Authors: Upton Sinclair
Mary waited, until she had forced her voice into calm. Then she began: “Joe, ye talk about marryin'. Have ye really thought what it would mean if ye were to marry me?”
“Would I have asked you if I hadn't, Mary?”
This was a rank evasion, of course; and it did not help him. “Ye might very easily, Joe. Ye might be havin' a sudden fit of wantin' me. Is that it?”
“I've been thinking about the matter for a long time, Mary.”
“But ye don't realize, Joe! Ye can't know what ye're saying! To go and get married to your friend's parlor-maid!”
“Don't talk like that!” he exclaimedâfor the words hurt.
“But it's the way everbody that knows ye would talk, Joe!”
“Well, damn themâthat's all I can say.”
“You'd have to be saying it, Joeâthink how many years! And to how many people! Ye'd be burning your last bridge, Joe Smith. As it is, ye can go back whenever ye please and be Hal Warner; they'd forget all this craziness, they'd call it a new kind of wild oats. But if ye were to go and get yeself married to Mrs. Wyatt's parlor-maid, then ye'd be done for! There'd be no more dinner-parties, no more clubs! Go ask your people about it, Hal!”
He could not help laughing. “You're too humble, Mary. You've been reading romances about the aristocracy! They'd take you in after a bitâtruly!”
“Maybe I'm not so humble as ye think, Joe. Maybe I'd not want to be âtaken in'. Maybe I'd rather stay what I amâa workin' girl.”
“Well,” said he, “if you can manage to forget that I was ever a gentleman, I'll agree never to ask you to be a lady.”
“Don't joke about it, Joe!” she pleaded.
“It does no harm to meet one's troubles with a smile,” he answered. “I assure you I'm serious enough. The fact that I've lived all my life without working, that I've travelled on the backs of you and your people, that all the culture, the power and prestige you've stood in awe of, have come out of your unrequited laborâthat is something I might well be ashamed of; something you might fairly distrust me for, too!”
He paused.
“And as for your going in and learning to âdo' societyâwhat I'd want you to do, Mary, would be to brand a sign on your forehead: âI'm a miner's daughter!' Just as a soldier puts on a uniformâso as to give fair notice to the enemy! So, when you go and meet the grand ladies of my world, and they try to snub you, because they know the names of silks and jewels and wines, and you don'tâbecause they can quote French and eat peas with a fork, and you can'tâwell, you'll not need to give them quarter!”
“That's all very well, Joe,” she answered; “but that's a man's talk, and I'm a woman. I lived a year with Mrs. Wyatt, and I watched those grand ladies, and I learned a lot. Maybe more than ye know yourself, Joe Smith!”
He began to laugh. “We'll have to compare notes some day. Did you run into the charming young matron who told me I was the one valid argument against monogamy?”
But Mary could not be got to smile. “I'm not talking about that sort, Joe; I mean the ones that are good, accordin' to their own ideas. Ye may laugh at them, but I know that a man who was brought up with them can't get away so easy. 'Tis like a poison; 'tis in the food ye eat, in the clothes ye wear, in the air ye breathe. Ye'll still have to go to their homes and sit at their tables. And there'll be an evil spell in every move of their hands, in every liftin' of their eyebrow!”
“I understand about the eyebrow,” said Hal. He said it unsmilingly, as he saw she wished it. “You mean you couldn't trust me, Mary?”
“Yes, I mean that! I mean I'm afraid to love ye, Joeâthat's the God's truth! For I could never set out to be like them. They have all the money in the world and all the time; they've nothing to do nor to think about but to make themselves beautiful! While I've got a job to do, Joe, and always will!” she paused, and he stood gazing into her burning eyes. It was really startling to him, for the girl was voicing the very thoughts that he himself had been wrestling with for many months! The problems of a “misalliance”! The application of revolutionary theory to the difficult field of matrimony!
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He came a step nearer, and spoke gently. “You'll have to take meâyou, âRed Mary'âand make a real revolutionist out of me! You'll have to save me from the wiles of these dangerous leisure-class ladies.”
