Authors: David Smith with Carol Ann Lee
Although Myra was no longer living nearby, and Ian spent almost every day at the new house in Hattersley until he moved there permanently a short time later, the couple were regular visitors to Wiles Street. But neither displayed any interest in Angela. ‘There was no doting Auntie Myra and Uncle Ian,’ David remarks dryly. ‘Myra’s only concern was for Maureen. She’d just ask, “Does she sleep all right for you? Is she giving you some rest during the day?” She wasn’t a touchy-feely auntie and
never
held Angela. What was shown on screen in
See No Evil: The Story of the Moors Murders
couldn’t have been further from the truth. If she saw us out pushing the pram, she’d stop to talk to us, but there was no peering in and chucking the baby under the chin. As for him . . . I remember changing a nappy once in front of Ian. Maureen brought Angela down because she was wet and gave her to me. Brady stared at the fire, at the wall, fiddled with his glass, anything but look at the baby and me. He did
not
want to see the little legs kicking in the air, and the billing and cooing. I noticed his embarrassment and teased him about it, waving the talc in his face, but he kept his head firmly turned and ignored me.’
David pauses and drains his tea. ‘Whenever the pair of them came to the house, I always hoped that Dad would be out until they’d left. Ian Brady and my dad did
not
get on.’
* * *
The fag-end of 1964, and the Beatles and the Rolling Stones rule the world. The music I live for has been given a massive shot in the arm, ripped from America’s stranglehold by four lads from Liverpool. Merseybeat and Detroit Motown take over as the new teenage religions and the summer seems to linger on and on.
I throw my legs out of bed. It’s early morning but already unseasonably warm. I yawn and listen to the trains forever roaring past the window, making the glass rattle. I reach for my first cigarette of the day and have a good splutter. The pink-painted cot, wedged between bed and wall, is empty and the blankets dishevelled. I can hear homely noises from downstairs as I reach for ‘the Image’, which is strewn across the floor. On go the tight, black drainpipe jeans with six-inch zips at the bottom, black studded belt, white T-shirt, thin socks and winkle-pickers. I pull on my shirt and tuck it into my jeans, raising the collar at the back and leaving three buttons undone to show off the crucifix. Then I reach into my back pocket for my comb and run it through my hair, pushing my fingers into the front to pull it into a sultry quiff. Image complete.
The winkle-pickers clunk on the stairs; we never did get round to putting a carpet down. The kitchen hasn’t changed much either apart from a lick of paint, but it feels a lot cosier with nappies and baby clothes drying on the wooden frame in front of the fire. I run the only tap – still no sodding hot water – and the arctic blast wakes me up. I comb my hair again and rearrange the quiff while another train thunders by, making the crockery clatter.
Maureen stands at the kitchen table making sandwiches for two pack-ups, the dogs at her feet. Dad is in the living room; he and I work at the same factory in Ardwick, where he’s an engineer and I’m a labourer. At dinnertime he nips to the pub for an hour with the other engineers and I eat my pack-up on a bench in Ardwick Green opposite the hotel. I like it there.
The kettle whistles and Maureen makes a fresh pot of tea. I hear the factory hooter calling the workers in for their shift at the foundry. I realise we’re running late, but Maureen calms me by explaining that Dad has had a word with a workmate who’s going to clock us in on the sly. I relax and sup my tea, leaning against the sink and disguising boredom as she outlines her plans for the day. It sounds like every other day, to me: a visit three streets away to her mam, a visit two streets away to Auntie Ann and cousin Glenys, and a nice stroll with Angela Dawn in her pram in Sunnybrow Park. Lovely, I say.
Then she looks at me brightly, ‘Oh, Dave, I nearly forgot. Myra and Ian want to come round tomorrow night. Is that all right?’
That
will
be all right because tomorrow is Friday (pay day), no work on Saturday, and I can get merrily pissed with Och-aye from Glasgow.
I finish my tea and muse on how things have changed between Dad and me. I look forward to going to work with him; it makes up for a lot of the bruising we’ve dished out to each other. He slumps in his chair, thumb and finger at his temples to squeeze away a hangover. The ashtray on the table overflows, but he keeps on puffing away. Maureen brings me toast and another pot of tea, knowing how much I love our mornings, especially sitting on the settee with Angela before leaving for the factory. I tickle and play with my daughter for a few minutes and then it’s time to collect our pack-ups and head off. Maureen holds Angela in her arms and sees us off from the door.
Dad’s first stop is the corner shop on the end of Wiles Street to buy his fags and
Daily Mirror
. I choose a bottle of milk from the crates stacked outside. The shop itself is so poky it can only cater for five people at a time and often there’s a queue down the street. Inside, crudely built shelves are crammed with no thought to order: baked beans next to firelighters, tights beside Spam. Potatoes bulge from the rolled-down hessian sacks in the corner and a monstrous brass till squats on the counter.
