"You're a hard worker, and strong," the sergeant began, "but you'll have to be stronger yet, and you'll have to learn discipline. Begin with this: you don't talk unless you're told to, and you answer with 'sir' any time I speak to you. Clear?"
Gird nodded. "Yes . . . sir?"
"Right. You're here to learn, not to chatter. Dawn to dusk, one day of ten . . . can you count?"
"Not really, sir."
"Not really is no. Can't count sheep, or cows?"
Gird frowned. "If they're there . . . but not days, sir, they don't stay in front of me."
"You'll learn. Now, Gird: when you come here, you must be clean and ready to work. If you can't wash at home, come early and wash here. I'll have no ragtags in my barracks. Is that your only shirt?"
"No, sir, but th'other's worse."
"Then you'll get one, but only for this work. Do you have shoes? Boots?"
Gird shook his head, then remembered to say "No, sir." Shoes? For a mere lad? He had never had shoes, and wouldn't until he wed, unless his father had a string of good years.
"You'll need them later; you can wear them here, but not at home. Did you have breakfast at home this morning?" Of course he had not, beyond a bit of crust; the porridge had just gone on when he walked up to the barracks. The sergeant hmmphed at that. "Can't grow soldiers on thin rations. I'll tell the cook, and you'll eat here all day on your workdays. Now—about the other boys. I want no brawling, young Gird, none at all. If they tease you about going for soldier, you learn to let it pass. No threats from you, no catcalling at Rauf or Satik or whatever his name was. You'll be where they can't bother you, if you keep your nose clean. Hothead soldiers cause more trouble than they're worth; you have your chance, for you and your family: earn it."
An answer seemed required; Gird said "Yes, sir."
The rest of that day was more chores and little that Gird could see as soldiering, although he did see the inside of the barracks, with the lines of wooden bunks and thin straw mattresses, the weapons hung neatly on the walls, the jacks (
inside!
He wondered, but did not ask, how they were cleaned. Surely they were cleaned; they smelled less than his own family's pit.) He swept a floor that seemed clean enough already, carried more buckets of water to the cook, ate a bowl of stew larger than his father ever saw for his lunch, washed dishes until his hands wrinkled afterwards, fetched yet more water,(he felt his feet had worn a groove from the well to the kitchen door) and sliced yet more redroots, had a huge slab of bread and a piece of meat for supper, and was allowed to stand silent in a corner and watch the ordered marching that preceded the changing of watch before dusk.
He ran home along the dark lane his bare feet knew so well, bursting with excitement. Meat! He didn't know if he would tell them, because they would see no meat until harvest . . . but it had tasted so good, and the stew and bread had filled all the hollows in his belly. He burped, tasting meat on his breath, and laughed.
They were waiting, and had saved a bowl of gruel and hunk of bread for him; he felt both shamed and proud when he could give it to the others.
"So—they'll feed you well?" His mother wasn't quite looking at him, spooning his share carefully into other bowls.
"Yes. Breakfast too, but I must get there early."
"And do you like soldiering?" she asked, a sharpness in her voice.
"It's not soldiering yet," he said, watching the others eat. "I helped the cook today, chopping onions and carrying water . . . I carried enough water for two days."
"You can carry my water tomorrow," his mother said. His father had yet said nothing, watching Gird across the firelight as he ate.
The time from summer to Midwinter passed quickly. One day in ten he rose before dawn, at first cockcrow, and ran up the lane to the gate where the guards now knew him by name and greeted him. Into that steamy kitchen, larger than his own cottage, where the cook—never so difficult as that first day—gave him a great bowl of porridge before he served the others. As the days drew in with autumn, that kitchen became a haven, rich with the smells of baking bread and roasting meat, savory stews, fruit pies. It was a feast-day, however plain the soldiers found the food (and he was amazed to hear them grumble), he had his belly full from daylight to dark. With a full belly, the work went easily. Hauling water, sweeping, washing, chopping vegetables, chopping wood for the great hearths. He learned the names of all the guards, and knew where everything was kept. Two of them were recruits, one from his village and one from over the fields sunrising, tall boys he would have thought men if he hadn't seen them next to the soldiers. He began to learn the drill commands as he watched.
