Wishing for a Miracle (3 page)

No. She was pretty confident she kept personal issues well away from her work. Out of her life, in fact, because she wasn't letting anyone close enough to discover the truth.

‘I'm going to tell Mummy how brave you are,' Julia told Carla. ‘As soon as I get back down to her. Do you think she'll be proud of you?'

Carla didn't nod but her head moved so that she could look up at Julia.

‘
I'm
proud of you.' Julia smiled. ‘Mac will be, too, you'll see.'

She eased herself to her feet. Carla was still tense and she cried out in terror when Julia lifted her into Mac's waiting hands but then she was in his strong, secure grasp and the child looked up and saw the face of the man above her.

Mac's smile was as reassuring as a hug.

‘Hi, there, peanut,' he said. ‘Going to come for a wee ride with me?'

And this time Carla nodded and, as Mac clipped the
buckle of her harness to his own and instructed the child to put her arms around his neck and hold on tight, she turned her head and Julia could see that she was—incredibly—smiling herself.

Mac was simply the best when it came to dealing with children. It had made it easier to step back herself and not get people asking awkward questions.

‘Your job,'
she could say to Mac with total sincerity.
‘You're the best
.'

He was. He adored kids and she knew him, while he probably wouldn't admit it on station, he was aching for some of his own. And why not? He was in his mid-thirties and by now the absolute obsession with his career had to be ebbing enough for him to realise he might be running out of time to find someone to make a family with. He needed to get on with it.

He'd have gorgeous children and he'd make the best father ever.

And some incredibly lucky woman was going to be his wife and the mother of those children.

Julia turned and began climbing back down as soon as she saw Mac and Carla beginning their upward journey. She had to be just as slow and careful as she had been the first time she had done this despite it seeming easier having done it before. She couldn't afford to fall.

The descent was too slow. It allowed too much time for errant thoughts and emotions to seep into her mind and body.

Inappropriate things but she was learning to expect the backwash that came from seeing Mac with a child in his arms.

A mix of grief. And jealousy. And…yes…desire.

And, as usual, they had to be stamped out with fierce determination because there was nothing Julia could do to change the way things were now.

Not a single thing.

 

It took well over an hour for her to help the eight relatively uninjured victims up to the door where they had been winched up to the bridge and into the care of waiting rescuers. Eight heavy people who had required assistance to make the climb. Constant guidance and encouragement, if not actual physical support. Julia had to be exhausted both physically and mentally.

‘Angus and Dale could take over the next stage,' Mac suggested.

‘No way.' Julia was heading for the base of the carriage again and the crisp words via the communication system put paid to any further suggestions on Mac's part. ‘The job's nearly done and there's no way I'm deserting Ken. He knows me, now.'

And she knew. She was deeply involved in this scenario and, knowing Jules, she would be committed to the people and the mission a thousand per cent. If they wanted to get her out of there it would be neither easy nor pleasant. And she was right, the job was nearly done. She had managed to get virtually all the people from the carriage out and Mac knew there was one conscious, injured person, one unconscious and one dead.

So Mac went in to join her because Julia was his partner and everybody knew just how tight a team these two were these days. Inseparable. And darned good at their jobs.

This time when Mac came down on the winch line he brought equipment and the medical supplies they would need.

The bottom two rows of upturned seats had become a kind of triage station.

Julia indicated one of her patients. ‘This man has been unconscious since I got my first glance inside.'

The figure was slumped on the seat by the window but Mac could see the end of a plastic OP airway in his mouth. Julia had obviously assessed him and done what she could in the brief window of time that triaging allowed for.

‘Head injury,' Julia continued. ‘GCS 3. Rapid, weak pulse and query Cheyne-Stokes breathing pattern.'

The man was very seriously injured, then. Unlikely to survive. If they took the time to evacuate him first, others who could survive might die.

‘And this is Ken.' Julia was hanging onto the edge of the seat across the aisle now. ‘Spinal injury. Paralysis of both legs and paresthesia in both hands.'

