‘I will wager a week’s wages on you being married and pregnant before your twenty-seventh birthday,’ Gideon interrupted.
‘Firstly, Gideon Worsley, you do not
earn
a week’s wages. You do not, in fact, earn anything, as far as I can tell. And secondly, no, it is
you
who will be married and tied down to a hundred screaming brats, gasping for air in some gigantic mausoleum in the countryside, forced to work for a living and easing your woes with a large whisky for your breakfast!’
Gideon laughed. ‘That may well be true, Anna, my beautiful friend, but we will all, each and every one of us, revert to type as the reality of middle-age begins to dawn upon us. It is all well and good to live this way now. We are young. We are free. But as the spectre of thirty begins to loom, which of us would want to find ourselves with all our friends lost to another way of living,
alone
in some hovel with no one to care if we have aches or pains, to bring us a hot toddy when we have a head cold, to tell us of being young and being modern? Which of us would want to set ourselves in aspic, in one glorious golden moment, and never ever experience the other golden moments of life, beyond mere youth, of family and growth and love and –’
‘Nonsense,’ retorted Anna. ‘Who said anything about aspic? I am talking of absolutely anything but aspic. I am talking of the freedom that childlessness would bring. To travel the world. Experiences we cannot even begin to imagine at our young age. We came so very close to losing our freedom. Our liberty. It was nearly snatched away from us. Who in their right mind would tie themselves down with matrimony and a household to run? Who would not want to take our freedom, the freedom that our boys and men laid down their lives for – my cousin,
your brother
, Gideon, darling sweet Edwin, all those men, all that blood, all that war – so that we can do as we please? No, I shall not use that expensively bought freedom to do as my mother and her mother and her mother before her have done. It is the greatest gift and I intend to use it well.’
Gideon shrugged. His smile had dropped at the mention of his brother. He said, ‘Well then, if the ultimate freedom is in doing as we please, it will please me to marry well and to have at least four children.’
Anna smiled and clutched Gideon’s hand inside hers. ‘You are the sweetest man. And the woman you marry will have married well also. But look after her. And no running away to Belgium. Keep her on a pedestal.’
‘But of course,’ said Gideon. ‘It is my job to put women on pedestals. That could never change.’
‘And what about you, Arlette?’ Anna turned to her. ‘Are you the marrying kind?’
Arlette laughed. It felt like only five minutes ago she had been a child, and then there had been four years of war and she had
come
out of the other side of that with no firm ideas about what sort of adult she might like to be. But as she looked at Anna, her handsome face, her vermilion lips, her upright posture and the glint in her eye of fierce intelligence, it struck her that she would like to be like her, just like her. She smiled and said, ‘No. I’m not sure that I am.’
Anna looked at her with surprise and smiled. ‘Good,’ she said simply, ‘good.’
And Arlette’s heart sang.
23
1995
THE BOOK ANTIQUARIAN
had approximately three strands of hair, one the colour of rancid butter, one a dark Jamaican ginger and the last one pure white. All three strands had been lovingly pasted across a bald, age-spotted pate. His face hung from his skull in folds and his mouth was loose and overly wet-looking. He spoke with a nasal twang and used a pince-nez to examine the book he held in his hands.
‘Amazing,’ he said, ‘totally incredible. Where did you find this?’
He said this accusatorily as though he suspected she had stolen it from the bed-stand of a wealthy dowager that very morning.
‘It was left to me,’ Betty said, ‘by my grandmother.’
He nodded and put the pince-nez back to the bridge of his wizardly nose.
‘It’s a second edition. Nowhere near as valuable as a first edition, of course. But still, not inconsiderable, except … oh dear …’ He turned the frontispiece over and stared disconsolately at Arlette’s handwritten inscription. ‘Was your grandmother famous?’ he asked.
‘No.’
‘Shame. Inscriptions from people of note can actually add to the value of a book. But this,’ he ran a finger sadly across Arlette’s immaculate handwriting, ‘this rather detracts, I’m afraid. But still, beautiful, beautiful book. I could sell it for you in a flash.’
Betty gulped and looked at him curiously yet innocently, as though the value of her grandmother’s heirloom could not be of less interest to her.
‘Yes, I could put this out for you; ask about forty, forty-five pounds for it?’
Betty gulped again. The exact price of the hairdressing appointment she so badly required. But she had not come here to sell it, she had come to see if it held any clues.
