Master Class: An Alpha Billionaire Romance (+ Bonus Book 'Silent Daughter 1') (13 page)

I
don't think
I've ever been this nervous in my entire life. I haven't slept in days. I lay awake at night and stare at the ceiling, alternating between counting the remaining hours for me to stay in bed until I had to get up for class and mentally testing new ideas on how I could improve my project, and moreover its presentation.

Jackson has helped me as much as he could, providing me not only with market insight and his expert knowledge, but also with the emotional support I wouldn't get anywhere else, especially not from my family. They still don't know anything about this. As far as they are concerned, I'm working on my master's thesis, getting ready for the next level of my education and talking to different professor for potential PhD advisers.

I feel horrible about lying to them, but right now I don't see any other way. I couldn't handle their pressure and expectations while finishing up my degree while still trying my best to make this alternative option work out for me.

When the morning of my presentation in front of the investor committee finally arrives, I find myself up and awake at 5am. Celia has been a total sweetheart these past few weeks, not only keeping my relationship with Jackson a secret, but also supporting my idea of trying to do this start-up thing. I don't want to wake her up, knowing that she stayed out late again.

But my nerves get the better of me and causes me to clumsily bump against my night stand, which leads to my lamp falling to the ground with a loud crash.

"Fuck," I hiss, startled and in pain, because I stubbed my toe pretty badly in the process. I'm holding my foot, trying to process the pain as quietly as possible, but it's too late. Celia turns in her bed and groans.

"Just turn the fucking light on, girl," she mumbles from beneath her covers.

"I'm sorry," I whisper in the dark. "I didn't want to-"

I'm interrupted by the sudden transition from dark to light as Celia turns the light on her night stand on. She rubs her eyes and yawns dramatically.

"Whatever," she says. "Just do your stuff, and get ready. This is a big day for you."

She squints at me through narrow eyes and winks. "Let me know if I can be of any help."

I cast her a grateful smile and shake my head. "I’ll be quick."

"Mhm," she murmurs, wrapping herself in her covers before she turns around, her face to the wall. Moments later, I hear her faint snore resonating through the room.

I take a quick shower and make myself presentable, before I gather my things, making sure about a hundred times that I'm not forgetting anything. I'm wearing a navy blue ladies suit with a white blouse underneath, my hair pinned up in a lose bun, finished by delicate silver earrings. This is the only fancy getup I own, and I don't feel comfortable in it at all. I've only worn it twice before, and can't wait to get out of it tonight.

Tonight. That seems a million light years away. Tonight will be after the presentation. Everything will be different after tonight, unless I fail to convince the committee. I can't let that happen. While I feel confident about my proposal, there are a few things that Jackson and I disagreed on, and he urged me to think about his suggestions before appearing in front of the investors. He's a smart man and he knows his business, but I still insist that in some areas, my ideas outshine his. Today will be my chance to prove exactly that.

When I open the door to get on my way, I hear Celia turning in her bed again.

"Knock 'em dead," she says, raising one fist in the air.

I smile at her. "Thank you."

The way to the financial district is not very far, but complicated enough for me to opt for a cab. I've gotten so used to the convenience of them, even though this is the first ride in ages that I'm paying for myself. I won't deny that there are definite benefits to having a boyfriend who's loaded and loves to spend his money on me, but I have no intentions of relying on his generosity for the rest of my life.

The cab ride takes less than fifteen minutes. I step out of the car, taking in the scenery before me and a deep, deep breath. My heart is racing, my entire body is tense and ready for this, and so is my mind.

There will be no special treatment from Jackson, he made that very clear. I wouldn't want it, anyway, but when I make my way toward the entrance of the modern office building with its giant windows reflecting the sun so brightly it looks as if the entire building is sparkling. I feel my confidence rise just by the knowledge of him being inside, waiting for me. He's helped me get this far and I know he'll support me in there, as much as he can without being unfair toward the other start-up newbies who are not sleeping with one of their potential “angels.”

He warned me ahead of time that there would be others who will be competing against me, but when I step out of the elevator on the eleventh floor and run right into a group of five of them, I suddenly feel scared and discouraged nonetheless.

The waiting area is crowded with people, some of them younger than me, while most appear to be around my age or older. There's so many of them already here that I fear I might be late and the last one to show up, but as I come to find out, the volume just appears so overwhelming because most of them came with support groups. The group that is standing closest to the elevator consists of five young guys, all wearing the same polo shirt with their brand clearly displayed on the back and above the heart. They're chatting excitedly, only turning their heads to me for a moment to see who's stepping out of the elevator behind them. They don't deign me more than a quick scan before they return to their conversation, turning their backs to me.