A high spinal injury, then. He would need very careful immobilisation before evacuation so they didn't exacerbate the injury.

Julia dropped lower, shining the light of her helmet on the very end of the carriage.

‘Status zero here,' she told Mac quietly. ‘There were several people on top of him to start with. He's too heavy for me to shift but I've moved enough to be fairly sure there's no one underneath him.'

Mac reached down and caught the arm and shoulder of the heavy body, lifting it further than Julia would have
managed. A jumble of luggage, personal possessions like books and drink bottles filled a fair bit of space but there was no sign of movement that might indicate a survivor struggling to get out. He could see shards of broken glass in the debris as well. And so much blood he felt a familiar knot tighten in his gut. He let the man's body fall back gently.

‘Let's deal with what we've got first.'

Julia nodded. ‘Ken first?'

Mac agreed. The sooner they had his spine immobilised and protected, the better the outcome might be for him.

Julia wriggled into a position where she could support Ken's head while Mac went to get the equipment they would need. A neck collar and survival blankets to start with. Oxygen and IV gear and pain relief. He found her squashed into the tiny gap beside Ken, ready to take the collar and ease it into position, and it wasn't the first time he thought it was a blessing that she was so little and mobile. There was no way he could have managed that feat so competently.

‘Do you think I've broken my
neck
?' Ken sounded terrified.

‘This is a precaution,' Julia reassured him. ‘We don't know what part of your spine has been injured and we need to keep it all in line. It's really important that you don't move even after the collar's secured because the rest of your back isn't protected yet. We'll do everything we can but we need you to help too. Can you do that?'

The huff of sound was still fearful. ‘I guess.'

‘Just hang in there, mate. You're doing really, really well.'

Mac was busy opening packages but he could hear the smile in Julia's voice as she reassured her patient. He knew exactly how her face would be looking as she spoke even though he couldn't see it. Ken probably couldn't see it either. He might see the way her lips curved back into her cheeks but he wouldn't be able to see the way Julia's eyes always smiled right along with her mouth. The way her whole face—even her whole body sometimes—seemed connected to her emotional state.

Fascinating to watch. Or provoke. Mac wasn't the only one on station who took pleasure in engaging Julia in an animated discussion.

Or delight in making her smile.

‘We're going to give you something for that pain very soon.' Julia was swabbing a patch on Ken's forearm. ‘Wee scratch coming up. There. All done. Wasn't so bad, was it?'

‘Didn't feel a thing. You know what you're doing, don't you, lassie?'

Julia chuckled. ‘Sure do. Now, are you allergic to any drugs that you know of?'

Mac flicked the top of an ampoule to move the fluid inside. Then he snapped it and slid a needle into the narrow neck to draw up the drug.

Ken was right. Julia knew what she was doing. He was right, too. She was involved in this scenario to the extent that it would have been detrimental to try and give her a break. She had established a connection with Ken and he was in exactly the right frame of mind to co-operate with whatever measures needed to be taken to rescue him.

He trusted Julia and Mac knew the trust wasn't misplaced. He had to feel completely dependent on her right now but he knew that she would be treating his vulnerability with the same kind of compassion and skill she brought to the medical practices he had witnessed her administering.

She fitted an oxygen mask onto Ken and hooked it up to the small cylinder from the pack. ‘I won't run fluids,' she told Mac. ‘BP's down but it's more likely to be neurogenic than hypovolaemic shock.'

‘What does that mean?' Ken asked fearfully.

‘Any injury to the spine can interfere with nerves,' Julia told him. ‘That's why you can't feel your legs at the moment and you're getting pins and needles in your hands. It's not necessarily permanent,' she added firmly, as though she'd given this reassurance more than once. ‘We can't know what damage there is but what we can do is take care not to make it any worse.'

A lot of care had to go into the next stage of this rescue. They had to get Ken flat and secured onto a stretcher without twisting or bending his vertebrae. Then they would have to cushion his head and strap him so securely onto a stretcher there would be no danger of movement during the extrication process.

