Rescuing Rose (11 page)

'Oh
yeah
!' she exclaimed. 'Loads!'

'Good. Then make a list of them, and when you've done it, ring your friends and read it to them, then ask them if you've left anything out. Get them to add their own negative comments, and ask your family as well. Then ask your next-door neighbours—on both sides—plus the people in the corner shop, then post the list up in a prominent place. Secondly, get
off your
bum! Get down to the gym, like I did, and take up kick-boxing or Tae-Bo. Kick the shit out of your instructor, Fran— believe me it'll lift your mood. Because it's only when you're feeling happy and confident again, that the
right
man will come along. '

'Okay, ' she sighed. 'Yes. You're right. Do you think I should contact some of my exes?' she added. 'One or two of them were quite keen. '

'Should you contact your exes?' I repeated slowly. 'No, ' I said firmly. 'Do
not
! 'Oh. Why?'

'Because one of the Ten Commandments of the Dumped Woman is, "Thou Shalt Not Phone Up Thy Old Boyfriends". ' 'Why not?'

'Well, because they might have had a sex change, or they might be in jail, or bald, or dead. Worst of all, you might find they're now happily married with two adorable kids! So no,
don't
have anything to do with your old boyfriends, Fran—put all your energy into finding someone
new
!'

'And on that positive note I'm afraid we must leave it there, ' said Minty as the hand on the studio clock juddered towards the twelve. 'Thanks to everyone who's called in, and do please join Rose and me again on Tuesday night for our regular phone-in—
Sound Advice
!

As I pushed wearily on the heavy studio door I saw Wesley waving at me.

'I've got a call for you, Rose. '

'As long as it's not that mad woman, ' I whispered, making frantic circling gestures by my head. Wesley clapped his hand over the mouthpiece.

'No it's not her. It's a bloke. '

'Hello?' I said tentatively, nervously wondering if it was Ed.

'Is that Rose?'

It wasn't Ed.

'It's Henry here. ' Henry? Oh,
Henry
! My ex but three! 'Heard your dulcet tones on the radio… brought back some
very
pleasant times… just come back from the Gulf… yes still in H. M.'s Armed Forces… got a desk job at the M. o. D… absolutely
love
to see you… how about dinner next week?'

Well why
not
? I thought, as I put the phone down with a grin. True, Henry had never really lit my fire. He was the human equivalent of a lava lamp—very attractive but not that bright. But on the other hand he's harmless, generous, extremely good-natured and after what I've been through I fancy a date. I mean, where's the harm in having dinner tête-à-tête with an old flame? And yes, I
know
what I said to that caller, but the point
is
that I'm sure Henry's been to some
very
interesting places in the last three years, plus I'm keen to find out what he has to say about the role of women in the armed forces, not to mention the proposed European Rapid Reaction Defence Force and its likely effect on Britain's relationship with NATO. So I fixed to see him the following Friday, November the tenth, which was also the night Theo was due to move in.

Theo had told me he'd be arriving at around half past six. And I was just trying to tame my hair at ten to when the doorbell rang. I opened my bedroom window, to check it wasn't the Jehovah's Witnesses again and as I did so a late firework suddenly exploded with a mighty BOOOOOMMMMMH! spangling the night with stars. 'Ooooohhh, ' I heard myself breathe, like a child, then I looked below. Standing there, looking up, was Theo with so much baggage my tiny garden resembled an airport carousel.

'You're early, ' I said accusingly as I opened the door.

'Yes, er, sorry, ' he said.

'And you've got a lot of stuff. '

'I… know. But don't worry, it'll all go in my room. Most of it's books, ' he explained. As I watched him trundling up and down the stairs with it all I noticed one very odd-looking, long black case. What on earth was in it I wondered—a musical instrument? God
forbid
. And now I wished I'd asked if he was going to be tooting away on a clarinet half the night or blasting me out with a trombone; and I shivered with apprehension at the thought that I was letting this total stranger into my house. But I needed the cash I reminded myself firmly, and his references had been fine. His boss at Compu-Force had assured me that far from being a convicted axe-murderer, Theo was a 'nice, reliable chap. He's had a hard time recently, ' he'd added enigmatically: I'd wondered, but hadn't enquired. All I needed to know was that he wouldn't kill me, bore me, evangelise me, steal from me, hold orgies or write rubber cheques…

'I'm just on my way out, ' I said, as I grabbed my bag and handed him his set of keys. 'I've got to be in Fulham by eight. '

'But it's only six-fifteen. '

'I… know, ' I said, irritated by his rather forthright and frankly impertinent intervention, 'but I, um, always allow myself lots of time. '

'Well, enjoy yourself, ' he added affably. Then he added, 'You look very nice. '

'Do I?' I said wonderingly. It was ages since anyone had said that to me.

