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“ ‘No wonder there isn’t a single saint or biblical scene in any of this,’ Father Kevin said, laughing. ‘Your Wynken de Wilde was a raving heretic! He was a witch or a diabolist. And he was in love with this woman, Blanche.’ He wasn’t shocked so much as amused.

“ ‘You know, Roger,’ he said, ‘if you did get in touch with one of the auction houses, very likely these books could put you through Loyola, or Tulane. Don’t think of selling them down here. Think about New York; Butterfield and Butterfield, or Sotheby’s.’

“He had in the last two years copied out by hand about thirty-five different poems for me in English, the best sort of translation—straight prose from the Latin—and now we went over them, tracing repetitions and imagery, and a story began to emerge.

“First thing we realized was that there had been many books originally, and what we possessed were the first and third. By the third, the psalms reflected not mere adoration for Blanche, who was again and again compared to the Virgin Mary in her purity and brightness, but also answers to some sort of correspondence about what the lady was suffering at the hands of her spouse.

“It was clever. You have to read it. You have to go back to the flat where you killed me and get those books.”

“Which means you didn’t sell them to go to Loyola or Tulane?”

“Of course not. Wynken, having orgies with Blanche and her four friends! I was fascinated. Wynken was my saint by virtue of his talent, and sexuality was my religion because it had been Wynken’s and in every philosophical word he wrote he encoded a love of the flesh! You have to realize I didn’t believe any orthodox creed really, I never had. I thought the Catholic Church was dying. And that Protestantism was a joke. It was years before I understood that the Protestant approach is fundamentally mystic, that it is aiming for the very oneness with God that Meister Eckehart would have praised or that Wynken wrote about.”

“You are being generous to the Protestant approach. And Wynken
did
write about oneness with God?”

“Yes, through union with the women! It was cautious but clear; ‘In thine arms I have known the Trinity more truly than men can teach,’ like that. Oh, this was the new way, I was sure. But then I knew Protestantism only as materialism, sterility and Baptist tourists who got drunk on Bourbon Street because they could not dare do it in their hometowns.”

“When did you change your opinion?” I asked.

“I’m speaking in broad generalities. I mean, I saw no hope for religions in existence in the West at our time. Dora feels very much the same, but we’ll come to Dora.”

“Did you finish the entire translation?”

“Yes, just before Father Kevin was transferred. I never saw
him again. He did write to me later, but by that time I had run away from home.

“I was in San Francisco. I’d left without my mother’s blessing, and taken the Trailways Bus because it was a few cents cheaper than the Greyhound. I didn’t have seventy-five dollars in my pocket. I’d squandered everything Captain ever gave me. And when he died, did those relatives of his from Jackson, Mississippi, ever clean out those rooms!

“They took everything. I always thought Captain had left something for me, you know. But I didn’t care. The books were his greatest gift and all those luncheons at the Monteleone Hotel when we had had gumbo together, and he let me break up all my saltine crackers in the gumbo till it was porridge. I just loved it.

“What was I saying? I bought the ticket to California and saved a small balance for pie and coffee at each stop. A funny thing happened. We came to a point of no return. That is, when we passed through some town in Texas I realized I didn’t have enough money to go back home, even if I wanted to. It was the middle of the night. I think it was El Paso! Anyway, then I knew there was no going back.

“But I was headed for San Francisco and the Haight Ashbury, and I was going to found a cult based on the teachings of Wynken in praise of love and union and claiming that sexual union was godlike union and I would show his books to my followers. It was my dream, though to tell you the truth, I had no personal feeling about God at all.

“Within three months, I had discovered that my credo was by no means unique. The entire city was full of hippies who believed in free love, and panhandling, and though I gave regular lectures to large loose circles of friends on Wynken, holding up the books and reciting the psalms—these are very tame, of course—”

“I can imagine.”

“—my principal job was that of business manager and boss of three rock musicians who wanted to become famous and
were too stoned to remember their bookings, or collect the proceeds at the door. One of them, Blue, we called him, could really sing well. He had a high tenor, and quite a range. The band had a sound. Or at least we thought it did.

