Ever Enough (36 page)

I’d begged Harper and Em’s parents to tell me where I could find her but none of them would budge. I’d even hoped that Harper might spill the beans to Ky, but she was too smart for that. My best friend would crack with very little pressure and a bucket of KFC and being well aware of this fact, Harper had chosen to keep him out of the loop as well as me.

Getting out of the shower, I stood in front of the mirror and smeared on the shaving cream. I had grown a beard but ended up shaving it off after a month. Ky was scared I was harboring bugs in there and he refused to let me in the house unless I got rid of it. He’s such a pussy. One small spider and he was on top of the kitchen table.

Shaved clean and a towel still around my hips, I walked back to my bedroom. The doorbell rang before I had a chance to put my shirt on. I got my wallet off the side table in the living room and headed for the door. I didn’t think Ky had ordered the keg just yet, but there was always the chance it could be some overzealous delivery boy, hoping for a bigger tip.

When I opened the door, my mind went blank. I couldn’t understand why my eyes were seeing Em standing in front of me. I reached up and rubbed my eyes. Nope, still there. What the hell? I wasn’t even drunk yet.

“Hi Finn.” She spoke so softly, and her voice was sweeter than in my dreams.

Jesus, she really was here. But why? Did it even matter why? She looked like a blonde goddess. Her hair had grown even longer, and the blonde waves cascaded over her shoulder. Her skin was golden and the darker tone made her eyes appear a brilliant blue. Even so she still looked like my Tiny Girl. I realized that she was still standing there in front of me and I had yet to say a single word to her. Talk to her you asshole.

“Emilyn,” My voice came out shocked. “What are you doing here?”

She didn’t answer me right away. Her eyes traveled the length of my body and back up again. She seemed to be thinking something over and then she gulped.

“Ask me again.” she whispered.

I was confused. Ask her what again?

“What?”

She took a deep breath and repeated herself. “The question you asked me before I left… ask me again.”

I searched through my fogged brain and then it hit me. I’d proposed to her. She’d said no, so why would she want me to ask… oh my god.

Her eyes lit up, sparkling as she saw the realization on my face. She smiled at me and gave me a slight head nod.

I stepped forward and took a hold of her waist, bringing her body flush with mine. Brushing her hair back from her shoulder I cleared my throat.

“Marry me Em? I’m a worthless man without you in my life. I love you, so marry me.”

Her smile got even wider and I saw her pulse thrum in her throat. “Oh thank god. I was worried you were going to close the door in my face.”

“Em.” I kissed the tip of her nose.

“Hmmm?”

“Are you going to answer me?”

“Oh shit, I’m sorry! I totally forgot with my nerves and all. Yes! Yes! Yes! Of course I’ll marry you Finn!”

I picked her up and swung her around, her feet dangling behind her. She giggled.

“Pinch me because this has got to be a dream! Where have you been the past two months?”

She nipped at my ear and it turned me on.

“Florida.”

“Well that explains the tan. But why Florida?”

“Because it’s warm.”

“Is that the only reason?”

“Yep, pretty much!” She said laughing. I chuckled and reveled in the sound.

Then she murmured, “Can we talk later? I need you… like now!”

More than happy to oblige, I wrapped her legs around my waist and carried my Tiny Girl—my fiancée—inside and took her to bed.

One year later…

Finn moaned in my ear as he pushed inside of me. Sweet Jesus I was never going to get over this delicious feeling. I ground my ass back against him. He reached forward and splayed his hand on my stomach, while the other one went a little further and began flicking across my clit.

“Oh god… that’s the ticket.”

He chuckled. I was in front of him on my hands and knees about to collapse in a fit of convulsions.

“Serious, your ass looks great from this angle.”

I rolled my eyes. “Shut up and keep fucking me.”

He laughed and began moving even faster. I was building higher and higher, and when he suddenly did a little extra upward thrust. I was done for. My orgasm hit me so fast and so hard that I gripped on to the bed sheets and screamed into my pillow. He continued to slam into the back of me, still working my bundle of nerves. It was almost too much. I knew he was close because he began to shutter and his strokes became more irregular. He groaned deeply and I was lost to him again.