“Ah, Joe!” she cried. “What a job to set a woman! To be watchin' a manâkeepin' other women away from him!”
He began to laugh againâhe could not help it. “You set a hard problem for me! What are you going to doâgive me up to them?”
“Joe,” she said, as gravely as ever, “ye remember just now, ye said, did I care for ye. Ye didn't say that ye cared for
me!
”
“You cut me off, Mary! I was going to say itâtruly I was!”
“Maybe, Joeâbut first ye wanted to take me in your arms. But I don't want it to be that way! I don't want ye to take me because ye're sorry for me, nor because ye happen to be near me. I don't want ye to take me because ye want to get away from Jessie Arthur, nor because ye're disgusted with your own world, and want to throw me in its face. I want ye to take me because ye know what I am, and ye really care for that.”
“I see what you mean, Mary,” he said. He was no longer laughing. “I can say itâI really can.”
She was looking at him, still with the fear in her eyes. “What a woman wants, Joe, is for a man to love
her
as much as she loves
him
. And don't tell me that's true with
us
âbecause it ain'tâit can't be. I had the start of ye, Joe, I loved ye when I first met ye; I loved ye so that I was ready to throw meself away.”
He answered: “I'm trying to catch up with you now, Mary!” And he took another step, in this process of catching up. But again she shrank back, and put out her handsânot tempting him to come nearer, but imploring him to keep away.
“This is what I'm thinkin' about, Joeâwhat I been afraid of all along. If ye don't love me enough, then I couldn't make ye happy, no matter how hard I tried. 'Tis not that I'd want to be askin' pledges, 'tis not a thing a man can pledge. All I can do is to make sure ye really know me, and ye really want what I have to give.”
“Mary,” he answered, gently, “you make me feel very humble. If I didn't want you, I'd begin to. I don't know any way to measure love and compare it. I know quite definitely that I'm through with my worldâand that I'm only at the beginning with you.”
She drew a deep breath, and he thought she was going to yield to him. But the fear of him and of his world, of his prestige, his wealth, his power, had been burned deep into her soul. When he tried to take her hands, she drew them back. “Joe!” she whispered. “If ye really love me, I want ye to prove it!”
“How, Mary?”
“By waitin'! By goin' away and thinkin' it over!”
“How long, Mary?” His tone indicated that it was not thinking he was interested in.
“Just a while, Joe! We can't love each other nowâwith ruin hangin' over us as it is!”
“So much the more reason for taking our happiness while we can, Mary! How long do you want me to wait?”
“A few days, Joe!”
“That's rather indefinite.”
“Three days, then! Take that long to think it over, Joeâbefore I let meself go, before I want ye so much that I can't help meself!”
And suddenly, before he could answer, she started past him. “Go away, Joe!” she whispered. “Please!” and sprang into the hospital-tent and out of his sight.
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It was love in the midst of arms. On the morning after the passage between the two, before Hal had had time to get the dreams of Mary out of his mind, there came Lieutenant Stangholz to make another “search”âthis time of the Greeks in the colony.
The militiamen were especially set against the men of this race, because many of them had seen fighting in the Balkan wars, and were not so easily subdued as Slavs and Hunkies. They were for the most part unmarried men, and lived by themselves in a separate group of the tents. Four of them had been in the party with John Edstrom which had been tortured up at North Valley, and after that a number of them had got guns, and were open in their threats. The enemy had spies among them, of course, and when the spies would report such threats, the militiamen would reply in kind. Half a dozen of the strikers had made affidavit to having heard Lieutenant Carroll, the crony of Stangholz, declare that he meant to kill Louie. These affidavits had been published in the miners' paperâwith the result that the militia officer now threatened to kill the makers of the affidavits as well.
Hal was routed out of bed, and ran over to do what he could to avert the threatened trouble. Stangholz had brought about a dozen men, and it was as if they walked in a den of fierce beasts, who crouched and watched for a moment to spring. Louie the Greek endeavored to argue with the officer, and was thrown back with an oath; there came a snarl from a hundred throats, and it really looked as if unarmed men were about to hurl themselves upon naked bayonets.
