Yours Book 1: Losing My Innocence (18 page)

“Relax Sephora, this will feel so much better when you relax,” Nick coaxes.

I take a deep breath and try to center myself. It doesn’t help so I try again. I am frustrated with myself. I know Nick won’t hurt me, but having something pressed there… I am just having a hard time processing it and trying to relax into it.

Nick decides to help me along. He rises to his feet and in one sharp thrust of his hips, he plunges deep inside me. My legs buckle, but his arm wraps around my waist, holding me as he works in and out of me. I start to cry out intangible words as tears of pleasure sprung to my eyes.

“So good …always so good,” Nick grunts.

My body finally loses all its tension and Nick pushes the tip of the toys in. My body starts to tremble as I sob out his name. I am already so full of him. Nick continues to pound into me and I am so close. I just need…I want …I need. “Ahhhh,” I cry out as he pushes the toy all the way in. It is what I need to cross over.

Nick pulls out dropping to his knees again. He is drinking from me like it is the last drink he will ever have. My entire body is buzzing and I feel drunk as I sag against the chaise. He begins to tug and push at the toy still seated inside me. It feels weird, but as my release draws out, it begins to yield a welcoming response.

As spent as I feel I want more. I feel greedy and crazed with want. Just as I think my last orgasm has subsided I feel a pinch to my clit that rocks my body completely. Every nerve ending comes alive. I scream so loud I am sure I will have no voice when we are done.

Nick chuckles. “I forgot to show you the clamp on the other end. Do you need a break, Baby?” he asks kneading the flesh of my backside.

Do I need a break? Oh yes, I need a break. Do I want one, absolutely not. I have a feeling he isn’t going to give me one either. I am proven right as he hooks his fingers inside my moist, sensitive opening hitting that perfect spot that makes me see stars every time.

“T-too m-much,” I stutter as I try to catch my breath.

“I don’t think it’s enough,” Nick growls and stands to plunge back inside me. He’s so deep, not like ever before and it feels so amazing. One hand cups my breast and the other he uses to gently tug the chain on the toy causing it to shift inside me and tug at my clit at the same time. My whole body starts to shake and my eyes roll back.

A part of me feels like this could be a punishment. It is pure torture and ecstasy wrapped in one. Just when I don’t think it can get any more intense Nick wraps his hand around the silk fabric in the center of my back. With a tug my back arches and I feel the light squeeze at my neck.

Nick’s heavy breathing washes over the side of my face and I turn to him. He consumes my mouth with his as I cry out into his open mouth and seeking his tongue. My body starts to tighten with the tightening of his hold on the fabric connected around my neck.

“Not yet,” Nick growls. “We cum together this time, my butterfly.”

“I can’t hold it,” I whimper.

“Yes. You. Can,” he punctuates with long, deep thrusts.

“Sir, please, I’m ready,” I plead.

“Oh…” Nick groans as his thrusts became jerky, but still powerful. He tugs on the chain connected to the toy and my clit once more. “Now,” he roars and bellowing my name as he finds his own release.

Nick releases his hold on the fabric binding me and sink to his knees take me with him. He manages just enough strength to pull me into his lap and falls back against the floor. We both take time to catch our breath.

“You’re perfect,” Nick murmurs and kisses the top of my head. “Now you know how good it can be in my world.” I just snuggle into his chest exhausted. My lids droop as I start to lose consciousness. “And just think, we are just getting started.” Are the last words that register as I hear the smile in his voice and drift off into a world of peaceful bliss.

“
W
ake up sleepy head
.”

My eyes flutter open as Nick peppers kisses all over my face. I look up into his green eyes and smile. I am so in love with this man. I almost sing out how much I love him and how deep my feelings are for him, but he grasps as a hand full of my butt cutting off my words.

“I wanted to give this sexy rump a good spanking. I can’t wait to see it glow beneath my palm or a nice crop.” Nick gives me a sexy smile and sighs, shaking his head and releasing me. “Your brother will be here soon. Let’s get you in a shower and then we can be ready to greet our guests.”

