Read You Will Never Find Me Online
Authors: Robert Wilson
âThere isn't?'
âNobody's going to hurt you,' said Lomax. âI'm not going to hurt you and I'm the only one here at the moment.'
âWhat happened?'
âYou were drunk and drugged and you passed out. I brought you here.'
âWhere is here?'
âSomewhere in London.'
âThat's . . . precise,' she said, having to work hard to find that word.
âIt's the best I can do.'
âI don't remember what happened.'
âThat's normal.'
âSo what am I doing here?'
âYou've been kidnapped.'
She blinked behind her mask, trying to think why she should have been kidnapped. Was she a rich man's daughter? No.
âWhy?' she asked.
âCan't tell you. I've got no idea. I was just told to bring you here.'
âI've got to go to the toilet.'
âBloody hell,' said Lomax.
âIt's just a pee.'
âThere are no facilities.'
âI have to go.'
âHold on,' he said and left the room.
There was nothing in the tool room, he knew that. He checked the other rooms. All empty except the last one, which had two big bottles of water, a half roll of toilet paper and a bucket.
How the hell was he going to do this? He needed Tel and Vlad for this game. Should have kept them on. Then again they were a liability. Too thick and too desperate.
He picked up the bucket and loo roll, went back to the room. He jammed the bucket in the corner, put the loo roll on the floor. He made sure the main door to the basement was locked. From the tool room he took some gaffer tape, some new plastic cuffs and a pickaxe handle.
Kneeling on the bed, he wrapped the gaffer tape around her head securing the sleeping mask to her face. He didn't want her seeing him because now she
would
remember and blindfolded he'd have the advantage if she tried anything.
He told her how it was going to be. Then he touched her on the head with the pickaxe handle.
âAny trouble and I'll brain you.'
âI just want to go for a pee, for Christ's sake.'
âThat's what they all say.'
He cut the leg cuffs and then freed her wrists. He told her to sit up slowly and stand. She sat on the edge of the bed, but struggled to stand. He had to help her to her feet. She was still all over the shop from the drug and disorientated by never having seen the room. He put her hand on the wall and told her there was a bucket in the corner. When she got there he put the loo roll in her hand.
âDo it.'
âWith you here . . . watching?' she said.
âYou'll get used to it and I've seen it all before. I'm no perve.' She dropped her jeans and pants, slid down the wall to the bucket, peed. She was still groggy, her legs weak and her head pounding, but her thinking went on for a bit longer before breaking up. She knew what she had to do, remembered it from all those endless boring conversations between her parents about kidnap victims and the best way to behave.
Disparate things came back to her. Long-buried words of advice. Her father holding her by the shoulders, looking into her eyes before a judo fight. Telling her before she went onto the mat: look at your opponent, learn about her, how she sits beforehand, how she walks, how she bows. It's all telling you something. Everything helps you decide what you're going to do.
Lomax watched her like a hawk, the pickaxe handle in both hands, feeling ridiculous hovering over her. She tried to stand up, couldn't make it.
âYou're going to have to help me. My legs don't work properly.'
He leaned the pickaxe handle against the wall, stood in front of her, hooked his hands under her armpits and pulled her up to her feet. She yanked her jeans up as she stood and leaned into him. He held her by the shoulders and eased her down onto the bed. She was still in poor shape. He got her to lie down, legs together, cuffed them again and secured them to the bed.
âDo you have to tie my wrists?'
âFor the moment.'
She put a wrist to each corner. He cuffed them and stood back. She knew now that he was definitely operating alone and there could be opportunities when she was feeling stronger and needed to go to the toilet again. Mercy's words came to her: gather your information gradually; don't try to rush itâpeople will be suspicious. Everything you do should have the aim of improving your situation, your physical and mental state.
Where did that come from? Was it a seminar she was about to give? Something else: make your captor care for you. The more they care the less likely they are to hurt you.
âI'm thirsty,' she said.
He picked up the bucket, left the room. She listened. He didn't go far. He was back in a moment. He cradled her head in one hand. She felt the rim of the bottle on her lips, drank the water down, thanked him. He pulled up a chair, sat by the bed.
âThere's no need to be scared,' he said.
She wasn't. She had been scared when she first woke up, but now she knew a little she was more solid. She felt sick and weak but that was the drug. Something else had kicked in.
âI'm going to ask you some questions. I want you to tell me the truth. It's very easy to check your answers, and if we find you've been lying you'll be punished. And you don't want to find out what those punishments are.'
The questions were about her parents: their names, where they lived, what they did. She could sense his interest when she told him about her father. She embellished it by saying how much time he spent out of the country, all the jobs he'd done in South and Central America, Pakistan and the Far East. How she didn't see much of him. She was aware of making it sound as if she was telling him a lot but she was withholding as much as she could. It was more difficult with Mercy.
âShe's a copper?' said Lomax.
âYeah, I know,' said Amy, empathising.
âWhat sort of copper?'
âA detective inspector.'
âFuck me.'
âShe's tough too. Made me stand to attention by my bed before lights out.'
âGet away.'
âThat's why I ran away from home.'
âIs it? I thought it was because your father was messing about with you.'
âMessing about?'
âSex. Fucking you. Incest.'
âAre you soaked or what?'
âThat's what it says here. “Did her dad force himself on her?”'
âWho's asking these stupid questions?'
âFuck knows, but did he?'
âNo way,' she said, disgusted at the idea of it. âI lived with my mother. I told you, my father was never around. In my whole life I've probably only spent about three nights at his place. So I've no idea when this was supposed to have happened.'
âSo you ran away from home because your mum was giving you a hard time?'
âI was bored,' said Amy because what he'd said sounded too pathetic. âI was bored by school, bored by rules, bored by the future.'
