Black Wings MC: The Novel (Motorcycle Club Romance) (13 page)

“
Are you sure?” Animal asked. “It’s gonna be one bitch of a ride through the desert with the dirt hitting that thing.”

“
I can deal with it.” Doom told the MC. The guys helped him tie his wife beater shirt around the wound and get onto his bike. Surprisingly, he wasn’t bullshitting when he said he could still ride. He led the group toward the U.S. border.

Chapter Sixteen

Heading Home

The MC finally made it back to the U.S. border after making several long stops to clean out Doom’s gunshot wound. It kept getting road debris and dust into, making it burn uncontrollably as he rode his bike through the desert. Once they were in line at the border, Shadow called Tara.

“
Hey gorgeous, how are you doing?” Shadow asked her.

“
Good. Are you on your way back?” she asked eagerly.

“
Yeah, we’re sitting in line at the border and we’re heading back to the headquarters before I come home. You might not see me until tomorrow.” He said as he glanced at his pocket watch, noticing that it was almost 9PM.

“
Do you HAVE to go to headquarters first? Can’t you guys meet up tomorrow? I miss you so much.” She pleaded with him.

Shadow didn’t want to tell her that one of them had been shot. “Unfortunately, yeah, we need to debrief over today’s events.” He said, trying to sound casual.

“
I don’t know why, but I have a bad feeling.” Tara said.

“
Oh babe, you’re just paranoid. Try to get some rest. You gotta take care of that baby bump.”

They ended the call when his signal faded, which meant they were entering U.S. territory. The Black Wings continued on their journey without further incident until they reached headquarters. When the MC arrived, they all pitched in and helped Doom inside. Shadow busted out a case of beer for the guys as they gathered around inside their church meeting hall.

“
That was one hell of a day today. I think we’ve got our point across for the most part, but there’s still a long road ahead of us.” All of the men raised their beer in a toast and began to drink. For the most part of the night, the men continued to set around drinking and talking about the cartel.

As they strategized the best way to handle the cartel, Shadow continued to drink heavily. Before he knew it, he was pretty buzzed and was unable to drive home. He also knew that if he went home drunk, Tara would have his ass.
‘What the hell?’
he thought,
‘might as well stay and enjoy myself and crash here for the night.’
It was around 5AM before he finally passed out on the leather couch near the bar.

Ringing from Shadow’s cell phone awoke him around 10AM. It was Tara; he knew her ringtone well.
‘Shit!’
he thought. He knew that he was in trouble if she was already awake and looking for him. Instead of calling her back right away, he grabbed another beer from the fridge and began drinking again to get rid of his hangover. Tara continued to send him text messages, asking if he was okay and if he would please call her. He waited almost two hours to call her back.

“
Hey baby doll!” he exclaimed as he tried to sound cheerful and awake, even though he was dragging ass and still hung over as hell.

“
Where have you been?” Tara demanded.

“
Oh, well after we got back, we had church and then I crashed over at Animal’s house. He needed some help moving a couch this morning.”

“
And you couldn’t call me back?”

He could tell that she was pissed. “Baby, please, don’t be mad at me. I was just trying to help a friend out. He’d do the same for me.”

“
I’m really getting tired of your bullshit! How stupid do you think I am?”

“
I’ll come home and we can talk then.”

“
Well, I might not be here when you get here. I have a life you know? I’m not going to live my life sitting around waiting for you. You’re going to need to make a decision…..me or the club!”

“
That’s not fair, Tara, and you know it. You know that I can’t leave the club and you know that I love you.”

“
I’m tired of hearing it Derek.”

And with that, the phone went dead. Shadow suddenly found himself scared and worried. He didn’t know what to think or what to do. Doing what he thought was right, he hopped on his bike and headed home; hoping that Tara and the little blip would still be there waiting for him. During his trip home, he thought about what Tara said and what she had been complaining about. Had he been spending too much time with the club? After all, he was tied down now. He had an old lady and a baby on the way. He thought about the other club members and how much time they dedicated to the club. Tara was right—he dedicated more time than anyone else to the club, but he also had to remind himself that he was the president. When you’re the president, there’s a lot more responsibility. Sometimes that means staying at the clubhouse longer than others or spending more time dealing with the cartel or other issues. He would try to explain this to Tara when he got home. He didn’t want to lose her.

Chapter Seventeen

Making Amends

Shadow raced home on his bike, going as fast as he could. He wasn’t sure whether or not Tara would actually leave him but he didn’t want to find out. His mind wandered as the tires of his motorcycles hugged the road that he sped down. He thought back to all of the times that Tara had complained about him not coming home or showing up drunken way past the middle of the night. He knew that she had a point but in his mind, he thought that she should be more understanding.

He couldn’t get home fast enough. It seemed as though he continuously got stuck behind every grandma driver in town or he would catch all of the lights. Time was not on his side today, and he was well aware of this. Maybe if he could get home in time, he could stop Tara from leaving but the way things were looking, he doubted that he would get there in time. He weaved in and out of traffic and crossed the yellow line to pass slow pokes that were in his way.

As he whipped into his driveway, he could hardly shut the bike off fast enough to get inside the house to see if Tara was still there. He lunged up the front steps, taking them two at a time as he darted into the front door.

“
Tara!” he yelled out, “I’m home.”

There was no answer. “Tara! Are you still here?” He called out to her.

“
Tara, where are you?”

Again, the house was just as silent as when he first walked in. His heart began to sink as his mind raced, realizing that she had left him. He slumped down onto the couch and put his face in his hands as he tried to compose himself. He knew that he had fucked up, and he hadn’t felt this much pain since his wife died years ago. The thought of losing the love of his life again was too much to bear. As he was trying to gather himself, he thought about where she might have gone. He decided to call her and beg her to come back. He wanted her and his baby back home.

