Shadow of Perception (38 page)

While she still didn’t believe in Celeste’s alleged “gift,” her sister deserved better treatment. She’d always been good to Eden. Celeste had been her best friend. Now that she thought about it, she hadn’t had another, true friend—other than her sister—since the night of the rape. She missed Celeste. When they were teenagers, they would stay up late dreaming about the future…what kind of job they’d have, house…husband.

Determined to set things straight with her sister, Eden took her hand. “There’s something I need to tell you.”

An hour later, after Eden explained the rape, the internal and psychological fallout that had followed, as well as her eating disorders, Celeste blew her nose. She crumpled the napkin, then pulled Eden into her arms. “I wish you would have told me. I’m so sorry that happened to you. The thought of what those boys did…my heart aches.”

Eden held her sister’s hand. “I didn’t tell you all of this to make you feel worse. I told you because I wanted you to understand why I’ve been such a bitch all of my adult life.”

Celeste half-laughed, and squeezed Eden’s hand. “You were kind of a bitch even before that,” she teased, then sobered. “Thank you for telling me. Please don’t hide from me anymore.”

“Promise.”

“Promise? Then tell me about Hudson and what’s going to happen when you move to New York.”

Eden leaned back in the chair. “I think we’re going to play things by ear. I don’t want to end what’s between us—at all, and I don’t think he wants to, either. But, damn, this is my dream job.”
 

“I know, honey, you’ve worked hard for this opportunity,” Celeste said, then cocked her head to the side. “Would he consider moving for you? I’m not saying right away, but maybe after a while.”

Eden shook her head. “I wouldn’t dare ask him. He’s already made it clear that he would never try to sway me into staying in Chicago, and I appreciate that he knows this is my choice.”

“He gets you,” Celeste said with a grin.
 

Eden thought about Hudson’s concern about her animals, his cheesey lines. The way they’d both tried to hide from each other, only to realize they couldn’t. How he’d handled learning about her past and eating disorders. The touch of his hands along her body… “He does. And you know what? I not only get him, but I’m in love with him.”
 

“Really? I’m so happy for you.”

“Yeah, I’m happy for me, too. Hopefully we can work through my move to New York.”

“If you love each other, you’ll make it work.”

Eden smiled. “True. Speaking of love and all that gooey junk. I heard a rumor that you were looking for a maid of honor.”

Moments later, after promising her sister that she’d go dress shopping with her before leaving for New York next week, Eden stood, and said, “The guys have been awfully quiet. They didn’t even try to raid the refrigerator for a beer.”

Celeste stood, too. “Were you making dinner?” she asked and pointed to the frying pan on the stove.
 

“Yes, but that’s okay. This conversation was way more important. I’ll finish making it when you leave.”

“I’m leaving right now,” Celeste said, and walked out of the kitchen.

Eden followed her, then smiled when she saw John and Hudson sitting on the couch watching college football. Fabio had draped himself over John’s outstretched legs, while Brutal had curled into a ball and lay on Hudson’s lap.

“Look at how adorable our men are,” Celeste said to her.

Hudson looked over his shoulder. “We’re too badass to be adorable.”

John removed Fabio from his legs, then stood. “Everything good?”

Hudson rose, too, but cradled Brutal in his arms. Eden smiled as she watched him. Whether he liked it or not, the sight truly was adorable.
 

“Everything’s great,” Celeste said, then looked to Hudson. “I’m sorry for how I treated you yesterday. I was dead wrong. You make my sister happy, which makes me happy.”

“First you call him adorable, now you’re getting sappy on him,” John said. “We better go before he has to show you what a badass he really is.”

Laughing, Celeste hugged Hudson, then moved to Eden and did the same. As they embraced, John shook Hudson’s hand and said, “We could save Ian a lot of money if we made this a double wedding. You up for taking another walk down the aisle?”

Another walk down the aisle?
Her mind racing, Eden stepped away from Celeste, and stared at Hudson.
 

“Ian’s got plenty of money,” Hudson said to John. “You should hit him up for the honeymoon, too.”

When he didn’t deny or confirm John’s reference to remarrying, Eden assumed John’s comment had been a simple slip of the tongue, and relaxed. She and Hudson were in a sort of good place. They hadn’t exactly hammered out the details of the future, but both were willing. To her, that was a good start.
 

“Come on, John,” Celeste said as she opened the front door. “We’ve interrupted their dinner again. Let’s go home. I have several sample books of wedding invitations I want us to go through tonight.”

“Can we scrapbook when we’re finished?” John asked just before he shut the door behind him.
 

Once Celeste and John left, Hudson set Brutal on the dog bed, then rubbed his stomach. “I’m so hungry. I’d eat another one of your gross granola bars. C’mon, I’ll make the toast, while you cook the omelets and tell me what happened with your sister.”
 

Holding his hand, she followed him into the kitchen while trying to decide if she should ask him about John’s marriage comment. Because she knew not knowing would bug the living shit out of her, she blurted, “What did John mean by another walk down the aisle?”

He blew out a deep breath, and ran a hand through his hair. “I…I was married a long time ago.”

Stunned, she stepped back, and narrowed her eyes at him. “Any children I should know about?” she asked, disgusted with him, and with herself. How could she have been stupid enough to believe Hudson had changed? Now that she thought about it, other than the little bit he’d told her about the time he’d been held captive in Columbia, he hadn’t said anything about himself, or his past. She’d foolishly allowed her heart to rule her head. All his bullshit about tiptoeing around the past or the truth, had been just that—bullshit.

“No,” he said, and approached her. “Jen and I were only married for a few years, and ninety percent of the time I was overseas.”

She took another step back until her hip hit the counter. “Jen,” she echoed. “And you didn’t think you should have mentioned
Jen
to me?”

