Boxed Set:Taming the Rocker - Vol. 1-5 (16 page)

I aimed for a smile and looked at him. “You make me happy. I’m just not ready for this, Alec.”

I didn’t think the idea was completely horrible. I just couldn’t imagine it. There was too many outside factors involved too. My father wanted our marriage and my mind rebelled on that level. I wanted to make him happy, but I was the one that would be in the marriage, not him. At this point in my life, I cringed at the thought of being tied down with marriage.
What was Alec thinking? What about school? I’d never be able to concentrate with a bunch of girls gawking over a ring with a rock like that
.

I didn’t know if that was true or not. I was so confused. Part of me wanted freedom from my father’s hold over me, complete freedom like when I was with…

Him…
Chase.

The rest of the night was awkward to say the least. He paid the bill and then drove me home. When we got there, he walked me to the door and turned to leave without saying anything. I could tell that he was deeply hurt.

Oh, Geez, Alec…I’m sorry, but I have to go with my heart.

I changed clothes and sat on the couch for a bit. I didn’t want to hurt Alec. He had a very successful life ahead of him. I wanted a successful life too. I didn’t want someone
taking care of me
. That’s why I was busting my ass in college. I knew my decision was right for me even if Alec hated it. Frankly, I would have been miserable if I’d said yes. That would have affected him too. I didn’t want that to happen. Still, there was something else eating at me.

Chase. I need to settle crap with him before I can move on with Alec. Maybe after that, I can patch things up with Alec.

I needed fresh air to think. I decided to get a coffee, so I went to the local Starbucks. To my surprise, Chase was sitting there drinking coffee and rapidly typing on his laptop. When he saw me, shock registered on his face. Even though just the sight of him annoyed me; I walked over and sat at his table.

Chase

I couldn’t believe my eyes when Lila walked through the door. She headed straight for the counter and ordered while chewing on her bottom lip. I knew that look…she was stressing over something.

After getting her coffee, she turned and spotted me. I was still in the same disguise so she could easily have ignored me and driven her
fuck off
point home. I didn’t know what to think when she sat at my table. She looked a bit pissed that I was breathing the same air as her. All that aside, I knew that this might be the last chance to tell her how I feel.

I smiled and said, “Fancy meeting you here.”

“I hate sitting alone at Starbucks. I thought it would be nice to be with someone for a change,” she replied.

I nodded. “You look like you have a lot on your mind. How was the test?”

She looked surprised that I remembered. “Fine.” She picked her coffee up and sipped it.

“Listen…can we please stop avoiding the elephant in the room and talk about it. Please. I just need to talk to you about what happened.” I was almost pleading. I probably sounded pathetic, but I really didn’t care anymore. If that’s what got her to listen to me, then I’d roll in pathetic.

Her gaze darted to my face and then she sighed. She sat her coffee down, but didn’t remove her hand from it. She looked ready to run any minute.

“Fine. Just tell me whatever you want.”

My mind jumped for joy and my heart did cartwheels. I couldn’t believe that she said yes. It felt like a dream. I hastily tried to gather my scattered thoughts and worked out what I wanted to say.

Finally, I just started talking, “First, I wanted to say I’m very sorry that all that happened at my parent’s. I’m also sorry for being such a dick and all of the things that happened in my past. The problem was that I couldn’t stop myself back then. You’ve been with me on the road and saw the crap that fans expect. I thought that lifestyle was expected of me. Everyone around me was doing it, expecting me to live up the bad boy partying. That is, until I met you. I understood that life wasn’t all about drinking myself stupid and being irresponsible. I suddenly had a hot chick by my side who I wanted to be loyal to and who made me feel whole.”

She had a wary look on her face. I took a deep breath and continued while I had her attention.

“When Ava confronted me in my bedroom, she knew exactly what she was doing. She said she wasn’t happy with Tristan and came onto me. I don’t want her, Lila. She’s a jealous, unhappy bitch. Sure, I was a home wrecker back in the day. What I told you was true, but I’m not like that anymore. I don’t want sluts anymore. I’m done partying and I can’t stand groupies. I’m hopelessly in love with you, Lila. Forget the bullshit that comes with being a rock star. You’re my fucking rock star. This has been sheer hell for me. Please give me another chance.”

She was blinking back tears. I wanted to take her in my arms and kiss them all away, but I made myself just sit there. The waiting was torture, but her tears meant something, right? She wouldn’t be crying if what I’d said hadn’t touched her in some way. Every word I’d said was raw truth. I waited in suspense to hear what she had to say to me.

Lila

I was shocked.
Why hadn’t I stuck around to hear this? Why hadn’t I realized that she was jealous and would try that crap? Should I believe him?
He said he’s hopelessly in love with me.
Holy shit.

I didn’t know he felt that strongly for me. Sure, we still had a lot to work out. My trust had been damaged. But he’s in love with me. I’m his rock star. No one had ever said that to me. Alec and I had exchanged words of love, but neither of us had ever said we were in love with the other.
Am I in love with Chase?

Before I could answer that, I needed to say a few things. I brushed my tears away. He looked so anxious. I had to end his pain.

“I care about you a lot too, Chase. In fact, I still love you. It’s kind of weird. Tonight, Alec asked me to marry him. I said no, but not because of the whole school thing. That’s what I told him. I think the truth is because of you. I can’t get you off my mind no matter what I do. I’m sorry for leaving you without hearing your side. I was completely shocked and kind of grossed out. I’ve been miserable too, until I met Alec but he’s more like a good friend.” I felt something deep within me slide into place and said, “I’ll give you a second chance if you think we can start over.”

