Maldeamores (Lovesick) (Heightsbound #0.5) (17 page)

“All grown up, Belén,” Jaylee says, nodding and checking me out. “Feel good to get that shit off your chest?”

“I just want to feel sexy for once. I know I’m not frigid. I don’t think I’m a prude! I’m barely able to feel attraction to a guy, let alone achieve an orgasm.”

“I can help you out,” Jaylee says in a low voice, then leans in and takes my mouth.

He’s aggressive, he’s fast. He has my bra off in a second and is sucking one nipple while he’s thumbing the other one. “You just want him watching or you want him to participate?” Jaylee asks like it’s a simple, everyday question. Maybe it is for him? Maybe they like it in groups?

“Whatever he wants,” I say, leaning into Jaylee and seeking his mouth. His lips are full and soft; he has a kiss that’s intense and easy to get lost in.

“I’ll watch. I can’t touch her. If she says stop, stop. You two bitches better listen or I’ll chop off your fucking dicks with a kitchen knife. This is about what Belén wants, not a fucking orgy. You assholes are gonna help her get off. It’s about
her
body!”

“Word,” Jaylee says and slips his fingers into my underwear. He rubs my pussy just a little bit and then pushes me back on the couch. He leans down to my belly and brushes his lips over the button. His tongue dives in for a split second, spreading warmth all over my body. He bites at my hip and tugs at my panties with his teeth. I watch my own stomach quiver as they slide down my thighs. I’m undressed in an instant.

Jeremy sits behind me and maneuvers my head into his lap. He starts to play with my breasts while he kisses my neck. My whole body prickles and I keep eye contact with Lucky. I’m turned on, I can feel it, the warm slide of wetness between my legs. My muscles clench involuntarily, ready for someone to take me. I never stop looking at Lucky. He’s hard, but his arms are still at his sides. Even if he doesn’t want to touch me, it’s enough to just have him watching. It’s more than enough to have him looking at me. His eye contact escalates every single one of my senses.

Jaylee smacks my ass hard and pushes my knees apart.

“
Relájate, chula
! I’m not gonna do anything you won’t like.”

He licks right up my slit and toys with my clit. I let my head fall back and moan. Jeremy stands up and drops his pants, taking the opportunity to stick his dick in my mouth. I taste precome on his cock and swirl my tongue around the tip. Two men at once is a sensory overload. So much is going on, it’s like being in two places at the same time. I know I’m being used but that’s what I like about it. I let go a little and it feels like the whole world opens up.

I can’t stop looking at Lucky, even though I’ve got Jeremy’s cock in my mouth. He winces when we make eye contact but soon he relaxes and undoes his pants. He takes his penis out and slides his fist down his shaft. My blood races to see him with his manhood in his hands. His cock is thick and glistens at the head. I’m sucking Jeremy’s dick, but it’s Lucky who I want in my mouth.

“Belén,” Lucky says. “Pretend it’s me if it helps you.”

My heart charges when he says it. All I’ve ever wanted is for Lucky to take my body.

“Up on your knees,” Jaylee says, smacking the outer edge of my thigh. I rise on all fours. He pulls my hips back forcefully until they hit his and he takes the wetness from between my legs and spreads it all over with his fingers.

“I think we can make you come, Belén. How old did you say you were?” he asks, and I can hear him unwrapping a condom. He must be using his teeth because one of his hands is digging into the flesh of my hip hard.

“I just turned twenty.” I can’t believe I’m about to lose my virginity to Jaylee, the drug dealer from the playground. Yari would go nuts. She and every other girl has made a play for him.

“Len, it’s me, putting on the condom.”

Lucky’s voice is so soft and dominant. I visualize in my mind what he tells me and my adrenaline spikes a mile.

I feel like I should say something because it all seems too unceremonious, but Jeremy is gently taking my mouth again and I can’t really talk.

Jaylee pushes his cock into me hard and I yell out in surprise, pulling away from Jeremy.

“Lucky!” I cry. I know there is fear in my face and Lucky looks alarmed.

“Yo, Jay. Back the fuck up!” Lucky stands, looking ready to fight.

“No, Lucky. It’s all right,” I say, never breaking eye contact with my cousin.

“Holy shit, is she tight,” Jaylee says as he wags his dick around, making me seize up even more.

“’Cause she’s a fucking virgin, Jay!” Lucky yells, raising his hands up and then slamming them down again. “Go the fuck easy on her!”