“I honestly didn’t think it was that important,” he answered. “I’m sorry, Eden. I guess I screwed up.”

Utter betrayal sliced through her heart. He hadn’t trusted her. To think that she’d thought she knew him. She didn’t—at all. What she knew of him had been superficial and only what he’d wanted her to see. Like when they’d been together before, he had to control every aspect of their relationship. God, she’d even allowed him to convince her to lease her townhouse in case she decided to move back to Chicago. He’d told her he wouldn’t ask her to stay, but he’d manipulated her anyway, and had swayed her into thinking they might have a shot at a future together.
 

Not anymore.

Not ever again.

“You guess?” she asked, shocked that he could sum up his lack of trust so flippantly, as if he’d forgotten something off the grocery list. She hurt. Bad. She didn’t have many people in her life she could trust, and she’d trusted Hudson. She’d trusted that they’d become close enough that they could share private thoughts, emotions…their past. “God, Hudson. You gave me so much crap for never talking about myself and avoiding the past. Then I went and opened up, and told you about my rape. Something I’d never told anyone, by the way, not even my own family. And you didn’t think to even mention an ex-wife. I mean, it’s not like you haven’t had plenty of opportunities.”

“I know, but after you told me what happened to you, I realized our pasts really didn’t matter. It’s who we are now that counts.”

“Gee, how poetic,” she said, laying the sarcasm on thick. How convenient that he’d come to this miraculous conclusion
after
she’d been the one to open herself to him. Figuratively and literally. “When you quit CORE, maybe you should consider writing greeting cards.”

With his eyes full of concern and apology, he crowded her against the counter. “You’re right. I should have told you about my ex. I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have expected you to tell me about yourself, then not do the same in return.”

Shoving his chest, she moved away from him. Although thoroughly pissed, she couldn’t forget that a short while ago they’d made love. He’d held her in his arms and had loved her body, had filled her heart and soul with hope for a future. She needed to distance herself from him. Lust would not cloud her judgment again.
 

“Eden, please. What can I do to make this up to you? Tell you about Jen? How I married her out of high school because all I ever wanted was a family of my own. That my mom had left me when I was about nine, and that I wished my dad had left me, too. He was a bastard who used me as his occasional punching bag, especially when he was drunk.” Shoving his hands in his pockets, he looked to the floor. “I can tell you about my tour in Afghanistan, the horrible things I saw, or better yet, the horrible things I did during my years with the CIA. I can tell you—”

“Stop.” Holding up a hand, she shook her head. “I need space.”
 

She didn’t want to hear any more, not now. At this point, she couldn’t figure out his agenda. He’d had plenty of opportunities to tell her these things. For him to hurry up and lump them all into one big confession didn’t work for her. She didn’t want a forced confession. She believed relationships were about give and take. Only she had been the one to give. All he’d done was take.
 

Tears filled her eyes. Throat tightening as she fought to control her emotions in front of him, she moved past him.
 

He snagged her hand. “Eden,” he said, his tone thick, quiet…pained.
 

He tilted her chin, but she refused to face him, to allow him to see the hurt. She’d already shown him too much. “I want to be alone.”

With the tip of his finger, he traced her jaw. “I love you,” he said, and tucked a lock of hair behind her ear.
 

Her heart and stomach ached with insult. Pushing past him, she rushed to the bedroom, then slammed the door. In the privacy of her room she let the tears fall. She’d wanted to hear him say the words, but not like this. Not as a way of apologizing.
 

Falling onto the bed, she hugged the pillow. Hudson’s scent lingered on the linens, and she shoved the pillow across the bed. Hiding in the bathroom wouldn’t work either. She’d only be reminded of the way he’d held her, coaxed her body with his rough hands and—

“Eden,” Hudson called from the other side of the door. “I just heard from Rachel. We have the clientele list from Med Spa.”

She’d been so focused on Hudson, she hadn’t even thought about the killer or Dr. Roth.
 

Damn. She didn’t want to be anywhere near Hudson. He’d broken her heart. Now she had to spend the rest of the evening sitting next to him, searching for any link to the killer.

    
Chapter 21

With dusk fast approaching, Michael Morrison pulled into his gravel driveway. He drove the minivan to the steel garage, climbed out, then opened the door. As he waited for the garage door to finish rising, he headed toward the van, then stopped.
 

Movement in the overgrown fields caught his attention. He scanned the tall grass. The head of a coyote surfaced, followed by another, then another. With caution, he glanced to the other side of the property just as another coyote crept from the grass onto the gravel.

They‘re waiting for their next meal, and I’ll deliver it. Soon.
 

As he climbed back into the van and drove into the garage, he realized the coyotes weren’t much different from his patients. Like the doctors from Med Spa, coyotes were opportunistic hunters. Only the coyotes hunted their prey for survival, while the doctors preyed on insecure, young women for profit.

Once he parked the van, Michael quickly closed the garage door. He didn’t want to become his dinner guests’ appetizer.

 
Sealed in the building, he slid open the driver’s side back door.
 

Dr. Victor Roth glared at him.

Michael jerked back, then relaxed when he saw that the duct tape he’d applied earlier had stayed intact. His hands and feet bound, and held together behind his back with triple layers of tape, Roth remained hogtied. Still, the doctor had woken too early. Michael needed time to prep him for his surgery, and he couldn’t do it while the man was awake.
 

Time to improvise.

 
Michael went to his office and retrieved the varmint rifle. He rushed back to the OR, grabbed a hunting knife, then moved toward the van.
 

Roth’s eyes grew big and round as he darted his gaze from the knife to the OR. He attempted to talk, but the duct tape kept him mute.