‘Little Miss Pickle,’ said the man, closing the book gently and running a finger down the spine. ‘Who’s that? Is that you, then?’
Betty shook her head. ‘No. It’s a bit of a mystery. There’s someone called Clara Pickle mentioned in her will, but nobody in the family knows who she is.’
‘Sounds almost wistful, don’t you think?’ The man held his pince-nez at an angle and eyed Betty almost fondly. ‘Almost like she’s writing to someone she hasn’t seen for a long time. Or maybe someone she never saw at all. When did she die?’
‘About two months ago,’ she said, somewhat vaguely, thoughts crowding her head.
‘Interesting,’ he said. ‘Fascinating. I do love the inscriptions. They always tell a story.
Pickle
,’ he smiled. ‘I wonder who she was …’
‘I was hoping there might be a clue. In the book,’ she asked hopefully.
He turned it over, back to front, looked at it again and said, ‘Sadly no. It could have come from anywhere.’
Betty took the book away with her, clutched tightly to her chest inside her shoulder bag. It held no clues to the identity of Arlette’s benefactor, but she was one hundred per cent sure
that
Arlette had fully believed that Betty was one day going to put it into the hands of its rightful owner. Whoever the hell she was.
The fur, the book, the name and address of a man in South Kensington.
Betty had assumed these were all random: a hastily assembled group of things that bore no relationship to one another. But now she was not so sure. Now she was remembering the Arlette of yesteryear, the sharp-as-a-pin Arlette, the woman who did not bear fools gladly, who cut a swathe and made a fuss and always got exactly what she wanted. The essence of that woman had still been there in September 1988 so it stood to some kind of reason that these items all bore some relationship to one another. That she had put them there for a reason. Without the folded piece of paper and the inscription they were just a coat and book. But with them, they were clues. She had spent too long finding her place here in Soho, and she knew now, without a shadow of doubt, that it was time to get serious, time to find Clara Pickle.
She forced the twenty-pence piece into the slot at the sound of the man’s voice. ‘Hello, is that Mr Mubarak?’
‘Yes, this is. Who is this please?’
‘My name’s Betty Dean. I came to see you a few weeks ago. I was asking about a man called Peter Lawler.’
‘Oh, yes, of course. I have not forgotten you! What can I do to help you?’
‘I was wondering … you said that Peter Lawler had gone to hospital when he left his flat. Can you remember which hospital he was at? And, if possible, when this was?’
‘Oh, yes, that is simple. I remember because I went to visit him. And it was a terrible journey. Out in Fulham somewhere. Two buses and it was the coldest day since records began, and on the way home I had to wait nearly fifty minutes for my return
journey
and it was one of those miserable days that stamps itself in your head, permanently.’
‘Fulham?’ she asked, trying to curb her impatience.
‘Yes, it is the big hospital there. The Charing Cross Hospital.’
‘In Fulham?’
‘Yes. I do not know why it is called this, but it is. And it was January. I remember that. The Arctic freeze. The whole world was cold. January 1985.’
‘And what ward was he on?’
‘Well, it was his liver. It was the drink. So, now, what would that be called … I used to work in a hospital, I should be able to remember this … Oh, yes,
hepatology
. He was on the hepatology ward.’
Betty smiled and popped another twenty-pence piece into the phone. ‘That’s totally brilliant. Thank you.’
‘You are still trying to track him down then? This mystery man?’
‘Yes,’ she said. ‘I’m really hoping he’ll be able to help me with another mystery. If he’s, you know …’
‘Still alive, yes, that is not at all certain. But listen, I am so glad you called. I had been hoping that you might because after you went the other day, I found his original rental agreement. I can tell you two more things about him. Do you have a pen?’
Betty caught her breath. Why hadn’t she called earlier? ‘Yes. Yes, I do.’
‘I can tell you that his old address was Flat 2, 23 Battersea Park Road, London, SW11 2GH. I can also tell you that his middle name was John. Peter John Lawler. Did you get that? Peter. John. Lawler. Is that useful?’
‘Yes!’ said Betty. ‘Yes. That’s brilliant. That’s absolutely fantastic! Thank you so much.’
‘And remember, Miss Dean, I am here at your disposal should you have any more questions or needs or problems. At your disposal.’
‘Thank you, Mr Mubarak. Thank you. That’s really kind of you.’
‘Not at all, my dear. Not at all.’
