Desired Affliction (12 page)

We were interrupted by the waitress as she took our
order. When Kole turned back to face me he brushed my hair behind my ear, “Did
I tell you that your hair looks really sexy? I love how it falls around your face.”
He paused brushing his thumb across my lip, “Baby we’ll go at your pace…but I
really miss you too. I miss your touch and your kiss so fucking much.” I let
him bring his lips to mine again but this time I ran my tongue along his lip as
his followed. Our kiss was so heated and I think we were both fighting it with
everything we had to keep it from getting to intense.

Our pizza arrived and I just picked at it. I knew I
needed to make a decision regarding Kole…could I trust him and let go of what
happened? Would I be able to move on and not have that in my mind every day? I
wanted to be able to but could I? We talked while we ate and after he paid I
felt like he wanted to say something but he just kept flexing his jaw muscle
quickly. 

When we got into his car I watched him put the key in the
ignition, “Kole what are thinking…because I know something is on your mind?” He
turned to face me, “I don’t want to take you back to the dorm. I really just
want you to come home with me. They got people over and we could see Radley and
Meg. I know you don’t want to jump back into it with me and I understand that…I
do but I really can’t help it Lexi. I can’t pretend that I’m not in love with
you. I can’t just see you for a couple hours every week and pretend that such a
small amount of time doesn’t kill mean. I just want to grab you and hold on so
fucking tight. I screwed up I know that…so bad…but this is torture.” He was
staring at me with such intensity, “Please just spend the night with me. I am
not saying come home with me so we can have sex. I just want you there…I want
to fall asleep holding you and know that in the morning you’ll still be there.
Please Lexi. I just don’t know if I can do slow with you…I think it’s
impossible but if that’s what you need then I’ll have to because I refuse to
lose you.”

I laid my head back onto the headrest and just looked at
him. I wanted to say yes so bad…I wanted to go back to where we were before I
told him about me going to that bar. Kole made me feel beautiful…desirable.
There was nothing dirty about what we had. I loved him and I wanted him so
badly, “Okay.” He wrinkled his eyebrows, “Okay?”

I couldn’t help but laugh, “Okay I’ll go home with you…I
stay with you tonight.” He moved quickly as his mouth crushed against mine he
whispered, “I love you.”

(Kole)

I grabbed Lexi’s hand and pulled her to me for one more
kiss before we went inside. They were having a party and I wanted to spend the
night with her. I needed to feel her close I wanted to show everyone that I was
fighting for her that I needed her. I wasn’t ashamed to let people know I loved
Lexi.

I could feel her relaxing with each kiss we shared. I
didn’t hold back now I figured she agreed to stay with me so it should be okay
to kiss her. I could never get enough of her. “You ready to go inside baby?”
She nodded her head I think we both knew the chances of seeing Hope were going
to be pretty high…considering she was back to screwing the guys in the house to
try and get to me. She really had no clue that I couldn’t have cared less about
who she was under. I felt Lexi squeeze my hand as we walked inside. I turned to
look at her and she just smiled. I couldn’t resist leaning over to kiss her
once more.

The music was loud but I heard Megan squeal with
excitement when she saw Lexi walk in with me. When she looked closer and saw
that I had ahold of her hand I thought her excitement would break my eardrums.
Lexi leaned in to whisper something in Megan’s ear and then Megan shook her
head yes followed by them both scanning the room. I knew then that she was
looking for Hope. My stomach flipped and I felt a sense of panic. I hated that
Lex felt insecure about Hope and I. There is no Hope and I…there never would
be.

I sat down on a bar stool and pulled Lexi to me. I wrapped
my arms around her and held her close. I kissed her forehead causing her to
look up at me, “I’m glad you’re here baby.” I watched her lips as she tilted
her head up and kissed me. I left my lips lingering over hers watching her with
her eyes closed. After a second I kissed her again keeping my eyes open the
entire time. Her eyes fluttered and I traced my tongue along hers lightly
sucking on the tip.

