âWe're not supposed to let no one in,' said the woman, and then giggled, suddenly, hand over her mouth. The giggle was echoed by her sister, standing just behind her. They were identical, dressed in matching grey cardigans and rose-print house-dresses. âIf Dad comes back,' said the first, âwe'll have to let you out the yard. There's a gate into the lane.'
âAre you expecting him?' asked Catrin.
âNo. He's shrimping.'
âShrimping,' said her sister, in a tiny voice.
âHe shouldn't be here till dark.' Though it was already dark in the hall, the only source of illumination an open door into a back room, through which an oblong of daylight extended.
âSo can we have a chat?' asked Catrin, tentatively.
The sisters looked at each other. âAll right,' said the first, with sudden daring.
âAnd can I ask â who's who?'
âShe's Lily,' said the first, âand I'm Rose.'
They chose the front parlour to sit in, and Catrin, ushered to an upright armchair upholstered in slippery chintz, knew that she should feel honoured. It was, clearly, a room used only for special occasions â for funerals, at a guess, and for Christmas Day, judging by the pair of faded paper stars on the mantelpiece. The grate was empty, and spotless, the room frigid. The sisters sat together on a tiny sofa facing the window, the light on their faces revealing that they were much younger than she'd taken them for â those awful clothes, the old-fashioned hairstyles, had deceived her, they were barely in their thirties. And they weren't identical: Lily's nose had a deep horizontal groove above the tip, like a thumbnail-print scored in clay. They were strapping girls, wide-shouldered, clearly strong. For the first time since seeing them, since hearing those baby voices, Catrin could imagine the sisters handling a boat, setting out across the Channel towards a pall of smoke.
âSo,' she said, realizing from the deepening silence that she should speak first. âYou went to Dunkirk.'
Rose glanced at Lily and then back at Catrin. âNo,' she said.
For one wild moment, Catrin thought she'd come to the wrong house: perhaps the Starling sisters, loquacious and cinematic, were next door. âYou
didn't
go?'
âNo. We meant to go but the engine stopped five miles out and it was a broken bearing, so we couldn't do nothing about it, and we was drifting because there wasn't no wind. And then this steam tug out of Sheerness was coming back from France full of soldiers, so they give us a tow to Dover, and we took some of their soldiers because there was so many on board they was spilling over the rails.' Her sister nodded in mute confirmation. âAnd someone must have seen us get back there,' continued Rose, âand thought we'd gone all the way to France, but Dad said we wasn't to talk to no newspapers so we couldn't tell them they was wrong.'
Catrin looked at the blank page of her notepad. She had travelled for five and a half hours for this. âFlesh out the newspaper story,' Buckley had said. âWe're looking for a bit of colour, a few scraps of authenticity to wave at the men from the ministry.'
Scrapless, she groped for another question. âWhat sort of boat was it?'
âFlat-bottomed thirty-six-foot gaff-cutter Bawley with a Kelvin petrol engine.'
Catrin watched her pen obediently write â
36 foot
' and â
petrol engine
'. Her brain seemed to have entirely stopped working.
âAnd did . . . did anything else happen on the journey?'
âWell . . .' Rose gave a sudden hiccough of laughter. âWhen we got to Dover, and they was all disembarking, one of the soldiers had a kit bag with him and suddenly it woofed and it give us such a fright, and it turned out there was a dog in it he was trying to smuggle in. And then one of the Frenchies give Lily a kiss.' Her sister smiled shyly, and then whispered something to Rose.
âLily wants to know, if you're in films have you met Robert Donat?'
âNo,' said Catrin, âI'm afraid not.'
âOr John Clements?'
âNo.'
âLily's favourite's Robert Donat and mine's John Clements, and Lily likes Errol Flynn as well. We always go to the Corona on Tuesdays and Thursdays when Dad goes to Oddfellows, and sometimes we go on Sundays.'
Catrin smiled and nodded. If I leave now, she thought, and I'm lucky with a lift to Southend, I might still get back to London before the evening siren. She closed her notepad; Rose's eyes followed the movement.
