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Authors: Livia Bitton-Jackson

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I Have Lived a Thousand Years

A
LSO BY
L
IVIA
B
ITTON
-J
ACKSON:

Sometime during the fourth night,

the train comes to a halt. We are awakened by the awful clatter of sliding doors being thrown open and cold air rushing into the wagon.

“’Raus! Alles ’raus!”

Rough voices. A figure clad in a striped uniform. Standing in the open doorway, illuminated from behind by an eerie diffused light, the figure looks like a creature from another planet.

“Schnell! ’Raus! Alles ’raus!”

Two or three other such figures leap into the wagon and begin shoving the drowsy men, women, and children out into the cold night. A huge sign catches my eye:
AUSCHWITZ.

ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

I wish to express my gratitude to Toni Mendez and Jeanette Smith. Their expert guidance and personal warmth transcended the confines of their function as literary agents and served as a continuous source of inspiration.

My thanks to my editor Stephanie Owens Lurie, and her editorial team, for handling the material for this book with sensitivity and insight and thoughtfulness.

First paperback edition March 1999
Copyright © 1997 by Livia E. Bitton-Jackson

Simon Pulse
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The Library of Congress has cataloged the hardcover edition as follows:
Jackson, Livia Bitton
I have lived a thousand years: growing up in the Holocaust/
by Livia E. Bitton-Jackson
ISBN 0-689-81022-9 (hc.)
1. Jews—Persecutions—Hungary—Juvenile literature. 2. Holocaust, Jewish
(1939-1945)—Hungary—Personal narratives—Juvenile literature.
3. Jackson, Livia Bitton—Juvenile literature. 4. Auschwitz (Poland: concentration camp).
5. Hungary—Ethnic relations—Juvenile literature. I. Title.
DS135.H93J33 1997 940.53’18—dc20 96-19971
ISBN 0-689-82395-9 (Pulse pbk.)
eISBN-13: 9-781-4391-0661-7

Dedicated to the children in Israel who, unsung and unacclaimed, risk their lives every day just by traveling to school on the roads of Judea, Samaria, and Gaza, for the sake of a secure peace in Israel—the only guarantee that a Holocaust will never happen again.

CONTENTS

FOREWORD

Chapter 1: The City of My Dreams

Chapter 2: “Hey, Jew Girl, Jew Girl...”

Chapter 3: The Tale of the Yellow Bicycle

Chapter 4: The Tale of the Yellow Star

Chapter 5: Farewell, Old Mr. Stern

Chapter 6: The Ghetto

Chapter 7: A Miracle

Chapter 8: Daddy, How Could You Leave Me?

Chapter 9: Can I Keep My Poems Please?

Chapter 10: Aunt Serena

Chapter 11: Oh, God, I Don’t Want to Die!

Chapter 12: Auschwitz

Chapter 13: Arbeit Macht Frei

Chapter 14: Born in the Showers

Chapter 15: The Riot

Chapter 16: Teen Vanity

Chapter 17: The Dawn of New Hope

Chapter 18: “Mommy, There’s a Worm in Your Soup!”

Chapter 19: Alien Heroes

Chapter 20: The Uprising

Chapter 21: Hitler is Not Dead

Chapter 22: Tattoo

Chapter 23: The Broken Bed

Chapter 24: Is it True About the Smoke?

Chapter 25: The Selection

Chapter 26: The Transport

Chapter 27: A Handkerchief

Chapter 28: This Must Be Heaven

Chapter 29: Herr Zerkübel

Chapter 30: Leah Kohn, Forgive Me ...

Chapter 31: The Bowl of Soup

Chapter 32: The Bird of Gold

Chapter 33: An Echo in the Fog

Chapter 34: To Face the World

Chapter 35: The Lost Game

Chapter 36: Its an American Plane!

Chapter 37: Freedom, at Last

Chapter 38: Homecoming

Chapter 39: “America, Will You Be My Home?”

Chapter 40: The Statue of Liberty

APPENDIX A

APPENDIX B

GLOSSARY OF TERMS

F
OREWORD

On April 30, 1995, I took an El-Al flight from Tel Aviv to Munich. From the terminal I took the S-Bahn to Tutzing, and from there I was driven to Seeshaupt, a small Bavarian resort. This was not an easy journey to take, and I took it after some weeks of deliberation. I was going back to Germany—fifty years later.

It was in Seeshaupt on this very day fifty years ago that the American army had liberated me, along with my brother and my mother and thousands of other skeletal prisoners. Some leading citizens of Seeshaupt had decided to commemorate the event. They formed a committee and dispatched letters of invitation to possible survivors all over the world. One such letter reached me in my New York home, and here I was, making a detour, on a Tel Aviv-New York flight, to Seeshaupt.

The former mayor’s son, then a nine-year-old boy, remembered how the victorious Allies had led his father and his family and all other members of the local elite to the Seeshaupt train station, where they witnessed a most horrifying picture of human suffering. The sight of thousands of disfigured corpses and maimed, dying skeletons left an indelible mark on his awareness.

Now he is a doctor in Seeshaupt, and when his patients,
members of the post-war generation, refused to believe his account of what he saw, he decided to bring back survivors of that ghastly liberation as living proof that the unbelievable did happen.

The sky was overcast and a light drizzle veiled my view as my host, Dr. Peter Westebbe, one of the local organizers of the commemoration, drove me through the streets of Seeshaupt to the dedication ceremony.

