“
Come on Bell we need to talk a
minute.” I grab Bell’s hand when I come down the stairs and see her
sitting at the bar. I pull her along all the way back to the room.
“What’s wrong?” She asks when I close the door and don’t say
anything. I look up and can tell she’s nervous. “Bell I'm going to
be gone a few days.” I say as I walk over to the bed. “You got a
run?” She says like she is a little relieved. “No. I was put on the
team to go check out the meeting spot.” I say and I can see the
tears fill her eyes. “Don’t fucking do that Bell. Don’t cry.” I say
and it comes out a little harsher than I mean it too. “After what
happened last time..” She starts to say and then sobs. I sit down
next to her and pull her to me. “It will be fine Bell. It’s just a
meet and greet. That’s why we are going out first to look into the
area.” I say as I rub her back. “That’s all they were doing too
Tracker and you saw what happened. We almost lost Draven and
Garrick and Casey too.” She says crying. “Look Bell you know this
lifestyle. You know how we live.” I say and this time I meant it to
sting. She knows how we live here and what we have to do and face.
She grew up here so sitting around crying isn’t changing the facts.
“I know but we…. I…. I don’t want to lose you.” She says quietly as
I pull her face up so she looks at me. “You aren’t going to lose me
Bell.” I say before I kiss her hard. I hold her a little longer
before I need to get ready. “Draven’s staying back this time and
Prez is locking down the club. That means everyone will be here in
a while Bell even Doc.” I say grabbing my bag and loading it up. I
look over at Bell and she is crying again. “Damn it Bell what’s
wrong?” I say as I kneel in front of her. “A long time ago I was
with this guy Dan. I was 14 and he was 19. My dad hated him and not
just for the age thing. He hated everything he was. He wasn’t into
the clubs and thought it was all a big bunch of shit. I got
pregnant and my dad obviously found out. He was so mad. He wanted
Dan gone. Dan tried to take me with him after I found out I was
pregnant. My dad threatened to have him put in jail if I went with
him. A few weeks later my dad started giving me medicine. He said
it would help with the morning sickness, but it wasn’t. I asked him
about it one day and he said it would help. That week I started
bleeding and my dad took me to the hospital and they said I had a
miscarriage. I thought I would die. I was lost and one night when
my dad wasn’t home I went into his office to look for something to
take for a headache. I found the pills I was taking in the drawer
and looked up the name. They caused miscarriages. He gave them to
me. He killed my baby.” Bell says as she cries and cries hard. How
can I leave her like this? She needs me here and I have to fucking
leave. I can’t believe Doc would do something like this to her. “Oh
my God Bell. I had no idea. I'm so sorry.” I say as I pull her to
me and hold her there. “Will you just make love to me Tracker?” She
says looking up at me. I nod my head because anything Bell wants I
will give it to her.
“
This looks like a fucking dump.” I say
as we ride up to our meet and greet area. If they are planning an
attack they picked the wrong fucking spot to do it. This place is
out in the damn open and not a fucking building or car around.
“What the hell would they pick this place for?” Garrick says
loudly. “I know man this is just fucking dirt.” I say as we climb
off our bikes and walk around the area. That’s all you see is dirt.
There is absolutely nothing here. I don’t understand this. I grab
out my phone and call Prez. “Yea?” He answers on the first ring.
“Yea we are at the spot Prez but this shit is messed up. There
isn’t anything here man. It’s a whole fucking world of dirt.” I say
looking around again. “What the fuck are they planning?” He says
back to me. “I don’t know man but an ambush when we pull up isn’t
it. There is nowhere to hide out here.” I say as I keep looking
around confused at the whole thing. “Well fuck!” He snaps before
telling me to head back. “Hey Prez said to head back but to check
out anything that is close by.” I say walking over to Garrick who
looks as confused as I feel. “Sure thing but the only shit I seen
when we came in was that gas station and diner.” Garrick says as we
all hop back on our bikes and head out. We ride up to the diner and
climb off our bikes. We all look around not sure what the hell we
are looking at. Me and Sly look at each other and shrug as we walk
towards the diner. Just as we are walking up to the door someone
starts shooting. We all drop down and pull our guns out. We have no
idea where the shots came from. “We all good?” Garrick yells and we
all respond. We stand up and creep towards the door when there are
more shots fired. “Fuck!” I snap as one of the bullets grazes my
arm. “Tracker you good?” Garrick calls over to me softly. “Yea man
got grazed. I'm good.” I say as we keep moving. Just as we are
about to open the door a truck comes flying out from behind the
diner and takes off. We all turn towards the truck expecting a
fucking shoot out but they are gone. We all look at each other
confused at what just happened as we advance on the door. Sly pulls
the door back as the rest of us head inside. There are a few ladies
sitting at a table in the back corner looking scared as shit. “You
ladies ok?” I ask as I advance on them. “Anyone else in here?”
