Read Marked by the Moon Online
Authors: Lori Handeland
“Call a cop.” Her lips twisted wryly. “We never stayed in one place long enough for anyone to notice.”
Julian frowned. “Wouldn't child services have come searching for you eventually?”
Now she laughed with true mirth. “You said you knew Edward.”
“We all know Edward.”
“Apparently not well.”
“If I knew him well, I'd be ashes.”
“Good point.” She drew in a breath and as she let it out, her smile faded. “Edward has J-S agents everywhere. Social services. Child services. FBI. How do you think he knows every damn thing?”
“He doesn't know where I am.”
“Give him time,” she said.
A flicker of unease trickled across the back of Julian's neck. “What do you mean by that?”
She threw up her hands. “Edward's been at this since the Second World War. He's got funding up the wazoo. You think you can hide from him forever?”
“I've been at this longer than that. So yes, I think I can.”
“Okay.” Alex nodded, staring at the ground. When she lifted her hand to shove her hair out of her face, her fingers trembled. Maybe she was cold, but he didn't think so.
Alex knew Edward. She understood, perhaps better than anyone here, how dangerous he was, how far reaching his influence, of what he might be capable. And he'd made her into the very thing Edward excelled at killing. He couldn't blame her for being a little scared.
“You're safe here, Alex. I promise.”
Her gaze flicked up. “You can't promise that.”
“I've been promising it for a century. We're still here, and he isn't.”
“Yet,” she muttered.
“Yet,” he agreed, and she shivered. “Let's continue this conversation back in town.”
“I'm all right,” she said.
“I'm not.” He pointed at his stocking feet. “Come on.”
Julian climbed on the snowmobile, and Alex joined him without further argument.
Which proved more than anything else just how
not
all right she was.
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Barlow thought she was worried that Edward might show up and shoot her with silver along with the rest of them. She had to make sure he kept thinking that, which meant she had to behave like a frightened girl.
Too bad she had no idea how.
She hadn't stepped foot in a traditional school since kindergartenâexcept that time when there'd been the werewolf massacre at Graystone Middle Schoolâ
Alex shuddered, and Julian shouted, “Almost home.”
The word
home
made her start. This wasn't her home, and it never could be.
Edward had manipulated the media, and everyone else involved, into believing that the twelve dead at Graystone were the result of a school shooting. Edward manipulated a lot. Manipulation was what Edward did best. How else had he convinced her to do this?
Alex yanked her mind from her memories and Mandenauer. While she was here she had to think like a werewolf, not like a
Jäger-Sucher.
If Julian discovered that she was working for Edwardâ
Alex shuddered again, and Barlow pulled her arms more firmly around his waist so that the entire front of her was pressed to the back of him. He gave off heat like a furnace, and before she could stop herself she actually cuddled.
Alex did
not
cuddle. Especially with werewolves.
But
she
was a werewolf.
“Fuck,” she muttered, her own thoughts making her dizzy.
Barlowsville appeared on the horizon, and Alex was damn glad to see it. Which only confused her more.
They roared into town, straight past the square and down
a street Alex had never been down before. She'd figured Barlow would take her straight to Ella's and leave her there so he could discover the traitor in their midst. She certainly wouldn't want to be
that
wolf.
But what ifâ¦
She'd heard the old man point out that Barlow was a sorcerer; he could be anything. Even a brown wolf when his hair was gold. However, according to the wolf man he didn't kill for sport. No one here did.
So then who had eaten the wise woman?
Barlow stopped in front of a two-story log structure at the very end of the street. Behind it she could see a long, white, really ugly warehouse-type building. What the hell did he keep in there?
Alex heaved a silent sigh. She was going to have to find out. That and a whole lot more.
Barlow shut off the motor, slid free of the seat and trotted up the steps, then into the house. Alex sat on the snowmobile, uncertain what she should do. Did he already know who the rogue was, and he'd come directly to the wolf's house to kill it?
However Barlow reappeared with the Inuit kid. He saw her still sitting there and frowned. “George has to go home now,” he said. “Come inside.”
Alex glanced at the rustic home. “This is
your
place?”
“What's wrong with it?”
“Nothing.” She climbed off the machine. In truth, she wanted it with a longing that embarrassed her. Whenever she'd dreamed of a house of her ownânot often, it was never going to happenâshe'd dreamed of a log cabin very similar to this. “Where are the white pillars, golden window frames, marble steps, and neon sign that flashes home of the wolf-god king of barlowsville?”