She brought her hands up to run them through hair while
pulling me closer. Nothing was sexier than watching her kiss me. I knew we were
putting on a show but I didn’t give a shit. If Lexi was going to kiss me…I was
not going to turn it down no matter where we were. When she pulled back and her
eyes slowly came open she looked into mine, “Where you watching me?” I grinned,
“Sure was, you look fucking sexy when you kiss…sorry I couldn’t help it.” She
turned around and leaned back into me. I ran my hand around her waist and
pulled her in just a little tighter.

Radley had gotten both of us a beer and we were all just
standing talking. I had thought maybe we were going to be able to avoid the
tense situation of Hope but when I glanced toward the kitchen my stomach fell.
Hope was leaning against the counter drinking and staring directly at Lexi. We
locked eyes and her face softened then she licked her lips. I suddenly got a
bad feeling about this and I wanted to distract Lexi. Hope was drunk which only
made her mouthier than usual. I hated that I ran back here and straight to Hope
after Lexi and I broke up…it really just fed her fire.

“Why are you watching her?” Lexi sounded hurt. Shit she
caught me watching Hope. I rotated her around to face me, “I am not watching
her okay. She just keeps getting closer to us and I am not going to let her
start her shit. That is the only reason Lex…I am not interested in Hope. I
promise…I am just not going to let her ruin this.” The look on her face made my
chest feel tight. I knew she felt there was more to it and I had to blame
myself for that insecure feeling she had. “I love you baby…you have my heart
Lex…all of it,” I kissed her while running my hands over her hips and along the
hem of her shirt across her back. “It’s you baby,” I whispered between kisses,
“Just you…I want you.” I felt her relax against me and I allowed myself to relax.

The feel of her body against me so tightly and her hands
running up and down my arms was nice. It had been almost three weeks since I
had been this close to Lexi and I knew I missed it but feeling her now made me
realize just how much I need her. I felt her small fingers trace across my
stomach just under the hem of my shirt which caused a chain reaction to run
through me. I moan into her mouth, pulled her in tighter to me, my dick
twitched and I sucked her lower lip into my mouth…she returned a sweet little
moan and I felt like my head was going to explode. “Fuck Lex, you’re killing me
baby,” I was so fucking turned on I knew I had to keep her close to me because
I had to hide the erection threatening to bust out of my zipper.

I thought it would slow her down but it didn’t if
anything it fueled her. She reached under my shirt and ran her finger along the
edge of my pants. “I miss this…so much,” she kissed me again. I said it was her
pace and she was in control. I knew I was either making love to my girl tonight
or taking a cold shower. Either way I wasn’t stopping her. Lexi pulled back
from our kiss and brought her hand up to my mouth. She ran her finger along my
lip and I brushed my tongue across the tip flipping my piercing against her
finger. She bit her lower lip, “I miss your tongue…and what you do to me with
it.” Fucking hell…she was going to make me come right there in the living room
with everyone around. “Lexi…baby whenever you’re ready all you have to do is
say the word. You already know that I want you…It’s your call,” I watched her
watch my mouth.

She brought her mouth close to mine and I thought she was
going to kiss me again but she lingered over my lips. I could feel her breath,
“I want you Kole…just don’t hurt me again please.” I stood up and pressed my
obvious need for her against her body, “I won’t baby…I love you. Let’s go
upstairs.” I knew I was going to get a reaction from her and I held back a
smile, “Upstairs? Your room’s down here.” I brushed my fingers across her
shoulder and brushed her hair back, “I switched with Brad…that room has bad
memories.” I could tell that she agreed and that she was pleased that I
wouldn’t be sleeping with her in my old room.

I took her hand and guided her toward the stairs. I was
so turned on but I just wanted to take my time with her. I wanted to kiss every
inch of her and drive her wild. I wanted to give her an amazing night of just
us. I wanted to leave the garbage behind and start over. I knew when I got her
to my room I was going to tell her that I wanted her back now…I couldn’t wait.
I didn’t want just sex I wanted her…all of her. I couldn’t believe the hold
this girl had on me.

(Lexi)

I felt my head jerk back and my hair felt like it was
being ripped out of my head. I stumbled down three steps backwards and landing
onto the floor. Then a hand smacked my face hard. I heard yelling and Kole
charging back down the stairs toward me. When I looked up I saw Hope standing
over me, “He is mine you bitch…why are you even here.” Hope brought her fist
back and Kole grabbed her arm and shoved it back making her stumble, “I have
never hit a girl Hope but if you touch her one more time I won’t hesitate.”
Megan helped me up from the floor and my head hurt, “Did she hit you?” I nodded
at Megan.

