My friends watched him go.
(Actually, I’d bet every woman in the
place watched him go. I hadn’t missed
the stares when we’d come in.) Someone
at the table sighed.
“I agree with Elyse,” Margot said.
“He might be playing around tonight, but
it’s clear he likes you a lot. He wouldn’t
bother, otherwise.”
“Totally,” said Claire.
“Fine, we like each other.” I laid my
coat across my lap. “And we’re
attracted to each other. And we have fun
together. But that doesn’t mean we
should date.”
“Hello! That’s exactly why you date
someone!” Elyse blurted. “If I met a man
who looked like that with a dick like that
who wanted me the way he wants you,
I’d be fucking over the moon!”
“Shhh,” admonished Claire.
“He does have a nice dick,” I
admitted. “And he knows how to use it.”
Elyse groaned. “I’m so jealous right
now.”
“What about his tongue?” Claire
giggled into her Cosmo.
“Haven’t gotten there yet,” I said.
“Maybe later. I promised him a blowjob
for shoveling the driveway today.”
“You guys sound just like my sister
and her husband,” said Elyse, while
Claire and Margot nearly choked on
their drinks. “I bet you get married.”
“Oh, for fuck’s sake. I don’t want to
marry him. I’m not sure I want to marry
anybody.” I stood up. “I’ll be right
back.”
I walked past the bar to the racks and
hung up my coat, and on my way back to
the table, I saw Quinn talking to our
server across the room.
What’s he
doing? Ordering more drinks?
I went back and sat down, and he
appeared at my side a moment later. He
took his seat, putting that infernal arm
around me again. “Sorry about that. Did
you get what you needed from your
coat?”
My cheeks burned. “Um, actually it
wasn’t in there.”
“Oh really? What was it?”
“Um, a…lipstick.”
“Of course.” The look on his face
told me he wasn’t fooled, but I was
saved by the appearance of our server
with a tray of appetizers.
Thank God—
surely he can’t eat and smother me at
the same time.
“By the way, I thought you quit
modeling,” I said. “How come your
agent is calling?”
“I did quit, sort of, but there were a
few contracts I couldn’t break. I have to
go to New York next week for a few
days.”
“Oh.”
And the weirdest thing happened. I
realized that I was kind of sorry he was
leaving for a few days…that I didn’t
really want him to go away…that I’d
miss
him.
No, it couldn’t be that.
I’d miss the sex, that was all. Not the
man. Things were just heating up
between us, and his taking off now was
like leaving a restaurant before the main
course was served. I wouldn’t miss him.
I couldn’t. My heart beat erratically, and
the back of my neck felt prickly and hot.
He took his arm off me to eat.
And I didn’t miss it. Not one little
bit.
Whew.
My head was still in the right place.
It remained there until after coffee
and dessert when we asked for the bill.
“The meal’s been taken care of,” said
our server. “Including gratuity. Thank
you so much.”
“What?” said Margot, who was
pulling out her wallet.
We exchanged a look; she and I had
been planning to split the bill.
I glanced at Quinn, who calmly
sipped his coffee. His profile
emphasized the sharp cut of his jaw, the
smooth bridge of his nose, the stunning
length of his lashes. My insides
clenched. Was he really coming home
with me tonight?
He caught me staring and winked,
sending a little flutter through my belly.
“Quinn, did you do this?” Claire
asked. “It’s too much.”
“Not at all. Happy birthday,” he
said. “It was my pleasure to be here, so
thank
you
. This is the most fun I’ve had
in a long time.”
“I’m so glad Jaime invited you,” she
said warmly.
Quinn smiled boyishly at her.
Finally, he’d dropped the act. “Actually,
I think I invited myself. But Jaime had
mercy on me.” Those eyes looked my
way. “She’s got a big heart.”
And things in my head started to
shift.
I DIDN’T SAY much on the way home,
partly because I couldn’t stop thinking
about New York. Would there be female
models there? Would he get hit on?
Would he be propositioned at the hotel
bar? Would he feel free to say yes?
Of course he would. Why wouldn’t
he? You have no claim on him, nor do
you want one.
I didn’t. I didn’t want one. But
truthfully, I felt a little ill thinking about
him with someone else. And I couldn’t
wait to get him into my bed tonight—the
unexpected jealousy had me even more
anxious.
The other thing that had me reeling
was the compliment he’d given me.
She’s got a big heart.
It wasn’t usually something people
said of me. At work I was called things
like sharp, creative, ambitious, good
with a deadline. My family thought I was
responsible and hardworking, which
they appreciated, being career-focused
themselves. My friends sometimes told
me I was funny and loyal and
trustworthy, and I’d heard from men I
was sexy and fun. But I didn’t think
anyone had ever told me I had a big
heart.
I never showed it to anyone.
“Tired, love bug?”
The term of endearment made me
cringe. “Good grief. Please tell me the
love bug show is over.”
“OK, fine.” He was quiet for a
moment, then he started to laugh.
“What’s so funny?”
“Your face.”
I slapped his arm.
“I meant your face all night
whenever I called you a name.”
“You were ridiculous.” But I
giggled. “Snookums? Gumdrop? Where
did you even come up with that shit?”
“I don’t know. I guess you just
inspired me.”
“Please.” I held up one hand. “I am
not your snookums, nor do I want to be.”
He sighed as he pulled into the
driveway, lining up the passenger door
with the sidewalk. “Aren’t you ever
worried you’re going to hurt my feelings
when you say that stuff to me?”