George's blue eyes widened, and he glanced at Barlow as if he expected him toâ¦what? Kill her now?
Instead Barlow's lips twitched. He appeared to be finding her funnier and funnier as time went on.
Huh.
Usually people found her less and less funny the more she hung around. Then again, Barlow wasn't most people. Hell, he wasn't even
a
people.
“I left it in my other suit,” he said. Which made no sense. So why, then, did Alex laugh?
George glanced back and forth between the two of them, his expression of concern fading to one of confusion. He didn't get the joke, either.
“I'm afraid we had a bit of an accident.” Barlow pointed to the dent. “And your helmet isâ” His eyes met hers, and he smiled.
“Toast,” Alex said. “Your helmet is toast.”
“I'll buy you a new one.” Barlow continued to hold Alex's gaze, and something flickered just below her breastboneâa trickle of heat that both intrigued and disturbed her.
“It's all right,
Ataniq.
” George came down the steps. “I have other helmets.”
“I meant the snowmobile,” Barlow said drily.
“Oh!” The boy glanced at Alex, and his cheeks reddened. She wasn't sure why.
He smiled at her shyly, and she smiled back, which only made him blush all the more.
Barlow cleared his throat, and George's clear blue gaze flicked from Alex to Barlow; then he straightened as if he might click his heels together and bow.
The incongruity of that imageâthe Indian boy with the long flowing hair, bowing like a European underling to a lordâalmost made Alex laugh again, but she managed not to. Poor George would think she was laughing at him.
“There's no need,
Ataniq
. I can fix it.”
“You've always been good at that.” Barlow beckoned Alex, and with a small shrug in lieu of good-bye, she moved toward the house.
Barlow's eyes suddenly narrowed, and Alex glanced behind her, concerned, only to find George's gaze on her ass.
“Go,” Barlow ordered in a voice so icy she got shivers. Then he watched until the snowmobile had left town as quickly as it had entered.
“You scared him,” Alex said.
“Good.” He flicked her an unreadable gaze and disappeared inside.
Alex followed, shutting the door behind her. “He's just a kid.”
Barlow, who'd sat in what appeared to be a hand-carved wooden chair in the hall and begun to pull off his wet socks, tilted his head to look at her. “Are you a kid?”
“What? No.” She didn't think she'd ever been a kid.
“He's your age, Alex.” He stood and carried the dripping socks into the kitchen. “Or close enough.”
Alex remained in the hall. He was probably right. George was her age, maybe even a year older. But he'd seemed so damn young.
“Hey!” she called, striding down the hall, then pausing when her ridiculous rubber boots slid as the ice on the bottoms melted all over the polished wood floor. Alex cursed, yanked them off, and left them on the mat near the door. “You got any paperâ” She stopped just inside the entryway, mouth half open as she stared at the most gorgeous kitchen she'd ever seen.
The sun spilled through a skylight, illuminating the honey shade of the wooden beams and walls. The countertops were
blinding white and the appliances chrome. But what she really liked were the huge natural stones that decorated both the center island and the fireplace in the attached dining area.
“Got any paper what?” Julian asked as he came out of a tiny room to the rear. Alex caught a glimpse of a washing machine before he shut the door.
“Towels,” she managed, still staring.
Julian noticed and glanced around. “What?”
“It's beautiful.”
“Thanks. Iâuhâ” He shrugged. “Like to cook.”
Alex's eyes widened. “Really?”
“Why not?”
“I just, well I neverâ¦have.”
“I suppose not,” he said quietly, and for an instant she could have sworn she heard sympathy, or pity, in his voice. Which made her anger flare and she lashed out.
“I figured you'd eat everything raw. Like the wise woman.”
She'd been staring at his face, waiting for a flicker ofâ¦what? Guilt? Could a werewolf feel guilt?
But he merely lifted a brow. “You think I killed her?”
“Someone did.”
“Maybe it was you.”
“I don't kill people.”
“You keep on believing that.” He yanked a huge handful of paper towels off the roll and handed them to her without even asking what she wanted them for. She guessed it was obvious when he followed her into the hall and leaned in the doorway while she wiped up her mess.
“I didn't kill the wise woman,” he said quietly.
“Neither did I.”
Silence settled between them. Did he believe her? Did she believe him? She wasn't sure.
Alex straightened and handed him the sopped towels. “I guess we'll have to reserve judgment until we have proof.”
“Like catching each other red-pawed?” He returned to the kitchen and threw the towels into the trash.