Hope was pleading with Kole, “Kole please you don’t need
her. I’ll do whatever you want. I want you Kole…I hate seeing you with her. She
doesn’t deserve you.” I could feel the anger from Kole. I sensed it in his tone
because that day that he broke up with me he carried the same one, “Hope…you
were always just a piece of ass…you knew that’s all it ever was…a quick fix an
easy lay. We were never more than that. I told you from the beginning so don’t
stand here and pretend we were ever more than that. I don’t want you…I never
will.”

I hated looking at them in front of me. I hated that she
felt she was better for him than me. I was pissed because he was mine…I wasn’t
willing to lose him. I needed him so much. He was my rock my security. Kole was
mine. I walked toward her and Kole looked worried like maybe I was mad at him.
I wasn’t going to lie and say that I didn’t wish they had never slept together.
I hated that she was with him like that but I also knew that he loved me and
what he felt for me was so much more. She never had that from him and she never
would.

I smiled at him, “Its’ okay…I think I should give Hope a
chance to say what she needs to say to me face to face. You know instead of her
secret surprise attack from the back.” I turned to face Hope and stepped in a
little closer. I could feel the tension radiate from Kole, “Alright Bitch you
were all badass a few minutes ago…don’t tell me you’re gonna bitch up now and
sneak off. You want to fucking hit me! Do it!”

She looked up over my shoulder at Kole and then back to
me, “What…he’s not going to do anything…the second that you hit me this became
our problem not his.” I stood there waiting but she didn’t know which way to
go, “Let me help you out with your little dilemma.” I shoved her backwards and
she stumbled and fell on her ass, “Fucking sucks landing on your ass doesn’t
it?” I stood over her waiting for her to say something anything. I slapped her
across the face, “Okay so now were all caught up…what’s next?” She sat on the
floor holding her cheek. She wasn’t going to do anything she was all for show.
“Let me tell you how this works…you ever fucking hit me again I won’t hold
back. Understand something Kole and I are together…you will never have with him
what I have…Never! Move on and find another guy because Kole’s not available.”
I turned to Kole and he pulled me into him, “Come On.”

I followed him upstairs and when we got into his room I
broke down from the adrenaline. He held me as I cried into his chest. He led me
to the bed and lowered me down crawling in next to me to pull me close. “Lexi
don’t let her come between us…please,” he sounded worried. I curled into him
and kissed him, “I’m not Kole…I just hate where we’re at right now. I hate how
we got here…and I’m worried that we won’t be able to get back to where we were
before.”

“I don’t except that…because I won’t stop until we
are…until we’re better than we were before,” He cradled me to his chest as I
fell asleep in his arms.

(Kole)

“Does it tickle…huh? Tell me,” I loved Lexi’s laughed and
randomly tickling has become a great source of torture…or an even better way of
getting her to agree to random things. “Wait…what was that…you would love to go
home with me for Christmas break…oh yeah…really. Tickle you more…of course I
will…” she was laughing so hard her face was red. “Kole stop seriously…please.
Oh my god…please! I’m going to pee my pants…okay damn it…fine I’ll go...STOP!”
I flopped on top of her and starting places kisses all over her face, “You
can’t take it back now you agreed to it.” I kissed the tip of her nose, “You
have no way out…if you try to bail next time I will tickle you until your pee
your pants.”

“You are ridiculous. My insides hurt from laughing,” I
kissed her chin. “Kole your brothers that can hear us probably think we are
having crazy wild sex in here,” I brought my lips to hers kissing her slowly.
“I don’t care what they think. Let them be jealous…”I continued the kiss.

She pushed on my chest and I rolled over onto my back as
she straddled me, “I’m nervous about going home with you Kole. It has been so
long since I saw your parents. What if your mom doesn’t think I am right for
you…what if,” I placed my finger against her lips. “Stop Lexi…My mom isn’t like
that and she knows how I feel about you. When I told her we were dating she was
excited…she has always loved you. Stop freaking out…it’ll be great having you
home with me.”