Joy and Tiers (4 page)

“What do you mean, you don’t like pasta? Everybody likes pasta!” I exclaim. I can’t even wrap my head around the concept. I have pasta water running through my blood. “You don’t like any pasta? No Fettuccine Alfredo with tons of garlic, or spaghetti with meatballs? Not even the Kraft macaroni and cheese with the weird yellowy-orangey-powdered cheese that isn’t cheese?” I ask, incredulous at the thought of someone excluding an entire food group I consider essential to daily living. 

Tyler leans back in the wrought-iron chair and stretches out his long, lanky legs in front of him. “Nope. Sorry, I just can’t do it. That stuff is just downright nasty. Library paste comes to mind.”

“Library paste? Good Lord, Ty! I’m beginning to wonder about the caliber of cooks in your life. First we had the issue with the coffee, and it’s becoming abundantly clear that you’ve never had decent pasta. Properly cooked pasta could never, ever be confused with library paste.”

“Whatever you say, Gidget. I guess I’ll just have to take your word for it. I’m a grown up now, and I don’t have to eat stuff I don’t like,” he pouts.

I can’t disguise my giggle. “Real mature approach there, Cowboy. Are you running late for recess or something?”

“What?” he asks defensively, then shrugs. “I’m a grown ass man. If I haven’t earned the right to eat what I want after serving two tours in Iraq and one in Afghanistan, I don’t know when I’ll ever be able to.”

“Okay. You have a point. But what if I told you that I can make you pasta you’ll love? In fact, I’ll bet it becomes one of your favorite dishes.”

“Oh, Gidget, you don’t know this about me, but you just said a couple of really dangerous words. I never turn down a bet.” Ty challenges with a wicked gleam in his eyes as he rubs his hands together with absolute glee. 

I suppose I should be nervous right about now, but Tyler doesn’t know me very well either. Competition is a huge deal in my family.

It may be my hunger, the stress of the day, or the fact that I’ve been drooling over this sexy lawman for several months; but I decide to throw caution to the wind. “Hmm, that’s interesting because I’m not the kind of lady who backs away from a wager either. Might be fun,” I quip with far more bravado than I have. “What are the stakes?”

Tyler examines me for a moment and tips his hat down over his forehead. “Gidget, I’m not sure I know you well enough to assign the appropriate wager,” he announces. “I want to make sure that when you lose, you know you’re paying a penalty. Otherwise, it’s no fun to play the game. So let’s do a wager with stakes to be named at a later date.”

“See, I find it interesting that you think I’m going to lose. That’s a fascinating approach. You don’t know me very well if you think I’m going to surrender easily. I don’t enter competitions I don’t plan to win. Therefore, after I fix you the best meal you’ve ever eaten, you’re also going to be eating some crow, and I’ll be collecting an appropriate marker. You might be surprised at how creative I can be,” I retort boldly.

“You know, I’m finding this conversation to be very enlightening. I always wondered if we would find common ground if we ended up in the same room together. It seems like we might have done just that. If we choose our wagers wisely, this could be some good clean fun—unless of course you don’t want it to be,” Ty quips as he gives an exaggerated wink. Although his offer is made in a teasing tone, something tells me, given the right circumstances, he might just be dead serious.

“Consider me forewarned, Cowboy. Although, I’ll be sure to choose my reward carefully because I wouldn’t want you to get too—”

I pause for a second before adding ‘cocky.’

“‘Cocky’? Me? Never! As I recall, you’re the one who promised me the best meal I’ve ever eaten. If anyone is cocky in this situation, I would think the word cocky applies to you.”

I brush my fingertips across the front of my bowling shirt as if I’m buffing my nails. “Nah, it’s only cockiness if I can’t deliver. I’m not bragging, I’m merely stating facts. You’ll see.”

Ty just grins like a Cheshire cat. “I think I should probably tell you that unless I was ordered to eat it by my drill sergeant, I haven’t had any form of pasta since I was about seven. There’s a great deal of ingrained stubbornness involved. This is not a faddish vegan diet choice we’re talking about here. At this point, you can pretty much consider it a part of my personality.”

“Oh, I see. You think I can’t rise to the challenge.” I respond as I poke him in his well-defined chest. “Well, prepare yourself to be shocked. I might even find a sophisticated palate under all those baloney sandwiches, microwaved hot wings, and pork rinds. What would you do if I did?”

