Authors: R. G. Richards
“All right, Zee,” said Jones. “You’re up.”
I racked my brain deciding who to go after. Of course, it had to be Charley. He only had his boxers and if he failed the challenge, I win. If he succeeds, we show our cards, again, I win. “Truth or Dare, Charley?”
A coy smile, “Dare.”
Asshole. Now, I had to rack my brain to come up with something good, something he would never do. “I Dare you . . . to kiss, Jones.” I had him, victory was mine.
Brittany and Jones busted out laughing. I will admit, I joined in. To see the smug look wiped off his face thrilled me.
Charley winked at Jones. He tried to hide it by putting his hand to his face, faking embarrassment, but I saw it. He gave me another smile, one of those like Thompson used to give me. Charley boldly rose and went to Jones. Oh my God! No! He smiled at me, bent down, took Jones’ hand, and looking at me, kissed it. “Task completed, I win. Now, let me see, panties or shirt, a tough choice, indeed. I think I better play it safe and choose the panties. I wouldn’t want you catching a chest cold, you know, pneumonia and all.”
With every word he spoke, I boiled. Did he think he had me? “I won, you didn’t do it right.”
“No,” thundered Charley, “I won! You said kiss him and I kissed him.”
“That was his hand!” I shot back with all the boisterous anger I could muster.
“Well,” he feigned surprise, “I know he is your friend and you want to give him a treat, but where exactly did you want me to kiss him?” he put his hand to his mouth in shock.
Jones and Brittany were at it again. Their laughter was loud and annoying, I wanted to knock them both out. They were rolling, at my expense. “You bastard! You know I didn’t mean it that way. That’s not even the point, you cheated and you lost. I won!”
I pointed, spit, and everything else, as I lost all traces of decorum. The thing that infuriated me most was his calmness, the smug bastard.
“No, I won, Miss Goody Two-Shoes.”
I threw the cards I was holding in his face. I picked up the ones near me and through them as well. Charley lunged at me, and I at him. We hit the floor and rolled around. When we settled in one spot, my hands were wrapped around his throat and his around mine. The intensity of the moment added energy to my grip and I wanted to kill him. Flashes of what he had done to Thompson danced across my mind and I gripped tighter.
Jones and Brittany hollered, screamed, and tugged at us both. None of it mattered to me, I was right and he was wrong and he was going to pay for it all. Finally. In the end, they resorted to the most unusual tactic imaginable. Jones hit Charley in the back with a baton at the same moment Brittany struck me. We both let go and groaned in pain. Brittany grabbed me and Jones grabbed Charley. Jones pulled him backward and dragged him into the large walk-in closet. Brittany held me tightly, squeezing the air out of my lungs, I nearly passed out.
“Britt!”
She let go. “Sorry, you left me no choice.”
Common sense set in. I took a deep breath and it hurt like hell. I felt to see if I had a cracked rib, I didn’t though it felt like I did.
“My God, Zee. How could you? You are a head case.”
Heavy breathing was all I could manage. It took all my focus to get my breathing under control so I could relax and think rationally. When I did, I hated myself. The full extent of what I had done hit me and I felt remorse.
“I don’t know why I did that, it just happened.” I pulled myself up to the wall.
“You know, Zee. Hell, anybody looking could see it.”
She was talking about Thompson again. I hate to admit it, she was right. I blame Charley for Thompson’s death, I always will.
“I’ll apologize in the morning. It was the alcohol. You know how it intensifies things? I got a little crazy. From now on, no more alcohol, problem solved.”
“Stick your head in the sand,” said Brittany. The look on her face was of anger, not confusion, as if she meant it as a question. “That’s your answer?”
“I’m not sticking my head in the sand. I get a little out of control when I have too much to drink. It’s easy to fix, stop drinking. Problem solved.”
“Look, Zee. We are living in hell for who knows how much longer. You have a choice between living before you die, really living, Zee, experiencing all that life has to offer. Or you can stick your head in the sand and be gloomy until death takes you. I have made my choice, you make yours.”