“Father Kevin’s letter found me when I was living up in the attic of the Spreckles Mansion on Buena Vista Park, do you know that house?”

“I do know it. It’s a hotel.”

“Exactly, and it was a private home in those days, and the top floor had a ballroom with bath and kitchenette. This was well before any restoration. Nobody had invented ‘bed and breakfast,’ and I just rented the ballroom and the musicians played there and we all used the filthy bath and kitchen, and in the day, when they were asleep all over the floor, I’d dream about Wynken and think about Wynken and wonder how I would ever find out more about this man and what these love poems were. I had all sorts of fantasies about him.

“That attic, I wonder about it now. It had windows at three points of the compass, and deep window seats with tattered old velvet cushions. You could see San Francisco in every direction but east as I remember, but I don’t have a good sense of direction. We loved to sit in those window alcoves and talk and talk. My friends loved to hear about Wynken. We were going to write some songs based on Wynken’s poems. Well, that never happened.”

“Obsessed.”

“Completely. Lestat, you must go back for those books, no matter what you believe of me when we’re finished here. All of them are in the flat. Every single one that Wynken ever did. It was my life’s work to get those books. I got into dope for those books. Even back in the Haight.

“I was telling you about Father Kevin. He wrote me a letter, said that he had looked up Wynken de Wilde in some manuscripts and found that Wynken had been the executed leader of a heretical cult. Wynken de Wilde had a religion of strictly female followers, and his works were officially condemned by
the church. Father Kevin said all that was ‘history,’ and I ought to sell the books. He’d write more later. He never did. And two months later I committed multi-murder completely on the spur of the moment, and it changed the course of things.”

“The dope you were dealing?”

“Sort of, only I wasn’t the one who made the slipup. Blue dealt more than me. Blue carried around grass in suitcases. I was into little sacks of it, you know, it made just about as much as the band made for me. But Blue bought by the kilo and lost two kilos. Nobody knew what happened to them. He actually lost them in a taxi, we figured, but we never knew.

“There were a lot of stupid kids walking around then. They would get into ‘dealing’ never realizing that the supply was originating with some vicious individual who thought nothing of shooting people in the head. Blue thought he could talk his way out of it, he’d make some explanation, he’d been ripped off by friends, that sort of thing. His connections trusted him, he said, they’d even given him a gun.

“The gun was in the kitchen drawer, and they’d told him they might need him to use it sometime, but of course he would never do that. I guess when you are that stoned, you think everybody else is stoned. These men, he said, they were just heads like us, nothing to worry about, that had been just talk. We would all be as famous as Big Brother and the Holding Company and Janis Joplin very soon.

“They came for him during the day. I was the only one home, except for him.

“He was in the big room, the ballroom, at the front door, giving these two men the runaround. I was out of sight in the kitchen, hardly listening. I might have been studying Wynken, I’m not sure. Anyway, very gradually I realized what they were talking about out there in the ballroom.

“These two men were going to kill Blue. They kept telling him in very flat voices that everything was okay, and please come with them, and come on, they had to go, and no, he had to come now, and no, he had to come along quickly. And then
one of them said in a very low, vicious voice, ‘Come on, man!’ And for the first time Blue stopped jabbering in hippie platitudes, like it will all come around, man, and I have done no evil, man, and there was this silence, and I knew they were going to take Blue and shoot him and dump him. This had already happened to kids! It had been in the papers. I felt the hair stand up on the back of my neck. I knew Blue didn’t have a chance.

“I didn’t think about what I was doing. I completely forgot about the gun in the kitchen drawer. This surge of energy overtook me. I walked into the big room. Both these men were older, hard-looking guys, not hippies, nothing hippified about them. They weren’t even Hell’s Angels. They were just killers. And both sort of visibly sagged when they discovered there was an impediment to dragging my friend out of the room.

“Now, you know me, that I am as vain as you are probably, and then I was truly convinced of my special nature and destiny, and I came glistening and flashing towards these two men, you know, throwing off sparks, making a dance out of the walk. If I had any idea in my head, it was this: If Blue could die, that would mean I could die. And I couldn’t let something like that be proven to me then, you know?”