“Mmm,” Alex said noncommitally. They had been separated for short periods last night, but would he have had time to wash the blood from his fur before she saw him again?
Probably not. Then againâmagic man. How hard would it be for him to abracadabra away the stains?
Barlow motioned for Alex to sit at a table of white tile and sandy-shaded wood. She couldn't help herself. She ran her palm over it like a lover. How was it that everything in his house was exactly what she would have chosen herself?
Barlow sat on the other side of the table, remaining silent until she met his gaze. “You want to tell me about it?”
“I didn't kill the wise woman,” she said.
“Not that. The
Jäger-Suchers
.”
“You want me to tell you about the
Jäger-Suchers
?” Alex snorted. “So when Edward shows up he kills me first? No thanks.”
“Alex.” Julian reached across the table and laid his hand over hers. She frowned at it, and at her own because even though her head was telling her to break his fingers, her hand wanted to curl around his and hold on. “You're one of us now.”
“I didn't choose to be.”
“This is what I've been telling you. Most werewolves are made against their will. But the
Jäger-Suchers
don't care. They kill them anyway.”
“They don't have much choice,” she said. “Teeth and claws, blood and death.
You
try and reason with that.”
Julian sighed and leaned back, taking his hand with him. “You don't understandâ”
Because she missed his hand and she wanted it back, she
snapped, “I've been there. I
know.
Werewolves are serial killers in a fur coat. They don't change. They don't want to. And the only way to stop them is with silver. Period.”
“You'll discover differently here. I promise.”
“Considering what we heard from your grandson, there's at least one wolf in this village that proves me right.” She smirked, feeling some of her old self shine through. “How long until there are more?”
“There won't be.”
“Just because I didn't get past kindergarten doesn't mean I didn't read and research and learn. I particularly enjoyed history, and one thing history's good for is revealing patterns of behavior.”
“You lost me.”
“The more you hold these wolves under your thumb, the more you make them behave in a way that's not natural, the more they're going to want to break free, and the more violent they'll be once they do.”
“This werewolf is a rogue,” he insisted. “Probably isn't even from here.”
“You keep on believing that,” she said.
A few moments ago, Julian had felt sorry for her. A few moments after that he'd touched her, and it had felt soâ¦perfect, he'd kept his hand right where it was.
Now he wanted to take that hand and wrap it around her throat until her smirk died, and she did, too.
Of course she wouldn't stay deadâand he had only himself to blame for that.
“Why don't you finish telling me why, if you can't make baby Barlows, there are all sorts of people with your eyes running around calling you Daddy.”
“Grandfather,” he corrected.
“Whatever.” She tilted her head. “George called you
Ataniq
. Sounds a little like asshole, but I doubt he'd have the balls.”
“Unlike you,” Julian returned.
Alex spread her hands and shrugged.
“
Ataniq
meansâ” He paused, realizing that once he told her she'd only smirk again.
“You may as well spill it. I can borrow the Internet as well as the next werewolf.”
“Boss, president, king, master,” he blurted.
She stared at him for several seconds, while he discovered he'd been wrong. The smirk didn't come back; instead a look of incredulity spread over her face. “You raped and pillaged your way through that village and now they call you grandfather and master?”
“No.”
“You just saidâ”
“We didn't. I mean I didn'tâ”
“You were a Viking,
Jorund
. You didn't sail here to teach the natives about Jesus.”
No, they'd come here at Julian's insistence. He'd had a sudden urge to sail west, though very few ships did. Such a trip had been a danger at the time considering the belief in sea monsters and a flat, flat world. The waters were uncharted, the land beyond the horizon a mystery. Naturally, he couldn't resist.
Julian had always remembered the beauty of the place they had found. The ice, the snow, the freedom that swirled in the air. He'd wanted badly to come back. About a hundred years ago, he had.
“There weren't any sea monsters,” he said. Alex blinked, then frowned. “They said there'd be sea monsters, and I wanted to find one.”
“Were you twelve?” she asked.
“Twenty.” And in command of his own vessel. “I think the sea monsters they spoke of were actually whales. Great beasts that rose up from the ocean, blowing huge gusts of water out of their heads.”
She was beginning to stare at him as if he'd lost his mind. “The sea monsters were whales. Check. And you sailed past them, landed⦔ She wiggled her fingers in the general direction of the ocean. “Then marched into Awanitok and took whatever the hell, and whoever the hell, you wanted.”
“No.”