“What the hell? Nobody told me! You okay, Belén? You want me to pull out?”

I shake my head.

No. Please don’t.

“Good girl,” Jaylee says and smacks my ass again, causing a heated sting to rise in the spot. “Tight little cunt to go with that tight little body.”

“Just be gentle with her, or I will kill you,” Lucky says, seething.

It hurts and it feels amazing all at the same time to have him sliding in and out of me. When his hips crash into mine it ignites all sorts of desperate feelings in me. So full, yet so insanely hungry. I relax as he moves inside me and it starts to feel even better. The intensity increases. I’ve never felt such fire. I might go crazy with lust, the white-hot burn of desire.

Jeremy stands and fists my hair, rubbing his hard length against my lips and cheek. I curl my tongue around the head of his cock and slowly work all of it into my mouth with suction. He moans and grabs my head lightly while he starts up a rhythm. I can’t believe I have two men inside of me.

“Dude, Lucky, you gotta stop looking at me like that or I’m not gonna be able to fuck her,” Jaylee says.

I look over to see Lucky seething with a heady mixture of lust and rage playing out on his face.

“Just make her come, Jay, and then get the fuck out of her,” Lucky says, sounding steely.

“Tell me what feels good, Belén, and push back onto my cock if you like it.” Jaylee squeezes the flesh of my ass so hard it leaves residual fire from his touch. Jeremy fists my hair and my saliva has thickened. I’m in some kind of strange zone mentally where I’m in awe of the human body and my own ability to want this with Lucky looking on.

Jaylee’s hand finds my clit and he presses the heel of his palm down, sending a strange pressure into my abdomen. Then he uses the flat of his fingers to gently create some friction and I shove back into his cock.

“Uh-huh, that’s the spot,” Jaylee says, all husky and graveled.

I moan, but it comes out sounding pained because I’ve got Jeremy in my mouth. I add suction to his thrusts and that makes Jeremy speed up. I can feel him go stiff and then spasm into my mouth. The smooth skin of his cock makes my tongue feel rough. I taste his semen and it seems to heighten my senses. I smell nothing but men all around me and my adrenals release. What a powerful feeling to be surrounded on all sides, to have all three of them want me. Jaylee starts again on my clit and my whole body tightens. I buck back in pleasure and then he puts one hand on my shoulder and with the other grabs my hair.

“I’m gonna fuck you harder, Belén. Think you can take it?”

I nod my head.

“Let me know if it hurts and I’ll stop.”

He thrusts into me with more force and every time his hips slam into my ass, sparks fly all throughout my body. I turn my head to look at Lucky. When my eyes catch his, I get high off of our connection. I know that it’s Jaylee but all I feel is Lucky. All I can see is Lucky.

I moan when I come, louder than I thought possible. I feel my muscles grip around him. They grip and release, pulsating, reluctant to let go of him. I collapse on the couch, face right into the pillow. I hear the snap as the condom comes off.

“Baby, I’m just gonna come on your ass,” Jaylee says as he starts to stroke himself. I nod my head and sink my face deeper into the pillow. Jaylee jerks himself rapidly, then groans, and I feel his hot semen hit the back of my legs and my ass. I reach back and smile as I spread his come all over my cheeks. I saw it once on a porn tape from my therapist’s collection. From the way Jaylee breathes, it sounds like he appreciates the gesture.

I look over at Lucky and he wears the same stern expression.

“That counts as my first real orgasm!” I say, not moving my position. “Thanks for the lesson.” I giggle and I can’t wipe the smile from my face.

“Anytime you want, girl,” Jaylee says. “I’ll hook you up.” He’s breathing hard.

“Holy fuck,” Jeremy says, standing dazed in his shirt with his pants and boxers at his ankles.

“Better get that cleaned up,” Jaylee says, pointing to a spot of his own come on the front of Jeremy’s polo shirt.

“There another bedroom here, Jeremy?” Lucky asks, saying his name like a mouthful of marbles.

“Yeah, right off of the kitchen there’s one. Why, you gonna crash for the night?” Jeremy asks.

“’Cause that’s where we’ll be sleeping,” Lucky says, leaning down to peel me from the couch. He lifts my naked body over his shoulder like he’s hefting a floor rug. “Thanks for coming down, Jay,” Lucky says, shaking Jaylee’s hand. “See you in the morning, Jeremy,” he says, and walks us through the kitchen. He kicks open the door and sets me down on my feet. Lucky takes two steps to the small bathroom and turns on the water full force.

