I walked into my apartment to see Ross making
dinner. Angel man was very domestic. I entered the kitchen to see what the little wifey was cooking.
"I heard that."
I jumped back as Ross swatted at my butt with his wooden spoon. "Serves you right, you keep forgetting boundaries, my friend."
Ross rolled his eyes. "Hard habit to break." He removed his pot of spaghetti from the stove and drained the water. "So, did everything go good today?"
I watched as he stirred the sauce and pulled the bread from the oven. "Yes, it went really good actually, but I get the feeling you already know that."
Ross peeked over his shoulder at me. "I do. The perks of being an angel."
I snagged a bread stick out of the basket Ross had set on the counter. "I have to say, nice touch with making sure I was the only one who applied."
"I know, right?" Ross chuckled.
I sat at the table, tearing apart the bread in my hand.
"Hey Ross, can I ask you something?"
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"Sure."
"I know you said that you worked your magic so they didn't get the full familiarity with my face but they both have asked if we had met before. Is that normal?"
Ross turned around and leaned against the counter.
"Well, yes it is. See, I can hide your appearance a little bit from them so they aren't totally freaked out by the similarity in looks. However, I can't modify personality and mannerisms. Plus, you are the same person. So the friendship and love you felt for them before and them for you is still there. It's an unbreakable bond. Do you understand?"
I did, but it didn't make me feel any less of a liar.
The need to tell them the truth was eating me up inside. All these half-truths would catch up with me, then what?
Would they be happy and understand or would they run for the hills screaming in fear? A deep sigh passed my lips. I wished I could just tell them the truth.
Ross looked at me as if I had lost my mind. "Are you nuts? They would think you're insane if you told them.
People say they believe in the Big Boss Man and angels, but if you go spouting off about what happened to you, they would lock you up and throw away the key."
"Boundaries, Ross!"
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probably would think I was insane but that didn't mean I had to agree with him. They might accept what I told them.
Movement caught my eye and I looked to where Ross stood by the stove. He was shaking his head at me.
Ross turned around and threw his hands up in
frustration. "I'm sorry, Marc. I really wish you could tell them but they wouldn't believe you and it would hurt our chances of fixing this mess."
I nodded my agreement with him. Ross was right. I was too close to getting what I always wanted and didn't want to screw up the progress I had made, even if I didn't agree with the method. Ross fixed our plates and brought them to the table.
"So how are you feeling in your new body?" Ross asked as he wiped off his mouth.
I looked up to meet his gaze. This body was like wearing a favorite shirt, nice and comfortable. "Great. I feel more comfortable in this one than I did as a woman."
"That's because you weren't a woman. You have a soul and mind of a man, so walking around in a woman's body was unnatural to you. I have to say, I'm impressed you adapted as well as you did." Ross patted my hand and pride shown in his eyes.
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why." I got up to clear the table. "Had I known my angel was sleeping on the job, I would have been extremely pissed."
"How many times do I have to say I'm sorry? I really do feel bad and now I'm trying to make things right,"
Ross said as he stuck his lower lip out in a pout. "I know my mistake made your life hard and for that I am truly sorry."
I could see Ross trying to hold back his tears. It was good to know he had feelings and was somewhat human. I stood up and went to give him a hug. He was my friend. Of course, I could forgive him. I leaned back to see Ross smiling at me. He'd done it again. "Boundaries."
"I know, but I'm glad I heard it. You're my friend, too. Now let's go watch some reruns of
Buffy
. I really like that Angel guy."
We watched TV until eleven, and then I had to call it a night. I had work in the morning then a date with Shawn in the evening. This new life of mine was working out just right.
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A week later, everything seemed to be going great.
Shawn and I spent all our free time together when we weren't working and even hung out with Serena over the weekend. We were a family again. I was confident in my odds for succeeding with getting Shawn to fall in love with me. I was head over heels in love with him; of course, I already had been to begin with. Only this love was the kind you had for a lover.
I sat patiently at our table waiting for Shawn to come back from the restaurant's restroom. Shawn was working on a construction job downtown so we met up to eat. Kansas City was really starting to grow and change.
There were many nice places to go to in the downtown area. When I was Marie, I avoided going into the city. I hated the traffic and one-way streets, but after dying, I was willing to try anything. I didn't want to miss a thing this time around.
I spotted Shawn coming back to the table. He had a little smile on his face. He still wore his work clothes and I had to admit I loved him in his dusty clothes. I loved to smell him after he got off work, the sweet scent of sun warmed skin and sweat. I groaned to myself as I realized 76
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just thinking about smelling Shawn had me getting hard.
Over the last week, I had gotten used to my cock and its ability to get rock hard at the drop of a hat.
Thankfully, that only happened around Shawn, which was good. If I sprouted wood around anyone else, I would be completely embarrassed. I looked at other guys but they didn't do anything for me, only Shawn.
"You ready to go? I was hoping to get a little alone time together tonight."
Shawn waggled his eyebrows at me and I couldn't
help but giggle. "Yes. I'll just follow you back to your place." I watched as the smile on Shawn's face faded. Did I say something wrong?
"Shawn, are you okay?"
He looked away from me quickly then turned back
and shook his head. "I'm good. Let's go."
