inducing ass-kissing and flattery.
Lower down, one merciful soul had
written,
She’s pretty
, and Quinn had
written beneath that,
She’s a lot more
than that.
I tossed the phone aside and flopped
back onto my pillow.
But I was smiling.
SEVENTEEN
QUINN
I DIDN’T CALL Jaime the next day—
actually, I realized I didn’t even have her
number—and didn’t knock on her door,
either. She’d said she needed time to
think about things, and I wanted her to
have it.
On Saturday, after spending the
morning at the gym, I used the afternoon
to sift through a few more boxes in my
mother’s attic, forcing myself to fill a
few garbage bags. I didn’t find any
photographs, but I did find her old
recipe box, which I took with me. On my
way home, I hit the grocery store and
bought what I’d need to make a couple
of her traditional Polish dishes.
After unloading the groceries, I
stood still for a moment in the kitchen,
listening for Jaime upstairs. I heard
nothing and figured maybe she was out.
Or else she’s hiding because you
scared her.
I frowned, admitting to myself that
could be the case. I hadn’t gone easy on
her last night. She’d said it wasn’t too
much, and she didn’t strike me as the
kind of woman who held her tongue
when she had something to say, but I was
a little uneasy about it anyway.
My phone vibrated in my pocket, and
the screen showed a text from Alex.
Meet for a drink?
Sure
, I replied.
We’re near Eastern Market
looking at some property. Detroit City
Distillery in 45?
Sounds good.
I changed my shirt and shoes,
checked my hair, and headed out. In the
front hall I paused, nearly going up to
knock on Jaime’s door. If she was home,
maybe she’d like to join us. It would be
fun to hang out together again.
But I decided against it.
The next move felt like hers.
ALEX GREETED ME WITH A HUG,
Nolan with a handshake, and I forced
them to take a quick selfie with me,
which I posted with the caption
Good
friends, good whiskey
#DetroitCityDistillery. Actually Nolan
was all for the pic, but Alex tried
desperately to get out of posing, which
reminded me of Jaime. They even
looked alike—same fair skin, green
eyes, and dark hair, although Alex was
tall and thin with more angular features,
whereas Jaime was petite and curvy.
Nolan, also tall and dark, wore
tortoiseshell glasses and had a very
short, neatly trimmed beard. I’d met him
only once before, but I remembered him
as outgoing, smart, and completely
devoted to Alex. I thought he was a
therapist of some kind, but I couldn’t
remember for sure.
“So how’s it going at the house?”
Alex asked once I’d ordered a drink.
“Jaime treating you OK?”
“She’s been great.”
“Good.” Alex looked relieved. “I
was worried she was going to give you
the ice princess routine.”
“Oh, she tried,” I said, laughing, “but
she warmed up eventually.”
And then
she boiled right over.
“We actually had
dinner together last night.”
Alex’s jaw dropped. “No way.
Really?”
“Yeah. With some friends of hers.”
“Wow.” He picked up his drink.
“After what she said to me the day you
moved in, I thought she’d avoid you like
the plague.”
This should be good.
“What’d she
say?”
“Something along the lines of
keeping her distance.”
I shrugged. “What can I say, she
can’t resist me. Never could.”
“So what’s the history there?” Nolan
asked, one eyebrow arched.
Alex and I exchanged a look. “Jaime
had a crush on Quinn,” he said. “Let’s
leave it at that.”
“And does she still?” Nolan picked
up his glass.
“She might,” I hedged. Joking around
was one thing, but I didn’t want to sell
her out. “We had a lot of fun last night.
I’d like to take her out again—if that’s
cool with you, Alex.” The server arrived
with my drink, and I thanked him.
“I’m not the one you have to worry
about.” Alex sat back. “I’m totally cool
with it, but Jaime hates dating.”
I nodded. “She mentioned that.
Several times.”
“She’s just stubborn,” Nolan said,
adjusting his glasses. “I know she loves
her independence, but I think she needs
someone who can call her on her
bullshit.”
“Oh?” I sipped my Old Fashioned.
“Totally.”
“Nolan thinks he has Jaime all
figured out,” Alex said dryly.
“I do,” he insisted. “I’ve got a bunch
of friends and patients just like her—
scared to get hurt, so they refuse to get
close to anyone.”
“I’m not sure that’s it with her,” I
confided. “She said she’s never really
had a broken heart.”
“Exactly. So why fix what isn’t
broken?” Nolan pressed. “She’s gone all
this time without being hurt, while
probably watching women around her be
disappointed by men they care about.
Why should she bother?”
“Maybe,” I said, glancing at Alex.
“She did mention that your parents’
marriage isn’t her ideal.”
Alex snorted, which totally reminded
me of Jaime. “It’s not anyone’s ideal.
But hey, it works for them, I suppose.
They’ve been together thirty years.”
“Has she ever mentioned wanting a
family?” I asked, stirring the ice cubes
around in my drink.
“Not that I can think of,” Alex said.
“But when Nolan and I have talked about
adopting, she’s supportive. I don’t think
she feels a family isn’t a worthy goal;
it’s just romantic relationships she
struggles with. I do agree with Nolan on
one thing, though—I think fear plays a
bigger role than she’d ever admit, but I
also think she just enjoys being
unreachable sometimes. She’s my sister
and I love her, but I think she gets off on
being so cold.”
“That’s her armor,” said Nolan. “She
gets off on
wearing
it, being able to keep everyone out.”