Eighteen survivors had arrived for the ceremony from all over the world. Some were from the United States, some from South America, some from Israel, and one from Greece. The townspeople were there—about three hundred, mostly young. The present mayor of the town officiated at the dedication of a monument to those who had died and those who had survived to be liberated here—over two thousand five hundred, according to records. Young children from the local school planted trees, danced and sang, and the pastor of the local church blessed the monument. The local audience was visibly moved.

We, the eighteen survivors who had returned to Seeshaupt, men and women in their sixties and seventies, briefly reminisced about that liberation day fifty years ago, and as we looked into each other’s eyes, we saw that the years had not faded the pain of memories. The pain was intact. And so was the sense of overwhelming burden.

A celebration followed the dedication ceremony. Several hundred guests filled the local beer hall, where tables were set up for a festive meal and musical entertainment by the local band.

Quietly I slipped out of the hall, and slowly made my way to the train station. Late Sunday afternoon stillness
enveloped the small town. I walked along the tracks to the colorless, deserted, memorable platform. No trains. No passengers anywhere. Total emptiness. Only an incessant, light drizzle.

But for me the platform was full. It was brimming with a disarray of sights, hundreds upon hundreds, a bleeding carpet of dead and dying. I saw Greco, the fifteen-year-old Greek boy with enormous, feverish eyes, begging for water. I saw Lilli, the sixteen-year-old brunette with her leg blown off, sitting in a pool of blood. I heard Martha, blinded in both eyes, calling to her mother. And Beth, and Irene . . . ageless faces, skeletal limbs filled the gray, translucent mist.

“There are no more trains today.” I turned around, startled. The woman with the unmistakably Bavarian accent had a pleasant, nondescript face. “There are no more trains today from this station.”

“Thank you. I’m not waiting for a train.”

She waited, wondering; then, with a hint of suspicion lingering in her manner, she reluctantly walked on.

But the moment was gone. The half-century-old visions were no longer retrievable onto the screen of my present reality. A cold, opaque haze enveloped the tracks; the platform and the grim two-story station house were empty.

I walked back to the beer hall, where the celebration was winding down. “What message do you have for us?” one of the committee members asked me. “What lessons?”

I pondered the question. I was fourteen when the war ended, and believed that the evil of the Holocaust was defeated along with the forces that brought it about. Six years later a new life began for me in the New World. A new life, free of threat. A new world, full of hope.

In America I grew from traumatized teen to grandmotherhood. And as the world grew more and more advanced technologically, it seemed to grow more and more tolerant of terror and human suffering.

My fears have returned. And yet my hope, my dream, of a world free of human cruelty and violence has not vanished.

My hope is that learning about past evils will help us to avoid them in the future. My hope is that learning what horrors can result from prejudice and intolerance, we can cultivate a commitment to fight prejudice and intolerance.

It is for this reason that I wrote my recollections of the horror. Only one who was there can truly tell the tale. And I was there.

For you, the third generation, the Holocaust has slipped into the realm of history, or legend. Or, into the realm of sensational subjects on the silver screen. Reading my personal account I believe you will feel—you will know—that the Holocaust was neither a legend nor Hollywood fiction but a lesson for the future. A lesson to help future generations prevent the causes of the twentieth-century catastrophe from being transmitted into the twenty-first.

My stories are of gas chambers, shootings, electrified fences, torture, scorching sun, mental abuse, and constant threat of death.

But they are also stories of faith, hope, triumph, and love. They are stories of perseverance, loyalty, courage in the face of overwhelming odds, and of never giving up.

My story is my message: Never give up.

T
HE
C
ITY OF
M
Y
D
REAMS

SOMORJA, SUMMER 1943-MARCH 1944

I dream of enrolling in the prep school in Budapest, the capital city. Budapest is a big, beautiful metropolis with wide streets and tall buildings and yellow streetcars whizzing around corners. All the streets of Budapest are paved. In our town we have only one paved street, the main street. And it is not wide. We have neither tall buildings, nor streetcars, only horse-drawn carts and two automobiles. One of them belongs to my friend’s father.

Ours is a small farming town at the edge of the Carpathian foothills. The lovely hills loom in a blue haze toward the west. To the south, the Danube, the cool, rapid river, pulsates with the promise of life. How I love to swim in its clear blue, surging ripples, and lie in the shade of the little forest hugging its banks.

We children splash all summer in the Danube. Families picnic in the grass, the local soccer team has its practice field nearby, and the swimming team trains for its annual meet. Even the army camp empties its sweaty contents once a day, hundreds of recruits, into the cool, cleansing waters of the Danube.

When the sun moves beyond the hills and the little forest casts a long shadow over the pasture, herds of cattle and sheep arrive at the Danube. The shepherds drive first the
sheep, then the horses and cows into the water, cursing ever louder, and drive us children out. The mosquitoes arrive, too, with the dusk, and it is time to go home.

The walk through the open pasture is pleasant and cool, but the town is hot and dusty when we reach home. The sheep arrive before us and it is they who churn up the dust. But soon the dust settles, and so does the night. A dark, velvety blanket of silence wraps the town snugly against the intrusion of the outside world. The stars, one by one, light up the dirt roads and the single paved street of the town. By nine o’clock all is quiet. Here and there one hears the bark of a restless dog. Soon the dog, too, will be asleep.

Then the orchestra of insects begins its overture, its harmony disrupted by the discordant croaking of a frog, an inhabitant of a small swamp just beyond the last houses of our street.

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