Complete Works of Emile Zola (771 page)

The fishermen had fled. Pauline remained alone beneath the pouring rain, with her eyes turned towards the piles, which were now covered by the waves. The spectacle seemed to absorb all her attention, in spite of the grey mist which was rising from the rain-beaten sea, obscuring every­thing. Big black marks appeared on her streaming dress, about her shoulders and arms, but she would not leave her place till the west wind had swept the storm-cloud away.

They all three returned home in silence. Not a word of what had happened was mentioned to Madame Chanteau. Pauline hurried off to change her clothes, while Lazare recounted the complete success of the experiment. In the evening, as they sat at table, Pauline became feverish, but she pretended there was nothing the matter with her, in spite of the evident difficulty she had in swallowing her food; and she even ended by speaking very roughly to Louise, who evinced solicitude in her caressing way, and perpetually asked her how she felt.

‘The girl is really growing quite unbearable with her bad disposition,’ murmured Madame Chanteau behind Pauline’s back. ‘We had better give over speaking to her.’

About one o’clock in the morning Lazare was roused by a hoarse cough, which sounded so distressingly that he sat up in bed to listen. At first he thought it came from his mother; then, as he went on straining his ear, he heard a noise as of something falling, and his floor shook. Forthwith he jumped out of bed and hastily put on his clothes. It could only be Pauline, who must have fallen on the other side of the wall.

He broke several matches with his trembling hands, but, at last, when he had succeeded in lighting his candle and came out of his room, he found the door opposite wide open, and the young girl lying on her side and barring the entrance.

‘What is the matter?’ Lazare cried in amazement. ‘Have you fallen?’

It had just flashed through his mind that she was prowl­ing about again, playing the spy. But she made no reply, and never even stirred; in fact, with her closed eyes, she seemed to him to be dead. There could be no doubt that just as she was leaving her room to seek assistance a fainting-fit had thrown her on the ground.

‘Pauline, speak to me, I beg you! What is the matter with you?’

He had bent down and was holding the light to her face. She was extremely flushed, and seemed a prey to violent fever. Then all hesitation on his part vanished, and he took her up in his arms and carried her to her bed full of fraternal anxiety. When he had placed her in bed again, he began to question her once more, ‘For goodness’ sake, do speak to me! Have you hurt yourself?’

She had just opened her eyes, but she could not yet speak, and merely looked at him with a fixed gaze. Then, as he still continued to press her with questions, she carried her hand to her throat.

‘It is your throat that hurts you, is it?’

At last, in a strange voice, that seemed to come with immense difficulty, she gasped:

‘Don’t make me speak, please. It hurts me so.’

As she said this she was seized with another attack of coughing, the same hoarse guttural cough that he had heard from his bedroom. Her face turned bluish, and her distress became so great that her eyes filled with tears. She lifted her hands to her poor trembling brow, which was quivering with the hammer-like throbs of a frightful headache.

‘You caught that to-day!’ he stammered, quite dis­tracted. ‘It was very foolish of you to act as you did, when you were already far from well!’ But he checked himself, as he saw her looking up at him with a gaze of entreaty.

‘Just open your mouth and let me look at your throat.’

It was all she could do to open her jaws. Lazare brought the candle close to her, and was with difficulty able to espy the back of her throat, which was dry, and gleamed with a bright crimson. It was evidently a case of angina, and her burning fever and terrible headache filled him with alarm as to its precise nature. The poor girl’s face wore such an agonised expression of choking that he was seized with a horrible fear of seeing her suffocated before his very eyes. She was not able to swallow; every attempt to do so made her whole body quiver. At last a fresh attack of coughing threw her into another fainting-fit; and thereupon in a state of complete panic he flew off to thump at Véronique’s door.

‘Véronique! Véronique! Get up! Pauline is dying.’

When Véronique, half-dressed and scared, entered the girl’s room, she found Lazare excitedly talking to himself in the middle of it.

‘What a forsaken hole to be in! One might die here like a dog! There is no help to be had nearer than a couple of miles!’

He strode up to Véronique.

‘Try and get someone to go for the Doctor immediately,’ he said.