He looked utterly shocked and elated. Without a doubt, I knew that what I’d just told him was pure truth. It was like I’d shoved my feelings into a jar and screwed the lid on so tight that nothing could open it again. Except Chase.

“Oh God, I will. I will fucking do anything you want, Lila.”

No words could describe the relief I felt. I was still worried over whether I should trust him. He scooted his chair closer to mine and opened his arms. I smiled and almost burst into tears when he hugged me. I felt like I’d arrived home after a grueling lonely journey. Before I knew it, his lips were on mine. I forgot how nice they felt and the way he tasted. I didn’t even know I was crying until he broke the kiss and wiped a tear off my face.

“Please don’t cry, Lila. I’m so sorry.” He had tears in his eyes too.

I cupped his face and breathed, “I think these are happy tears.”

He chuckled and sniffed, “I know mine are, for a change.”

The thought of him crying almost wrecked my mind. I hugged him hard, and he squeezed me until I couldn’t breathe. We kissed again. This time, it was more passionate. I’d forgotten how his kisses held so much impact. Someone cleared their throat at a nearby table. We broke contact. Both of us blushed when we realized that we were still in Starbucks. He grinned and I started giggling.

“Lila, I’ve never felt like this in my life. I’ll do anything for you.”

“Take me home then.”

He thought about it for a second before shaking his head. “Let’s take things slow. I know your trust has been damaged. Let’s make this a first date and then we’ll go from there.”

I was shocked that he denied sex, but I was fine with that. In no time, I was laughing over new stories about the band members and reminding him of times in our past. It was kind of like we’d never separated. Only this time, there was something new in his eyes. It was awe.

He played with my hair and couldn’t stop touching me. It was almost like he thought I’d disappear into thin air. I knew then that what he said was true. Knowing that he was in love with me and wanting to take things slowly made me want to curl up in his arms and stay there.

I felt wanted, and not because my father approved of it. But because a man had fallen in love with me. I was his
rock star
out of all the girls in the world when all of them threw themselves at him. It was the best feeling I think a girl could ever have. I had found the change that kept haunting me. I hoped it was for the better even though I knew my father would probably shit enough bricks to build me a prison.

Lila

I made a decision and broke up with Alec. He cried over the phone. I cried too because I did love him. It just wasn’t the way that I loved Chase. Alec would never be right for me. I suspected that I had fallen for Chase a long time ago and that’s what had been haunting me.

My Dad was furious to say the least. I lashed out at him. I told Dad how I really felt about Chase, how I felt about being pushed toward Alec and making me feel like I had to make him proud or I wouldn’t matter. I told him how happy I’d been on the road with Chase. I let him know that he wasn’t my boss and I would become a Lawyer without his help. I finally described Chase’s family to him and that instantly shut him up. He suddenly saw business connections. As I left my father’s mansion, I decided that I needed to get away from my father, Alec and all the other power and status hungry people in our social circle.

By the following week, I decided to move down to Texas into Chase’s mansion. It was located far away from his parents and Ava, but it was close to the local law school.  Although my relationship with my father weren’t on good terms, everything else smoothly fell into place.

A year had passed and Chase and I were still going strong. He had just finished his second tour and was on his way to the mansion.  I wanted to show him my appreciation and give him a welcome home present. I knew that he would be tired, but I also knew he couldn’t say no to me.

I had recently bought a sexy corset and thong along with a feather tickler, cuffs, and a small dildo from one of the adult shops. He’d mentioned cuffing me to the bed several times. All I had to do was mention it and he would get rock hard.

When I heard the door unlock and he called my name a few times, I knew he would head upstairs next. I stretched out on the bed and waited for him to open the door. It slowly creaked open.

“Lila, what are you do…?”

He spotted the furry handcuffs dangling between my teeth, and his jaw dropped. His expression was so worth the wait.

Chase

Holy. Fucking. Shit!

Sexy was an understatement. I had to be the luckiest guy in Texas. Who else got to come home to a kick-ass lawyer dressed to sensually kill? A blindfold rested carelessly over one shoulder, hot pink fur-lined handcuffs swung from her mouth, and a little dildo waited on her stomach. I didn’t spot the little feather tickler until I moved closer. I started tearing my clothes off. I’m surprised my hard cock didn’t rip itself out of my pants. I had fantasized, but she’d acted blasé when I’d said anything.

“God damn!” That was the only thing I could manage.

Is this our one-year anniversary or something? Wait…no, we just celebrated that last month.

I reached for the cuffs and she opened her mouth while positioning her hands above her head. As I secured her wrists, she purred, “Just call me Justice, blind and bound.”

“What about a gag order, Justice?”

Her eyes popped open to pin me in a lawyerly stare. Then she smiled and purred, “The motion is allowed.”

Hot damn!

I quickly had her cuffed, blindfolded, and used an old rock band T-shirt to gag her.
Gagging Justice with my old rock band.
I couldn’t help but chuckle.

I suddenly yearned to swing a flogger but not to whip Lila. The thought of flogging the piss out of Lady Justice made my cock jump.
Wonder what she’d do if I took a photo of her right now for my screen saver.
I had to bite my lip to keep quiet on that one. I grabbed my belt and one of her scarves to secure her feet. Then my hands ran down the length of her.

I barely used the feather tickler but loved to hear her breath hiss and her watch how she anticipated my next move. After tossing the tickler over my shoulder, I brushed my stubble and tongue over her neck.

A shiver rolled down the length of her body. It was so fucking hot. I was ready to explode, but the pain and pleasure of holding back was half the fun. I’d forgotten the thrill of controlling a woman’s pleasure while torturing myself at the same time before taking her when she least expected it. I tugged on the cuffs as if intending to release her, which caused her back to arch.