âWill it be a film?' she asked, and there was such raw hope in her voice that Catrin almost flinched. She opened her mouth to attempt an answer.
âBecause they change things in films, don't they?' said Rose. âAnd theyâ' she broke off and both sisters turned their heads in synchrony. There was a tiny noise from the street, a scuff of feet on the doorstep.
â
Dad
,' said Lily, and she was on her feet and pushing Catrin towards the parlour door and along the passageway to the kitchen, and Catrin, infected by the panic that imbued the air like gas, had run halfway across the yard, and was struggling to find a gap in the vast damp barrier of pegged sheets, when there was a call from the house.
âIt's not. It's not him.'
She looked back, and saw Lily and Rose holding hands in the kitchen doorway.
âIt's not him,' said Rose. She was still a little breathless. âIt was the Street Savings Committee woman, Mrs Gerraghty. She usually comes tomorrow.'
âOh . . .' Catrin, feeling idiotic, let drop a section of sheet.
âShe's collecting for a Spitfire.'
âI thought it was Dad,' said Lily. Red circles stood out on her cheeks, like stage make-up.
âIt's all right, Lily,' said Rose. âIt's all right.'
Catrin looked from one to the other. âWhat's the matter? What would happen if he found me here?'
It was Lily who answered with an unconscious gesture, her hand lifting towards her damaged nose. Catrin found herself echoing the movement, and clamped her fingers together.
âWhen did he do that? Was that when you got back from Dover?'
Lily shook her head. âNo, it was last year.'
âButâ'
âWe shouldn't stay out here,' said Rose. âThe neighbours might see you.'
In the kitchen, beside the unlit range, they formed a little huddle, Lily a step away from the others, keeping one ear cocked for the front door.
âHe won't be back until dark,' Rose repeated, but there was a pervasive feeling of urgency, as if the sisters were correspondents under fire, relaying news between shell-bursts. Catrin looked at Rose's face, a foot from her own, at the mild grey eyes, at the white line, like a diagonal parting, that ran through one of her eyebrows.
âWhy does he do it?' asked Catrin.
âWell, he's got a temper on him,' said Rose, in the same tone with which she might have complained of smelly feet, or a tendency to snore. âIf he gets angry then you have to watch out.'
âWhat makes him angry?'
âBurnt bits in food,' said Lily, pulling at a button on her cardigan.
âAnd singers on the wireless,' said Rose. âAnd talking at table. And he won't have strangers in the house.'
âBut you let me in,' said Catrin.
âWe oughtn't to have, really.'
Lily let out a little sigh, like a kettle taken off the hob. âBut you're in the pictures,' she said.
âI'm only . . .' Catrin looked at Lily's expression and couldn't bring herself to admit the tenuousness of her connection.
âAnd whistling indoors,' added Rose. âAnd feeding crumbs to birds because that's like throwing food away. And opening the windows at night.'
âHair curlers,' said her sister, in a voice barely audible.
âHair curlers, that's right. And he won't take the smell of cabbage cooking, and we can't have . . .'
Item after item, suffocatingly, the list uncoiled; Catrin felt her throat constrict. âBut however in the world did you come to take the boat?' she asked. It was a feat that suddenly seemed to her more courageous than a dash through gunfire.
âOh . . . well, the navy at Southend told all the cocklers they wanted boats with crews that could work the beaches, and our dad said he couldn't go to France because the engine wouldn't take it, and the other cocklers give him a bit of stick for that, so he went off and got a bottle.'
âHe got tight?'
âYes, and we knew he'd be asleep for most of the day, so we thought we could get there and back before he woke, but we was sure they wouldn't want women to go, so we went separate from the other cocklers. We thought we'd follow them from a mile back, but then dad was right, he wasn't just saying that about the engine, because we broke down, didn't we?'
âAnd what happened when you got back?'
âDad chucked a boot at me, but it missed and went through the front door. And then he chucked the other boot.' She hesitated before touching her eyebrow, lightly.