He stands from the bed completely naked, totally distracting me with the gorgeous view of his perfect body. He struts to the bathroom and it is then that I notice that he must have carried me back to the master bedroom after I passed out. I sit up and stretch and wince when I feel the plunge and clamp still in place.

I get up from the bed and awkwardly make my way into the bathroom. I step into the shower and into Nick’s waiting arms. I don’t think I will ever get tired of this part of our day. Being intimate like this, with him staring into my eyes like I truly mean the world to him. I feel like my heart is going to burst with the love I have for him.

“What are you smiling about?” Nick teases.

“I don’t know. I guess I can’t stop thinking about how amazing my boyfriend is,” I purr, my hand gliding up his slick chest as the water rains down on us.

“Is that right, beautiful?” Nick cocks his brow.

He reaches for the shower gel and pours some in his palm. He slowly lathers my body from top to bottom. Taking his time with my breasts, pinching, and tweaking my nipples as he nibbles on my neck. He takes special care washing between my legs attentive not to touch the clamp still attached to my clit.

He turns me to give the same attention to my back. When he is done, he walks me under the spray. As the water washes away all the soap it also washes away all the reservations I had about what Nick expects of me.

He has always made sure I’m safe and happy. I realize right here in the shower, in the safety of his arms, that I can do this. I can give myself to this amazing man and handle his taste for kink.

As if he senses my full submission, Nick places my hands on the shower wall and takes me from behind once again. I guess we are not in that much of a rush to greet Luke after all. Nick makes love to me, taking me right to the edge of bliss. When he knows I am ready, he first pulls the plug from inside me, then removes the clamp, sending me right over the edge into oblivion.

I shatter into a million pieces and want nothing more than to go right back to sleep. Unfortunately, Nick has other plans in mind. He turns the water off and leads me out of the shower to towel me off. He dries himself and tucks a towel around his waist. He then carries me into the bedroom where he slips a pair of lacey magenta panties on me followed by a matching bra.

When he places the tiny black short shorts in front of me to step into I lift a brow at him. They are definitely not from any of the clothes that I have bought along here with me since I have been staying over. Nick gives me a cocky smile as he tilts his head to the side. He places a hand on my calf and slides it along my skin, up to my thigh and back down again.

“You have amazing legs. I want to be able to see them. You will look great in these,” he says simply and taps my leg for me to lift.

I step into the shorts and wiggle a little as he slips them up my legs. He peaks my lips before turning for the magenta silk sleeveless blouse. He is sexy as he bites his bottom lip while fastening the buttons on my shirt.

He is completely focused on his task of dressing me and I feel cherished. I am also turned on as he is standing before me with nothing but a towel around his waist. I can’t believe I can still want him so much after today.

Suddenly, Nick stops in his tracks and suck in a sharp breath. His eyes narrow and hone in on my neck as he presses his lips into a tight line. His fingers reach for my neck for a gentle caress that raises goose bumps across my flesh.

“I was too rough with you. You bruise easier than I thought you would,” he blows out a breath and twists his lips, looking disappointed with himself.

I reach up on my toes and wrap my arms around his neck. “You weren’t too rough. I enjoyed every minute of it.”

“Mmm, did you?” his frown is once again replaced by that sexy smile of his.

“Yes, I did, Sir,” I reply with an innocence grin.

He pulls me flush against him and nuzzles my neck. Pulling away slowly he locks eyes with me. He reaches to pull my hair down and over the offending bruise. “I must be a bit more careful with you. You’re too perfect for me to damage.”

I peck him on the lips to alleviate his worries. Nick just stands for a moment as if in deep thought. I watch as a myriad of emotions cross his face so quickly I can’t place not a one. He quickly shut down the play of emotions and steps away returning to his task.

“Step in,” he commands as he places black and magenta peep toe platform heels in front of me.

I have to bite back a giggle because someone has been very busy thinking about my wardrobe. This is not something my sister would have put together for me, but I like it. The shorts are a little short, but they do show off my legs and the heels make my legs and butt look great.