“I can see it.”

“I started talking to these characters very fast, chattering in a kind of intense, pretentious manner, as if I were a psychedelic philosopher, throwing out four-syllable words and walking right towards them all the time, lecturing them on violence, and implying that they had disturbed me and ‘all the others’ in the kitchen. We were having a class out there, me and the others.

“And suddenly one of them reached into his coat and pulled out his gun. I think he thought it would be a slam dunk. I can remember this so distinctly. He simply pulled out the gun and pointed it at me. And by the time he had it aimed, I had both hands on it, and I yanked it away from him, kicked him as hard as I could, and shot and killed both men.”

Roger paused.

I didn’t say anything. I was tempted to smile. I liked it. I only
nodded. Of course it had begun that way with him, why hadn’t I realized it? He hadn’t instinctively been a killer; he would never have been so interesting if that had been the case.

“That quick, I was a killer,” he said. “That quick. And a smashing success at it, no less, imagine.”

He took another drink and looked off, deep into the memory of it. He seemed securely anchored in the ghost body now, revved up like an engine.

“What did you do then?” I asked.

“Well, that’s when the course of my life changed. First I was going to go to the police, going to call the priest, going to go to hell, phone my mother, my life was over, call Father Kevin, flush all the grass down the toilet, life finished, scream for the neighbors, all of that.

“Then I just closed the door and Blue and I sat down and for about an hour I talked. Blue said nothing. I talked. I prayed, meanwhile, that nobody had been in a car outside waiting for those two, but if there came a knock I was ready because I had their gun now, and it had lots of bullets, and I was sitting directly opposite the door.

“And as I talked and waited and watched and let the two bodies lie there, and Blue simply stared into space as if it had been a bad LSD trip, I talked myself into getting the hell out of there. Why should I go to jail for the rest of my life for those two? Took about an hour of expressed logic.”

“Right.”

“We cleaned out that pad immediately, took everything that had belonged to us, called the other two musicians, got them to pick up their stuff at the bus station. Said it was a drug bust coming down. They never knew what happened. The place was so full of fingerprints from all our parties and orgies and late-night jam sessions, nobody would ever find us. None of us had ever been printed. And besides, I kept the gun.

“And I did something else, too, I took the money off the men. Blue didn’t want any of it, but I needed bucks to get out of there.

“We split up. I never saw Blue again. I never saw Ollie or Ted, the other two. I think they went to L.A. to make it big. I think Blue probably became a drug crazy. I’m not sure. I went on. I was totally different from the instant it happened. I was never the same again.”

“What made you different?” I asked. “What was the source of the change in you, I mean, what in particular? That you’d enjoyed it?”

“No, not at all. It was no fun. It was a success. But it wasn’t fun. I’ve never found it fun. It’s work, killing people, it’s messy. It’s hard work. It’s fun for
you
to kill people, but then you’re not human. No, it wasn’t that. It was the fact that it had been possible to do it, to just walk up to that son of a bitch and make the most unexpected gesture, to just take that gun from him like that, because it was the last thing he ever expected could happen, and then to kill them both without hesitation. They must have died with surprise.”

“They thought you were kids.”

“They thought we were dreamers! And I was a dreamer, and all the way to New York I kept thinking, I do have a great destiny, I am going to be great, and this power, this power to simply shoot down two people had been the epiphany of my strength!”

“From God, this epiphany.”

“No, from fate, from destiny. I told you I never really had any feeling for God. You know they say in the Catholic Church that if you don’t feel a devotion to the Blessed Virgin Mary, well, they fear for your soul. I never had any devotion to her. I never had any devotion to any real personal deity or saint. I never felt it. That’s why Dora’s development surprised me in that particular, that Dora is so absolutely sincere. But we’ll get to that. By the time I got to New York, I knew my cult was to be of this world, you know, lots of followers and power and lavish comforts and the licentiousness of this world.”

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