Finn carefully pulled me to the side and lay behind me. We had thrown all of the covers off the bed earlier because I was too hot. I was always too hot. Being almost nine months pregnant and as big as a house will do that to a woman. Seriously, the sweating made me cranky. I was going to beg my husband to install a second air conditioner so I could keep the house at sub-freezing temperatures. Poor guy. He had to wear sweaters in the middle of the summer when he was home. He swore he didn’t mind though.

“You’re going to be the death of me woman.” He mumbled behind me.

I giggled. “Whatever, you love it!” My hormones made me insanely horny all of the time. I’d barely been awake this morning when I’d rolled over and starting giving Finn a blowjob. He had been sleeping but when he woke he was definitely ready to satisfy my needs.

“Yeah, I’ll love it until you break my poor member,
then
what are you going to do?”

“Find that vibrator you took from me.” I said in all seriousness.

He kissed my shoulder. “What am I going to do with you Tiny Girl?”

“Love me.”

“Obviously.” He kissed me again.

“Can you just imagine what it’s going to be like if our daughter is just like me?”

He went as still as a statue and my shoulders started to shake from laughter.

“That’s not funny. No guy is going to be good enough for my Allie girl.” He was serious. “Now would you like some breakfast before Harper comes over?”

“Oh yes! Can you make me some bacon and eggs. Oh and some pancakes. And could you add some chocolate chips?” He got up and started to move slowly towards the bedroom door. “And maybe a bowl of fruit? The baby seems to really be craving strawberries.”

“Uh huh… the baby.” He grinned and walked out the door.

I lay in bed a little while longer thinking about my life. I didn’t think I could be any happier if I tried. Finn and I had married a month after I’d flown to California. I never expected him to propose to me again. I’d put the poor man through the wringer. I suspected that very few men would have dealt with the crap that put Finn through, but that just showed me how much he really did love me. He’d never stopped loving me, and I couldn’t imagine loving anybody else. He was the one true great love of my life and my best friend. Although I’d never tell Harper that or else she’d boob slap me.

Finn and I decided to stay in California. Ky ended up moving out and left me living in a bachelor pad. I added a few female touches here and there and I really loved it. I loved being by the beach, and I loved being somewhere that Finn and I could create new memories and build our lives with a fresh start. As far as Weston was concerned, I continued to get alimony as per the court order. Normally that would have ended after I got married, but due to the circumstances surrounding the divorce the money continues to be deposited in my account. I allow myself to go out and spend that money frivolously with Harper on any kind of stupid shit. It almost made it all worth it.

Ky and Harper were still our best friends outside of each other. Despite their short lived romance, they’d ended on pretty bad terms. Harper tried her hardest not to yell ‘asshat’ whenever we mention Ky’s name, and Kyler ignores any conversation that involves Harper. If I could beat the shit out of both of them for not seeing what was right in front of them, I would. I’d never met a better suited pair, but Harper has serious commitment issues. I think that goes back to her absent father, but she won’t talk to me about it much. After Ky moved out here, he was handed the opportunity of a lifetime. The bass player from band Down Glory Road suddenly walked out, and they offered Ky the chance to come play with them on tour. He said yes, and began touring all over the world. He still makes time to visit though.

This life has been one wild ride of ups and downs. If you would’ve asked me over a year ago if I’d change anything, I would have said yes.

Now? No way.

I’d done a lot of growing up and learning in my short thirty-one years. I’d loved and lost, married and divorced, lost a child, and now I was married again with a baby due any day. I’d learned that I wouldn’t be where I was without going through everything that I had. I’d learned that even though I didn’t ever feel like I was worthy of Finn, I was. The same went for being a mother. I’d begun to believe that I wouldn’t ever be enough; that I didn’t deserve those titles. I couldn’t have been more wrong. Finn taught me that I was more than worthy of his love. In fact, he was lucky to have
me.
I would always mourn the loss of my baby boy, but he wasn’t taken away from me because I wasn’t capable of being a good mother. I chose to believe that I was given him so I could learn to love and have hope again. I knew now that I was meant to be a mother to our little girl, and Finn was meant to be her father.

I sighed and closed my eyes, wanting to fall back asleep.

“Get your cute little ass outta bed Tiny Girl, before I eat your pancakes!” Finn hollered from the kitchen.

“You do and you’ll lose your fingers.” I called back.

I got up, and slowly waddled my happily pregnant butt out of my room and into the kitchen to have breakfast with the love of my life.