Only Love (The Atonement Series) (13 page)

Colin laughed out loud. His head was buzzing but in a good way. He hadn’t drank too much and could very well be up for the job of performing. Sex with strangers was not as satisfying but much less complicated than with a woman he loved and cared about.

He didn’t make it a habit to perform oral sex on casual sexual partners. He might tease them with his fingers and hands but his mouth never strayed that far down south. If they were blow job enthusiasts, they could knock themselves right out but he wouldn’t return the favor.

He also kept it straight sexual intercourse with absolutely zero experimentation except for maybe a quick stroke of their perineum. It just wasn’t worth the hassle. It was how he kept his life compartmentalized, orderly and distinguished with what a relationship would be for him in his life.

Sex with Cassie was for fun and pleasure—nothing else. He didn’t need to feel anything for anyone else other than his former fiancée. Having the feelings he possessed for Deirdre and the day-in, day-out torment they caused for him was more than enough to deal with and he had no intention of making the situation more complicated than it was already.

Colin kissed Cassie again and as her tongue sought his out, he responded with abandon as his hands slowly encircled her firm breasts through the thin material.

“One other thing,” he began as he parted from her and actually stepped back physically. “I could get into a lot of trouble because, technically, I’m your boss. We are talking about a sexual harassment suit. You could later say I made promises to you based on the stipulation you slept with me. Have I coerced you or given you any reason to believe you would benefit from us having sex other than an orgasm or three?”

Cassie shook her head. “No, you haven’t and I want to do this with you. I understand we have created a conflict of interest because you are co-owner of the coffee shop and I’m your employee but it’s not like that. I am sexually attracted to you and that is why we’re going to do this and no other reason.”

Colin removed his Galaxy Note from his pocket and turned off the recorder. He held it up to her before he turned off his phone. “That was just a little insurance for both you and me. We can’t afford for this to get back to anyone at work or to the co-owner. Deirdre would frown on me sleeping with an employee and it has nothing to do with her being my ex-fiancée. She finds it tasteless and unnecessary.”

Cassie slipped her arms around his neck and pulled him closer to her. “I take it you two were never in each other’s employment?”

“No. We met through a mutual friend,” he explained quickly before he pressed his lips against hers to silence any other questions that might be forthcoming.

He had no reason what so ever to share the relationship he had with Deirdre to anyone and he certainly wouldn’t talk about it ad nauseum to someone as inconsequential and temporary as Cassie.

Her tongue tasted like Heineken and wintergreen mints. She was not a smooth lover and he could tell all her previous experiences had been with college or high school boys by the way she massaged his hardness through the black jeans he wore. Long gone were the days when a quick rub could cause him to lose control and blow his wad. It took a lot more finesse than that to get him off.

Colin led her to the bedroom slowly as he discarded her slinky dress only to leave her in a pair of high heel sandals and a white thong. He stopped, bent down and actually undid her sandals before they reached his room and she stepped out of them with sheer relief.

He wasn’t a complete and total brute. Her breasts were ripe, firm and all hers with quarter sized areolas with small hard nipples that were straining to be caressed. He allowed his mouth to fall to the right nipple as he slipped it into his mouth and teased her nipple with his tongue. She threw her head back as his left fingers squeezed her other nipple and brought it to attention.

Cassie began to breathe hard and he knew it wouldn’t take much to get her off. She had soaked her thong and the slick wetness from her snatch slid down her inner thighs. He looked down before he stared at her again and she looked away in embarrassment.

“Sorry…I get really wet when I am turned on and it’s a bit embarrassing. That isn’t pee…it’s…well, you know.”

Against his better judgment, he stripped his comforter from the bed before he laid her down and slipped her thong off. He knew he shouldn’t have but Colin could be a sucker for a wet pussy and this one was just begging to be loved all night long.

He spread her legs and admired her slippery sex, the inner and outer lips, the clit poised at attention and every part of her dripped wet with need and want. He spread her outer lips and slid his tongue between the inner lips before they met with the hardness of her clit and she gasped out loud.

Colin knew it wasn’t Deirdre but just picturing her creamy olive legs open before him transformed Cassie into the woman he loved with all his heart and it made the job that much easier to get her off. He spread her and continued to suckle on her clit before he spread her inner lips and tongued the opening between her legs which led to so much pleasure.

She gasped and writhed beneath him before she cried out his name and as her whole sex began to vibrate, he knew he had made her orgasm with little effort on his part. He hadn’t even slid any fingers inside of her and she probably had no idea where her G-spot was, let alone how much pleasure it could give to her.

He decided she could find all of that out later before she tackled him and they switched positions. He was now on the bottom and she was on the top. She ripped open his black silk shirt, buttons popped and flew everywhere, including the hardwood floor.