“Into the tub, Len. I want to get you cleaned up.” He throws a washrag at me from the towel rack. “Wipe that shit off.”

Lucky undresses and I watch him with so much affection. I’m intoxicated by my love for him and I can’t believe just how far he was willing to go for me. I think witnessing him with other women would have extinguished my heart. But Lucky took it like a man and sacrificed so much for me. I love him even more than I thought I could. He sheds his clothes and steps into the tub. I climb into the hot water after him and curl into his lap.

“Thank you, Lucky,” I whisper into his neck.

“Anything for you, Len. Anything. There is
nothing
wrong with you. Don’t ever think that again,” he says, pulling my head in as close as possible and brushing my hair from my face.

I feel so right in his arms, I never want to leave them.

“You can always think of me to get there, Belén, if that’s what it takes. Everybody is allowed to think whatever damn thing they need to think that takes them to that place. Don’t be ashamed to use me, or what just happened out there. Everybody has to fucking think of something and I’d be
honored
if what you thought about was me.”

I feel my own heart sigh; it contracts and expands in my chest. I want to cry but something is blossoming instead. Love is a life force and I can feel his all around me. I hear a deep choked-up sob, but it’s not coming from me.

“Then every time you come, Len, I can be with you, in a way.”

Lucky

I can feel her feisty heartbeat against mine and her clean, scrubbed body lets off so much heat. I’ve been sleeping next to her ever since I can remember, but tonight I can’t get any fucking sleep. I get myself sick worrying that she thinks I’m a pussy. That I don’t want to fuck her. Nothing could be further from the truth, but I think it’s time that I told her. I never thought it was okay for Tía Betty to lie about her dad. The lie turned it into a dirty secret, like something about Belén herself was bad. But part of the reason I reject her is because I’m scared it makes it worse. And I don’t want to carry on the fucking legacy of falling in love with your own goddamn family.

She shifts against me and I get the sweet Belén-smell of soap and shampoo laced with a little musky scent that is particularly hers. I run my fingers through her hair, which has curled up after the bath. She bats my hand away and throws a leg up over my hip. I immediately get hard. I didn’t come earlier tonight and thinking about her giving her skin like she did—it guts me and makes me crazy but despite all that, it makes me so fucking horny. I fall onto my back and groan and grip my shaft in my fist.

“Fuck, Belén. What you do to me. I don’t know if I’m man enough to take it,” I say to the ceiling as I shake my dick and try to convince it to calm down.

“Are you okay, Luciano?” Belén asks, suddenly sitting up.

“Fuck, Bey, you scared me. Yeah, everything is fine. Just telling my cock to take it easy. You got the sexiest thighs and you were rubbing them all over me.”

She smiles at me in the dark and I can feel my body relax.

“I could give you a hand job, Lucky. I mean, if you think it’s okay. I’ve never done it before, but I’m a quick study.”

“Thanks, Len. I love your hands on me, but I hate to say, we got to talk family stuff.”

She looks at me apprehensively and shrinks back a bit. “You never want what I have to give. It always makes me feel ashamed. Like you think I’m disgusting for wanting you.” Her face looks so pained.

It destroys me to make her feel bad. “Lenny, I want you more than anything in life. More than money, more than the Marines, more than I ever wanted the drugs. I don’t know how to convince you. But I can’t touch you like that and there’s some shit that I gotta tell you.”

She sits back and pulls her knees into her chest. We’re squished together on the bed but I can tell she wants to keep her distance from me. She’s putting up walls before I even start talking. And I don’t blame her. Everything about me and Len hurts just as much as it feels good. We push it away but we can’t stop wanting it.

“I won’t tell anybody what happened. I don’t think Jeremy would talk. He’ll probably be more embarrassed than anything.”

“Len, nothing bad happened tonight. Everybody was in the right—so get that out of your head. You’ve got nothing to be ashamed of. Nobody will talk.”

“Then why are you upset?”

I lean my head back and rub my fingers up my neck and over my jaw. I’m fucking frustrated as hell, enough to punch a hole through the wall.

“Len, I need to tell you some shit about the family. It’s part of why I don’t make love to you and they shoulda told you from the get-go.”

I pull a knee in too and wrap my arm around my leg; I crack my neck while I’m talking, trying to loosen up my body. “I don’t even know why
I
know. I guess my Ma musta told me or some shit and then they pulled me into the story young. I didn’t even get a choice about lying to you, it was more like they fed it to me.”