Ty chuckles as he shakes his head, “Can’t be done with pasta Darlin’, I’d faint first.”

“Well then, you should probably brush up on your first aid skills,” I tease. “Because your diet is about to undergo a major overhaul. You might even find that you—gasp—like real food. Wouldn’t that be a novel concept?”

Tyler winks and announces, “Well, I’m going to put this conversation in the win column for me. It shows you pay uber-close attention to what I eat, so at least I’m on your radar.”

“Don’t flatter yourself too much, Cowboy. It’s an occupational hazard. Food is my job.” 

“Not to disparage the food truck or anything, but I have had your food before and—believe it or not—my little aversion to pasta aside, I did enjoy most of it. I don’t think you’re going to convert me to hummus anytime soon. I just have a texture thing with garbanzo beans. You are far too talented to slave away in a space that’s only 4 x 6 feet. I have to wonder why you do it.”

“How long do you have?” I grimace.

“Take as long as you need. I just came off my third twelve-hour shift in a row. I’ve had my pizza and caffeine. I’m all yours for the foreseeable future,” Ty assures me as he grabs his large glass of Coke and moves over to a well-worn leather couch in the quietest corner of the restaurant. He motions for me to sit beside him.

Suddenly, all I want to do is curl up beside him and tell him the whole sordid story, but that’s not the way I operate now, thanks to lessons learned the hard way. There was a time in my life when I would have freely shared every last detail, but not lately.

“I’m pretty sure you could find a thousand more interesting things to do with your time than listen to my sad, pathetic tale of woe,” I warn as I shrug defensively, curling into myself.

“I wouldn’t have offered if I weren’t interested,” Tyler insists. “Come on. Take a load off those feet and tell me what’s going on.” 

It may be the compassion in his eyes, my overall fatigue level, or simply a chance to share my story with someone who seems to care, but I can’t turn down his invitation.

The relief must be clear on my face because Tyler’s body language changes as he watches me cross the room. He immediately stands and, without a word, he opens his arms and gathers me in a warm, comforting hug. It’s all I can do to fight back my tears. Tears I didn’t even know I needed to shed. Abruptly, I remember why it feels so nostalgic. It’s been a full decade and a half since I had a hug quite like that. In a strange twist of fate, the man who I thought I could have nothing in common with wears the same cologne as my favorite Nonnino and even tucks me under his chin the same way. I shouldn’t make assumptions about people without knowing them. Ty may be less like my dad and his cronies and more like my grandfather.

As I blink back my tears, I realize Tyler is whispering something under his breath. I struggle against the blanket of the past so I can concentrate on what he’s saying. “Hush Darlin’, there can’t be anything so bad, it won’t be better if you spread the load.”

The sweet sentiment under his rough voice is enough to make me come close to losing it again. I take a deep breath and swallow hard.

“Well, this isn’t easy for me. I’m guessing that you probably already think I’m a pretty big bimbo, and this is only going to confirm your suspicions. Well, yours and everyone else’s,” I confess.

Ty puts his hand up to stop me. “Gidget, you have me all wrong. I never said I thought you were a bimbo. In fact, it’s pretty much the opposite. I admire people who can be artists. I think some of the smartest people on the planet are artists.”

“Anyway,” I continue before I lose my nerve. “I’m never really sure where to start this story. I’m not sure where it all begins. It might’ve started when I was a really little girl trying to compete with my athletic superstar big brother and model-perfect little sister. I never fit in with my stereotypical upper crust suburban Italian family. No one knew what to do with me—except my grandparents. My dad was grooming me to be his next administrative assistant because girls could not be truly responsible CPAs—in his opinion. He wanted my brother and me to run his business for him eventually. However, my Nonna could see I had the heart of an artist and the palate of a cook from an early age. She allowed me to bake at her knee almost from the time I could walk. I owe my career to her. Anything I know in the kitchen today had its start in what I learned from her. My grandpa, or Nonnino, was my biggest cheerleader. He was brave enough to try every dish I ever made. Let me tell you, some of those early dishes were very, very scary. Yet, he never seemed fazed.”

“That sounds great, it sounds like your family supported your dreams.”

