“For your information God wants people to be happy,”
Mol y went on defiantly. I had the sense that she was trying
to build a case like she’d seen in school debates. “Go forth
and multiply, right? I remember that much from Sunday
School.”
“Those directions were given to man,” Gabriel said very
quietly.
“So you don’t get to be happy? You can’t want a life?”
“It’s not question of wanting. It’s more a question of
design,” Gabriel said, and Mol y looked defeated. “You
need someone to love you the way you deserve. I promise
to watch over you every day of your life.” His voice was
tender. “I’l make sure you’re always safe.”
“No!” Mol y was yel ing like a spoiled child now. “That’s
not what I want.” She shook her head vehemently, causing
some of her copper curls to come loose and fal across her
pale face. Mol y was too caught up in her whirlwind of
emotions to notice, but Gabriel’s expression seemed to
shift as he watched her. On his face, I read a compulsive
desire to reach out to her—this strange, tumultuous
creature that he did not understand. His hand twitched and
he slowly lifted it, like he might be about to brush away her
tears.
Then Ivy stepped into the room wearing a bathrobe. She
looked surprised by the commotion and Gabriel quickly
dropped his hand, his face returning to its usual impassive
mask. A moment later Mol y bolted from the room, silent
tears stil streaming down her face.
Ivy shot him a sympathetic look. “I wondered how long it’d
be before that conversation happened.”
“You knew? Why didn’t you say something? It might have
helped me handle it better.”
“I doubt that,” said Ivy with quiet insight. If there was
anyone who could hope to understand Gabriel it was her.
While he remained complex and unreadable to people and
angels alike, Ivy had always had the uncanny ability to read
his thoughts.
“What should I do now?” It was rare for Gabriel to seek
counsel on any matter, but the nature of teenage love was a
complete mystery to him.
“Nothing,” Ivy replied. “These things happen. She’l get
over it.”
“I hope so,” my brother replied in a voice that made me
wonder if it was only Mol y he was thinking about.
Ivy lay down and turned out the light. Gabriel sat on the
edge of his bed, chin cupped in his hand, staring into the
darkness. He sat there, unmoving, long after Ivy had fal en
asleep.
28
Misery Loves Company
RETURNING to the constraints of my physical body came
as a rude shock to me. Being with my family and feeling
like part of their lives again had made me forget my current
predicament. Now I was back in my cramped cel in the
reeking chambers of Hades, where the space was so tight I
couldn’t stand up. As if to add to my woes, the air around
me was fil ed with the acrid stench of sulfur and continuous
lamentations for help. I had no idea how long I’d been
projecting, but I knew it must have been a while because al
my joints were stiff and my muscles ached when I moved.
Someone had thrust some dry crusts and a tin cup of
water into my cel . I sat in my nightgown, so besmirched by
muck that its original color was almost undetectable. I tried
to slow my breathing to fend off the escalating panic in my
chest. I huddled in the corner with my head tucked up
against my shoulder. Several times a shadowy warden
walked past to further torment the captive souls. He was
identifiable only by the fiery embers of his eyes and the
metal prongs he rattled along the bars. For some reason he
didn’t stop at my cel . Once I was sure he’d gone I pushed
myself over to the tin cup and took a long gulp of water. It
had an unpleasant metal ic taste. My whole body was sore,
but the sharpest pain was coming from behind my shoulder
blades. Now that I couldn’t even stretch anymore, my wings
ached worse than ever. I thought if I didn’t release them
soon I would go insane.
To distract myself I thought about Mol y and Gabriel. My
heart went out to them both. Whatever strange connection
existed between them had no hope of developing. Mol y
didn’t ful y grasp the concept of divine love. This was love in
its purest form, unaltered by human interpretation and
encompassing al living creatures. It was a celebration of
creation. Although he might be confused by the intensity of
Mol y’s emotions, I knew Gabriel would be fine. He would
not deviate from his purpose. He wouldn’t even need to
think about it. Mol y on the other hand would suffer badly
from the perceived rejection. I hoped Xavier would help her
through it. He’d grown up in a household ful of sisters—
he’d know what to say.
I knew Jake would show up eventual y and sure enough,
his silhouette appeared a moment later, hovering in the
darkness. His face emerged from behind the bars lit by the
long torch he carried. I could smel his spicy cologne and I
noticed that his presence no longer had the usual alarming
effect on me. In fact, it was the first time I was actual y
relieved to see him.
I inched forward, scraping my skin on the concrete floor
of the tiny enclosure. I would have liked to send him away,
but I couldn’t. I would have liked to express my anger, but I
wasn’t strong enough. We both knew I needed his help if I
didn’t want to perish in this hole in the wal , buried alive until
my body wasted away and my spirit was crushed.
“This is an outrage,” he hissed under his breath when the
torchlight revealed my condition. “I’l not forgive him for this.”