Fair enough, I'm not here to make friends. Still, I feel alone among the groups of chatting people. There are only two other applicants who seem to have showed up alone, and just like me, they're not wearing shirts with their brand on it, but suits in unobtrusive and dark colors. Both of them are guys and neither look at me or anyone else but rather, down at the floor in front of them; one sits in complete silence, while the other is whispering to himself, seemingly rehearsing his presentation one last time.

I wonder if I should do that, too? I've practiced the speech so many times, with and without the strict eyes of Jackson on me. But if he's doing it...

"Good morning everybody!" I voice tears me out of my contemplation. I turn around and spot a woman, who doesn't seem to be much older than me, standing tall in a pair of heels that would kill me, her thin and blond hair cut short, ending around her skinny jaw line. She's wearing a ladies suit similar to mine, which gives me a weird sense of affirmation.

"There's still time before we'll start with the first of you," she continues as most eyes are now on her. "But I just wanted to let you know that there are drinks - coffee and water, for you around the corner. Some of you might still have to wait for quite a while. We'll randomly select the order in which you will present your idea once everybody is here."

She pauses, casting us a friendly smile. "Until then, just try to relax and don't be too nervous."

Easier said than done. I glance around the corner that leads to a long hallway, equipped with doors left and right, wondering if Jackson is already behind one of them.

As I would learn later, he is already in the building, but I don't get to see him until about two hours later, when my name is called and I enter the room that might very well decide my future.

Just as he told me beforehand, there are five people, sitting in a row of slim white desks, one woman and four men, each with a bottle of water and some papers in front of them. Jackson is sitting at the far end and casts me an encouraging smile as I slip through the door. He looks stern but so unbelievably handsome with his hair gelled to the side and a black blazer that I've never seen on him before.

Nothing in the way he looks at me suggests that we know each other a lot better than anyone else in this room. I blush at the memory of just a few days ago, when he tied me to his desk on campus, unleashing fiery blows with his belt on my behind, because I left a little note on one of my recent essays to tease him. I know he checks them before he hands them over to his assistant, but he still thought that I was playing a risky game and needed to be reminded of the risk we're taking. Especially now that I'm going to present of this group of investors, him being one of them, we need to be even more careful than we already are because of the environment in which we first met.

I greet the committee and take my place up front behind another desk that provides room to place my notes.

We were asked to send in our PowerPoint presentations a few days ahead of time and the first slide of mine is already lit up against a white canvas next to me. There's no one in the room except for me and the five potential investors. They each introduce themselves shortly, and my heart stops for a second when the last one, Jackson, raises his voice to greet me. He introduces himself as CEO of PortCon, the name of his main communication empire that made him rich. Since it's no secret that we do know each other from school, he also mentions his position at my University that is about to end as soon as the next semester begins in February. He turns to the other four investors, seated to his left, when he mentions that I was one of the students in his class, nothing else.

They reply with an indifferent nod and look at either me or the notes in front of them. My heart is racing and I feel my hands shaking at my sides, cold sweat running down my spine. This is it.

"Ready when you are, Miss Harlington," Jackson says, his expression all professional and serious.

I suggest a nod in his direction and take a deep breath before I start with my introductory words.

The speech itself does not cause me any problems. I've memorized it well and the cue cards with notes and starting points help me along the way. Most of the time, I don't even need them, allowing me to keep eye contact with members of the committee instead. I try to avoid Jackson as much as possible, fearing that even looking at each other could suggest too much intimacy between us. Also, I'm afraid that if he doesn't like what he's seeing he might make it obvious with the expression on his face. When I get to the part we disagreed on the most, I demonstratively turn away from him and only eye the other four members sitting next to him. Reading their faces is close to impossible for me. There are a few moments where one of them might regard me with a supporting nod or a smile of some sort, but most of the time, they just sit there, listening to me with a completely straight face.

By the time I'm done with my presentation, I'm drenched in sweat, my hands not shaking anymore, but pressure pulsating behind my forehead. I'm going to need a lot of aspirin once this is over.

The committee doesn't applaud or show any kind of appreciation. Instead, all five of them are taking notes, while I wait for them to ask their questions.

Finally, the man at the far right breaks the silence, thanking me for my presentation and shortly concluding the he likes my idea a lot. He goes on to list the specific factors and points that interested him the most, gives a few hints here and there on how I could improve my project and concludes with a friendly smile, saying that he'd like for my idea to become a reality.

I know there will be no final decision right after the presentation, just a first assessment that will give me an idea of how much a chance I stand - and they sure as hell keep up the suspense. As each member of the committee leaves me with their opinion one by one, I'm faced with two positive and two rather negative reviews by the time it's Jackson's turn to speak.

