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Authors: Clare Atkins

Nona and Me

Clare Atkins has worked as a scriptwriter for many successful television series, including
All Saints
,
Home and Away
,
Winners and Losers
and
Wonderland
.
Nona and Me
, which she wrote while living in Arnhem Land, is her first book.
www.clareatkins.com.au

Published by Black Inc.,

an imprint of Schwartz Publishing Pty Ltd

37–39 Langridge Street

Collingwood VIC 3066 Australia

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Copyright © Clare Atkins 2014

Clare Atkins asserts her right to be known as the author of this work.

ALL RIGHTS RESERVED.

No part of this publication may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted in any form by any means electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording or otherwise without the prior consent of the publishers.

National Library of Australia Cataloguing-in-Publication entry:

Atkins, Clare, 1980– author.

Nona & me / Clare Atkins.

9781863956895 (paperback)

9781922231680 (ebook)

A823.4

Cover art and design by Astred Hicks, Design Cherry

Some sounds in Yolŋu languages do not conform exactly to English pronunciation. As it has become a written language, new letters have been included that symbolise these sounds.

ŋ
pronounced “ng” as in sung
ä
pronounced like the “a” in father
d
,
t
,
l
,
n
retroflex consonants formed with the bottom of the tip of the tongue curled up to the roof of the mouth

1.

2007

I see her across the school yard. It's like a ghost
passing. One second she's there and then she's gone, trailing Mrs Reid around the corner in the direction of the front office. Was it really her? I replay the moment. That glimpse of her determined, upright walk. The set of her face. Her quiet strength. A lot about her has changed, but that hasn't. It has to be her.

Something jabs me in the ribs.

“Hello, Miss Daydream!”

Make that someone. Selena is waving her hand in front of my face. “Rosie, you with us?”

“Sorry.”

We are sitting in our usual spot, on the benches near the basketball court. Just close enough to see the boys playing, not so close that we seem desperate. It is May; the wet season has just ended, and everything glows green.

Selena sighs, as if having to repeat herself for a small child. “I was saying, do you want to get ready at my house?”

Anya chimes in. “For Libby's party.”

“What time?”

“Whenever your mum can drop you into town.”

I hate living out at Yirrkala. It's only a twenty-minute drive from town but it might as well be a different planet.

“I probably can't get there 'til after five. Mum will be working.”

“Okay, but no later than that if we want to you-know-what.”

Selena grins conspiratorially. She wants to go fridging before the party. She's tried to talk us into it before, but this time she's got an address: the house of some government guy who travels for work. He doesn't have a dog. She's insistent there's no way we'll get caught, but even the idea of it makes me nervous. I've never drunk alcohol before, let alone stolen it. I look away. My gaze drifts to the basketball court.

Selena's brother, Nick, is shooting hoops with his best mate, Benny. He jumps and grabs a rebound, pausing to brush his shaggy brown hair back from his face, before bouncing it back out to half-court. His long, lean body gleams with sweat.

There's a slight irritation in her voice as Selena says loudly, “Can you stop perving on my brother for one second?”

Nick is back at the hoop now. He pauses mid-shot, his blue eyes glinting with amusement. He's obviously heard. Anya giggles.

I turn back to Selena, embarrassed. “I'm listening!”

“What was I saying then?”

“Five at the latest if we want to you-know-what.”

She senses my reluctance and says, “It's a Year 12 party. Everyone else will be drinking. Nick will be.”

I sneak another glance. He's bouncing the ball in a lazy figure of eight now, laughing as Benny tries to swipe it away. I wonder if he's showing off for my benefit.

“So, are you in?”

Anya says, “I am.” She looks smug. We used to be good friends, before Selena.

They're both looking at me now, waiting.

My stomach churns, but I say, “Yeah. Of course.”

The bell goes. We pick up our bags and reluctantly meander to class.

Selena falls in beside me. “What are you going to wear, then? And please don't tell me your mum's making you something.” She nudges me. “Well?”

“You said don't tell you.”

“Oh no. What is it this time? Tie dye? Screen print?”

I mumble a response. Selena leans in closer. “What?”

“Tea towels.”

“Tea towels?” Her voice rises to an incredulous shriek. “You can't be serious.”