Garrick says as Sly takes the side as Jimmy and Chance take the
back. Me and Garrick turn our attention back to the ladies. “Answer
me!” Garrick snaps and they jump. “No one else is here. We were
told to give this to you guys.” The little blonde says as she pulls
an envelope from behind her and passes it to me. I take it and look
at Garrick as the other guys come out front and say its all clear
in the back.
I sit in the booth looking at the pictures in
front of me. I don’t understand this shit. “What does she have to
do with them?” Jimmy asks. “I don’t fucking know man.” I say
looking at the pictures again. They are all pictures of Jenna and
the little boy from the other envelope at the club. How is she
mixed up with them? Who is the kid? There is clearly something
wrong with him, his features are different. I just don’t understand
what all this has to do with me? “Let’s head back to the club man.
Prez may want to reschedule the meet.” Garrick says as we pack up
the pictures back into the envelope.
“
I'm glad your back, but what the fuck
happened to your arm?” Bell yells at me as we walk back into the
club. “It’s fine.” I say and I'm short with her. “It is not. It’s
bleeding. Come on let me look at it.” Bell says reaching for my
arm. I snatch it away from her. “I said it’s fine Damn it.” I snap
as I walk over to the bar and grab a beer. Bell doesn’t say
anything else she just walks off. I Sit on the bar stool running my
hands through my hair trying to make since of all this. Draven
walks over and slaps my back. “You ok man?” He says and I shake my
head. “No I'm not fucking ok.” I say as I stand and start to stomp
past him. Draven sticks his arm up to stop me and it pisses me off.
“Get the fuck out of my way Draven.” I snap at him. He doesn’t move
and I throw a punch. That’s it the fight is on. Me and Draven are
going at each other when Jimmy and Duke break us up. Draven doesn’t
say anything but Duke shoves me out the door. “Take a fucking walk
man.” Duke says as I shake my head. I turn and walk off and after a
few minutes hear someone walking up behind me. I spin around to see
Draven with his hands up. “Don’t want to fight you man.” He says as
he walks over to me. “Fuck man I'm sorry.” I say and he nods. “Want
to talk about it?” He says and I nod. “I just don’t get it man.
What does she have to do with them? Why are they fucking with me
about this shit? I haven’t seen her in two years man. Two fucking
years and she just pops up and now shit goes down?” I say as I
start to walk around back. Draven follows. “ I don’t know Tracker.
I don’t understand it either. Why don’t you try to call her and see
what the fuck is going on?” Draven says. “I loved her once Draven.
She was my everything for a long time. We did everything together,
talked about getting married. Then one day I came home from work
and she was gone man. Took everything she had and was just gone. I
haven’t heard from her since then and now it’s a complete pile of
shit.” I say as Draven listens. I hear someone behind us and I turn
around to see Bell standing by the door with tears in her eyes. I
shake my head and look the other way. I don’t know how to do this
shit. How can I hurt Bell like that after everything she has been
through? “Go talk to her man. Let me know if you want to call.”
Draven says and walks off.
I head inside to find Bell and run into one
pissed off Casey. “What the fuck did you do to her?” She snaps at
me. “I didn’t do shit Casey she heard me and Draven talking.” I say
as I try to step around her and she steps back in front of me.
“Casey I'm not in the mood for this shit.” I say and I'm trying to
keep calm. “I don’t give not one fuck what you’re in the mood for.
What did you say?” She snaps again. I push my way past her shaking
my head and go straight to my room. Bell isn’t in here but I walk
over and sit on the bed. I need a fucking break and to get my head
straight. I decide I need to go find Bell. I get up and head out of
my room and straight to Bell’s room. I knock on the door and she
doesn’t answer. I turn the handle and it’s locked so I know she is
inside. “Open the door Bell.” I say and I can hear her in there
crying. “You don’t open the fucking door and I will break the damn
thing down!” I yell and she still doesn’t open it. I'm getting
really pissed right now. I'm banging the fuck out of the door and
screaming so loud that the guys come to see what’s going on. “Come
on man let’s get a drink.” Duke says walking down the hall with Sly
and Jimmy behind him. “I don’t want a fucking drink I want this
fucking door opened!” I snap. “Now calm the fuck down Tracker, I
wouldn’t open it either with you screaming like that.” Sly says and
I turn towards him. “You back the fuck off man. I'm not in the mood
but I will beat your ass!” I snap at him when the door pops open. I
turn to see a puffy faced Bell standing in the doorway looking
down. “You be ok Bell?” Duke asks looking over at her and she nods.
