Fuller leaned forward. He showed no sign of emotion other than profound weariness as he spoke into the microphone.
‘No comment,’ he said.
On the drive back from Oxford to London, Enver tried to engage Hanlon in conversation but she was in a foul mood.
‘Well, where did he get those pants then?’ said Enver. ‘Why won’t he say where he was that afternoon?’
London’s not the only place with brothels, thought Hanlon.
‘I bet you fifty quid they’re not hers,’ was all she’d say. That and, ‘If you choose to prefer Miss Barnyard’s judgement over mine,’ spoken with real vitriol, ‘that’s your business.’
Enver was hurt by Hanlon’s tone. He couldn’t for the life of him see what he’d done, or said, to warrant her evident rage. Or DI Huss come to that. Presumably she was Miss Barnyard.
As they’d reached the car, Hanlon had flung her jacket into the back, crumpling up the innocent material with real venom. She’d rolled her sleeves up and was gripping the steering wheel so hard that her knuckles showed white through the skin. Even her hair seemed to bristle with anger, and as she drove she kept pushing it back and upwards with her left hand so it stood up in manic corkscrews. Her lips were compressed tight as the powerful car reached a hundred down the motorway. He didn’t question her competence as a driver; she was perfectly in control. The muscles stood out in her forearms. Enver watched her admiringly. She looked incredibly attractive when she was angry, he thought.
Enver sighed at their speed. If Traffic stopped her, God knows what would happen. An automatic ban maybe. He badly wanted a Jelly Snake to soothe his nerves but feared her reaction.
I must stop comfort eating, he thought.
Before they’d got in the car, Hanlon had checked the messages on her phone. One, unknown caller, had read simply:
They want to pull the plug on Whiteside. See Lansdale, union rep.
Dame Elizabeth sat in her office, thinking about Hanlon and thinking about Kant. She didn’t know it, but she had come to the same conclusion as Hanlon. Most of her life, she had been advocating, and believing in, ruthless honesty, and now she suspected that it had all been easy because she had never needed to make a difficult decision.
Now that time had come, she’d flunked it.
Nearly forty years ago – God, so long ago, she thought – she’d been a young postgraduate student doing research for her Ph.D. at Berlin’s Humboldt University. One of the lecturers, not that much older than herself, had been a man called Jonathan Hanlon. His field was the philosophy of art and aesthetics and he epitomized the title of his discipline. He was devastatingly attractive.
That wasn’t hyperbole on her part. People stared at him surreptitiously in public. He had done modelling work, highly unusual in the seventies, but his beauty marked him out. There was something of his looks in Hanlon’s face – the cheekbones, the set of the jaw, the full mouth, above all the grey eyes. But where hers were cold and unforgiving, his had been warm, life-affirming.
Most of all, Jann Hanlon had charm.
He also had a beautiful wife who he said looked very much like Ophelia in Rossetti’s painting. That’s where Hanlon would have got her corkscrew curly hair from.
Dame Elizabeth had flung herself at him. She hadn’t cared that he was married. She hadn’t cared about anything; she was like a woman possessed. She was burning with lust. Not that she’d needed to do much flinging; it would have been like charging at an open door. Jonathan, Jann as everyone called him, was an intense womanizer and Dame Elizabeth had been very attractive. And for six wonderful months, he was hers.
It was the best time of her life. It was exhilarating. They went to wild parties with the Fluxus crowd (Jann was a friend of the famous artist Joseph Beuys), they held court at the Adlon Hotel, they went to openings at Berlin’s galleries, they did soft drugs with avant-garde Berlin musicians, they went to decadent thirties-style nightclubs where Jann was a big hit with the drag queens.
This was the seventies before Berlin had become the fashionable place to be in Europe, and the shadow of post-1945 destruction still hung heavily. Jann introduced her to Grunkohl with smoked sausage, Eisbein and Konigsberger Klopse, beef dumplings with capers in cheap restaurants. They drank huge quantities of beer and wine.
They hung out with Andy Warhol, when Jann had helped organize an exhibition of his work at the Kunsthalle, and they had endless sex in her cheap apartment, that smelled of hash, patchouli oil and incense, in Alexanderplatz, overlooking the Berlin Wall.
