The Difference Engine (32 page)

“Tell me. I like to hear about it. I like to know what the fancy do.”

“I don’t know anything about that. Nor do you, I imagine.”

Hetty released his prick and folded her arms. She leaned back against the headboard, then lit another papirosi, scraping her lucifer against a rough patch of plaster. She blew smoke through her oddly shaped nose — a disconcerting sight, for Mallory. “You don’t think I know anything,” she said. “I’ve heard such things as you don’t imagine, I’ll wager.” “No doubt,” Mallory said politely. He finished his ale.

“Did you know that old Lady Byron flogs her husband naked? His prick won’t stand till she beats him on the arse with a German riding-crop, and I’d that straight from a copper, who was sweet on me, who had it from an upstairs servant in the household!”

“Oh?”

“That Byron family is dead bawdy and wicked to the core. He’s too old now, but in his younger days he’d fuck a sheep, Lord Byron would. He’d fuck a bush if he thought a sheep was in it! His wife’s no better. She doesn’t fuck other men, but she’s of the flogging sisterhood.”

“Remarkable, ” Mallory said. “What about their daughter, then?”

Hetty said nothing for a moment. He was surprised at the sudden gravity of her expression. “She’s dead flash, Ada is. She’s the greatest whore in all of London.”

“Why do you say that?”

“Because she fucks whoever she pleases, and none dare make a peep about what she does. She’s had half the House of Lords, and they all tag at her skirts like little boys. And call themselves her favorites and her paladins, and if any man breaks troth and dares breathe a word against her, then the others see to it that he comes to a very bad end. They all ring round her, and protect her, and worship her like Romish priests do their Madonna.”

Mallory grunted. It was whore’s talk, not a proper thing to say. He knew that Lady Ada had her gallants, but the thought that she let men have her, that there was shoving and spending, prick and cunt in the mathematical bed of the Queen of Engines . . . Best not to think about it. His head had a whiskey-spin, somehow.

“Your expertise is impressive, Hetty,” Mallory muttered. “You certainly command the data of your trade . . . ”

Hetty, who had been guzzling at another bottle of ale, laughed explosively. Foam splattered her chest. “Oh, Christ,” she said, coughing, and smearing at her breasts. “Lor’, Neddie, how you do talk. Look what you made me do.”

“Sorry,” Mallory said.

She gave him a fleering grin and picked her smoldering cigarette from the edge of the bureau. “Get the rag and give ‘em a good wash,” she suggested. “I’ll bet you’d like that, eh?”

Without a word, Mallory stooped to his work. He fetched the basin, and sopped the hand-towel, scrubbing the wet terry carefully over her breasts and the fat, navel-dimpled white rise of her belly. Hetty watched with hooded eyes, puffing at her cigarette and flicking ashes on the floor, as if her flesh belonged to someone else. After a while, she silently gripped his prick, working it back and forth encouragingly as he wiped at her legs.

Mallory put on another sheath, with some clumsy fumbling, almost losing his erection as he did so. To his relief, he managed to enter her, where he soon regained stiffness in her welcoming flesh, and thumped hard at her, tired and drunk, with an ache in his arms and his wrists and his back, and a strange painful tingling at the root of his prick. The glans felt quite sore, almost painfully tender within its sheep-gut armor, and to spend seemed as hard and tricky as pulling a rusty nail. The bed-springs creaked like a field of metal crickets. Halfway through, Mallory felt as if he had run for miles, and Hetty, whose dead cigarette had burnt the bureau, seemed entranced, or perhaps only stunned, or drunk. For a moment he wondered if he should simply stop, quit, tell her somehow that it simply wasn’t working, but he could not even begin to find the words that would satisfactorily explain this situation, so he sawed on. His mind wandered, to another woman, a cousin of his, a red-haired girl whom he had seen being shagged behind a Sussex hedgerow, when he had been up a tree as a boy, hunting cuckoo’s eggs. The red-haired cousin had married the man, and was forty years old now with grown children, a round little proper woman in a round little proper bonnet, but Mallory never met her without remembering the tortured look of pleasure on her freckled face. He clutched that secret image now like a galley-slave to his oar, and fought his way stubbornly toward a climax. Finally, there was that melting, cresting feeling in his loins that told him that he would, in fact, spend soon, that nothing would hold him back, and he shoved on with a new desperation, panting very hard, and the agonized rush of spending came up his aching spine like a rocket, a surge of shocking pleasure in his arms, in his legs, even in the naked soles of his cramping feet, and he cried out, a loud ecstatic bestial groan that surprised him.