“She's sewing them together to make a dress.” I have to smile. It is one of mum's crazier designs.

Selena shoots a look at Anya, who says, “Your mum is so out there.”

She's sounding more like Selena every day.

Selena is laughing now. “You're not really going to wear it, are you?”

“I'll wear it as far as your house –”

“I can't wait to see that!”

“– then can I borrow something?”

“If you're nice to me.”

Selena is always lending me clothes. She has a cupboard full of dresses by designers I've mostly never heard of. She buys them online or on her frequent family holidays to Darwin, Cairns or overseas. Her dad works at the mine: he's loaded.

Anya says, “Why don't you just tell your mum you want to buy a dress?”

I glare at her. She knows the answer; I can't bring myself to tell Mum I don't want her to sew clothes for me anymore. She's been doing it since I was little. It's her way of convincing herself I'm not a “neglected single-parent child”. I used to love her creations, but lately I've felt like it's a tradition I've outgrown.

We move into the History classroom and take our seats. It goes Anya, Selena, me.

Miss Fuller writes in big letters on the board, then turns to face us. “Federation.”

Why do teachers always do that? It's up there in capital letters. We can read.

There's a knock at the door. And then Mrs Reid is showing her in. It is her. I knew it. It's Nona. I want to jump up and hug her but I stay glued to my seat. Nona raises her dark eyes and locates me in the sea of uniformed students. She gives me a shy smile. I feel Selena turn in the seat next to me. I don't need to look to see her disbelieving expression:
You know her?

Nona is wearing a basketball singlet, stretchy purple shorts and worn white thongs. Her legs are tall, black and skinny. Her feet look tough. On her arms, I notice a few dark scars near her shoulders, and wonder what they're from. Her long wavy hair is freshly washed and tied back in a careful ponytail. She could be any Yolŋu girl in this school. But she's not.

There's only one desk empty so she sits up the front.

Mrs Reid smiles warmly at the class. “Everyone, this is Nona. She's joining 10B. She's just moved back here from Elcho Island. Please make her feel welcome.”

She gives Nona a reassuring nod. “You need anything, just come and see me.”

Nona nods back and Mrs Reid heads out.

Miss Fuller smiles at Nona then launches into a spiel about Federation. It's obvious she's practised this at home. Miss Fuller is young and enthusiastic, a fresh recruit from Melbourne. Probably came straight from university to Nhulunbuy. She could've done worse than a remote mining town, I guess. She could've been posted to a community school like Yirrkala.

Miss Fuller hands out comprehension sheets, instructing us to pick out the key dates and put them on a timeline. She hesitates at Nona's desk, then squats down next to her, lowering her voice. “Do you want to do this? If you don't want to I can give you an exercise to do with Luke and Ali.”

Ali has just arrived here. He's from Iraq. Until now, Luke has been the only Yolŋu kid in our class. Miss Fuller sets special tasks for them because their English isn't great. Half the time Luke's away. The rest he sits there, silent. Sometimes he just walks out. Miss Fuller never asks him where he's going or tells him to come back. She's out of her depth when it comes to Luke.

Ali smiles at Nona, but Luke just keeps staring out the window. I can see one of his skinny feet tapping to an unheard beat. I wonder if Nona and Luke are related and, if so, how.

Nona reaches out and takes the comprehension sheet.

Miss Fuller smiles nervously. “Okay, great.”

She gives Nona a pen and paper.

Nona's voice used to be full of laughter, like even her insides were grinning. But now it comes out soft and flat. “You got a pencil?”

“Sorry?”

“Pencil.”

“Oh. Yes. Sure.”

Miss Fuller gets her one. Selena smirks. She writes on the side of her exercise book, nudging it over so I can read.

What are we – in primary school?

I force a smile. I tell myself the words are harmless, just a joke.

I watch Nona as she starts to work. She begins by colouring in the holes in the letters – the a's, the o's, the d's, the e's. By the end of the lesson they are all filled in. I lean forward and see she's also drawn in the left margin, decorating it with swirls and … are they turtles? I can't quite make it out from my desk. It's beautiful, though. Shades of grey-lead ocean.