Number 23 Battersea Park Road was a dry cleaners called Smart’s, and the entrance to the flats above was up an alley that ran behind the parade of shops. Betty felt rather nervous as she turned off the main road and into this dead end of overflowing paladins and grimy back windows. She rang the doorbell and glanced warily around her while she waited. Eventually a voice came to the intercom. ‘Hello.’
‘Hello, I’m looking for someone who might know someone who used to live at this address? A Peter Lawler?’
The voice on the intercom went silent, but Betty could hear them breathing.
‘Hello?’
‘Yes. Hello. Sorry. Who is this?’
‘My name’s Betty. I found Peter’s name and address in my grandmother’s possessions. I think he might be able to help me find someone. I was wondering –’
‘Wait,’ said the voice, ‘wait there. I’m coming down.’
Betty turned away from the door and faced the alleyway. A black cat appeared from behind an upturned milk crate and scurried past her nervously. Then the door behind her was unlocked and she found herself face to face with a middle-aged woman with fiercely dyed black hair and a baby in her arms. ‘Hi,’ she said, ‘I’m Liz, I used to be married to Peter.’
‘Oh,’ said Betty, ‘I’m Liz too – well, sort of. I used to be. I’m Betty now. Nice to meet you.’
The woman’s face softened. ‘I think I might be able to help you,’ she said. ‘Do you want to come in?’
She followed the woman called Liz up a scruffy flight of stairs and into a claustrophobic living room overlooking Battersea Park Road. The woman put the baby down on a play mat and offered
Betty
a drink. She left the room and returned a minute later with a cardboard box in her arms.
‘That’s my grandson,’ she said, sitting down with the box on her lap and nodding at the baby. ‘Zac, the love of my life.’ She smiled fondly at the baby and the baby kicked its legs at her with excitement. ‘I have him every Tuesday and every Thursday.
Don’t I, my lovely boy
?’ The baby kicked his legs again and Liz sighed happily and then turned to the contents of the box in front of her. ‘So, I’ve been waiting for this moment,’ she said, ‘half-expecting it. This was basically all I got after Peter died …’ She stroked the cardboard box absent-mindedly.
‘Oh,’ said Betty. ‘Peter’s dead?’
‘You didn’t know?’
‘Well, I thought he might be. I got this address from his old landlord. He told me he’d been very ill.’
‘Yeah. Very ill. We were already divorced then, been divorced for ten years, but he never met anyone else and this was the last place he lived before he moved out. I was still his next of kin. It was me who they called when he passed away.’
‘What was it, in the end?’
‘Emphysema. Of course. Stupid bastard. Had so much. Chucked it all away. When I met him he was the most handsome man I’d ever seen in my life. Couldn’t believe he wanted to be with me. But then soon realised the looks were just a frame, the picture was a mess …’
‘So, what’s in the box?’
Liz snapped herself from her sad reverie and looked down. ‘Oh, yes, this is all the paperwork from his last unsolved cases, the ones we couldn’t send back, the ones without addresses.’
‘Unsolved cases?’
‘Yes. Peter was a private detective.’
‘Oh! Wow! Really!’
‘Yes, I assumed you’d have known.’
‘No. Had no idea. I found his name and address in my grandmother’s coat pocket. After she died.’
‘Your grandmother. I see. What was her name?’
‘Arlette Lafolley.’
Liz flicked through the green cardboard folders in the box. ‘Lafolley, Lafolley …’ she muttered to herself. ‘Ah, here.’ She pulled a folder free. ‘I remember this well, another one with no address.’
She passed it to Betty.
‘What was he doing for her?’ said Betty. ‘Do you know?’
‘Well, trying to find someone, I’d imagine,’ Liz replied. ‘That was what Peter did. He tracked down missing people. Usually for legacies.’
Betty squeezed the bulging file and then peered inside it. A photograph wallet from Boots, photocopied listings from Yellow Pages, a vintage photo album smelling of old paper and mildew, and a programme for a jazz concert featuring a trio called Sandy Beach and the Love Brothers. She pulled it out and read it. They were three handsome black men, with gelled-back hair and tuxedos, one holding a double bass, one brandishing a fiddle and the other with a clarinet. They had played a concert at a club called the White Oleander in Windmill Street on Thursday 8 January 1920. Betty could feel the glamour bristling from within this record of a long-dead moment. She opened the programme and read the copy.