In My Head
In My Head
S.L. Schiefer
Published by S.L. Schiefer
Copyright ©2016 S.L. Schiefer
First Edition, e-book—published 2016
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Taylor Swift—Bad Blood
Pitbull—Fun
Wiz Khalifa—See You Again
The Weeknd—The Hills
The Weeknd—Can’t Feel My Face
DNCE—Cake By The Ocean
Story Of The Year—Until The Day I die
Story Of The Year—Anthem Of Our Dying Day
Flyleaf—I’m So Sick
Flyleaf—Fully Alive
Seether—Fake It
Theory Of A Deadman—Bad Girlfriend
Tantric—Down And Out
Dedication
To my husband for always putting up with me wanting to write instead of other things ;)
Also, to my parents. Who no matter what always are there for me.
IT’S AMAZING, LOOKING
back, what all I missed. Things that were obviously right in front of me. I couldn’t see how things looked from the outside, because I was in my own world of denial. I had no idea how I got to where I did.
If I had known, I would have gone about things differently.
I would have stayed out of my head.
Around 7 years ago
“
LYLA! WHAT ARE YOU
doing here?” Ben asks over the thump of the bass in the bar we’re in. We just finished our second year of college so we decided to come out and celebrate. We being my roommate, Michelle and myself.
Ben is a sophomore too, studying business management. We don’t have any classes together, but every time I’m at the library he’s always there. So we’ve become study partners. Even though we can’t help each other at all. The only reason I agreed is because he’s nice to look at. Okay, nice might be putting it mildly. Ben is the epitome of my wet dream. He has black hair, green eyes, a strong chiseled jaw, and a constant stubble. It’s like he uses clippers to keep his beard trimmed down without getting rid of it completely.
“Celebrating! What are you doing? Here with a hot date?” Ben goes out a lot, but never with the same girl twice. He’s not a bad boy, but he does have the reputation of one.
“I’m kind of hoping I can get this one girl to go home with me,” he says, then puts his bottle of beer up to his lips to take a drink. I watch his throat as he takes a long pull of the amber liquid.
“Oh, yeah?” I start glancing around the bar, trying to see if I can pick out the girl he’s trying to hook up with. “What’s she look like?”
“She’s a little short, has the stubbornness of an eighty-year-old man, and has the deepest brown eyes I’ve ever seen.”
I turn and give him a puzzled look. “That does not help me pick her out in this crowd of people.”
“I think you’ll have a hard time picking her out. She isn’t like anyone else I’ve ever met before. I’ve actually been trying to catch her attention for a while now, but it seems she doesn’t have the slightest idea that I’m interested.” He stares at me intently, while I just stare back. I’m not really sure what to say to that. It’s no secret, well to me and Michelle, that I want this guy for myself, but I’ve never let him in on that secret. I couldn’t take the heart break of rejection that would likely occur. I’m not on the same level as this guy. To even delude myself into thinking that is absurd.
“Well, whoever it is had better realize just how lucky she is to have a great guy like you wanting her.” I turn away and take a drink of my amaretto stone sour. This stuff is like candy, and almost just as good to fix a heart ache.
I feel Ben come in close behind me, and I feel the brush of his lips on my ear right before he says, “Lyla, I’m positive she would feel that way if she would open her eyes and see what’s standing right in front of her. Or, right behind her in this case.”
Butterflies burst into flight in my stomach. What the hell is he going on about? If he’s toying with me, he won’t be able to perform in bed for a very long time. “What, Ben?” I ask breathlessly.
“Lyla, for as brilliant as you are, you’re so blind.” He chuckles and I feel his breath on the back of my neck. My skin breaks out in goosebumps from the intimate feel of the situation.