She sighed impatiently. “Barlow, your eyes don't lie. Well,
your
eyes do. But all the eyes, in all the faces, all over that village don't.”
“I led a raiding party,” he began, then went silent, remembering.
It had been summer. If it hadn't they'd never have been able to sail near the land since the water in the Arctic froze solid.
The Inuit village had been small at the time, perhaps sixty people. They'd lived in homes dug into the ground, the earth providing natural insulation. Anything aboveground was fashioned with sod over wood or whalebone frames. Julian had thought the method ingenious.
He'd had ten men with him. Plenty to pillage the natives. Unfortunately they'd been too poor to pillage.
“They offered a sacrifice if we left them alone.”
Alex lifted a brow. “Indian maidens?”
Julian shrugged. “They didn't have anything else.”
“You took them. In more ways than one.”
“As you pointed out, we were
Vikings,
and we'd been on that ship for a very long time.”
Alex glanced out the floor-length sliding glass door to her right. “Then
all
the blue eyes aren't descended from you.”
“Most of my men were related to me in some way.” It made for less hassle on the high seas. If everyone was related, there was a slimmer chance of not only mutiny, but wholesale slaughter as well.
“Go on,” Alex said.
“I just told you everything.”
“Not everything. Why does an entire Inuit village in the twenty-first century call one man master? Not very PC.”
“PC,” he repeated, his mind churning to find a meaning.
“Yeah, you really fit in,” she muttered. “Politically correct. We did away with
master
in this country about a hundred and fifty years ago.”
“I didn't tell them to call me that.”
“You didn't stop them, either.”
“It's a courtesy title. It doesn't have the connotations you're giving it.”
“They still consider you the boss of them, and I want to know why.”
Julian took a deep breath and continued. “I returned a century ago.”
“Scene of the crime,” she murmured, but he ignored her.
“I brought my wolves. We wanted to live at peace.”
“Alaska is huge. You had to build in their backyard?”
At first Julian had come merely to see the place he'd idealized in his mind, one he'd visited while he was still human. But then he'd caught a glimpse of all the blue-eyed Inuitâ¦
“Family is important.” Especially since he'd thought the only family he had left was Cade. Especially since he'd never have any children, any descendants but the ones he'd found here.
Something flickered in Alex's eyes. Sadness? Anger? Guilt? He couldn't say. The expression was there and gone so fast, and he didn't really know her that well at all.
Not that he wanted to. Not that he
would
. Once they finished this discussion, he'd leave her to Ella and interact with her as little as possible. Because every time he saw Alex, he remembered Alana.
Eventually.
“I protect them,” he said.
“From what?”
“Everything. Anything.”
“Wow! How did they survive a thousand years without you, Jorund?”
Pretty well. Until he'd set up a werewolf village right next door.
“You're protecting them from you,” Alex said slowly. Could she read his face, or just his mind? “From the city of monsters you plopped down right next to them. Talk about extortion!”
“I do more for them than just ascertain none of my people⦔ He waved his hand in the general direction of Awanitok.
“Snack?” she supplied.
He ignored her. “They live in the way that they wish. No interference from the government.”
“How do you manage that?” she asked, but before she even finished the last word, her face lit with understanding. “Magic.”
He shrugged. “How else do you deal with the government?”
She tilted her head. “Go on.”
“My Inuit have no trouble hunting. Their crafts are the most coveted in tourist centers everywhere.”
“You bribe them.”
“An ancient method,” he agreed. “But it works.”
“And in return they give you⦔ He watched comprehension dawn in her eyes, quickly followed by condemnation. “Oh, you suck!”
“I'm sorry?”
“They give you a sacrifice, but this time it isn't boinking the Indian maiden. This time it's blood.”
“A fair exchange.”
Fury suffused her face. She pushed back from the table and stood over him, fists clenched. “I should know better.”
Her jaw was tight; he could practically hear her back teeth grinding together. “You say you're different, but you aren't. You're just like every other werewolf in the world; you have no respect for human life.”
“I have more respect than you do.”
“She wasn't human.”
And they were back to that again. Julian had hoped Alex would begin to understand once she was here, once she could see. But it had only been a day andâ
“Wait a second.” He grabbed one arm, and she took a swing at him with the other. He caught her wrist before it smashed into his face, then he shook her just once. “What's human life got to do with anything?”
Her eyes widened, and the angry color drained from her cheeks. “They're your family, yet you chase them through the woods beneath the full moon, and you tear them into pieces.”
“What?” he shouted, releasing her as he straightened to his full height.