“Was that…” I sat up taller in the
seat and leaned toward him, like I might
have heard him wrong. “Was that the
F
word
I just heard coming out of your
mouth?”
He grinned, glancing over at me. “I
guess it was.”
“I thought we agreed not to talk
about those things, but no, it is not my
intent to hurt yours, so I’m sorry if I
have.”
He put the car in park. “Here, I’ll let
you out and then park on the street in
case you need to get out in the morning.”
“It’s OK. I’m not going anywhere
early.” I put my hand on the door handle,
but something stopped me from getting
out of the car.
She’s got a big heart.
“Quinn…have I? Hurt your
feelings?”
He smiled. “No, I’m just having fun
with you. But it’s nice to know you care,
buttercup.”
“Blech. I’m getting out now.” I got
out and waited on the sidewalk while he
pulled up a little, leaving the car in the
drive. Walking toward the house
together, I felt his hand on my back, but I
didn’t complain.
When the front door was locked
behind us, I turned off the hall light and
started up the stairs, expecting him to
follow.
He stayed where he was, so I
stopped at the top and looked down at
his silhouette in the dark. “Don’t you
want to come up?”
“I don’t know.”
My jaw dropped. “You don’t
know
?”
“I’m not sure I’m in the mood.”
Always a fucking game with him.
“Felt like you were in the mood earlier.”
He didn’t say anything right away.
Then, “You were a very bad girl at the
table tonight.”
“You deserved it.”
“Your friends see what was going
on?”
I nodded slowly.
“You wanted them to.”
Damn him.
“Maybe.”
“Does it turn you on? Shaming me?”
He started to move toward me then,
slowly coming up the steps.
“Maybe.” My heart pounded louder
as he got closer, my knees trembling.
When he was two stairs below me, our
eyes were just about even. I was trying
to read his in the dark when suddenly he
grabbed the back of my hair, stepped
onto the landing, and forced me to look
up at him.
His breath was warm on my lips.
“My turn.”
FIFTEEN
QUINN
I KEPT my fist in her hair as I slowly
walked her backward into her flat, using
my free hand to open the door. Once it
was shut behind me, I moved deeper into
the dark room until we stood in front of
the window. The curtains were pulled
partway open, and some light from the
street lamps spilled in through the glass.
I spoke softly but with an edge.
“You’re not going to talk unless I say so.
You’re not going to move unless I say so.
You’re not going to come unless I say so.
Do you understand?”
“But—”
I pulled her hair so hard she gasped.
“Do you?”
“Yes,” she whispered.
“And when you speak, you will say
only the words I tell you to say. When
you move, you’ll do only the things I tell
you to do. When you come, you’ll do it
when, where, and how I want you to. Do
you understand?”
She swallowed. “Yes.”
“Good.” I let go of her hair and
unbuttoned my coat, sliding it off and
tossing it aside. Backing away from her,
I unwrapped my scarf and coiled it in my
hands. “Take off your coat.”
She worked her way down the
buttons in the front and slipped it from
her body, letting it fall at her feet.
“Now your dress.”
Lifting it by the hem, she pulled it
over her head and dropped it behind her.
Jesus fucking Christ, she was hot.
Framed by the partially opened
drapes as if she were on a stage, her
body was dimly lit from behind. She
wore only the black boots with the high
heels I’d admired earlier and some sort
of strappy, black lace one-piece that
made my cock jump up like it needed a
better look.
I’d teased her about her pale skin,
but she looked fucking luminous tonight.
I loved the way her hair looked like ink
spilling over her shoulders, the way her
nipples peeked through the black lace,
the way her chest rose and fell with her
quick, short breaths.
“Turn around. Face the window.”
“But the—”
“Do it,” I seethed, “or we’re done
here.”
Slowly, she turned to face the
window. Her lingerie cut low on her
back and high on her ass, and my hands
ached to touch her. I knew she’d been
about to tell me the curtains weren’t
closed and anyone could look up and see
her, but it was late, the room was dark,
and anyway, she deserved a little of this.
“How does it feel, being put on
display like you did to me tonight?”
She didn’t say anything.
“You can answer the question.”
“I don’t know,” she said.
“Do you like it?”
“Yes and no.”
“Why yes?”
“I like…being on display for you.”
“And why no?”
“I feel embarrassed. Someone else
might see in the window.”
“You shouldn’t feel embarrassed
about your body. It’s perfect. So perfect
I’m not inclined to share it. Face me.”
She turned around again, and I liked
the way she held herself, spine straight,
shoulders back, chin lifted, feet slightly
apart. It was defensive but also a little
aggressive, telling me I might be calling
the shots, but they weren’t anything she
couldn’t handle.
I wanted to test her on that.
“Get on your knees, Jaime.”
She didn’t do it right away, and there
was a tense moment where I thought the
game was over, but eventually she
dropped onto one knee, then the other.
“Now your hands.”
She put both hands on the carpet in
front of her, and it reminded me of the
way she’d crawled out of my closet to
watch me get naked.
Well, darling,
you’re about to get that up-close-and-
personal look you wanted.
“Crawl to me.”
She crept toward me at a snail’s
pace, her body swaying, her eyes on
mine.
Yes.
Her movements were feline and
provocative, but submissive too. My
chest—and my pants—were fucking
tight
.
When she’d reached my feet, she