“You guys are going to adopt? I
didn’t know that. I think that’s
awesome.” I changed the subject, not
because I didn’t like talking about Jaime,
but I was starting to feel a little disloyal
to her.
Only later when I was driving home
did I realize that it was the first time I
felt I owed Jaime my loyalty, rather than
Alex.
ON SUNDAY EVENING, I pulled my
mom’s recipe for pierogi with meat
filling from the box. “Sorry about the
store-bought dough, Ma,” I said,
glancing at the ceiling. “I’ll make yours
next time.” To make it up to her, I played
the Beatles on Spotify. Always her
favorite.
Singing along, I peeled and sliced
the vegetables, throwing them in with the
meat to cook in the stock. Next, I peeled
and cut up the onion, then fried it in
butter until it was lightly browned. I
never fried things in butter, and the smell
reminded me so much of my mother, I
felt myself choking up. Between the
music and the aroma in my kitchen, it
almost felt like she was there.
I took my time with the recipe,
enjoying the feeling of closeness to my
mother it brought me but lamenting again
the fact that I hadn’t thought to ask her
more about her childhood. A song came
on that she used to sing to me called “I
Will,” and I felt my chest get so tight I
had to stop and take a few deep breaths.
I was composing myself over the
bowl of meat filling when I heard a
knock on the living room door. Wiping
my hands on a towel, I turned down the
music and went to answer it.
My pulse kicked up when I saw
Jaime standing in the hall, dressed in
jeans and a pink sweater, her hair in soft
waves around her face. “Hi,” I said,
surprised but happy to see her. “Is the
music too loud?”
“No, not at all. I like it.” She grinned
sheepishly. “And I smelled something
delicious.”
I laughed. “I hope it will be
delicious. I found my mom’s recipe box
yesterday in the attic and decided to try
her pierogies, but it’s more complicated
than I thought.”
“Can I help?” She rose up on tiptoe,
so cute and eager, I nearly kissed her on
the nose.
“Sure. Come on in.”
She followed me into the kitchen.
“What can I do?”
“Let’s see.” Looking over the
directions, I shook my head. “There’s
like eighteen steps in this recipe, even
though the ingredients are simple. My
mother made it look so easy.”
“Well, put me to work,” she said,
pushing up her sleeves and washing her
hands at the sink. “Can’t promise my
kitchen skills are anything close to your
mom’s, but if you have any easy jobs,
I’m up for them.”
“How about chopping the parsley?”
She nodded. “That I can do.”
We finished the recipe together,
laughing at our first batch of strangely
shaped pierogies and cheering for our
second batch, which more closely
resembled my mother’s. We boiled and
then pan-fried them, just like she used to,
and sprinkled them with cracked pepper.
After a high-five for our efforts, we
threw together a salad and quickly set
the table.
“Let me grab some wine upstairs,”
she said once everything was ready. “Be
right back.”
A couple minutes later she came
down with a large brown paper bag in
her hand. Setting it on the kitchen
counter, she unpacked a bottle of white
wine, a silver bucket, and three glass
jars with candles in them that I
recognized from her coffee table
upstairs. “I thought these would be nice
on the table,” she said, grouping them
together like a centerpiece. “I think
there’s a lighter in the top drawer there.
Can you grab it?”
“Sure.” I found the lighter and lit the
candles while she poured two glasses of
wine, dumped ice in the bucket, stuck the
wine bottle inside it, and set it on the
table.
She placed a glass of wine by my
plate and hers, then turned off the kitchen
and dining room lights before sitting.
I returned the lighter to the drawer
and sat down across from her.
“Candlelight? A wine bucket? Who
are
you?” I teased. “This is way too
romantic for the Jaime Owens I know.”
She smiled and shrugged. “I like
candlelight, what can I say? And I’m
serious about my wine. I can’t help it if
it’s romantic.”
We filled our plates and dug in,
praising our pierogies, even if somehow
they didn’t look or taste quite like my
mom’s.
I wondered about Jaime being here,
if that meant she’d given any thought to
my request for another date or my stating
that I wanted more than just no-strings
sex with her. After talking to Alex and
Nolan last night, I wanted more than
ever to gain her trust, assure her that I
had no intention of hurting or
disappointing her. But I didn’t want to
pressure her.
We ate mostly without talking, the
music filling the space between us.
“You’re quiet tonight,” she remarked
when we’d finished.
“Am I?”
“Yeah. Thinking about your mom?”
I nodded slowly. “The Beatles were
her favorite, and she used to sing me
some of these songs. I heard one earlier
she used to sing at bedtime, and it really
took me back.”
“‘Rocky Raccoon?’”
“No, but that’s a great tune.”
“I’ve heard you singing it in the
shower,” she confessed with a guilty
smile.
“Such a creeper. Were you peeking
in the bathroom window too?”
“No,” she said, as if I’d greatly
offended her. “I’m not that bad. Sheesh.
So what was the song she used to sing to
you at bedtime?”
“‘I Will.’ Do you know it?”
“No.” She smiled. “Did it make you
sleepy?”
“No, it brought back a nice memory,
which made me happy, but I also felt a
little sad. Not only for me because I miss
her, but also because she won’t be
around to be a grandmother to my
children, if I have any. Sing them to
sleep that way. She’d have loved being a
grandmother.”
“You mean to our half dozen kids?”
Her foot tapped mine under the table.
I laughed a little. “I forgot about
those.”
“Hopefully, we didn’t get a jump on
the first one Friday night.”
My stomach hollowed. “What? I
thought you said it was—”