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Barlow towered over her, and for an instant Alex was reminded of the polar bear, roaring and posturing. She half expected him to shape-shift into one. She'd studied berserkers, and in the legends many could turn into both a wolf
and
a bear. She wouldn't put it past Barlow to have left that part out.
But he didn't shift, not even his paws. Instead, he closed his eyes, and his lips moved silently, as if in prayer.
“How do you pray and not burst into flames?” she wondered aloud.
He opened one eye, which was all he needed to give her a very impressive glare before he snarled, “Explain why you think I'm accepting human sacrifices.”
The rumble beneath the surface revealed just how close the beast within him had come. Oddly, Alex wasn't scared. Considering what she'd just learned, she wasn't sure why.
“Werewolves must kill, then consume fresh human blood on the night of the full moon,” Alex said. “I knew that even before I became one.”
“We require blood, yes.” He opened both eyes, and though the blue had hardened to the color of ice beneath a clear, summer sky, they still bored into hers with such heat she was surprised her corneas didn't explode. “But blood and death are two very different things.”
“How would youâ? Can youâ?” She leaned back. “Wait. What?”
“I have told you over and over that my wolves are different. Our full moon craving can be satisfied with blood. No death involved.”
“The Inuit give you blood,” Alex clarified. “Like some full moon communion?”
“If you like.” His lips tightened. “You really thought I'd let my wolves kill one person a month?”
“You let
me
kill someone,” Alex said softly.
He looked away. “That was different.”
“Oh, right. I needed to
understand
.” Alex allowed the full weight of her sarcasm to fall on the last word.
“Yes,” he agreed. “But I didn't have much choice once I'd made you.”
“You could have
not
made me,” Alex muttered.
Barlow ignored her. “Every new wolf must kill the first time or embrace madness. Even my wolves, if that initial kill isn't accomplished, become killing machines ever after.”
“You think that's what happened to the wolf that's stalking the Inuit?”
“No. All of the wolves here were made by me and brought into this life with their consent.”
“Not all,” she said.
“All the ones that count.”
Well, she'd asked for that. “Were every one of your wolves given a very bad man as their first meal?”
“Not every one.”
“When did you grow a conscience?”
His eyes narrowed. “I became a werewolf in the ninth century. Conscience was a little different back then.”
“I suppose you just tossed them a conquered captive and called it a day.”
When he didn't answer, she knew she was right. She also knew that living for eons meant that a lot of things had changed, including how people viewed right and wrong. Judging a Viking with the mores of the twenty-first century was as backward as he had once been.
She didn't like cutting Barlow any slack, but to be fair she had to.
“You're certain none of your wolves might have made another and let him or her run wild, so to speak?”
“They wouldn't dare.”
Alex snorted. She couldn't help it. “Not everyone is as beta as you think.”
She could tell by the way he went silent and still that she'd gotten him thinking. She decided to leave him to it.
“I'm going back to Ella's,” Alex said. If she didn't sleep soon, she just might fall on her face.
Julian glanced up. “Don't tell anyone who you are.”
She'd been headed for the door but turned at his arrogant command. “I think that ship has sailed.”
His eyes flared. “Why would you do that?”
“
I
didn't. You introduced me the instant we got into town.”
“Oh.” He let out a quick, sharp breath that blew a stray strand of golden hair away from his face. “Your name. That's all right. But don't tell anyone
why
you're here.”
“You think your people would mutiny if they discovered you hadn't followed your own rules? That you
made
someone against their will?” Alex's lips curved. “That might be fun to watch.”
He rubbed his forehead. “Do not tell anyone you're a hunter. Do not tell anyone you know Edward. Specifically do not tell anyone you murdered my wife.” He dropped his hand and looked into her face. “Werewolves
can
die, Alex, and mine will kill you.”
“They can't. There's a fail-safe in the lycanthropy virus that keeps werewolves from killing one another.”
“Not around here.”
Alex stilled. “What?”
“Because I'm different, my virus is different, and so are my wolves. No demon. Also no fail-safe.”
Her eyes widened. “Then how can there be any of you left at all? Why haven't you torn one another to shreds? Why isn't there only one wolf left standing?”
“Because we don't kill for sport. We don't enjoy it. And while we
can
kill one another, we don't want to.”
“But sometimes,” she murmured, staring into his face as she heard what he'd left unsaid, “you have to.”
“It's the only thing werewolves understand.”
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Barlow offered to take her back to Ella's, but Alex refused.