âBut . . .' There was, she realized, a part of the story still missing. â. . . what made you actually decide to go to France? You must have known that it would be terribly dangerous â in all sorts of ways.'
The sisters exchanged the look that Catrin had come to recognize as a simultaneous asking and granting of consent. As usual, it was Rose who answered.
âEric Lumb, what used to be Dad's first mate, is over there.'
âIn France? With the BEF?'
Rose nodded.
âAnd he's a friend of yours?'
A pause and then another nod.
âAnd did he get back safely?'
A smile, this time. âHis nan got a postcard. From in Scotland somewhere.'
Lily leaned across and whispered something in her sister's ear.
âGo on, then,' said Rose. âYou get it.' They both watched her disappear into the gloom of the hall.
In the silence, Catrin met Rose's eyes. She didn't ask the question aloud, but Rose answered. âWe promised Mum, see, that we'd look after Dad.'
âBut . . .'
âAnd he don't lay a finger on Lily no more.'
âWhy not?'
âBecause after she burned that chop I told him it wasn't fair, because she's not as quick as other people. And I said if he did ever chuck a plate at her again I'd push him over the rail next time we was out. He can't swim,' she added.
It took a couple of attempts before Catrin could speak. âWhat did he say, then?'
âHe didn't say nothing,' said Rose in that little Toytown voice. It was, almost, an admission of triumph.
Lily came back down the stairs with an envelope in her hand. She gave it to Catrin, and watched her face as Catrin extracted two tissue-wrapped publicity photographs.
âEric got them us for our birthday before he went to France,' said Rose. âThat's Robert Donat in
The Citadel
and that's John Clements in
The Four Feathers
. John Clements's is signed.'
â
Signed
,' repeated Lily, her voice a sigh.
Catrin exclaimed, and admired, and exclaimed again, and held the photographs between her fingertips, as if they were beyond price.
*
In his room on the third floor at Baker Productions, Buckley read her report in silence, holding the paper in his left hand, and scraping his teeth with the nail on the little finger of the right, an activity that seemed to help him to concentrate. Catrin stood with her hands clasped, her shoulders taut with nerves.
She had sweated over the account, aiming for utter verisimilitude, taking as much of the sisters' actual story as was fair and tactful, recounting something of the narrowness of their lives, of their parental burden, keeping their diffidence and their reason for going to Dunkirk, and then filling the thirty-mile gap between engine failure and the French coast with a few understated and plausible phrases, adapted from newspaper reports
(âthe beach was covered with soldiers and long queues led into the sea . . . As the troops climbed on board the
Redoubtable
, they came under fire from a German plane . . . After ferrying soldiers several times from the beach to one of the larger ships, the sisters were told to pick up a final load and head for home . . . Five miles from the British coast, the boat developed engine problems, and was towed to Dover by a passing steam tug . . .' ).
All she had done was to give an account of what
should
have happened, of the story that Rose and Lily deserved.
Buckley reached the end, and gave his incisors a valedictory wipe. âYou haven't described what they look like,' he said.
âOh . . . they're tall. Light brown hair. Identical. Well, almost identical.'
âAlmost?'
âOne has a scar on her nose.'
âCan't have that . . . And they're shy?'
âYes. One's shyer than the other.'
âOne shy, one chatty.'
âNo, they're both shy.'
âIf they're both shy, there's no dialogue. Did you meet the father?'
âNo.'
âSounds a bit of a sod.'
âYes.'
âWhat about the boat? Did you see the boat?'
âNo.'
âPity. Still, there's a few useable nuggets to bounce off the MoI. Have a look at this, Parfitt.' He reached across and slid the paper in front of his co-writer, a man with sparse grey hair and a marbled complexion the colour of brawn. Apart from a monosyllabic greeting when Catrin entered the room, he had neither spoken to nor looked at her, but had sat twirling an unlit cigarette between his fingers and staring out at Soho Square, where a platoon of shirt-sleeved firemen was digging allotments beneath the leafless trees. Now he obediently turned his attention to the report, scanning it rapidly and jabbing a pencil at the odd line.