The other nine days passed as his days always had, in work with his family. He was growing into the scythe, or managing it better, and he was allowed in the big field for the first time. Arin took him up to the high end of the wood, where the village pigs spent the summer rooting and wallowing, to help gather them into the lower pens. They ate their meager lunch in a rocky cleft up higher than others ever came, a place Arin had shown him the first year he went to help gather pigs. He spent a few days nutting in the woods, with his friends, laughing and playing tricks like the others. They all wanted to know what he was learning. When he explained that so far it was just work, like any work, they wondered why he agreed.
"It
will
be soldiering," Gird said, leaning back against a bank and squinting up at one of their favorite nut trees. "And in the meantime, it's food and coppers for my family—what better?"
"Good food?" asked Amis. He was lean and ribby, as they all were that year.
Gird nodded. "Lots of it, too. And that leaves more—"
"Can you take any home?"
"No." That had been a disappointment, and his first disgrace. Sharing food was part of his life: everyone shared, fast or feast. But when he tried to take home a half-loaf being tossed out anyway, it had brought swift punishment. "The sergeant says that's stealing. They're getting enough for me, he says, more than I'm worth. That may be so, though I try. But not one crust will they let me take out, or a single dried plum." The stripes had not hurt as much as knowing he could not share; he had not told his father why he'd been punished.
Terris made the closed-fist gesture against evil. "Gripe-hearts, is what they are. You watch, Gird, they'll turn you against us."
"Never." Gird said it loudly, though he could already sense a rift between him and his friends. "I can share from my own, when I earn my own: then you'll see. Open heart, open hands: the Lady's blessing."
"Lady's blessing," they all said. Gird made sure to put a handful more than his share into the common sack, that would go up to the count's steward as their fee for nutting in those woods.
At Midwinter Feast, he stood once more before the steward, this time in the Hall, and agreed to his next year's service. His father had stayed home, shrugging away Gird's concern for his cough. Two days in ten, he thought, they will not have to feed me, and there's the coppers besides. He was proud of the thought that his pay might help with the field-fee.
Two days in ten made one in five. In the short days of winter, the sergeant set him to learning counting and letters. Gird hated it. Sitting with cold feet and numbed hands over a board scrawled with mysterious shapes was far harder than fetching water from the well, even when that meant breaking the ice on it first. At home he could read tallies well enough, the notched sticks all the farmers used to keep count of stock and coin. But here were no helpful hints . . . you could not tell, from the words, who wrote them. Without the clue that this tally was Oder's . . . when everyone knew that Oder had only a double-hand of sheep . . . you had to know
all
the words and numbers to find out what it said.
Some of the men laughed unkindly at his struggles. "Thickhead," said one, a balding redhead whom Gird had rather liked before. "Perhaps the knowledge could get in, if we cracked it open for you?"
"More like his little wit would fall out," said another. "He thinks with his hands and feet, that one, like most peasants."
Gird tried to concentrate on markings that seemed to jump and jiggle about in the flickering candlelight. Was the sign for three supposed to stick out
this
way, or that? He wiggled his fingers, trying to remember. The sergeant's sword was on the same side as that hand . . . he shook his head, confused once more.
"Here," said the redhead, handing him two pebbles. "Put this in your hand—no,
that
hand—and hold it there. Now call that your left hand, eh? Stonehand. Some signs are stonehand, some are empty hand—you can remember that much, can't you?"
He might have, but he was angry. He clenched his teeth against the temptation. The sergeant intervened. "Let him alone, Slagin. The stone's a good idea, but leave the rest of it. Some boys take longer, that's all. All right, Gird, the cook needs more water."
By spring, the two days in ten of plentiful food had begun to show. He had always been heavier built than most of his sibs. "More like my brother," his father had said, of an uncle dead before he was born. Now his broader frame began to carry thicker muscle. He had grown another two fingers up, and was straining the seams of his shirt. And that summer he carried a ruckbasket of plums without difficulty.