Hal had evolved a method of dealing with Stangholz. The ex-mine-guard with the face of a bull-dog would curse the rich young man as furiously as he would any striker, but Hal knew that in his heart he was in awe of that “mystic spell” which had been able to throw open the door of General Wrightman's dungeon of torture. So, when the Lieutenant began to bully his victims, Hal would come and stand by in silenceâas if he were a statue of public opinion. The officer would go on blustering, cursing; but he never went to the same extremes as when Hal was away.
Others hurried up, peace-makers, helping to control the Greeks: Mary Burke, Mrs. Olson, Kowalewsky, the Polish organizer, Jerry Minetti. Jerry had now had two or three weeks of freedom and fresh air and wholesome food, and was more than ever a power among the strikers. He pleaded and argued and cajoledâand meantime the militiamen were ripping up tent-platforms, slitting up mattresses, breaking open trunks. They did not find a single gunânot because there were none to find, but because the strikers had been warned by previous experiences, and had found safer hiding-places, and not taken too many into their confidence.
The soldiers went away at last, partly because of their non-success, and partly because of the menacing aspect of the crowd. They took money and other property, as usual; and that was the last time, men said. So many said it that Hal was convinced it was true; if Stangholz came again, the Greeks would have their guns ready in the tents, and there would be fighting at the very start.
It had come to be the general conviction of the Horton people that the militia were bent upon wiping out their colony, as had been done in the case of Harvey's Run. The soldiers had been making such threats for months, but now it was noticed that their words had become definiteâthey would set a time, as if they had heard rumors of the intentions of their officers. “You've only got a few more days now! We are going to fix you all right!” And they would point to the Black Hills, fifteen or twenty miles out on the plains, where the strikers had been herded in the struggle of ten years ago. “That's where you're bound for! The Black Hills for you!” Hearing such remarks, the strikers' women and children had got into the mental state of those sects of religious fanatics who anticipate the coming of the judgment-day, and sell their worldly goods and gather in the fields to pray.
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Different people responded in different fashion to such terrors. Some gave way to them utterly; they would go about white-faced and abject, cowering at every sound. But others had spirit, and fought in their own souls, and if you were a psychologist, you would be interested in the signs of their inner state. Some would brag about what they were going to do, working themselves into belligerency as a defense against their own cowardice. Others went about their affairs unmoved; but you discovered that there were two types of theseâsome who were merely dull and unimaginative, and others who were highly strung, but determined not to let it show. There is a story of a young officer, going into battle with his teeth chattering, and saying, “Yes, I'm afraid; and if you were half as afraid as I am, you'd have run away long ago!” Hal suspected that Mary Burke belonged to this group, and he was sure that little Mrs. David did.
Old John Edstrom was lifted out of bed by the general excitement. He was feeble, suffering from shock, as the doctor said; he was covered with cruel bruises, and could hardly take any food. Nevertheless, he went about in the tents, talking to the people in his gentle, winning voice, and when you had listened a while you would realize that in this shrunken and twisted and beaten old body dwelt one of the bravest spirits you might ever meet in life. For Edstrom had been through more than one of labor's agonies, and had sat late on many a lonely night, meditating them, working out his philosophy. It was a high and difficult philosophy; at first when you listened to it you might think the old man was in his dotage, or that he was talking empty words that he had got out of some book.
He would say to peopleâto rough and ignorant men, to women bent and worn with household drudgery, even to little childrenâthat they were part of a mighty host which had been marching for ages, and would march for ages after they were deadâthe host of labor, moving out of slavery into freedom and joy. So they must not think about themselves too much, they must not fear for themselves; whether they won or lost, whether they lived or died, was not the question, but only whether they helped to bring labor nearer to its goal. The old man would go farther yetâhe insisted that they would help more if they would have nothing to do with guns, if they would hold themselves quite above the wickedness of their enemies; they must fight, of course, and fight hardâbut with their minds, with their souls. And of course most of the people to whom he talked had no idea about such fighting as that; they did not know what he meant, and when he explained it, they could not see what good it would do. It sounded like religion, which most of them despised, because it was preached by hirelings of their oppressors.