Cassie tongued his nipples quickly and greedily before her mouth began to lead much lower. She couldn’t undo the button on his jeans nor tear down his zipper fast enough before she reached inside and caressed his cock. He was “hard as Japanese arithmetic”, one of Drew’s favorite sayings only because he’d spent a year as a junior high exchange student in Japan and knew what their workload was like. The saying stuck and he found himself laughing quietly about where the statement had come from and why he had thought about it at that moment.

His lover wasn’t Deirdre and had none of her finesse when it came to taking his manhood in her mouth but she tried to do an adequate job and he supposed he should thank her for her efforts. Her tongue ran along the underside of his cock before she slipped the mushroom head into her mouth and began to move down slowly. She couldn’t get more than half of his length in her mouth and his most sensitive parts kept hitting her back teeth. She pumped the part of his cock she couldn’t fit with eager hands before he stopped her all together and tackled her onto her back.

Colin reached down and kissed her thoroughly before he whispered in her ear, “Get on your stomach, baby, with that beautiful ass of yours in the air.”

Cassie turned over reluctantly and posed for him in perfect position on all fours. From the back, she vaguely reminded him of Deirdre and that would make his orgasm that much more intense if he thought about making love to his former fiancée than her.

He was cruel, unnecessarily so, but the moment he thrust himself into her slippery depths, he began to fuck her mercilessly and without regard to whether she enjoyed herself or not.
College girls
, he thought to himself,
do they even know where their kegel muscles are and what they are for?

Although Cassie had prided herself for not sleeping around, she was still loose and he had to scissor her legs together just to get any friction. The sex was not satisfying and at this point, all he wanted to do was get off so he could send her on her way and go to sleep.

Colin was forced to turn her over and look into those large brown eyes while he held her legs together and thrust his cock back inside her. He closed his eyes and thought about Deirdre. Her gorgeous eyes and her beautiful body, her tight moist cunt surrounding his cock and milking the orgasm out of him as if her life depended upon it and just like that, he felt the semen build up from his balls and he pulled out of her and came on her stomach.

Dumb ass that he was, he’d forgotten to wear a condom. That was a safe sex message for college students if he knew one. And there was no excuse on his part because he had drawer full of rubbers right next to his bed.

Pissed and angry at himself, he stood though the feeling of exhaustion had already begun to hit him. He walked to his bathroom and started the shower. Before he climbed in, he grabbed a hand towel and walked it back to Cassie.

“Sorry about that. Listen, I have an early morning and you have work so I’ll see you tomorrow, yeah?”

The disappointment settled in her brown eyes first before she perked up. “You don’t want me to sleep over?”

“No, I don’t. That wouldn’t be a good idea and I’ve always been a bit selfish about my bed. Half the time, Deirdre would find herself on the floor in the middle of the night.”

Okay, that was an out right lie and taken from a scene he vaguely remembered on
Sex & the City
between Carrie and Mr. Big but it did the trick because Cassie hopped out of bed as soon as she wiped his semen off her stomach.

“See you tomorrow,” she murmured before she kissed him quickly on the lips and left his bedroom.

He listened until he heard her dress and not until the front door slammed did he breathe a sigh of relief.

Colin thanked his lucky stars it has been his idea for them to meet at his house so she could just hop into her car—a 2012 blue Ford Fiesta—and leave after their sexual activities were completed for the evening.

Alone at last.

Yes, he’d gotten laid but it was lousy and he realized with a dawning realization that no one was going to be able to take Deirdre’s place.

Not even temporarily.

Chapter Eleven

I awoke in Drake’s bed but we both had night clothing on. It was pretty silly actually but we’d both gone to sleep while watching our second sappy romantic drama for the night,
The Notebook
. The first had been
The Prince of Tides
. We discovered at the restaurant we both loved the film which had been directed by Barbara Streisand and not only had she acted in it but Nick Nolte was her co-star.

Drake had the film on blu-ray and had invited me over to watch it. There was no way in hell I was going to say no to a decent adaptation of a Pat Conroy novel which, of course, was heads and tails above the sappy romance dreck of
The Notebook
. Hell, not even Ryan Gosling could save it for me and that man was pretty hot as far as I was concerned. Not Drake, Colin, Liam or Drew hot but good looking and sexy never-the-less.

Dinner the previous night had been a revelation, mostly because it’d shown Drake to be a total gentleman. We drank and conversed like we were old pals and this frightened me in a way because I expected there to be at least a few awkward moments. He knew about my engagement to Colin, the miscarriage and ultimately why I fled though I had left the most important part out of the conversation.

I’d merely told him I was still getting over the death of my father and it had been a rough year for me. What he didn’t know was Liam and Colin had been directly responsible. His reaction to the incident itself had been enough for me to know that if I told him the truth, Colin would never keep his pretty boy looks. He would ruin them in a heartbeat and that kind of possessiveness unsettled me.