All that year, Gird worked his two days in ten, and his family settled into the knowledge that he would almost certainly become a soldier. His father continued to teach him the crafts and skills of farming, but with less urgency. His mother let out his old shirt, and made a new one, without pleading with him to stay home. His brothers admitted, privately, that life was a bit easier when he got part of his food elsewhere, and the coppers came in on quarterdays. Rauf tried once to tease him into a fight, calling him coward when he backed off; a few months later he noticed that Rauf crossed the lane to avoid him. And his friends seemed glad to see him, when any of them had time off for foolery, which wasn't often.
So at Midwinter, he gave his oath to the steward, and entered training as a recruit, to sleep in the barracks with the others and learn the arts of war.
"Your oath to the steward's one thing," said Sergeant Mager. "It's me you've got to satisfy."
Gird, along with three other recruits, all from other villages, stood uneasily in his new orange uniform while the sergeant stalked back and forth in front of them. The other soldiers were inside, enjoying the Midwinter Feast. They were in the little back courtyard he knew so well, with an icy wind stiffening their skins.
"If you make it through training," the sergeant went on, "you'll give your oath to our lord or his guardian. You'll go where he sends you, and fight his battles, the rest of your time as soldier. Some of you—" He did not look at Gird. "—some of you started your training as boys. But you needn't think you know much yet. You all start level."
Level meant the bottom. The senior recruits, that Gird had seen cuffed and bullied by the older men, now cuffed and bullied the new ones. Gird was no longer the cook's helper, but he still hauled buckets of water, scrubbed floors, and now had his uniform to keep clean and mended, besides. The boots that went with it kept his feet from the snow, but chafed badly until he learned how to pack them with oily wool. He had never had to do anything to a bed but fall into it and fight his brothers for the cover: now he had to produce as neat a mattress, as tightly rolled a blanket, as the others. And, lacking a boy to do the work, all four new recruits washed dishes.
Yet none of them complained. Like Gird, they had all been peasants' sons, only one of them the son of a free tenant. It was worth all the abuse to have a full belly all winter long, somewhere warm to sleep. Gradually they got used to having enough to eat, a bunk each, with a warm blanket, whole clothes that fit, boots.
Gird had been hoping to move quickly into training with weapons, but the sergeant had other priorities. They would all, he said firmly, with a hard look at Gird, learn their letters well enough to follow simple orders. They would learn to keep count, so they could help the steward or his agents during tax-time. Ifor, who had been sent from the nearest trading town, could already read a little, and use the pebble-board for figuring. He didn't mind the daily session with letters that was still torture to Gird.
"You'll never make sergeant, Gird, if you don't learn this," the sergeant warned. Gird was beginning to think he didn't care, if making sergeant meant making sense of reading and writing and numbers. He could see, as clear as his hand on the table, how many legs two sheep had, but trying to think of it and write it down made the sweat run down his face. He was the slowest in this, as he was strongest in body. The sergeant insisted that it didn't have to work that way, that many strong men were quick-minded in learning to read. Gird eyed the others wistfully, wondering what the difference was inside their heads. He struggled on. He knew all the marks, now, that stood for numbers and sounds; he could read the simplest words, and write his own name in awkward, shaky letters. But it got no easier, for all his labors.
Besides that, they had to learn about their lord's domain: the correct address for the lord himself, for the steward, for the various officers who came through on inspections. The names of all the villages, and the headmen of each, and the sergeants in all the places the guard was stationed. Once in the lord's guard, they might be sent anywhere within his domain. Most men served away from their homes, at least until they were well along in service. Gird had never really considered the possibility that he might leave and never come back. Going off to war was one thing, but leaving this village—the only place he'd ever known—to make a life somewhere else—that was new and disturbing. He frowned, but said nothing. At least this was better than reading and writing. The lists went on and on. They had to know the right name for each piece of equipment in the barracks, from the tools used on the hearth to the weapons hung on the walls. Each weapon had not only a name, but a name for each part—for each movement with which it could be used—for the command given to make each movement.