I should feel safe, after all, he knows my project, he helped me develop it and he knew pretty much all of it before today. Unlike the others, he hasn't heard my proposal for the first time today.

But his face worries me. His face is so grim when he looks at his notes. He clears his throat and looks at me.

"I see a lot of potential in your proposal, Miss Harlington," he begins, and my heart jumps - just to drop even lower once he continues to speak.

"But I don't think I could support it in the form it's been presented here today."

I try to keep my countenance, looking at him with a blank face as he continues to list all the things he didn't like about my idea.

He mentions one thing that I knew of beforehand, because we talked about it while we were discussing it in his office. While I want to limit my approach on people and communities for now, he feels strongly that I should include local business from the start. I explain why I don't like the idea a thousand times and stick to the point that this could lead to my app becoming just another platform for advertising, which I would like to prevent from happening.

When I make a move to object to his submission, he raises his hand to
tell
me to remain quiet until he's finished. I bite my lip, angry at his interjection and this rude gesture to shut me up. Why can't he leave his alpha attitude in the bedroom?

"We don't have time to discuss this further," he concludes, casting me a warning look as he sees me boiling with fury. "You'll hear from us."

I swallow hard and gather my things as quickly as possible to get out of the room. His negative review of my project means I have three negative against two positive responses. Everybody knows what this will mean for the success - or lack thereof - of my project. I have little to no chance of getting this funded if I don't have the majority of the committee in my favor.

My vision blurs and hurry out of the room before anyone sees the effect of Jackson's betrayal running down in liquid evidence all over my face.

H
ow could
he do this to me? What fucking asshole lets the girl he fucks and presumably has feelings for walk right into a trap like that?

I feel transported back to the day in his office months ago, when he humiliated me by bringing me to the edge of orgasm without following through, sending me out like a dog with his tail between his legs. The shame and frustration of that day have never gone completely away, even after all the wonderful times we've had together since. I know that being handled and controlled by him in this way is a huge part of the appeal for me, but when it casts its shadows on the things that are unrelated to what we do in the bedroom, it gives me a bitter aftertaste.

I feel so fucking betrayed. Did he plan this all along? Was this all part of his evil master plan to show me who's boss? To punish me for the way I treated him when we first met? Could he really be that evil?

I evade the remaining group of aspiring entrepreneurs and head for the stairs instead of the elevator, so that I can leave right away. When I jog down the first flight of stairs, I recognize his footfall on the steps behind me, closing in faster than I am able to descend each flight.

"Lana!"

It's that commanding tone, the exact tone that only days ago would have had me on my knees within moments, my core throbbing with sick desire for degradation and the pleasure that comes with it.

But it doesn't work on me right now. Instead of obeying his command, I hurry up and make sure to fly down the stairs even faster than before.

"Lana, you wait!" He adds, closing in on me. "You stop right now."

I don't want to wait, but when his strong hand clasps around my right upper arm, I have no other choice but to stop and whirl around just as the first few tears are streaming down my face.

"You asshole!" I snap at him. "You fucking ass-"

"Hush!" He warns, widening his eyes and clenching his hand around my arm so much it hurts. "Calm down!"

I bite my lip, glaring up at him while the tears keep coming. "How could you do this to me?"

He shakes his head, his expression changing.

"I didn't do anything to you," he says, his voice now soft and calm. "I told you before what I think about not including local business in your app. You knew I don't like the idea the way you were going about it."

"Still, you should have backed me up!" I protest.

"Why should I? Because you're my girlfriend?" He asks.

I'm dumbfounded. The fact that he just referred to me as his girlfriend sent a warm shiver through my heart. We never talked about us and what we are to each other, so hearing him call me his girlfriend is beyond exciting - if it weren't for the circumstances.

Our eyes lock onto each other and I can see in his that he's equally caught off guard by his words. He clears his throat and loosens his grip around my arm.

"Look, Lana," he continues. "I don't have much time now, because the next group is set to present right after you, but-"

"Yeah, I'm sure you'll give
them
your support! Let's see if they agree to turn everything into another marketing platform like-"

"Lana!" He interrupts, pulling me closer until I'm pressed against his muscular body, wrapped up in his incredible scent and his intense gaze. "Focus!"

I shoot a glare up at him.

"Nothing's said and done," he adds. "You're not out of the game yet. But I told you: no special treatment on my part. I can't invest in a project that I don't support one hundred percent. Don't you understand that?"

My lips quiver as I suppress another wave of tears forcing their way out.

"Why don't you support my project a hundred percent?" I ask, my voice thin and whiny.

"Because it's not perfect," he says. "Yet."

He casts a quick look upstairs.

"Lana," he says, turning back to me. "You have to trust me on this. I'm not doing anything to punish you. I believe in you and in your project. But I want it to be perfect, so I can stand behind it. It needs a little more work."

