The Best Laid Plans (19 page)

“Good for you. That’s a pretty grown-up decision,” I say, thinking that I have forty-year-old friends who don’t have as much sense about men.

The kettle whistles and Molly carefully pours water into each of our mugs. Then she leaves the tea bags to steep and walks over to the chalkboard.

“Brandon is bad news,” she says, pointing to the collection of hearts, arrows, numbers, and exclamation points surrounding Brandon’s name, cluttering the board. “I deserve a boy who’s mine, not somebody like Brandon or Dr. Barasch,
who’ll leave when the going gets tough. I want to find a guy like Daddy, a guy who’ll be there for me the way Daddy was there today for you, Mom.” And just like that Molly takes one last look at the chalkboard, lifts the eraser, and wipes the slate clean.

I
WAS TERRIFIED
that when I gave Naomi the news about Dr. Barasch she’d have another heart attack. Instead, she’s eerily calm. “That’s the way the cookie crumbles,” she says indifferently.

“Mom, I’m sorry. It sounds like he went through a long illness with his wife.”

Naomi shoots me a withering glance.

“Not that you’re ill, Mom, I mean, it sounds like he’s scared.”

“Scared, who isn’t scared?” Naomi straightens herself up and smoothes her right hand against her head. “But just in case you were planning on throwing one, I would
not
appreciate a pity party. The one thing I want in the whole entire world right now is just to get the hell out of the hospital.” It’s only when I realize that my mother’s left hand is balled up into a fist and that she’s dug her fingernails into her palm that I know for sure that Naomi understands what I’ve just said. Dr. Barasch isn’t coming to pick her up at the hospital. Dr. Barasch won’t be visiting her later at our apartment. Dr. Barasch, Naomi’s salsa-dancing, weight-lifting, up-until-now totally adoring boyfriend, is never coming back.

The discharge nurse comes in with some release papers for Naomi to sign and insists that my mother can’t leave the hospital unless she’s in a wheelchair. “Policy,” the nurse says humorlessly, crossing her arms in front of her chest.

“Fine.” Naomi sighs. She climbs onto the cold metal seat and primly settles her purse onto her lap. “Let’s get a move on, I’m a busy woman.”

Back at the apartment, Peter and Tiffany are waiting for us with a tray of fruit, fat-free crackers, and four tall glasses garnished with lemon slices.

As Tiffany walks across the room to welcome her, Naomi shackles my arm. “Does she live here now?” my mother hisses under her breath as she tightens her grip. “Tiffany’s much too pretty, you shouldn’t let her live here.”

“Oh no, no, no, no, no, I have my own apartment,” says Tiffany, who’s overheard. “But thank you for saying I’m pretty.” Then Tiffany turns toward me. “I’m sorry to be camped out in your living room, Tru. But you do realize that it was because the contractor had to work on
your
bathroom that he got just a teeny-weeny bit behind on our office and our warehouse space?”

“It won’t be long, honey,” Peter says. “The construction manager says that both the new places are coming along nicely. And when did a construction manager ever fib about a schedule?” Peter sighs. Then he turns to Naomi. “We’re glad to have you here, Mom. We hope you’ll stay as long as you want.”

“That’s right,” I say, and I mean it. I was scared out of my mind when I thought something had happened to Naomi. She might not have been Mother of the Year, but she’s the only one I’ve got. And maybe this will be a chance to repair our relationship, for each of us to appreciate what’s good about the other, instead of always finding fault.

Naomi sinks into the couch, takes off her shoes and curls her feet under her tush. For a sixty-eight-year-old woman, never mind a sixty-eight-year-old woman who’s just had a heart attack, she’s amazingly agile. “What, suddenly I was in
the hospital for a few hours and everyone calls me ‘Mom’?” she bristles.

“Sorry, Naomi,” says Peter.

“And I’m sorry about Dr. Barasch,” says Tiffany, leaning in to give Naomi’s arm a pat.

Naomi pushes Tiffany’s hand away and stares straight out into space as if she didn’t hear her lover’s name. Then slowly, she turns around to face the three of us.

“We shall never speak of that, do you understand me?” she says coolly. “That man is dead to me!” Then she reaches across the table for one of the frosty glasses. “This better be gin and tonic, not lemonade,” she says, taking a generous gulp.

T
HE NEXT THREE
days passed in a blur. Naomi’s bravado lasted about as long as a Wall Street stock rally. Between her crying jags and feedings, my mother needed more attention than a newborn baby. She burst into tears without any warning and had an insatiable appetite. “Bring me something yellow or white,” she’d say, meaning scrambled eggs, mashed potatoes, a pint of ice cream, or any of the other typical comfort foods that spurned lovers crave. For one whole day she ate nothing but pasta.

And then there were her attempts to plan her own funeral. Apparently these days, it’s not enough to own your own luxury condo—the ante’s been upped on where you spend eternity.

“I’d like a mausoleum, with a chandelier,” Naomi said yesterday, out of the blue. “Something modest, maybe twelve hundred square feet.”