“I don’t think I will ever get enough of you,” he murmurs into my hair as he holds me in his arms. His arousal is so evident beneath his tented towel.

“That’s good to hear because I don’t want you to,” I reply breathlessly.

“Good,” he says against my lips pulling away too soon and swatting my behind as he moves to his closet to get dressed.

I stand in a daze staring after him. How many years have I dreamed of this? Each day I wake up wanting to pitch myself as I open my eyes to his and get lost in those beautiful greens. This is all a dream come true and I don’t know what I did to deserve it.

“Sephora, did you hear me?” Nick asks as he steps out of the closet dressed in dark jeans and a fitted white t-shirt that stretches deliciously across his chest.

“No, I’m sorry,” I reply as I snap out of my thoughts.

His lips curl into a crooked smile. He saunters over to me and lifts my chin with his fingertips. His eyes search my face and his smile grows wider. “I have business in New York this weekend. Would you like to join me? I will miss you terribly if you say no.”

“Yes,” I breathe at the sexy pout he is giving me.

His cell buzzes and breaks the trance he now has me in with those green eyes. He releases my face and goes to pick his phone up from the night stand. He smiles at the text he is reading.

“Your brother is right on time as usual. He has brought some take out with him. Come on, let’s let them in,” he says.

I furrow my brows at his words. I know Luke was coming, but who else is with him. Nick holds out his hand and I take it as he leads me downstairs to the common room. Luke is sitting on the sofa already and to my surprise Kimmie is there with him. They are sitting looking cozy as if it is the most normal thing in the world.

“Hey stranger,” Kimmie chirps with a sly grin on her face as she watches Nick and I walk into the room and take a seat.

“I saw you in the office this morning,” I frown.

“Yeah, but I haven’t seen you in the apartment in forever, other than to run in for clothes and run back out.”

I watch as Luke frowns upon hearing this, but he adds nothing to the conversation. He just shares out plates of Thai take out. Nick walks over to the sofa and sits on the rug in front of it. He pulls me down into his lap and I slip down in between his legs and nestling in against his chest.

“And that would be my fault. I’m not ready to let her out of my sight for too long at a time,” Nick laughs and nuzzles my neck.

“I promise we can do something next weekend.” I offer to please Kimmie.

Nick grunts behind me like that is not likely to happen, but I need to spend time with my friends sometime. I haven’t talked to Mark in days. In the office, he gives me one word answers and dismisses me as if I don’t exist. It has been tense between us since the morning after he overheard me and Nick making love.

“Don’t worry about it. I’m just teasing, I haven’t really been home much myself,” Kimmie gushes and looked over at Luke dreamily.

“Is that right,” I ask sarcastically as I watch my brother’s cheeks flush just a little as he does his best not to look at me.

“Here, I got your favorite,” Luke mutters, quickly shoving a plate into my hands.

Usually the curry shrimp and coconut rice from my favorite Thai fusion restaurant would have been a distraction, but not tonight. I want to know what is going on with these two. Is Kimmie the reason Luke and Nina broke up? What exactly is going on with these two?

“So where have you been Kimmie? I know you probably don’t want to be in the apartment alone, so where have you been spending your time,” I asked trying to sound as coy as possible.

“I haven’t asked you about where you have been,” Luke says through tight lips.

“Yet,” I feel the word rumble through Nick’s chest. “Although we all know that is why you are here.”

Luke just grinds his teeth without saying a word in response. He goes back to piling food on plates and pass one to everyone before digging in himself. I have to stifle a laugh as I watch Luke stuff food in his mouth and chew bitterly. I let it slide that I have yet to get an answer to my question.

“Hey,” I protest as Nick spears a shrimp from my plate. I turn to look at him and he winks at me popping the shrimp in his mouth. Nick pucks a piece of chicken from his plate and lifts it to my lips. I open my mouth and wrap my lips around the chicken. The flavor bursts in my mouth. “Mmmm,” I hum.