“Lordy,” Hetty commented.

Mallory collapsed off of her and lay blowing like a beached cetacean in the foetid air. His muscles felt like rubber, and he’d half-sweated the whiskey off with the sheer work of it. He felt utterly wonderful. He felt quite willing to die. If the tout had arrived and shot him on the spot he would somehow have welcomed it, welcomed the opportunity never to come back from that plateau of sensibility, the opportunity never to be Edward Mallory again, but only a splendid creature drowned in cunt and tea-rose.

But after a moment the feeling was gone and he was Mallory again. Too stupefied for any refinements of guilt or regret. Mallory nevertheless felt ready to leave. Some unspoken crisis had passed, and the episode was finished. He was simply too tired to move just yet, but he knew that he was about to. The whore’s bedroom no longer felt like any kind of haven to him. The walls seemed unreal, mere mathematical abstractions, boundaries that could no longer restrain his momentum.

“Let’s sleep a bit,” Hetty said, her words blurred with drink and exhaustion.

“All right.” He sensibly set the box of lucifers within convenient reach, turned out the lantern, and lay in the hot London dark like a suspended Platonic soul. He rested, eyes open, a flea feasting with leisurely precision on his ankles. He did not sleep, exactly, but rested for some indefinite time. When his mind began to run in circles, he lit and smoked one of Hetty’s cigarettoes, a pleasant ritual, though without much point as far as the proper use of tobacco went. Later he left the bed and pissed in the pot-de-chambre, by feel. Ale had spilled on the floor there, or perhaps it was something else. He would have liked to wipe his feet, but there seemed little point.

He waited for something akin to dawn to show at Hetty’s bare and grimy casement, which gazed out gloomily at a nearby wall. At length there came a feeble glow, not much at all like honest daylight. He had sobered now, and lay there parched, his head feeling stuffed with gun-cotton. Not at all bad, really, if he didn’t move it suddenly, but full of grim premonitory throbs.

He lit the bedside candle, found his shirt. Hetty woke with a groan, and stared at him, her hair snarled and sweaty, her eyes bulging with a look that almost frightened him — ellynge, they would have called it in Sussex — fey. “You’re not going,” she said.

“Yes.”

“Why? It’s so dark, still.”

“I prefer an early start.” He paused. “An old camp habit.”

Hetty snorted. “Get back in bed, my brave soldier, don’t be silly. Stay a bit. We’ll wash and have breakfast. You can get that, can’t you? A nice big breakfast?”

“I’d rather not. It’s late, I must go, I have business.”

“How late?” she yawned. “Not even dawn yet.”

“It’s late. I’m certain of it.”

“What does Big Ben say?”

“I haven’t heard Ben all night,” Mallory said, the recognition surprising him. “Government have shut it down, I suppose.”

This bit of speculation seemed to vaguely alarm Hetty. “French breakfast, then,” she suggested, “sent up from downstairs. Pastry, pot o’ coffee. It’s cheap.”

He shook his head.

Hetty paused, narrowed her eyes. The refusal seemed to have startled her. She sat up, the bed creaking, and tugged at her disordered hair. “Don’t go out, the weather’s dreadful. If you can’t sleep, dear, then let’s fuck.”

“I don’t think I can.”

“I know you like me, Neddie.” She raised the sweat-dampened sheet. “Come and feel me all over, that will make it stand.” She lay there waiting, with the sheet up.

Mallory, unwilling to disappoint, came toward her, patted her lovely haunches, and groped about the luscious smoothness of her breasts. Her flesh delighted his touch, but his prick, though it stirred, did not stand. “I really must go,” he said.

“It will stand again if you wait a bit.”

“I can’t stay anymore.”

“I would not do this if you were not such a nice man,” Hetty said slowly, “but I can make it stand right now if you like; connaissez-vous la belle gamahuche?”

“What’s that, then?”

“Well,” she said, “if you’d been with Gabrielle instead of me, you’d have had it by now; she always did it with her men, and said they were mad for it; it’s what they call gamahuching, the French pleasure.”

“I’m not sure I understand.”

“Prick-sucking.”

“Oh. That.” He had heard the term, though only as the foulest kind of abusive curse, and was startled to find himself in a situation where it might be performed as a physical act. He tugged at his beard. “Ah . . . how much would that cost?”

“I wouldn’t do it for any price, for some,” she assured him, “but I do like you, Ned, and for you I’d do it.”