'Yes. Especially your hair. It's really, erm… ' he began rotating both index fingers next to his head by way of illustration.

'Curly?' I suggested.

'Mad. '

'Oh. Well… thanks very much. '

'I mean, the way it sort of jumps out of your head. '

'I see. '

'I meant it nicely, ' he said.

'Glad to hear it. ' I was so frosty, I could see my own breath. 'Now, ' I said, handing him five pages of typed A4, 'this is a little list of dos and don'ts about the house, just in case you've forgotten what I told you last week. '

'Thanks, ' he said uncertainly. 'Do I get a gold star for good behaviour?' he added with a grin.

'No, ' I said icily. 'You don't. ' But I was tempted to tell him that he was well on his way to picking up his first black mark. 'Anyway, make yourself at home, ' I added grudgingly as I picked up my bag.

'Thanks very much. I'll… try. '

'And if you're not sure about anything, just call me on my mobile… here, ' I gave him my card. As I slung on my caramel suede jacket and stepped outside, Theo followed me out to pick up more things. KER-ACKKKK!! Another rocket exploded above us—BOOM! RACK-A-TACK!!! BOOOOOOOM!!! Each detonation illuminated the short terrace for an instant then the houses were plunged into a Stygian dark.

'The street lighting's useless, ' I warned him as I fished out my car keys, 'so be careful. '

'Yes, I've noticed. It's
really
bad. '

'In fact I intend to complain to the council about it, ' I said vehemently.

'Oh no!' he exclaimed. 'Please
don't
. Well, have a good evening, ' he added pleasantly, then he picked up a box and went inside.

As I turned the ignition on my old Polo I stared at Theo's retreating back and pondered that bizarre exchange.
Why
didn't he want me to get the council to do something about the shoddy street lights? How
weird
… I wondered whether I hadn't made a dreadful error of judgement as I released the brake and set off. 'Do I get a gold star for good behaviour?' I ask you! What a
nerve
. And that rude remark of his about my hair. My hair has been described in many ways—'pre-Raphaelite' mainly, but also 'tumbling, "lustrously curly, "corkscrewing, ' even 'frizzy, ' but never has it earned the epithet, 'mad'. I mean, really! How gauche can you get! And that sinister-looking black case—what the hell was in it? Maybe it wasn't a musical instrument, maybe it was a Samurai sword? And now, as I waited at a red light, I had a sudden vision of myself being found dead in bed dripping blood like a colander—I'd probably be front page news. 'AGONY AUNT DEAD IN BED!'; 'HORROR OF AGONY AUNT!'; no—'AGONY OF AGONY AUNT!' was better or 'DEATH OF AN AGONY AUNT!'; 'AGONY AUNT SLAIN!' was good if a tad melodramatic, or maybe, 'HORROR IN SE5!' The
Daily Post
, of course, would go to town. R. Soul, grateful for such a big story, would probably do the honours with the headline himself. He was good at those. It was, after all, Ricky who had penned the legendary, 'HEADLESS BODY FOUND IN TOPLESS BAR!'

As the car moved forward again I worried in case my murder didn't make the front page: my split with Ed only made page five. I idly wondered whether it would be on national TV—it probably would. I'd get, say, two minutes on
News at Ten
and at least, ooh, a minute on Radio Four? As I drove down Kennington Road I pondered whether I'd be obituarised in the national press. They'd no doubt print my by-line photo—it's quite flattering actually—but what would the piece say? They'd probably get some other agony aunt to write it—oh God!— not Citronella Pratt! Not her—please,
please
not her—I could imagine what she'd write. 'Rose Costelloe showed some promise as an agony aunt, ' damning me with faint praise. 'How very
sad
and
tragic
that we will now never know whether that promise could have been fulfilled. ' I made a mental note to phone all the Obits editors first thing and tell them to ring the twins if I croaked.