The pace that he lived his life was feverish; there was never any time to reflect or consider. Any money he earned he would squander. Jann never saved or worried about the future. She remembered him saying,
Zeit ist Geld und Geld ist gut
. Time is money and money is good. An unfashionable view at the time.
She remembered lying naked in bed with Jann in January while outside a bitterly cold wind blew in from the east and snow gently and silently fell, her bedroom warmed by an old thirties stove and his heat. He had a marvellous body; she guessed that was something else Hanlon had inherited from her father.
She remembered a particularly groundbreaking Anselm Kiefer exhibition. Afterwards they’d walked hand in hand down the Unter den Linden to the Brandenburger Tor. She had been so much in love with Jann at that moment in time it was almost ecstatically painful.
She remembered shopping in the flea market at Rathaus Schöneburg, where Kennedy had made his
Ich bin ein Berliner
speech. And Jann had bought her the bracelet that now Hanlon was wearing.
Then came the inevitable split. A huge row, Jann had a terrible temper. Unforgivable things were said on both sides, the typical, lacerating wounds of love gone wrong. Jann went back to Ophelia (Catherine, that was her name, Dame Elizabeth remembered now); angrily and dismissively, she returned the jewellery he’d given her and came back to England, back to Oxford. Jann was a distant memory, a footnote on one of the many pages in the book of her life.
Then two years later, in the late seventies, 1979 it would have been, came a shocked phone call from Germany one night. Jann was dead, a stupid, perfectly avoidable, car crash. Not murdered by a jealous husband, or dead of a romantic disease. A car crash. A stupid, stupid car crash. Jann had always driven too fast, too aggressively. He drove like he lived, without evaluating risk properly, heedless of consequences. In some ways it was typically Jann, infuriating and thoughtless.
It was such a waste, a dumb, pointless way to die.
She wondered if DCI Hanlon had the same tendency to charge in without thinking.
Dame Elizabeth was a good judge of character. She rather suspected she had.
Until two days ago she had hardly thought of him in years.
Earlier that day, she’d phoned the man who’d given her the news of the fatal car crash, another academic, now at Belfast University. He’d told her of Catherine’s unravelling after Jann’s death, the depression that settled over her like a thick, impenetrable fog. There had been one botched suicide attempt then, one evening, she strode out in front of an Inter City 125 train. No mistakes there. No cry for help. The real thing. The daughter, given up for adoption, had now resurfaced before her very eyes, in her university.
Dame Elizabeth was technically unsure where she stood on the subject of fate, but what she did know was that she had a duty to tell Hanlon what she knew of her parents. Well, about her father anyway. What Hanlon chose to do with that information would be up to her, but Dame Elizabeth would have acted properly.
With a sinking heart, she took Hanlon’s card from her purse and texted to ask her to meet her in the lecture hall where they had first met, at seven p.m on Sunday. The terse reply came almost immediately, a graceless yes.
Hanlon looked out of her window at the commuters hurrying eagerly away from the City and at the traders standing in noisy, expensively suited groups outside pubs. I need a distraction, she thought.
Endless images of Whiteside in his hospital bed mixed with thoughts of Jessica McIntyre and Fuller, like some crazy snowglobe of memory. She remembered how McIntyre’s engagement ring, below her wedding band, had sparkled in the light when she had moved her left hand. No, no, it hadn’t sparkled, it had blazed, almost as if it had supernatural powers. Hanlon had never really thought about diamonds before, except in crime terms; now she did. It must have been unbelievably expensive, she thought.
She wondered what Hannah had made of Jessica, with her Mulberry handbag and Manolo Blahniks, her leggy beauty, her poise and her wealth, all that Hannah was not or did not have. The two of them united in death. The two of them victims of the same killer.
Oh, this is hopeless, she realized. She suddenly thought of Michaels. Perhaps he could shed some light on the relationship between Fuller and McIntyre. He had disliked McIntyre, she knew that, and he was no friend of Fuller’s. But once the chip on his shoulder had been taken into consideration, he could well provide some valuable insights.
I wonder, mused Hanlon.