“How much?”

She blinked. “Ten shillings?”

Half-a-pound. “I don’t think so,” he said.

“Well, all right, five shillings, if you don’t finish there. But you have to promise that, and I mean it.”

The implications of this proposal gave him an exquisite thrill of disgust. “No, I don’t care for that.” He began to dress.

“You’ll come again then? When will you see me?”

“Soon.”

She sighed, knowing he was lying. “Go then, if you must. But listen, Neddie, I do know you like me. And I don’t remember your proper name exactly, but I know I’ve seen your portrait in the papers. You’re a famous savant, and you have a deal of tin. I’m right about that, aren’t I?”

Mallory said nothing.

She hurried on. “A fellow like you can get in bad trouble with the wrong sort of London girl. But you’re safe as houses with Hetty Edwardes, for I only go with gentlemen, and I’m very discreet.”

“I’m sure that you are,” Mallory said, dressing hastily.

“I dance Tuesdays and Thursdays at the Pantascopic Theatre, down Haymarket. Will you come and see me?”

“If I’m in London.”

He left her then, and felt his way out of the place. On his hasty way to the stairs he bloodily scraped his shin on the pedal of someone’s chained bicycle.

The sky above the Hart was like nothing Mallory had ever seen, yet he knew it. He had seen such a sky with his mind’s-eye, a lowering dome abrim with explosive filth, awash with obliterating dust — a sky that was the very harbinger of Catastrophe.

By the twilight blur of the fully risen sun he reckoned it near eight o’clock. Dawn had come, yet brought no day. The Land Leviathans had seen this very sky, he knew, after the earth-shaking shock of the Great Comet. For the scaly herds, ceaselessly progressing through the teeming jungles, driven always by a mighty hunger in their great fermenting bellies, this had been the sky of Armageddon. Storms of Cataclysm lashed the Cretaceous earth, vast fires raged, and cometary grit sifted through the roiling atmosphere, to blight and kill the wilting foliage, till the mighty Dinosauria, adapted to a world now shattered, fell in massed extinction, and the leaping machineries of Evolution were loosed in chaos, to re-populate the stricken Earth with strange new orders of being.

He scuffed down Flower-and-Dean Street, awestruck, coughing. He could see little more than thirty feet ahead, for the alley roiled with a low-lying yellow fog that blurred his eyes with its clinging acid tang.

More by luck than design, he emerged on Commercial Street, ordinarily a thriving Whitechapel avenue. Deserted now, its smooth tarmac was spread with fountained shards of shop-front glass.

He walked a block, then another. There was scarcely a window intact. Cobbles, grubbed up from side-streets, had been flung right and left like a shower of meteors. A seeming whirlwind had descended on a nearby grocery, leaving the street ankle-deep in dirty snow-drifts of flour and sugar. Mallory picked his way through battered cabbages, squashed greengages, crushed jars of syrupped peaches, and the booted footballs of whole smoked hams. Scatterings of damp flour showed a stampede of men’s brogues, the small bare feet of street-urchins, the dainty trace of women’s shoes, and the sweep of their skirt-hems.

Four mist-shrouded figures, three men and a woman, all dressed respectably, all carefully masked in thick cloth, came shuffling into view. Noticing him, they pointedly crossed the street. They moved slowly, unhurriedly, talking together in low tones.

Mallory moved on, splintered glass crunching under his shoe-heels. Meyer’s Gent’s Furnishings, Peterson’s Haberdashery, LaGrange’s Parisian Pneumatique Launderette, all presented disintegrated store-fronts and doors torn off their hinges. Their fronts had been thoroughly pelted with stones, with bricks, with raw eggs.

Now a more cohesive group appeared. Men and young boys, some rolling heaped barrows, though they were clearly not costers. In their masks, they seemed tired, bemused, somber, as though attending a funeral. In their aimless progress they slowed before a sacked cobbler’s, picking over the scattered shoes with the limp enthusiasm of scavengers.

Mallory realized that he had been a fool. While he had wallowed in mindless dissipation, London had become a locus of anarchy. He should be home in peaceful Sussex now, with the family. He should be readying for little Madeline’s wedding, in clean country air, with his brothers and sisters at hand, with decent home-cooked food and decent homely drink. A sudden agony of homesickness struck him, and he wondered what chaotic amalgam of lust and ambition and circumstance had marooned him in this dreadful, vicious place. He wondered what the family were doing at that very moment. What was the time, exactly?