As the phone rang in his ear, he could also hear it ringing in the house. He continued to listen to the phone ring as he walked around searching for its location; he found it just as her voicemail was picking up. He wasn’t sure if she had left without her phone or if there was still a chance that she might still be at home. Racing upstairs, he began to call out to her.

“
Tara! Are you up here?” He yelled out as he ran up the stairs.

“
Tara!” He called as he went into the master bedroom.

A few seconds later, he heard some movement and shuffling of bags in the spare bedroom across the hall.

“
Tara, is that you?”

“
I’m in here” she called as she tried to move things out of her way.

“
What were you doing?” he asked her as he helped her move the bags out of her way and took her hand to lift her off of the floor.

“
Well, after we hung up, I got to thinking. I decided that I wasn’t going to leave. We are having a baby together and I want him or her to grow up in a house with both parents. I had been working on the baby’s room before I talked to you earlier and decided to come back up to finish it. I guess I fell asleep.”

“
You sure did” Shadow chuckled. “How in the hell did you fall asleep in the closet though?”

“
I guess I was super tired. Being pregnant has kicked my ass. Lately, I could fall asleep standing up in the shower.”

“
Well, I’m glad that you changed your mind and decided not to leave. I know I’ve been an ass but I love you so much.”

“
I love you, too but don’t mistake my still being here as I forgive you. I don’t forgive you at all. I think you and I still have a lot of talking to do.”

Shadow nodded his head in agreement. “Here, let’s go downstairs and sit on the couch” he said as he reached out for her hand.

“
Ok” she said as she grabbed his hand and followed him down the stairs. She loved the way that his oversized hand wrapped around her tiny hand; it was almost as if it fit like a glove. When they got downstairs, they headed over to the couch and Tara turned the television off. While Shadow was usually attentive, he had his moments of distraction. Tara wanted him completely focused on what she had to say. Even though she wished to raise the baby together, she was no fool and was still on the verge of leaving if he didn’t pull his act together.

“
You know that I love”, Tara started, “but that doesn’t mean that you can treat me like a stuffed animal and just leave me behind whenever you feel like it. I’ve done some thinking…”

Shadow interrupted her, “Babe, I know. I’m a complete jackass and I’ll do whatever it takes to keep you and the baby here with me.”

“
Well, I was going to say that I’ve done some thinking about you and the club. I realize that I may have been a tad bit selfish—on some levels—but I am not being selfish by asking that you come home at night. I know the guys need you as much as I do, just in a different way.”

“
I’m glad that you’ve finally realized that. It means a lot to me. And you’re right; I don’t think you’re asking too much to ask that I come home at night. I’ll work harder on it. I promise.”

Shadow leaned in to kiss Tara. She studied him for a moment before she leaned in too. You could almost see that he had aged that day. She loved him so much and didn’t want to lose him. They began to kiss passionately. As one long kiss turned into another, Shadow pulled Tara onto his lap and rubbed his hands up and down her back. He loved touching her; it didn’t matter what part he touched. It could be her hair, her back, her chin—it didn’t matter. He loved her with all of his being.

As they continued to make out, Shadow lifted Tara off of his lap and began to carry her up the stairs to their bedroom. She loved being in his strong arms. Her thin frame wasn’t anything for Shadow to carry; his arm muscles were bigger than her thighs. To him, she was like lifting a twig. When they reached the bedroom, Shadow laid Tara on the bed.

Shadow began to slowly undress her as they continued to kiss passionately. She reciprocated by removing his shirt and unbuttoning his jeans. Clothes began to pile up on the floor as he continued to shower her with love and affection. Tara could feel herself becoming wet as she felt the bulge grow in Shadow’s jeans.

Kisses began to trail down her neck and breasts before he reached her thighs. Teasingly, he nibbled on her clit—just enough to make her ache for more. He stopped for a moment to catch a glimpse of her ragged breathing as she looked at him with lust and desire. Before she could say a word, he swooped back to her crotch and began to slowly circle her clit with his tongue. He gently caressed her lady parts with his fingers as he delectably ate her out. His tongue darted inside of her; she moaned as he continued to tongue-fuck her. As good as everything felt, she needed him inside of her.

He slowly began to trail kisses from her thighs back up to her breasts and then took her nipple into his mouth. As he paid attention to her girls, he grabbed his cock by the base and slowly guided it into her wet, needy hole. She was in pure ecstasy as his head passed into the opening of her pussy. Tara raised her hips to take him in deeper. Once he was deep inside of her, he took slow strides; allowing her to feel every inch of him as he penetrated her. Tara’s hips rose and fell, matching his pace. He continued to plant kisses all over her milky white skin as he made love to her.

As a true gentleman, he always made sure that she came before he did. Almost unable to contain himself, he knew that he had to make her cum fast if he wanted to last long enough for her. He picked up his pace as he solely tried to focus on making her cum. His brows furrowed as loud moans escaped Tara’s throat while she bucked her hips. He could feel her hole tightening around his shaft; he knew that she was getting off. It was too much and he couldn’t take it any longer. Shadow began to cum simultaneously with Tara. He pumped her pregnant body full of his thick, white seed. There was so much that it began to seep out of her and leak onto the bed sheets.

The next morning, Shadow awoke to the smell of pancakes and bacon cooking. Tara was busy at work in the kitchen as she hummed while making breakfast for the two of them. He crept down the stairs so that Tara wouldn’t hear him and he stood in the doorway of the kitchen just watching her. She was truly amazing, he thought. His beautiful pregnant woman was just working away; he could get used to this. She noticed him when she turned around to grab some plates.