Will be in Bloomsbury. Fancy a quick drink?
she texted him.
White Horse, 5.30, half an hour, have to be back at work for 6 p.m.,
came the reply.
Perfect, thought Hanlon, texting back a
yes
. Let’s see what the chef has to say.
Hanlon met the union rep, Derek Lansdale, on Saturday morning. He made it clear that Hanlon had absolutely no say in Whiteside’s fate. He made it more than clear; he positively revelled in telling her.
He reiterated that Hanlon had no claim on Whiteside; she wasn’t family or in a relationship with him. Unlike his parents, who were the ones who had decided that enough was enough, that it was time to let their son go. He even brought up the cost of keeping Whiteside alive. Besides, he said, maybe Whiteside would prefer to be dispatched cleanly, food and drink withheld until Nature had run her course, than languish in this hospitalized limbo.
Lansdale strongly disliked Hanlon. He also was entirely happy to let his feelings show. For more or less the first time in his unionized police life, he wished that management would sack someone. Her. He didn’t like women in the police force in general and he disliked her in particular.
He rationalized his thinking to read that she was a bad example to the police force and that if individual police made a habit of recklessly endangering their own lives, it would create a dangerous precedent. The obvious implication, although he didn’t actually say it, was that it was Hanlon’s fault Whiteside was where he was.
It didn’t help her feelings that she often did blame herself for his condition. He was where he was because she had put him in the firing line. The fact that she hadn’t ordered him to go, having no authority at the time, but that he had volunteered because he liked and admired her, only made things worse.
Hanlon felt her temper rising dangerously, but managed to control it. The arguments about quality of life and parental rights left her unmoved. The first was a temporary issue in Hanlon’s mind anyway. As for the second, Whiteside was not on speaking terms with his mother and father. Lansdale himself, Hanlon despised as a gutless desk-jockey.
She longed to drive her fist repeatedly into Lansdale’s pasty white face. Instead, she went home, changed, and ran a punishing five miles, deliberately upping her pace until her body cried out with cleansing pain, then, back home, her body slick with sweat, worked on her abs with endless sit-ups, crunches and abdominal twists. She tortured the muscles until they practically screamed. She showered, checked her phone, and found another message from the unknown caller, the one who had told her about Whiteside, this time giving Whiteside’s parents’ address in Borough, South London.
She lay on the unrolled futon that was her bed, staring up at the ceiling. She had phoned the number of the mystery caller back, but there was no reply, as she expected. She thought she must know the caller and guessed it was almost certainly a colleague. The motive behind the information provider was far from obvious, though.
Hanlon was notoriously short-fused. Was he – she was sure it was a he – hoping she would create some sort of incident to discredit herself? Anyone who knew Hanlon would quite reasonably assume that she might well turn up at the parents and create some massive, alarming scene.
Momentarily she considered doing just that. Going round to his parents and warning them off. Maybe break something, and she wasn’t thinking of a vase. Then she thought of DCI Tremayne, warning her when she was a trainee, ‘Don’t hit the fuck-it button, Hanlon,’ and she rejected the idea.
Or were they trying genuinely to help her, to give her the chance to save Whiteside’s life? She had toyed with the idea of getting the phone traced by GPS. Getting the mobile phone service provider’s permission would be simplicity itself, but she suspected that whoever had the phone would merely keep it at whichever station he worked out of. She was already sure it was a copper doing this. What good would it do to know where he worked? It’s not as if they would have the phone in their uniform pocket. In their place, she’d have stashed it at the back of a cupboard that wasn’t used often. An old Nokia or brick – no one would give it a second glance. It would sit there gathering dust until it was next needed.
I’ve lived too long in a half-world of lies and suspicion, she thought. Absent-mindedly she clenched her fist and tightened her left bicep. The long, sinewy muscle arced obediently. At least there’s something I can rely on in this life. I need physical action, she thought. I’m not designed for introspection.
Her phone rang. It was Enver. She felt a huge surge of affection for the man wash over her. She almost snatched at the phone as she picked it up.
‘Hello, ma’am, sorry to bother you. There’s been a development on the Fuller case.’ His voice was as excited as Enver’s could be, not a great deal.
‘What exactly?’