I followed Shawn back to his house but I couldn't shake the feeling that he seemed upset with me. Racking my brain, I couldn't think of a damn thing I had done to upset him.
I pulled in behind Shawn's truck and he was already walking to his front door when I finally climbed out of my car. I rushed up his porch steps but as I got there, Shawn had already unlocked the door and gone inside. He left the door open for me to come in but I sure didn't feel 77
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welcomed.
"What's wrong with you?" My voice had a little more anger in it than I wanted to project out to him, but I didn't care.
Shawn looked over his shoulder at me and his face held no hint of what he was feeling. Completely blank.
"Nothing, nothing at all. I'm going to go take a shower."
I could tell he was pissed at me. I hated when
people kept their feelings bottled up. Last time I checked, I wasn't a mind reader and I'd be damned if I would let him act like a baby and pout the whole night.
I walked towards the closed bathroom door, and as I got there I heard the water come on. I tried the knob but the big baby had locked the door. If that's how he wanted to play this out, so be it. Too bad for him I knew how to pick the fucking lock. Score one for me.
I got the door unlocked, but before stepping inside, I removed all my clothes. Shawn couldn't resist me when I was naked. Using my body to get what I wanted should have made me feel bad but a guy had to do what a guy had to do.
Walking in as softly as I could, I stopped in my tracks at the sight of water glistening off Shawn's wet body.
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shower curtain.
Shawn's head turned as I climbed in behind him.
"What are you doing?"
"What do you think I'm doing?" I argued back.
"You wanted to pout in the shower so I figured I would come in here to talk to you." I sidled up closer to him.
"What's wrong, Shawn? Everything was fine at dinner."
Shawn turned away from me as he spoke. "I'm fine.
I just needed a little space."
Oh my God, Shawn needed space. I couldn't keep
the lump in my throat from choking me up when I spoke.
"You need space from me? I didn't realize I was smothering you, I'm sorry. I'll just get my things and leave." One hot tear ran down my cheek as I reached for the shower curtain but a strong hand on my arm stopped me.
"Please don't go, Marc. I didn't mean it like that. I just feel like you're keeping things from me." Shawn took a deep breath and continued in a softer tone. "You never talk about your family and we always come to my house, never yours. I just don't get it. I like you a lot and want this thing happening between us to grow but it can't if you're not honest with me."
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reason I don't have you come to my place is because I just moved here and my apartment isn't furnished. I like coming to your house because it feels like home to me."
What I said was somewhat true, my parents were
dead, and I couldn't tell my sister that her little sister was now her little brother. Moreover, the whole issue of me living in the same apartment I lived in as Marie and I had a roommate now who wasn't someone I looked forward to introducing to my family.
Shawn tilted my head up so he could look in my
eyes. I couldn't hold back the tears any longer. Shawn pulled me into his arms as I cried. "Please don't cry, baby. I just thought you were either embarrassed by me or had another boyfriend." Shawn took a step back. "Never think I don't want you here. I know we just met and this sounds crazy but I want you here with me always. I feel things for you I never felt for anyone else."
Shawn leaned down and kissed me. I brought my
arms up to wrap around his neck. Shawn wanted me here and this was where I wanted to be. I whimpered when Shawn shoved his tongue into my mouth and started stroking it against mine.
Shawn moved his hands down my back and grabbed
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against my stomach had my cock standing upward. When Shawn pulled up on my thighs, I took the hint and wrapped my legs around his waist.
I tilted my head to the side as he started to kiss down my neck. Shawn's hard breathing fanning across my skin had me breaking out in goose bumps even with the steaming hot water raining down on my body.
"God, I want you so bad," Shawn said as his finger caressed my pucker. I moaned at the feather light touch.
Shawn kept sucking and nibbling at my neck and I squirmed under the attention he showed my body. "Can I have you right now, baby?"
"Yes." My moan echoed off the tile walls.
Shawn poured thick body wash onto his fingers.
Any other time I would be opposed to using any kind of soap product as lube but right now I could care less. He could have fucked me dry and I would have been okay with it.
Shawn started to probe my entrance with his slicked up fingers. I gasped when he stuck two fingers in to start out. It stung but as he set up a slow-paced rhythm, I relaxed into the touch. I could relate to the urgency he felt because I felt it too.
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not being very gentle but I need to be in you. I need to feel you around me."
"Do it. I want you inside me."
Shawn positioned his cock at my tiny pucker and
pushed forward. He didn't stop until his balls slapped against my ass. Our lovemaking seemed almost primal, as if Shawn was claiming me and I wanted him to. This was all I ever wanted, to be a man and to be with the one man I wanted. I couldn't hold my need for him in any longer.
"Harder."
My shout bounced off the enclosed shower walls as Shawn shoved me against the cool tile and gave me what I wanted. He pumped his hips into my ass like a man out of control. Every frantic thrust pushed against my prostate and I swore I could see stars. I could feel my orgasm getting close. As if he read my mind, he brought his hand around to grab my cock and stroked up and down as fast as he could.
I could feel my orgasm rise to the surface.
"I'm coming," I gasped as I shot my cum all over Shawn's hand, the words I always wanted to say slipped out. "I love you."