This morning there’s only one customer in the shop: our neighbour from number 9, Mrs Reade. She stands close to the counter with her head bowed, having a whispered conversation with Mr Hodges, the shopkeeper. Dad picks up his paper from the pile near the till and automatically opens it at the racing page. We wait patiently for Mrs Reade to finish. Always a very slight lady, she seems to have shrunk further in the year that’s gone by.
Dad asks her politely, ‘Morning, Joan. How are you today?’
She replies in her quiet voice, ‘Fine, Jack. Not too bad, thank you.’ She gives us both an unconvincing smile and leaves the shop, clutching the bits she’s just bought close to her. Mr Hodges shakes his head and rolls his eyes in a sad, hopeless gesture that’s kinder than it looks. Then he reaches under the counter and hands Dad his daily two packets of Capstan Full Strength before opening the thick tick-book to log the transaction; the cost of a week’s living comes out of a Friday night pay packet.
As we leave the shop, I glance quickly down the street. Mrs Reade is going into number 9, head bowed, while Maureen stands on our doorstep with Angela, waiting for us to turn the corner. She waves and shouts cheerily, ‘See you both tonight.’ I lift my hand, then turn away as both doors close.
Dad licks the end of his stubby pencil as we walk, marking off another nag to back. I bide my time before mentioning, as casually as I can, that Myra and Ian fancy a drink at ours tomorrow night. His reaction is exactly what I expect: face contorted with suppressed anger, he replies that he couldn’t give a shit because he’s going drinking in the Hyde Road Hotel straight from work and not to bother with his dinner – he’ll bring something home from the chipper.
We walk towards the bus stop in silence.
*
I meet up with Dad after work, outside the factory gates; we’re both grimy from a day’s labour but who cares, it’s Friday. Dad’s in good form: he’s had a ‘treble up’ on the horses and has a thirst coming on. Not bothering to open his wage packet, he takes a green bundle of notes from his pocket and peels off several pounds with the order to ‘pay Maureen my board, settle up with the shop and get our Angie something nice’.
I walk the half-mile with him to the Hyde Road Hotel. As we near its Victorian bulk, we’re greeted with the heaving noise of laughing men and the chink of glasses being collected for the next round. Dad pushes open the door. The thick smell of beer and a sudden draught of Woodbines escapes. As he disappears inside, I notice that he’s got the
Daily Mirror
tucked in his back pocket, dirty and well-thumbed but still open at the racing page. I laugh to myself and catch the 109 to Gorton, sitting upstairs and enjoying a well-earned cigarette, glad to know I’ve got a pocket full of wages, Dad’s happy and I can have a good scrub and nice bit of dinner before the evening kicks off.
Maureen’s left the front door open and the smell of boiled ribs and cabbage hits me as I walk through the living room into the damp heat of the kitchen. I cast my unopened wage packet onto the table along with Dad’s ill-gotten gains. Maureen calls a hello over her shoulder, as she busies herself with pots, pans and plates. She chatters away once she starts buttering slices of bread and I lie to her that it’s been a gruelling day just to get a bit of the old feminine sympathy. In a corner of the kitchen, Angela sits upright in her pram, eyes bright as pennies, dressed in pink and smelling wonderfully of fresh baby powder. She grabs at the air with her chubby little fists, trying to catch something only she can see. I laugh, amused by her determination and the way she’s sitting, lopsided but comfortable, kicking her blanket away as if it’s a whole new game. I spend a few minutes trying to sit her up straight, but her arms and legs move faster at the attention and I give up, leaving her gurgling to herself.
At the sink I scrub, comb my hair and rearrange the quiff yet again before pulling up a chair to the table and tucking into a bloody good dinner. Life is sweet.
Myra and Ian arrive at seven o’clock. The Morris is parked up for the night, with its white bonnet almost touching the railway sleepers at the end of the street, and the two of them walk into the house without bothering to knock. They’re always charitable visitors: Ian carries a couple of bottles of Bell’s and two or three records under his arm; Myra follows with a box crammed with red wine in an assortment of corked bottles and several Babychams and Cherry B’s. I perk up even further as we say hello, sensing a good night is on the cards.
Dad and Maureen have shaped the condemned house into a clean, cosy home. In front of the fire where the dogs lie, we now have a lightweight settee and on each side of the range are chairs, one for Dad and one for me. Our old table, scrubbed spotless, stands in the middle of the room and against the wall is a second-hand but sturdy sideboard. Maureen’s precious Dansette sits on top of it, along with two tall stacks of records: my large collection of blues and rock ’n’ roll and her smaller set of Elvis.