âYeah,' said Lomax, as if this was obvious. âIt's like that for everybody, but you only run away if somebody's sticking it to you: beating you up or sexually abusing you. Otherwise you just get on with it. It's part of the job of being a kid.'
Nobody had ever put it to her like that.
âEverybody thinks it must be great to be in a band, for example,' said Lomax. âBut it's just another job, except the job is to sing in front of large crowds of screaming people. But it's still work. They live in shit accommodation, eat crap food, travel all day, work all night and take drugs to keep going. I know. I supplied the drugs.'
âSo what's it like being a drug dealer?'
âLong hours. You take a lot of crap from all sides,' he said. âYour suppliers want you to sell more, the customers don't want to pay. You've got to keep your runners in line or they'll cheat your arse. It's dangerous . . . from the cops and other gangs, even your
own
gang sometimes.'
âAnd the good things?'
âYou make money,' said Lomax. âYou don't have to get up in the morning and go to an office. That's about it. It's like any job. A lot of shit for some financial reward.'
âIs that why you moved into kidnapping?'
Â
âGood to hear your voice, David,' said Boxer.
âI'd like to be able to say the same,' said Ãlvarez.
âI'm sorry,' said Boxer. âI've just got one more thing to ask of you.'
âWhatever it is, the answer is no.'
âYou mustn't go to the police,' said Boxer. âThat's all I'm asking.'
âYou think I'd go to the police after what I've been through?'
âSome people might.'
âI'm finished with it. I'm not going to talk to anybody about it. I know this is El Osito.'
âThat's good, because they told me if you did, they'd come after you but only once they'd dealt with your parents and your two sisters.'
âThey said
that
to you?' said Ãlvarez. âMy two sisters? How do they know about them? They don't even live in Madrid.'
âThat's what they told me.'
Silence.
âThey've got something on you, haven't they?' said Ãlvarez. âYou wouldn't be talking to me unless they'd scared you into it. What do these
cabrones
want now?'
âIt's O.K., David. They're getting what they want. You just have to forget everything now. I mean it. Forget I ever came into your life. Don't talk to anyone about this. You break that and they'll kill you and your family.'
âI'm feeling bad now.'
âDon't. You did a very fine thing. You sent a girl a note to warn her. A lot of other people wouldn't have dared to do even that. You do anything else and it'll turn out very badly for you and for me. So promise me.'
âO.K., I promise you.'
Boxer hung up, took a deep breath. That had been harder than he was expecting. He called the number he'd been given, told them that he'd guaranteed Ãlvarez's silence.
âSo you're a kidnap consultant?' said the voice. âThis'll be a first for you, to be the ransom in your own negotiation. Got a nice little something to it, hasn't it?'
âIrony?'
âYeah, maybe that's the word,' said the voice. âWe done a bit more research on you now that Amy's given us the basics. Bit of a poker player, aren't you?'
âIt has been known.'
âNow look. We've incurred some expenses having to deal with your bloody nonsense. So when you hand yourself in we want you to bring a hundred grand with you. Pounds. That should cover it.'
âI can lay my hands on twenty grand today. The rest will take until next week, and that's if the bank'll let me remortgage.'
âI know poker players, and they've always got funds for a game,' said the voice. âIt's what they live for.'
âYou'll be talking about really good poker players who don't blow their winnings on the horses.'
âBring fifty and we won't say anything more about it.'
âLike I said, I can bring you twenty today. The other thirty will take some time. I could probably raise that by Saturday evening.'
âBring thirty and don't give me any more shit.'
âI'll see what I can do,' said Boxer. âLet's just get this straight now: I'm the ransom, plus thirty grand?'
âYou've got it.'
âSo I hand myself in with the money and you will release my daughter?'
âThat's it in one.'
âTell me how that's going to work.'
âWe'll think of a way to pick you up some time later this afternoon, and as soon as we've got you in hand we'll release the girl.'
âMy problem is not with you. It's with El Osito. What guarantee do I have that you'll release her?'
â
I'll
guarantee that. I'll make sure she's with me when you hand yourself in. I'll be the one who releases her.'
Â
âWhat time is it?' asked Amy.
âSix thirty.'
âWhat day are we on?'
âFriday.'
âHow long will you keep me here?'
âI don't know.'
âWhat's the ransom going to be?'
âDon't know that either.'
âSo you're doing this for somebody else?'
âI don't like it, but I have to.'
âWhy?'
âI owe them money.'
âAnd you sell drugs for these people?'
âYep,' said Lomax. âWhich is why I do as I'm told and there's no argument.'
âAnd they'll cancel your debt in returnâis that it?'
âI doubt it.'
âWhy not?'
âBecause it's twenty-eight grand and I was reminded of that fact tonight when I told them I'd got you,' said Lomax. âThe best I can hope for is they'll cancel the vig.'
âThe vig?'
âThe vigorish.'
âStill don't know what you're on about.'
âThey don't teach anything at school these days,' said Lomax, lamenting. âIt's Yiddish, probably Russian originally.'
âMy boyfriend's a Russian Jew.'
âIs that Josh?'
âHow do you know his name?'
âHe called you,' said Lomax. âI didn't take it. Didn't want him getting jealous.'
Silence. It made her a bit sad that he probably wouldn't get jealous.
âWhy didn't you bring Josh with you last night?' asked Lomax, thinking that would have been awkward.
âHe wasn't there,' said Amy. âHe likes to go out.'
âOn his own?'
âTell me about the vigorish,' she said, almost childlike, squirming into the mattress, wanting to be told a story.
âIt used to be the percentage taken from a gambler's winnings by the people who'd set up the game,' said Lomax. âNow it just means a fucking excessive rate of interest. I call it the invigorator.'