He locks me into place with his gaze.

"I want you happy, and I want you to succeed," he adds. "I want nothing more."

"Nothing more?" I ask, my voice still quivering.

He clears his throat, casting another look back up the stairs. "I have to go back. We'll talk later."

I'm too startled to move when he leans in for a kiss. It's just a peck on the lips, but more than we've ever done while we were in public.

My eyes follow him as he takes the stairs up to the eleventh floor, taking two steps at once. I've never seen him in a suit this exquisite before. He looks staggeringly handsome. I hate that, because I'm trying to be angry at him.

But what if he's right? I have to consider that, too, but I decide that now is not the right time to do so. I'm angry and tired and just want to get out of this place, out of his domineering presence and the world he lives and thrives in.

A world that may have no room for me.

The first thing I do when I return to my dorm is change into something comfortable. I hate formal clothing with a passion and let out a deep sigh of relief when I'm hugged by my comfortable sweatpants and matching sweater.

Celia was out when I got back into the room, but returns just as I lay down on my bed, lounging with my kindle. Her appearance stresses me. I was hoping to get a few minutes by myself before I'd have to talk about the events of today.

She beams at me. "How was it?"

I sigh and tell her everything while she gets out of her many layers of winter clothes. I don't leave out anything, as painful as it is to relive the humiliation Jackson put me through. While talking, I realize that having to share these things with Celia isn't all that bad. It actually feels good to get them off my chest. This was the second time Jackson let me down big time, but at least I can talk about this one with another person and get a second opinion of what to think of his disappointing behavior.

"He talked you down in front of everybody?" She exclaims when I'm done. "What an asshole!"

"Right?" I agree, sitting up on my bed with my legs dangling over the edge. "Though, he didn't exactly talk me down. He just pointed out a few things that he didn't like about it."

"Yeah but he could've told you before!"

I lower my head, biting my lips as I think about what to say next. He did tell me beforehand, I just didn't listen.

"Well, to be honest, he did," I admit to Celia. "But what he's proposing would change my project too much in a direction that I just don't like."

Celia tilts her head to the side quizzically. "Like how?"

"You know how I want to introduce this social app, for neighbors and communities to get together and solve local problems, help each other out and make it easier to socialize without having to knock on every single door or rely on-"

"Yeah, yeah, I know," Celia interrupts me with a wave of her hand. "You don't have to repeat your speech, I've heard it before. But what was Mr. Perfect's objection?"

"He wants me to include local businesses," I say. "You know, like food stores, barber shops, bakers, that kind of thing."

"And?"

"Well, he said that local businesses are just as much part of a community as the people who live there, which is true. But," I clear my throat, hesitating for a moment before I continue. I'm repeating his exact words as if they were my own. As if I believed in them myself. "I mean. He said that they could also function as financial support, because they could pay for advertisement on the app. You know, make people aware of their existence or special offers they may have at the moment."

"Or create special offers for locals," Celia adds, raising her hand.

"Um, yeah, maybe even that," I say.

She looks at me, folding her arms in front of her chest and raising her left eyebrow. "And you don't like the idea, because...?"

"I don't want this to turn into an advertising platform," I explain. "If all people find on there are ads for supermarkets or some other shit trying to convince them to buy stuff they don't need, it's just gonna be annoying and will lose it initial purpose, you know?"

"Mhm," Celia makes, nodding. "But couldn't you add some kind of limitation to that? Like categories or limits on how often the stores are allowed to advertise on there or something. Or let users limit its visibility or something?"

I skewer her with a look. "Are you agreeing with him?"

Celia raises her hands in defense. "No, I'm not saying what he did was right or anything. Just that his objection might be something to think about. A little. Maybe."

She shrugs, grinning at me helplessly. "I mean, he's an expert after all."

"But it's my project!" I insist. "And I don't like the idea, at all!"

"Fine," she says, frowning at me. "All I'm saying is that there might be a way around it, you know. A way for you to shape the project in a way that makes both of you happy."

"Both of us," I whisper. She makes it sound as if this was a joint venture between him and me, and she might have a point there. After all, if it wasn't for him, I'd never come up with a real proposal in the first place, I'd never have been at this presentation today and I wouldn't even think about doing anything other than to follow in my family's footsteps. Footsteps that may not fit my size at all.

"I'm gonna grab a bite to eat," Celia says. "You wanna come with me?"

I'm inclined to shake my head no, but my stomach is furiously growling. I haven't had a bite to eat all day, because I was so nervous due to the presentation. Maybe that's why I'm feeling so shitty right now. Food may help me to see things from a different perspective.

Or at least help with that nauseating feeling that keeps me from thinking straight.