“You think I would fucking hurt her?” I snap at Duke. “Not on
purpose I don’t.” Duke says and walks off and before I can say
anything else Bell hits me in the arm. I turn to look at her and
she just walks back into the room. I follow behind her and close
the door. “Bell I don’t know what to say.” I say as I walk over to
the bed and sit next to her. “Do you still love her?” She asks and
that’s a hard question. Jenna was the only person I have ever cared
about until Bell. “Look Bell, I'm sorry you heard that but it was
the truth. She was all I had for a long time. When she disappeared
she took a piece of my heart with her.” I say softly trying to
control my own anger. “Do you still love her?” She asks me again.
“I don’t know Bell. She was my first love and I think a part of me
will always love her.” I say and I have to be honest. Bell stands
and walks to the door and opens it. She doesn’t say anything just
stands there. I look up at her confused. “Leave Tracker.” She says
looking down. I stand up and walk over to the door and slam it
shut. “I said leave.” She yells at me. “I'm not leaving Bell.” I
say softly as I grab her around her waist. “Let me go Tracker and
get the hell out of here.” She says as she starts to cry. I pick
her up as she fights me and carry her to the bed. I lie down and
lay on top of her so she can’t move. “Look at me Bell.” I say and
she looks up. “ I said she took a piece of my heart, but you added
a lot more than that one missing piece.” I say looking into her
eyes. “I don’t want her. I only want you.” I say as I lean in and
kiss her.
“
I'm hungry.” I say as Bell pulls my
t-shirt over her head. “You’re always hungry.” She says smiling. I
stand up and get dressed and start to head out to the front with
Bell behind me when I hear a commotion out there. I speed up a
little to see what’s going on. Garrick and Sly are standing at the
door arguing with some guy trying to drop off a package. “What the
hell is that?” I say to Draven as I point to the door. “They are
trying to leave you a package man.” He says as we both walk towards
the door. “Who’s this shit from?” I ask the guy as I come up to the
door. “I don’t know sir I just deliver.” He says as I snatch the
box from his hand. He leaves and is mumbling under his breath while
we all stand there looking at the box like it may explode. I look
over at Garrick and he shrugs. “What if that shit blows the fuck
up?” Jimmy says and we all look around. “Let’s take it out in the
garage man.” Draven says and I nod. Me and the guys all go out to
the garage and sit the box on the counter in the middle. “Got your
name on it man you open it.” Sly says laughing. I look over at him
and shrug. What the heel do I have to lose? I grab a pocket knife
and cut the tape on it. Inside is a finger. “That is a fucking
human finger man.” Garrick says as Duke leaves the room not looking
too good. “We sure it’s real?” Garrick says. “Go get Doc.” I say as
Jimmy nods and walks off. Me and the guys look at the finger and
then pull out a baggy of hair with a ring in it. My heart hits the
floor. That is the promise ring I gave Jenna when we were first
together. “FUCK!!” I scream as I punch the metal table. “What is
it?” Draven asks me looking at the bag. “I gave this ring to Jenna
when we were first together.” I say looking at the bag. I can’t
believe this shit. What the fuck did she get into? “You sure?” He
asks me and I look over at him. “Ok.” He says after the look I give
him. Doc comes in and walks to the table. “Where is it?” He says as
I point to the box. “That is for sure a human finger. Small one so
probably a woman.” He says looking at it. It’s Jenna’s. I know it
is. “Fuck man!” I say looking at the baggy. That isn’t Jenna’s hair
though. “This isn’t Jenna’s hair. Her hair isn’t blonde.” I say
looking confused at the bag. Draven and Garrick walk over and look
at it with me,. “No but the little boy in the picture had blonde
hair man.” Draven says and is clearly pissed. “FUCK!” Garrick
snaps. “It’s one thing to fuck with an adult but not a kid.” He
snaps as he paces the room. “Did any of you guys read the letter
under the finger?” Doc says as looks in the bottom of the box. We
all rush over and I grab the paper out of it.