Selena catches me looking and underlines her previous words:

primary school

Miss Fuller passes Nona and sees what she's doing. I wait for a reaction but our teacher just nods and smiles and walks on.

Selena whispers, “Can you imagine if one of
us
did that?”

Selena always talks like that. Us and them. Ŋäpaki and Yolŋu.

She's right, though. If a Ŋäpaki kid – a non-Aboriginal kid – did that Miss Fuller would be telling them to start working or stay and do it in detention.

Selena articulates the question this time. “You know her?”

I want to say yes. I want to say,
She's my sister. She was my best friend
. But I know Selena would find that crazy and I don't want to explain. So I say, “She knows my mum.”

“From the art centre?”

I nod, convincing myself it's easier this way.

The bell goes and we throw our timelines onto Miss Fuller's desk as we stream out to our next classes. Selena moves off. She chose Cert One in Business as an elective, which is ridiculous. She hates anything to do with maths, and thinks the only function of the economy is to determine how much stuff from the US costs online. But her old man said she should do it, so she did. And Anya chose it because Selena did. I couldn't bring myself to study something I'd never use. I figured Hospitality at least might help me get a job in town once I get my P's.

I feel someone touch my arm. I look down and see a dark-brown hand. Long fingernails. A pale palm.

I hear her voice say, “
Yapa
.” Sister. And suddenly I'm six years old again. We're in my bedroom holding hands.

I look up at Nona. “Mum said you were back.”

“Got here last week.”

“Are you living at your grandma's?”

Nona shakes her head. “In Birritjimi. My aunty's house. You remember Tina? She just had a baby, a little boy. We're living with them – me, my mum and the smalls.”

I smile at the mention of her two little sisters; they're only a couple of years younger than us, but we always called them the smalls to make ourselves feel bigger. Nona smiles shyly back at me. There is so much to say. So much I want to know. But I can feel Selena and Anya watching us. They're standing outside their classroom, waiting to go in. Selena makes eye contact and frowns, as if to say,
What are you doing?
I remember what school was like before she came. Me and Anya, always on the periphery. Not a real group, just two loners clinging desperately together. It was years ago but it was yesterday. I feel sick.

I turn back to Nona. My words come out abruptly. “I'd better go. See you round.”

I see Nona's face fall, a crumple of confusion. And then I'm walking away. I can hear a voice in my head.
Chicken-shit
. But I keep walking.

*

The school bus is a cool, air-conditioned bubble. Outside, trimmed green lawns blur into bush as we leave town. There's only a handful of us now. Most of the Ŋäpaki students get off in Nhulunbuy. For the drive to Yirrkala it's just a handful of kids from the primary school and me, Aiden, Mattie and Dhatam' from the high school.

Dhatam' and Mattie are in Year 7. The two girls sit in front of us, swinging their legs. Yolŋu and Ŋäpaki, side by side. They remind me of how things used to be with Nona. I'm almost jealous of their easy companionship.

Dhatam' listens attentively as Mattie discusses the virtues of various hairstyles. “I can do plaits on other people, but I can't do them on myself. I need Mum to do them. Or Dad. But he's not as good.”

She swivels around to face her brother, who's sitting beside me. “Is Mum back from her bush trip today, Aiden?”

Aiden doesn't hear. He has headphones on. His hazel eyes are staring out the window. The volume is up so loud I can hear the music from where I'm sitting beside him. I peer at his iPod display. It says “When the War Is Over” by Cold Chisel.

Mattie waves a hand in front of his face. “Aiden!”

He removes one earbud.

“Is Mum getting home today?”

“Yeah.”

Their parents are rangers. They moved here from some desert community five years ago. Aiden jams the earbud back in and returns to his window-gazing. Not the most talkative guy, Aiden. Still, I'm grateful for his company. It saves me from sitting alone. I hate being alone. I always feel so conspicuous, like I've got some huge sign on my head that says “loser for life”. And even if Aiden's not super-popular, sitting next to him is almost cool because he's in the year above me.

There's only one road from town to Yirrkala. It is fairly nondescript: almost imperceptible undulations of bitumen and curves of terracotta dirt. Eucalypts punctuated by cycads and the odd termite mound. Signs to the Nhulunbuy tip, the motorcross speedway and the gun club.

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