“Can you get me out of here?” I asked, hating myself for
my lack of stoicism. But seeing as I’d survived a burning at
the stake, maybe I wasn’t meant to be a martyr.
“Why do you think I came?” he said, looking pleased with
himself. He touched the lock on the cel and it turned to ash
and crumbled to the ground.
“Won’t Big Daddy find out about this?” I asked, surprised
to hear myself casual y using his nickname.
“Only a matter of time.” Jake sounded unconcerned.
“There are more spies down here than there are souls.”
“And then what?” I needed to know what the future held.
Was Jake only offering a temporary reprieve? He seemed
to read my thoughts.
“We’l worry about that later.”
He tugged at the cel door and it shifted a little, enough
for me to squeeze through.
“Hurry,” Jake urged, but I didn’t move. Moving in any
direction was difficult.
“How long have I been here?”
“Two days, but I hear you slept through most of it. Here,
give me your hand. I’m sorry things turned out like this.”
His apology caught me off guard. Jake was not in the
habit of accepting responsibility for the damage he’d
caused. He looked at me intently and I could see he had
something on his mind. His brow was creased and a look
of preoccupation had replaced his usual expression of
scornful detachment. His hawk-like gaze didn’t leave my
face.
“You’re not wel ,” he observed at last. I wondered what
made him think I’d be wel given the circumstances. Jake
was like a chameleon; he could change his manner to suit
his own agenda. Right now his solicitous behavior was
unsettling me and I couldn’t resist a sarcastic reply.
“Being kept in a cage doesn’t do much for the
complexion,” I muttered.
“I’m trying to help you here—you could at least show
some appreciation.”
“Haven’t you helped me enough?” I said, but when he
offered me his hand again I took it.
Slowly and by using his arm to support my weight I
managed to wriggle out of the compartment. I found that
although I could stand I couldn’t take more than a step or
two without my legs giving way. Jake took one look at me
before handing me the torch and lifting me into his arms.
He strode out of the chambers with a regal confidence and
although I was sure I saw eyes like burning coals watching
us through the gloom, no one made any attempt to stop us.
Outside the chambers Jake’s motorbike was waiting. He
deposited me careful y on the back before mounting and
switching on the ignition. Seconds later I was pressed
against him as the suffocating chambers of Hades
disappeared behind me.
“Where are we going?” I whispered, seeing unfamiliar
surroundings.
“I have an idea I think might make you feel better.”
Jake drove without stopping until we reached the
entrance to a deep gorge with steep cliff wal s and black
running water that seemed to flow into a channel
underground. Jake dismounted lightly, watching me with
growing agitation.
“Are you in pain?”
I nodded mutely. There was little point withholding
information from him now. There was nothing he could do
with it that could possibly worsen my situation. Jake
seemed to have anticipated what was happening to me
and seemed more informed than I was.
“Tel me,” he continued. “How do your wings feel?”
The directness of the question caught me off guard and I
felt myself blush suddenly. There was something about it I
found objectionable. My wings were one thing that defined
my very existence. I had worked hard to keep them from
prying human eyes. They were an intensely personal part of
me and I wasn’t sure I wanted to discuss their condition with
Jake Thorn, Prince of Hades.
“I haven’t given them much thought,” I said evasively.
“Wel , think about them now.”
Once Jake had drawn my attention to them I became
aware of how they were throbbing beneath my shoulder
blades, burning to be released. Every so often they sent
shooting pains down my back. I felt irritated with him for
drawing my attention to the problem. I had deliberately
chosen to ignore the issue of my wings. What was the point
of doing otherwise in Hades?
“We need to do something about them,” Jake said
decisively. “If you want to keep them that is.”
I didn’t like his use of the plural
we
rather than
you
. It
made me feel as if we were working as a team, as if we
had shared problems we could tackle together. I gave him
a blank stare.
“Perhaps what I’m trying to say might be better
demonstrated.” Before I knew it Jake was peeling off his
black leather jacket and flinging it to the ground. He turned
his back to me and pul ed his shirt up over his head. Then
he stood with his back straight and his head slightly bowed,
a humbling pose that looked distinctly out of place on him.
“What do you see?” he asked in a muted voice. I
scanned the contours of his back. Jake’s shoulders were
slender but wel formed and not unathletic. He didn’t have
bulging muscles, but every tendon was taut and lean and
rippled when he moved. He looked fast on his feet and
dangerous.
“I don’t see anything,” I replied, averting my eyes.
“Look closely,” Jake urged, taking a step backward so
he was even closer, his back bent in front of me in a white
arc. Something caught my eye then and I looked with open
curiosity. The skin on his back was smooth and
unblemished except for two rows of tiny pea-size nodules
that ran like an extra set of vertebrae under each shoulder
blade. The row of little beads under his skin, only a
centimeter or two apart, looked like scarring from wounds