over it, lapping up the salty flavor while the vibration of her first moans sent me into a frenzy.

I picked her up and made sure she was then on my lap, where I could be more in control. The way I was touching her, the feel of her body against my palms, there was no way  ever to be able to describe it as being anything other than perfect.

Kat’s lip were meant for me to kiss, and as she matched my movements I started thinking about the next step. Our first line of business was to get off the roof. I needed her to be warm, so that I could remove her clothes. I knew just how to heat up her chilled body.

My hands traveled over her ass, and explored other areas of her body, while I took my time, respecting that she could stop this at any moment. She ran her hands up my shirt, kissing me again. “We should stop.”

With ease my shirt was removed. I didn’t even mind the brutal temperature. “Five more minutes.” Our tongues raced to a combined tempo again.

I shoved her dress up over each hip, tracing her panties with my fingertips. When I slide them over to the side I felt the smoothest pussy beckoning me to keep exploring. This was all too much. I wanted her naked, immediately.

I got so caught up that I had to peer down and watch what I was doing because every other time I’d touched her had been in the dark. This was a pivotal moment for me, like a teenager learning the female anatomy for the first time.

I practiced a pattern on her tantalizing clit while gradually working my finger inside of her. She was so warm and welcoming, giving off a vibe that this was just the beginning. I was hot for her, steaming with the thrill of what we were doing. I didn’t care who found us, or what was going to happen next. We were living in the moment, taking everything else in our lives for granted.

Kat reached down and started unfastening the buttons to my pants.  “We need to stop,” I announced abruptly.

She leaned in for a chaste kiss. “Don’t you want me?”

If she only knew how much. “I’ve got two fingers inside of you while on the roof of a building. My dick is going to rip out of my pants, and you’re asking me if I want you.” Our next kiss was ravenous, giving her more proof of what was going to happen if we didn’t stop. “You’re all I’ve ever wanted.” In that moment the button to my trousers popped open. I felt her chilled fingers sliding down under my boxers. In that moment her hand took ahold of my cock and immediately got to stroking it. I sucked in a deep breath, trying so hard not to lose control.

Before I knew what was happening, I grabbed her arm. “How far are we going to take this, Kat?”

Kat let go of me, only to remove her panties and fling them away. “That was the only thing standing between you being inside of me. You can sit there and think of a million reasons why we shouldn’t be together, or you can take me in that stairwell and fuck me like we both know you want to.”

A jolt awakened my cock. I’d never been so turned on, not by any other woman in my life. She was my kryptonite, and I was desperate. I wanted to shout out to the world that I loved her more than life itself. Perhaps she already knew it, but I’d held it in for so long that it felt trivial to not say constantly.

Kat had told me what she wanted me to do, but I wasn’t about to waste it in a dirty stairwell. I stood up, quickly putting my shirt back on. “I’m not fucking you in that hallway.”

I took her hand and started leading her back inside. “You’re coming back to my room and I’m making love to you, and this time, you’re going to know it’s me you’re in bed with.”

I peeked out of the door to make sure nobody was around before we made a mad dash to my room. Once inside, we both leaned against the door and started laughing. This was so bad, but I almost like the naughty side of her; a part I knew she’d probably never revealed to anyone else before.

This was it. Nothing could stop us, because I wasn’t opening the door until she knew, without a doubt, that we were supposed to be together all along. Our clothes began to come off quickly with one intention on our minds. When her nipple became exposed I lowered my mouth and lapped it up, then sucked on it hard. I shoved her against the door. Our lips were almost touching. I kissed her softly and then pulled away just enough to speak. “Are you sure?”

She nodded. “Are you?”

“Baby, I’ve never been more sure about anything.”

While carrying her to my bed my thoughts were of how I was going to be able to keep her, because now that I had her, I knew I’d never let go.

Chapter 14

Our hunger to
be together was constricting our ability to understand what we were doing and how all of this would change our lives. I knew there would be no going back, but I was too scared that I’d lose her again if I brought it up. This was something I had to be selfish about. She’d never be able to understand that being alone with her on that roof had altered my decision to keep the peace. I was done sitting back and letting her get away from me. After my brother’s actions, it was obvious that she’d made a huge mistake. Branch would never be able to give her the life that I knew I could. I’d love her through good, bad, and even the ugly. I’d make sure she was never taken for granted, and if we had to flee the country to keep me from being court marshaled, I’d do it. All she had to do was say she wanted to be with me forever, and I’d drop everything in my life to make it happen.

Clearly we had a ton to discuss, but for right now, we needed to take it one moment at a time.

While she lay naked next to me, I traced over her exposed skin around her mouth, and then down the rest of her body. I moved slow, making sure to watch every inch that I was exploring. This was all new for me. Before, I never had time to spare on little details. I wasn’t letting any of her out of my sight until I’d seen every single square inch. This wasn’t just a spontaneous decision between two people. I’d had years to imagine what it would be like if we could be together.

While tears fell down her cheeks I wasn’t afraid she was changing her mind. It was obvious that us finally being together was making her over-emotional. I, myself, had the same feelings. I’d just been trained to hold them in better.

Our kisses were slow, managed and full of intent. Each time her tongue brushed over mine it reminded me that the best was yet to come.

I couldn’t be so close to her and not want more. Without breaking our embrace, I let my hand slide down between her legs. As soon as my palm slid over her pussy I was losing control. While keeping my eyes closed, my lips traveled down her neck, then further to her breasts. I teased her nipples with my breath and chin, noticing how excited she seemed to get from it. Right away I could feel how turned on she was, making it even harder to take my time.

When I’d gotten low enough to kiss her thigh, I was fully aware what was in store next. I then traced my tongue around her hip, becoming more aroused when her body reacted to being touched there. While her prize beckoned me to proceed, I took in the moment, realizing that I had to take my time, making sure it was everything we’d both ever dreamed it to be.

It was very obvious that Kat was enjoying this. As I looked up I saw her eyes gazing down at me. Even without words I could tell she wasn’t going to get up and leave me alone in the room. This was her finally giving in to what was always there between us. She had to know that I’d tortured myself for so long because I wanted something I thought I’d never have. In this moment, I’d become inundated with sentiment. I wanted her more than any man had ever desired. She was my heaven, my light at the end of a dark, gloomy tunnel.

My finger skimmed over her pussy while my mouth watered. There was no need to haste. I craved a taste, yearned to have it stuck in my memory, reminding me of where I’d finally been.

The second my lips grazed over her smooth skin, I watched Kat’s head fall back on a pillow. A tiny moan escaped her when I used my chin hair to tickle her clit. She was already wet, letting me know that foreplay wasn’t needed to heighten the mood. This act was my pleasure
and as much as it was
hers. This was something I refused to skip. She needed to have all of me, and I was prepared to give it to her.

The taste of her musky arousal filled my inner senses, causing a chain reaction straight to my engorged erection. Being with her like this, bringing her such a personal jubilation, left me wide-open to experience every bit of ecstasy that I was providing her with. We shared in the elation as I licked her to no end, savoring her flavor, while striving for the highest of praise. I didn’t only want to be the best so far, it was important to be the best she’d ever have. I needed to make sure she’d never desire another man again. Kat lost control, not just once, but several times due to the skills of my maneuvering tongue. By the time I brought my lips up to kiss her, we were both famished, ready to seal the deal once and for all, finally together. This wasn’t going to be one-sided. She knew it was me bringing her pleasure, and with that came a sense of security, because she was fully aware that I had no plans to stop.