“Sadly, that’s where it gets dicey.
Part
of my family supported my dreams; I always seem to be a disappointment to the rest of my family. I felt stuck in the middle. It never seemed to matter what I chose to do; I was always disappointing somebody. I guess that’s how I became really good at trying to please everybody. I don’t want people to be upset with me. I pretend to be happy when I’m not. I pretend not to be hurt when I am. I’m often nicer to people than I should be because I’m afraid they might be disappointed in me. The craziest thing of all is that I expect more of myself than others ever think of asking of me.”

Tyler puts his arm around my shoulder and gives me a gentle squeeze as he murmurs, “Ah, Gidget, don’t be so hard on yourself. Being a nice person is a good thing. It’s what sets us apart from the barbarians and the bitches of the world. At some point, all the good you put out in the world is going to come back to you.”

“I wish it were that easy. Unfortunately, not everybody lives by that code. I had somebody totally take advantage of my generosity and essentially rob me blind. In the process, he destroyed my trust in people—specifically in men—and seriously damaged my relationship with my father. My dad doesn’t believe I can be trusted to make smart decisions about anything anymore. It doesn’t seem to matter to him that before I decided to change my major to culinary arts, I was a business major with a solid grounding in accounting. One serious mistake made all of it count for nothing. I feel like such a fool.”

“Well, I haven’t known you for years, but I have known you for several months, and I do know that you are bright, intuitive, and you’re nobody’s fool. Everybody makes mistakes. Your parents have probably made more than a few of themselves. So, it’s not fair for them to be judging you so harshly,” Tyler says sternly.

I’m dumbfounded by his quick defense of me. If I were to guess based on our previous interactions, I would’ve told you Tyler Colton could barely stand the sight of me and thought I was one of the biggest flakes on the planet. So, this apparent about-face is a stunning development.

“Wow, at the risk of sounding like Sally Fields, I think you like me. You really, really like me,” I stammer.

“I think I’ve mentioned it a couple times today, at least,” Ty replies. “For the life of me, I can’t figure out why it’s so hard for you to take a compliment.”

“Maybe it’s because I don’t know what I’ve done to deserve one,” I answer with more honesty than I intend.

“Whoever told you that you have to earn compliments?” Ty asks, an incredulous expression on his face. “I was always taught compliments are like gifts with no expectation of anything in return. It’s like finding an extra dollar in your pocket you didn’t expect. A complement is something that you give someone to brighten their day. They don’t have to do anything special to earn it or deserve it—it’s just there.”

“But—” I start to argue. 

Tyler softly presses the tip of his finger against my bottom lip to silence me as he continues, “But, if you want to look at it from your frame of mind, I can think of many things you do to deserve compliments. You are friendly to everyone from the person who delivers your newspaper to the meter maid who gives you a ticket. In my opinion, being nice to someone who just slapped you with the fine is going above and beyond the call of duty.”

“It’s a hard job and nobody likes them,” I argue. “They aren’t like teachers or nurses.”

Ty chuckles as he responds, “See? You’re good to the core. Definitely compliment worthy. You cook with a passion for every meal. Even something as simple as grilled cheese sandwiches or peanut butter and jelly are special gourmet treats when you make them. I confess I come over at mealtime just so I can see what you make from the leftovers and Jeff and Kiera’s fridge. I know you stop and talk to Harry, the homeless veteran who lives behind the carwash. Not only do you stop and talk to him on a regular basis, you often bring him food. Not just a little food either, but enough to feed several of his friends. Many people in your situation with a restaurant would look at that as an opportunity for free publicity, but you don’t,” he continues.

“Tyler, every decent human being would do the same. It’s nothing special. It doesn’t even deserve a compliment. I would feel guilty if I didn’t do that stuff,” I reply as I shrug my shoulders defensively. This is the kind of argument I get in with my dad all the time. My dad thinks charitable agencies should do this type of stuff and that I should just mind my own business, which is why I never tell anybody what, I do. I am shocked that Tyler, who barely knows me, has taken the time to notice what I do in my spare time.

“You’d be surprised, there are some pretty cold hearted people out there. Unfortunately, I seem to specialize in dating most of them,” Ty jests. I am familiar with the strategy of hiding a little bit of truth in your jokes so that the truth doesn’t sting quite so much.