“Hey you two,” Kimmie teases.

“Sorry,” I say as I cover my mouth and chew.

Luke’s fork clatters to his plate. All eyes in the room fall on him. I can see his jaw ticking and I know he is at his boiling point. Nick reaches pass me to place his plate down.

“It’s not like we haven’t talked about this,” Nick heaves. “You’ve known my intentions to be with Sephora for some time now.”

“But does Sophi, does she understand what she is getting into? Have you talked to her?” Luke charges.

I place my plate next to Nick’s having lost my appetite. “Stop talking about me like I am not in the room,” I grunt pushing my fingers through my hair and clenching my roots. Luke’s eyes lock on to the locket around my neck and snorts. Then his eyes narrow and his whole body stiffens.

“Are you fucking kidding me,” Luke growls and jumps to his feet. I can tell he must be seeing the same bruises that Nick had seen when he dressed me earlier. “This…this is why I don’t want you with my sister. She doesn’t need you taking your twisted shit out on her,” Luke seethes and runs his hands through his hair. “Fuck man. You can have anyone. Why the hell does it have to be Soph that you have such a fucking hard on for?”

Nick jumps to his feet so fast he pulls me with him. I jump between him and Luke. I can see Nick’s every muscle coil to strike. Before Nick can speak my fury boils over.

“Oh my God, Luke,” I scream. “When….when Luke…when will you see that I am not a little girl that you have to take care of. It is my choice to be in this relationship.”

“A relationship that you don’t understand,” Luke roars.

“Lucian don’t,” Nick growls.

“Don’t what? Tell my sister that she is in over her head. Damnit Nick, does she know anything about you? I mean really know you? Souls like ours have no right anywhere near pureness like Sephora’s,” Luke’s face is turning red with his anger.

“That’s not fair and you know it,” Nick bellows back.

“Oh really. I know you, Nick. I know how far you have let your darkness and your secrets take you. That’s not fucking happening with my sister.”

“It’s. Not. The. Same,” Nick spits out, his chest heaving.

“This is not your place, Luke. You have no right to tell me who to fall in love with,” I sob.

Luke’s head snaps back at my words and a sour look comes across his face. Nick wraps his arms around me from behind and I turn to bury my face in his chest. Nick smooths a hand over my hair and kisses the top of my head.

“Maybe we should take a step back for a minute,” I hear Kimmie say softly.

“No! Lilla du, if you think you are falling in love, then this is even more important to me,” Luke’s voices softens.

“You’re not even listening to me Luke,” I shake my head, but don’t move from Nick’s embrace.

“No,” Luke’s voice is harsh again. “You are not listening to me. Do you know what I would have done to Kimmie if she pulled that stunt you pulled with mother? I would have spanked her ass until she couldn’t sit. Nick is no different, if you weren’t my sister, I’m sure he would have done the same thing by now.

“Do you know what it means to be truly submissive, Sephora? Do you? Do you know what kind of sick and fucked up shit Nick has done? Do you know the kinky shit he is really into? I don’t think you do because a good girl like you would run like hell from men like Nick and Me.

“Do you even know what that fucking necklace he put around your neck means?” I pull away from Nick and look up at him confused. “Ah, now I have your attention.”

“I swear, Luke,” Nick says, but I see in his face that he is trying his hardest to restrain himself. “You have no idea how I feel about Sephora. If I were in your shoes, I know I would behave the same way.

“But I am going to tell you for the millionth time. She is different and I am a different man for her. Don’t do this. I promised her that I would take my time with her. Don’t force me to push her or our relationship. Give me the time you promised. As a friend…”

“As a friend? As a friend, Nick. My little sister has bruises on her neck. As a friend, you would have listened to me when I asked you not to pursue her,” Luke says brokenly.

“I’d never hurt her,” Nick bellows.

“You’re my friend, I have told you what she has been through. How she sees herself because of our crazy ass mother. Everything she has lost because of our fucked up parents. I won’t sit idly by and watch her loose her innocence,” Luke demands.