Then, feeling more relaxed, I visualised my funeral which would be a very sad but dignified affair. On my coffin would be a huge spray of white lilies—no, not lilies,
roses
of course, like my name, obviously—red ones to match my hair. The twins would be chief mourners: I was confident they'd do it well. Now, as I waited at a traffic light, I imagined them in black, tears streaming down their lovely faces, clutching each other's hands. There'd be a huge photo of me leaning against the altar, and probably, what—a hundred people or so? More if some of my readers came. A
lot
more. That might bump it up to at least, ooh, three or four hundred—maybe even five. I could hear them all reminiscing about me in respectful, hushed tones as the organ played.

'—Can't believe it! So tragic!'

'—She was so beautiful and kind. '

'—That gorgeous figure of hers. '

'—She could wear
anything
!

'—Even slim-fitting trousers. '

'—Yes—and her advice was
great
!

I imagined Ed, arriving late, looking distraught. Mary-Claire had tried to prevent him from going, but he'd thrust her to one side.

'No!' he'd screamed. 'Nothing will stop me! And by the way, Mary-Claire—you're dumped!' And because the church was so full—I liked Trev's black ribbon in his collar, nice touch—Ed had had to stand at the back. Now, no longer able to control himself, he was incontinent with grief. And as he wept openly and loudly, heads were turning, my friends (and readers) torn between contempt for his treatment of me during my life, and pity for his distress at my death.

'It's all my fault!' he was blubbing as they sung 'Abide With Me'. 'If I hadn't betrayed her this would
never
have happened. I'll always blame myself!' Gratified by this confession, I now saw everyone at my grave, Ed still blubbing like a baby as he threw in the final clod.

'—God look at him—he's gone to pieces!'

'—He'll never get over it. '

'—He didn't deserve her. '

'—He didn't appreciate her. '

'—C'mon on, Ed, it's time to go. '

Now I imagined everyone leaving, and the south London cemetery lonely and dark; and I realised that the only reason I was there was because I'd let that weirdo, Theo Sheen, into my house. I was feeling pretty appalled by now and thinking that yes, I'd taken a huge and
very
stupid risk and for what—a bit of cash?—when suddenly my mobile rang.

'Rose?' I heard as I slipped in my earpiece.

'Yes?'

'It's Theo here. ' Aaarrrggh! 'I just wondered if you'll be coming back tonight?'

'Why do you want to know?'

'I wasn't sure what to do about the front door, that's all. '

'What about it?'

'Should I put the chain on?' Oh. 'I know that Camberwell can be a bit dodgy on the burglary front. So I just wanted to know whether I should put the chain on when I go to bed, that's all. '

'No, ' I said, exhaling with relief. 'Don't bother. I'll be back by twelve. '

'Right then, ' he said cheerfully. 'Anyway, have a nice evening. Bye. '

I heaved a sigh of relief as I rang off, but then Suspicion raised its ugly head again. And I thought maybe, reading between the lines here, he's just trying to find out whether or not I have a bloke. Yes… the enquiry about the security chain is just a front. A red herring. Maybe he
is
a homicidal weirdo after all…

PARP! PARP!!
PARP
!!!

'All
right
!' I yelled into my mirror as I moved off the green light. I pulled myself together and banished Theo from my mind as I negotiated the fume-filled roads. I skirted Brixton then drove towards Clapham, passing my old flat in Meteor Street. As I spotted a sign for Putney I felt my pulse begin to race. It was ten to seven—over an hour until I had to meet Henry, so I still had plenty of time. To calm my nerves I turned on the radio and found myself listening to a phone-in on LBC. I recognised the voice: it was Lana McCord, the new agony aunt on
Moil
magazine.

'We're discussing relationship breakdown, ' she said. 'And now we have Betsey on line five. Betsey, you're a divorcee I understand. '

'Yes, but I'd rather be a widow!' she spat. 'Bereavement would be preferable to betrayal. ' I know how she feels. 'I'm so
angry, '
she went on tearfully. She'd clearly been drinking. 'I gave him the best years of my life. '

'Betsey, ' said Lana gently. 'How old are you?'

'Forty-one. '

'Then you've still got a
lot
of life left. So why spend it being bitter?' she went on.
Exactly
! 'Do you enjoy your negative thoughts?'
Quite
. 'Do they contribute to your happiness?'
Of course not. 'Do
they move you forward in any way?'
Good point
!

'I just can't deal with this blow to my self-esteem, ' croaked Betsey.