I was tempted to ask her about real estate—dollar for dollar, can you get a better price in heaven or hell? But I saved my smartass remarks on the subject for Sienna. Naomi was in no
mood to be teased, not about dying or real estate or the computer chip tributes that she hoped we’d all record to go along with the pictures and voice-over she was planning on installing in her new crypt. And why should she be? Naomi’s heart attack was no laughing matter. It’s terrifying to see my usual bulldog of a mother acting like a wounded pup. I haven’t been out of Naomi’s sight for more than ten minutes. I’ve been trying to do everything for her that I possibly can. Still, today’s the day that the Veronica Agency’s employees are hooking up with—I mean
meeting
—their very first clients, and I just have to get to the office.

“It’s all right, you can leave,” Naomi says listlessly as I set a bowl of oatmeal down between her and the television that she’s been staring at blankly for days and explain that I have to go out for a few hours. “Everybody leaves.”

“I’m coming back, Mom,” I say, and when she doesn’t object to me not calling her Naomi, I know she’s sinking deeper into a funk. The doctor had warned me that after a heart attack, even a small one, people get depressed. As if Dr. Barasch’s breaking up with her wasn’t reason enough for Naomi to be miserable.

“Mom, aren’t you going to tell me not to call you ‘Mom’?” I chide.

“Call me ‘Mom,’ ‘Grandma,’ ‘the Old Lady of Park Avenue.’ The heart attack, it was the start of a whole new chapter,” Naomi says with a whimper. “What does it matter? What does anything matter?”

I’m way behind schedule, but I can’t bear to go. I’m settling on the sofa next to Naomi when, mercifully, the twins traipse into the den. Molly clicks off the TV and nosily unloads an armload of samples onto the table.

“We got them from Tiffany. New lipstick, blush, and an incredible anti-aging cream that she swears will make your skin look twenty years younger,” Molly announces perkily.

Paige pulls at her cheekbones. “If my skin looked twenty years younger it would disappear. I’d be minus-six years old.”

Naomi picks up the remote and turns the TV back on. “What I wouldn’t give to be young again,” she says distractedly. “Minus six, that’s a good age.”

“But Grandm—I mean, Naomi. Then you wouldn’t be alive.”

Naomi grimaces and pulls the comforter that she’s holding on to like a security blanket more tightly around her shoulders. Just a few days ago Naomi didn’t want a pity party; now she’s the Perle Mesta of depression. I ask Molly to turn on some music.

“Maybe the Rolling Stones. ‘You Can’t Always Get What You Want’ always gets my mojo going. Why don’t we play that?” I lift my arms in the air and wiggle my hips as I sing out the lyrics. “
You can’t always get what you wa-ant. You can’t always get what you wa-ant. But if you try sometimes, you just might find, you get what you ne—
”

Paige comes over and fixes her hands on my hips. “Mom, please. Don’t dance. And don’t ever say the word ‘mojo’ ever again, okay?”

Naomi picks up the remote—lifting it seems to have become her main form of exercise—and turns off the flickering screen. “I think I would like to hear some music,” she says, uttering the first positive statement that I’ve heard cross her lips in days.

I flash my smug I-told-you-so look at the girls. “You just have to keep trying,” I whisper, trying to teach them that if you work hard enough at something you can go from rags to riches—or drag your Grandma from melancholia toward merriment.

“Why don’t you play that Elton John song?” Naomi suggests. “ ‘Candle in the Wind’? You know, the one they played at Princess Diana’s funeral?”

M
OLLY PROMISES THAT
she and Paige will get Naomi to listen to something uplifting. But as the girls scroll through their playlists, it’s harder than they thought to find an appropriate song. After nixing Carrie Underwood singing about slashing the truck tires of the guy who cheated on her and Kelly Clarkson’s “Cry” just based on the title, they settle on a medley of peppy tunes from the Jonas Brothers.

Molly hands me my coat and points me toward the door. “Go, Mom. We know you and Sienna are working on some secret project.”

“What?” I ask, flustered that she doesn’t buy my cover story about doing some grocery shopping and having an emergency facial. “I just need to get out of the house for a little while, I …”

“We’re not blind, we know something’s up,” Paige says. “I mean, you’re covering your mouth and walking out of the room to talk on the phone all the time and you’re not here during the day like you used to be. It took Daddy two hours to even find you when Naomi got sick.”

“I know, I’m sorry.… My—my cellphone went dead,” I stammer, not used to being in the position of explaining to my children where I’ve been, instead of the other way around.

“We figure it’s some sort of business, right? Sienna’s out of work, and we need money, so it makes sense. Paige and I think it’s great,” Molly, my irrepressible optimist says supportively.

Paige shrugs. “Yeah, sure, whatever. But we just can’t figure out why you’re keeping it a deep dark secret.”

“It’s just that we want to make sure it works out, not get anyone’s hopes up, when it’s further along …” Then I take a deep breath. “Sienna and I are opening a temporary help agency, but I’d like to keep it just between us right now, okay?
Let’s see if anything comes of it before we make a big deal. Does Daddy know?” I wince.

“Nah, Daddy’s so involved with Tiffany and BUBB he’d barely notice if we got a new puppy,” says Molly, who’s been angling for one, slyly.

“No puppy. The last thing we need around here is another mouth to feed or someone else to clean up after!” I say, just a little too sharply. “I’m sorry, honey, I’m just distracted. But you know this isn’t a good time to add a new member to the family?”