Jones came out of the closet, picked up the table we knocked over, and sat down. He dare not look at me, I felt awful. Brittany went to the table and sat next to him. They lowered their voices and leaned in to talk to each other. I couldn’t hear, but whilst they talked, Brittany giggled.
Even in these difficult times, Brittany found something to laugh about, something to be happy about. She and Jones laughed quietly. The fiasco the night turned into didn’t bother them one bit. I wish I could brush it off and began anew. It’s a much happier world they live in than I.
I looked toward the closet door, it remained open and no sound came from within. I briefly wondered what he was doing and briefly allowed myself to wonder if he was in pain or asleep. Brittany and Jones recaptured my attention with their giggles. Afterward, Jones got up and closed the curtains, darkening the room again. By candle light, I sat against the wall and watched him and Brittany move the table against a far wall. He then took her hand and led her to the pallet on the floor and they disappeared beneath the covers. I heard the same giggling from the previous night and it dawned on me, this wasn’t a first for them. They hid it so well and she never said a word to me, her blood brother.
I thought on what Brittany had said earlier about living life with reckless abandon. Perhaps, she chose tonight to let me know and fully commit. Perhaps, she chose long ago.
I sat and zoned out. I thought of Thompson and how I felt about him and then I took an honest look at Charley. I tried to be scientific and stack the good and the bad and admit to painful truths. I liked Thompson and I liked how I felt when he touched me. He made me feel special and I liked it. I think I fought for his memory for those reasons.
Taking a rational look at Charley, I will admit he is attractive and tall. His chest was a sculpture, a dream come true, and his blue eyes were dazzling. I didn’t know if feelings for him betrayed feelings for Thompson. I refused to consider or delve deeper into my psyche. I was content to only skim the surface and admit I liked the man.
The last thing to do was to think about tomorrow and what if we died making our way to the camp. How did I want to die? What did I want to be my last thought? What would be my last perfect memory before dying? I had already come up with the answer. Brittany’s soft sigh reinforced it for me. For the rest of the night, Zora was dead. It was the only way I could think of to make the change. Tonight, I will live in the moment and tomorrow would take care of itself.
I got to my feet and walked to the closet. Inside, I found Charley lying on the floor on a pile of clothes. The closet was big and spacious, the size of the smallest bedroom in the house. He turned and looked at me. I read his apology in his face and smiled. Charley returned my smile. I pulled my shirt over my head and closed the door. To my surprise, the door creaked open a bit and candlelight flickered in the room. I gazed into his eyes and found something there I hadn’t expected to find. I lay on top of him and I kissed him. I shut out the world, forgot all my hang-ups, and I lived in the moment. Thompson, I’m dancing.
Chapter 19
Someone kicked my foot. “Hey!” I opened my eyes to bright sunlight. I lie at the bottom of a pile of clothes on Charley, I slept on his chest. When my eyes focused, Brittany and Jones were standing in the door with wide grins plastered beneath their lying faces.
“We don’t talk about the night,” said Jones.
“Get up for breakfast,” beamed Brittany, “we leave in an hour, so don’t waste our precious time.”
“What?”
Jones reached down and grabbed Charley. “Come on buddy, we have to check our perimeter and make plans.” Jones pulled Charley away from me and they left the room together. I lie on the floor, looking at Brittany’s smirk-filled face. Was she delighted to have seen a naked Charley go by? Had Jones been delighted at seeing my unvarnished backside? I looked at her again. Was she delighted her scheme had worked?
“What is going on?”
“It’s almost noon. We are going to eat and hit the road. I told Jones to get Charley so there wouldn’t be any awkward small talk.”
“Thanks.”
“So?”
“So?”
Brittany looked disappointed with me. She reached down and held up my bag. Tossing it to me, she said, “get dressed, today is the day.” With that, she turned and left. Zora was back and Brittany didn’t like her.