My
wall holds centre stage, plastered from floor to ceiling with images of teen-beat cool and defiance: Muddy Waters, Chuck Berry, Eddie Cochran, Gene Vincent, Little Richard, Sam Cooke, Jerry Lee, a very young Bob Dylan . . . Tucked away in the corner is a small group of Elvis photographs to appease Maureen.
The girls disappear into the kitchen to fetch glasses and have a sisterly natter. Ian stands before the wall for a moment, mockingly shaking his head at my creative efforts, then gives a friendly tut of disapproval as he takes a seat by the fire. I’m in mischievous mood and pile the Dansette with a selection of black singers, hoping to wind racist Ian up. But this time he ignores my deliberate attempt to annoy him and sits smoking his cigarette tranquilly.
Maureen and Myra return, sitting down shoulder to shoulder at the table to share a box of Maltesers and bottles of Cherry B. I look at Ian: he’s dressed immaculately, as usual. Cuff-linked white shirt, tie fastened with a traditional single knot and his favourite grey three-piece suit, with its two-inch trouser turn-ups. Other than my wedding tie, the closest I ever got to that kind of neatness was a Texas bootlace affair with a sliding metal knot. He removes his jacket and pours two large slugs of jugged wine. When he hands me a glass, it’s like being served by John Dillinger – he’s got the look and the waistcoat, just not the gun-holster. We settle back with our drinks before the fire and unwind quietly for a while.
Maureen rises to prepare Angela for bed. Myra sits watching her without a word and doesn’t ask to hold the baby, or kiss her forehead. Not even a ‘Good night, God bless’; only a curious silence. Maureen passes Angela over to me for the last ten minutes of her day and I reach for her eagerly, loving to hold her as she nestles against me, snuggled up all pinkly tired and tidy, smelling sweetly of Johnson’s baby powder. Ian prods and pokes at the fire. His and Myra’s lack of attention towards our daughter doesn’t bother me; they just have different ways to us. Angela is teaching me new feelings all the time and I’m greedy to learn with her. I hold her a little too tightly, contemplating how life has altered in a year: I’m 16 now, wear a wedding ring and have a beautiful daughter. Being married suits me. The Image is beginning to feel outdated and unimportant; even the reason for the wall is fading fast.
I kiss Angela goodnight, pass her back to Maureen and give Ian a quick grin of sheer pleasure at the joy of being a parent. He frowns at me before turning back to gaze at the fire again, lost in thought.
Hours later, the bottles of Cherry B and Babycham stand empty on the table and cigarette smoke floats thick as a dream around the light bulb. Longsight’s cheap red wine has kicked in and I act as DJ while the girls jive together, both laughing and shrieking as they twirl and catch each other at high speed. I spin Del Shannon’s ‘Runaway’ and ‘Hats Off to Larry’, Eddie Cochran’s ‘Twenty Flight Rock’ and ‘Summertime Blues’, and just for Maureen, I even let rip with Elvis: ‘It’s Now or Never’ and ‘Are You Lonesome Tonight?’ Ian sits with his tie loosened, heavy-eyed and glass in hand, not listening to the music or the girls singing. He’s no rock ’n’ roller and he’s no Fred Astaire; he doesn’t even tap his feet to the beat. I leave the Dansette and jive with the girls until the whisky makes the floor uneven, then stagger out into the street for some air.
I leave the door open to let out the coiling smoke and the sound of Gene Vincent giving it the old ‘Be-Bop-A-Lula’
.
Ian follows me out into the dark, carrying the sort of whisky measure you can never buy in a pub. He puts his cigarette to his lips and his glass on the roof of the Morris, then jumps backwards onto the bonnet, long legs dangling. I lean against the wall of the house, looking up at the inky, star-scattered sky and listening to a train hurtle by, waiting for the smoke to vanish from the street. I know that train; it’s a cargo wagon full of coal. When I was a kid, I’d hide in wait with the Cummings boys for a train like that to pass, fancying ourselves as Jesse James and the Younger Brothers. Miniature desperados, we’d walk the tracks with sacks to scour the line for treasure: black gold nuggets. If a bag was too full or heavy, we’d stash it on the embankment and continue the search. Often we were chased by the dreaded railway ‘Pinkerton Men’ and would make our escape only to return later to retrieve the loot, dragging the bags up the embankment to our outlaws’ hideout – Mrs Cummings’ kitchen. I shake my head and give a half-laugh: Jesse and the James Gang in short trousers and rolled-down woolly socks. Well, it makes for a happy memory.