The servant stepped up to the bed and looked at the sick girl. She was quite alarmed at seeing her so flushed, and in her increasing affection for Pauline, whom she had at first so cordially detested, she felt a painful shock.

‘I’ll go myself,’ she said quietly. ‘That will be the quickest way. Madame will be quite able to light a fire down­stairs, if you want one.’

Then, scarcely yet fully awake, she put on her heavy boots and wrapped a shawl round her; and, after telling Madame Chanteau what the matter was as she went downstairs, she set off, striding along the muddy road. Two o’clock rang out from the church, and the night was so dark that she stumbled every now and then against heaps of stones.

‘What is it, then?’ asked Madame Chanteau, as she came upstairs.

Lazare scarcely answered her. He had just been ferreting about in the cupboard for his old medical treatises, and was now bending down before the chest of drawers, turning over the pages of one of his books with trembling fingers, while trying to remember something of what he had formerly learnt. But he grew more and more confused, and perpetually turned to the index without being able to find what he wanted.

‘It’s only a bad sick headache,’ said Madame Chanteau, who had sat down. ‘The best thing we can do is to leave her to sleep.’

At this Lazare burst out angrily:

‘A sick headache! A sick headache indeed! You will drive me quite mad, mother, by standing there so uncon­cernedly. Go down stairs and get some water to boil.’

‘There is no necessity to disturb Louise, is there?’ she asked.

‘No, indeed, not the least. I don’t require anybody’s assistance. If I want anything I will call you.’

When he was alone again, he went and took hold of Pauline’s wrist to try her pulse. He counted one hundred and fifteen pulsations; and he felt the girl’s burning hand cling closely and lingeringly to his own. Her heavy eyelids remained closed, but she was thanking him and forgiving him with that pressure of her hand. Though she was unable to smile, she still wanted to let him understand that she had heard and was pleased to know that he was there alone with her, without a thought for anybody else. Generally, he had a horror of all suffering, and took himself off at the slightest appearance of indisposition in any of his relatives, for he was a shockingly bad nurse, and was so unable to control his nerves that he ever feared lest he should burst out crying. And so it was a pleasant surprise to Pauline to see him now so anxious and devoted. He himself could not have explained the warmth of feeling that was upbuoying him, or the necessity he felt of relying on himself alone to give her relief. The pressure of her little hand upset him, and he tried to cheer her.

‘It’s nothing at all, my dear. I am expecting Cazenove directly; but we needn’t feel the least alarm.’

She still kept her eyes closed as she murmured, apparently still in pain: ‘Oh! I’m not at all frightened. What troubles me most is to see you so much disturbed.’

Then, in a still lower voice, barely a whisper, she added: ‘Have you forgiven me yet? I behaved very wickedly this morning.’

He bent down and kissed her brow as though she were his wife. Then he stepped aside, for his tears were blinding him. The idea occurred to him that he might as well prepare a sleeping-draught while waiting for the doctor’s arrival. Pauline’s little medicine-chest was in a small cup­board in the room. He felt a little afraid lest he should make some mistake, and he looked closely at the different phials; finally he poured a few drops of morphia into a glass of sugared water. When she swallowed a spoonful of it, the pain in her throat became so great that he hesitated about giving her a second. There was nothing else he could do. That spell of inactive waiting was becoming terribly painful to him. When he could no longer endure to stand beside her bed and see her suffering, he turned to his books again, hoping to find therein an account of her malady and its remedy. Could it be a case of diphtheritic angina? He had certainly not seen any malignant growth on the roof of her mouth, but he plunged into the perusal of a description of that complaint and its treatment, losing himself in a maze of long sentences whose meaning he could not gather, and striving to grope through superfluous details, like a child battling with some lesson he cannot understand. By-and-by a sigh brought him hurrying back to the bedside, with his head buzzing with scientific terms, whose uncouth syllables only served to increase his anxiety.

‘Well, how is she getting on?’ inquired Madame Chanteau, who had come softly upstairs again.

‘Oh! she keeps just the same,’ Lazare replied.

Then, in a burst of impatience, he added:

‘It is terrible, this delay on the Doctor’s part! The girl might die twenty times over!’