I quickly dressed and ran to the window for a look. Zombies left during the night and only a handful remained, aimlessly walking up and down the street. At the table, Brittany had our meal ready to go. She watched me come to the table and I read her expression easily enough. I ignored it.
“What’s for breakfast?”
First a look, then a head shaking, her only retort. “Sardines and crackers for the journey.”
Brittany hadn’t opened any of the tins and chewed on a cracker while she stared out into space. I needed to kill time so I took a moment to read the label on my can of sardines, checking its caloric chart. It amused me and made me think of when it was that I last performed such a check. If nothing else, zombies were women’s natural diet partner. No woman in her right mind wonders how fat she is anymore, except in terms of how fast she can run away from flesh-eating monsters. Body image issues are a thing of the past, good riddance.
Jones and Charley came back from their perimeter check and joined us at the table. Naturally, Charley sat next to me and Jones next to Brittany. Charley said a quick prayer for our safety and we began to eat.
I cautiously observed them all while trying to figure out my place in Charley’s life. I don’t mean to say I was planning on a white house with picket fence and the standard two kids with dogs. It was more like: What do I say to him? Do I thank him? Do I pretend it never happened? Do I not talk about it? Does he want me to? He sat next to me, is that significant? I never read men my whole short life and other than Charley, I had a boyfriend for approximately three days——long enough for him to get the goods and get out of Dodge. Yes, that’s me, no-experience Zora.
Before the end came, I had met a nice guy. We dated off and on for three months without a deep commitment. He never made a move on me and I liked him for it, however it did make me wonder if he maybe had a little sugar in his tank. That’s my mom’s way of putting it; she hated saying the words, gay or homosexual. It doesn’t matter now. Zombies ate him as he came through the door to rescue me. He was simple and expressed his feelings. Charley, on the other hand, said very little.
Perhaps his being next to me, it could be his words, couldn’t it? I decided I would not push it and keep silent. We kept silent and ate. After breakfast, Jones placed a map on the table. “We’re here and this is where we need to go.”
“Are we going by road?”
“No.” Jones pointed away from the road. “We have encountered zombies near the road at every turn. We will cut across the fields and travel away from them. It will take longer, but may be a safer route. Look guys, if one of us doesn’t make it, the rest have to continue and make it to safety. If we run into zombies and one of us is surrounded, the rest do not help, we keep moving. Do you understand?”
We looked at one another. We understood, but didn’t want to say it or promise it.
“If I’m surrounded and can’t get away,” said Brittany, “I don’t want to be eaten or turned. I want all of you to promise me right now you won’t let it happen. Promise me you will shoot me and spare me the horror.”
“Britt?”
“Promise me, Zee.”
“I promise.”
“And you, Charley.”
Charley looked sad, but reluctantly agreed. “I promise.”
Brittany turned to the man beside her, saving him for last.” Jones?”
Jones grinned. “You don’t have to ask, I’ll gladly put a hole in your head.”
“Make it count,” she smirked, “right between the eyes.”
“No doubt,” said Jones. He looked longingly into her eyes and caressed the back of her hand for a brief second.
“Are you expecting zombies?” I asked more to break up the uncomfortable moment than for a reply. They were making me sick. I could throw caution to the wind for a moment only; embarrassment embedded itself into my core being and would require an exorcism for removal.
“Don and Ruthie were not on the road,” said Jones.
Remembering Thompson’s words, I blurted, “the zombies we find in the country will be stronger and take longer to take down. That will increase our chances of someone getting hurt. Wouldn’t it be better to stick closer to the roads?”
“How is that better?” he asked.
“The city zombies will be easier to kill than the country zombies.”
“What?” asked Brittany, unaware of the new term I coined.
“The newest zombies will be in the country. They will be stronger and take longer to kill because they have recently turned. I would rather fight a dozen weak ones than one strong one. There is a greater chance of us getting killed with the country zombies and I don’t know about you, but I got somewhere I need to be.”