Minutes ticked past swiftly. Mac could feel exhaustion biding its time, waiting for an opportunity to ambush him, and he knew that Julia had to be a long way further down that track. Not that she was slowing down, of course. She never did. Mac was proud of his partner. Not just for her endurance or the way she had crawled into the cramped space by the window to hold Ken's
head to support his neck but for the way she effortlessly turned her skills to emotional support for their patient.

‘Glasgow's home for you, isn't it, Ken?' she asked.

‘Aye. I was just going up to Inverness on business for the day.'

‘What do you do?'

‘My company makes umbrellas.'

Julia chuckled. ‘You must be doing really well. I've never seen so much rain as I have in the three months I've been here.'

‘Where are you from?'

‘New Zealand.'

‘That's a country I've always wanted to visit. Is it as beautiful as they say it is?'

Mac found himself nodding. He felt exactly the same way. He'd love to get down to the bottom of the world for a visit. Always had, but the urge had got a lot stronger in the last few months. Funny, that.

‘It is,' Julia was saying. ‘Parts of it are very similar to Scotland but I think we get a bit more sunshine.'

‘You going back?'

‘Yes. I work with an ambulance service that has a rescue unit back home. I'm here for six months for advanced training.'

‘What part of New Zealand do you live in?'

‘Christchurch. Middle of the south island. We've got the Alps to the west and the sea to the east. I grew up there.'

‘You've got family to go home to, then.' Ken's voice wobbled. He was obviously thinking of his own family and feeling alone right now.

‘Only my big sister,' Julia told him.

Mac was busy pulling the extrication device they needed from its case but he was listening carefully. This was personal information. The kind that Jules had kept from her colleagues. He might have been left with questions that would never be answered but Ken wanted distraction from his situation. And Julia was so involved, she probably hadn't registered that others might be able to hear.

‘She's like a mum, really,' she told Ken. ‘My mother died shortly after I was born. Anne's nearly seven years older than me and she just took over from the various nannies. When Dad died I was only eleven but Anne was old enough to take care of me. She's amazing. Managed to raise me and get through med school at the same time. I love her to bits.'

There was a short silence then. Julia appeared to be checking Ken's pulse. Or was she holding his hand?

‘When you get to New Zealand,' she said then, ‘make sure you visit Christchurch. It's a very English city but don't hold that against it, will you?'

Something suspiciously like a sniffle could be heard from Ken. ‘Nay, lassie,' he said. ‘I won't.'

He hadn't missed the conviction in Julia's tone that he would, someday, be well enough to travel to the other side of the world. She had deepened the connection between them by sharing personal information and now her confidence was a boost. She was his anchor right now. Nothing more personal was said because she shifted to professional responsibilities, making sure Ken was fully informed and understood everything going on around him to keep his fear at bay.

‘We're getting something called a KED around you now, Ken. You'll feel us tipping you a bit so we can slide it underneath.'

‘But I'm not supposed to move!'

‘I've got you. Relax. I won't let anything happen to your alignment.'

‘What did you say it was?'

‘It's like a body splint. It goes right round your chest and waist and up behind your neck and then we do up a whole bunch of straps. Then it'll be safe to get you on the stretcher and out of here.'

‘It's dark now, isn't it?'

‘Pretty much. Don't worry. We'll have lights all over the place out there now. We can see what we're doing.'

Sure enough, massive lights had been put in place both on the ground and the bridge and, despite drizzle that was determined to become rain, the visibility was excellent. It was still a slow job extricating Ken. He had pain relief on board and was completely immobilised but even the tiniest movement hurt. Angus joined them inside the carriage but it still took an age to inch the stretcher carefully upwards. Julia stayed as close as she could to Ken's head. Talking to him. Reassuring him. Sympathising with the amount of pain he was in. It needed extra help to get the stretcher out of the door and attached to the winch and while that was happening Mac checked the harness he still wore in preparation to accompany the stretcher.