The doors had been left open, and Matthew, who slept under the table in the kitchen, had also just come up the stairs, for it was his habit to follow people into every room of the house. His big paws pattered over the floor like old woollen slippers. He seemed quite gay at all this commotion in the middle of the night, and wanted to jump up to Pauline, and even tried to wheel round after his tail, like an animal unconscious of his master’s trouble. But Lazare, irritated by his inopportune gaiety, gave him a kick.

‘Be off with you, or I’ll choke you! Can’t you under­stand, you idiot?’

The dog, afraid of a beating, and, it may be, suddenly grasping the situation, went to lie down under the bed. But Lazare’s rough behaviour had aroused Madame Chanteau’s indignation. Without waiting any longer she went down to the kitchen again, saying drily: ‘The water will be ready whenever you want it.’

As she descended the stairs Lazare heard her muttering that it was abominable to kick an animal like that, and that he would probably have kicked her also if she had remained in the room. Every moment he went to the bedside to glance at Pauline. She now seemed to be quite overcome with fever, utterly prostrate; the only sign of life that came from her was the wheezing of her breath amidst the mournful silence of the room, a wheezing that began to sound like a death-rattle. Then wild unreasoning fear again seized upon Lazare. He felt quite certain that the girl would soon choke if help did not arrive. He fidgeted about the room on tip-toes, glancing perpetually at the timepiece. It was not three o’clock, and Véronique could hardly have got to the Doctor’s yet. He followed her in imagination through the black night all along the road to Arromanches. By this time she would be passing the oak-wood; then she would cross the little bridge, and then she would save five minutes by running down the hill. At last a longing for tidings of some sort led him to throw open the window, though it was quite impossible for him to distinguish anything amidst the profound darkness. Down in the depths of Bonneville only a single light was gleaming, the lantern, probably, of some fisherman preparing to put out to sea. Everything was wrapped in mournful sadness, far-reaching abandonment, in which all life appeared to die away. He closed the window and then opened it again, only to close it quickly once more. He began to lose all idea of the flight of time, and was startled when he heard three o’clock strike. By this time the Doctor must have got his horse harnessed, and his gig would be spinning along the road, transpiercing the darkness with the yellow glare of its lamp. Lazare grew so distracted with impatience as he watched the sick girl’s increasing suffocation that he started up as from a dream, when, at about four o’clock, he finally heard some rapid footsteps on the stairs.

‘Ah! here you are at last!’ he cried.

Doctor Cazenove at once ordered a second candle to be lighted, in order that he might examine Pauline properly.

Lazare held one of the candles, while Véronique, whose hair the wind had thrown into wild disorder, and who was splashed with mud to the waist, stood at the head of the bed with the other. Madame Chanteau looked on. The sick girl was in a state of semi-somnolence, and could not open her mouth without a groan of pain. When the Doctor had laid her back in bed again, he, who upon his first entrance had shown signs of great uneasiness, stepped into the middle of the room with an expression of relief.

‘That Véronique of yours put me into a pretty fright,’ said he. ‘She told me such a lot of terrible things that I thought the girl must have got poisoned, and you see that I have come with my pockets crammed full of drugs.’

‘It is angina, is it not?’ Lazare asked.

‘Yes, simple angina. There is no occasion for alarm at present.’

Madame Chanteau indulged in a little gesture of triumph, as much as to say that she had known that from the first.

‘“No occasion for alarm at present”!’ repeated Lazare, his fears rising again. ‘Are you afraid of complications?’

‘No,’ answered the Doctor, after some slight hesitation; ‘but with these tiresome throat complaints one can never feel quite sure of anything.’

He added that nothing more could be done just then, and that he would prefer waiting till the morrow to bleed the patient. But as the young man pressed him to attempt at any rate some alleviating measures, he expressed his readi­ness to apply some sinapisms. Véronique brought up a bowl of warm water, and the Doctor himself placed the damped mustard-leaves in position, slipping them along the girl’s legs from her ankles to her knees. But they only increased her discomfort, for the fever continued unabated and her head was still throbbing frightfully. Emollient gargles were also-suggested, and Madame Chanteau prepared a decoction of nettle-leaves, which had to be laid aside, however, after a first attempt to administer it, for pain rendered Pauline unable to swallow. It was nearly six o’clock, and dawn was breaking when the Doctor went away.