Authors: William Bell
Other books by William Bell
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Novels
Crabbe
Absolutely Invincible
Five Days of the Ghost
Forbidden City
No Signature
Speak to the Earth
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Children’s books
The Golden Disk
River, My Friend
For Ting-xing Ye
like gold to aery thinness beat
“Y
ou can never place your foot into the same river twice,” my dad often reminded me, quoting some ancient Greek philosopher with an unpronounceable name. I wondered as I scraped the sole of my high-top on the spade’s edge if the same wisdom applied to stepping in dog droppings. Between our new house and the row of cedars that fringed the river, the dry brown grass was littered with revolting little piles of fossilized puppy poop that had magically appeared as the snow thawed.
Scooping dog doo-doo pretty much summed up the way I felt about moving to that place. The house itself was all right. Under torture I would have admitted that it was better than our cramped two-bedroom apartment in the city. I had a decent room on the second floor with a big window looking over the yard, but that wasn’t much consolation. I was used to going to school through the rumble and snarl of traffic, sidewalks teeming with people rushing past restaurants, pool halls, video arcades and head shops. I had travelled on a city bus jammed with faces of every colour and humming with languages from around the world. Now each morning I stood like a stump at the
end of our unpaved driveway waiting for the big yellow monster to swallow me up and transport me to Boredom High School. I had been dragged from a major street in the biggest city in the country to the edge of the known universe, a rural route in Garafraxa Township—the name sounded like an incurable skin disease—with a chicken farm at the dead end, on the outskirts of a no-place village called Fergus where, as near as I could tell, the locals’ idea of a good time was trying on gloves at the department store or watching the blue light revolve on the top of the snow plow.
There was nothing funny about being the only child of two stubborn parents who had decided to leave the city and do the pioneer thing among the trees. I had visions of alfalfa sprouts and seeds for lunch, Mom weaving her own cloth, Dad dressed in a tartan bush shirt and faded jeans, chopping kindling and spitting black tobacco juice.
“It’s a great opportunity for your dad,” my mother had told me a year ago, after she dropped the bomb. “He’ll be chair of the department.”
“Your mom has never liked the city,” Dad had said in a different conversation. “She can set up a recording studio in the house, like she’s always wanted. And have a garden.”
Two against one. What the kid wanted didn’t count. For months I ranted, sulked and threw things around my room. On purpose I flunked two courses.
I ran away for three days. We moved anyway. And now, here I was in the back yard, Zack Lane, Canine Feces Remover.
I
knew from the sour smell that Jenkins had sneaked up behind me just as the download was completed, and that he had seen me eject the diskette and slip it into my shirt pocket.
“Let’s have it, Zack,” he commanded, his voice betraying a hint of triumph.
I clicked the mouse and blanked the screen. “Um, what’s wrong, sir?”
“You know what.”
“It’s just my own personal disk,” I said. “It’s, you know, confidential.”
“Nice try.”
“I can explain.”
“I’m not interested. Let’s have it.”
I took the diskette out of my pocket and passed it back over my shoulder.
“Stick around at the end of the period.”
Outside the dirty window of the computer lab on the second floor of the school a fine rain fell out of a low grey sky. Our geography class had spent the last hour pulling down weather maps from some satellite or other so we could watch bright green meteorological patterns flowing amoeba-like across the blue
map on our screens. That is, most of us had. On one side of me a skinny guy who had just returned from a three-day suspension was painting hearts with initials in them on his binder with white correction fluid. On the other, a girl sporting purple hyper-extended false fingernails urgently explained to her friend why she “absolutely hated” her own hair.
I already knew it was raining so I connected to the Internet and surfed for certain information I was after. It had taken me most of the period to find some good stuff, almost oblivious to the
clickety click
of keyboards and mice and the hum of conversation.
Going “off task” hadn’t been difficult because Jenkins had spent most of the period with his sleeves rolled up, hunched over his cluttered desk marking tests and pumping out the b.o. Short, rotund and an early victim of pattern baldness, he was best known for the stale body odour that enveloped him like a damp fog.
As my classmates filed out of the room, some casting curious glances my way, Jenkins tightened the tie he had worn for five days running and slipped on an old tweed jacket.
“Meet me in Ms. O’Neil’s office after last class, Zack. And bring your computer-use contract with you.”
An hour and a half later I plowed through the noisy chaos of the halls to the principal’s office, more irritated than worried. O’Neil would probably give
me a reprimand and revoke my computer privileges. Unauthorized downloads were treated seriously by the school. I didn’t blame them. There was all sorts of disgusting crap available on the Net and the school didn’t want us finding, seeing or downloading it and corrupting ourselves. If you got caught, you’d lose your login and could only use computers for word-processing and spreadsheets and stuff—unless you had a friend who would let you use his login, which I didn’t. The truth was that the school had about as much success controlling Net access as it did preventing the drug trade.
When I got to the reception area and reported to the secretary I was ushered into O’Neil’s inner office as if I held expensive tickets to a concert. O’Neil was a middle-aged woman, tall and slender with greying hair, casually dressed in slacks and a white blouse. I hadn’t had dealings with her since she registered me on my arrival months before. At that time she had been all smiles. Now she frowned with that look of momentary concern that teachers are good at.
She sat in a leather chair behind an expansive wooden desk. Jenkins occupied a chair beside her.
“Put your contract on the desk and take a seat, Zack,” O’Neil said, then picked up the phone and punched in a number.
I tossed the paper onto her desk blotter and lowered myself into a chair. Jenkins looked out the window, then examined his knuckles. The three of us sat
like that for a while. O’Neil finished her conversation and put down the phone. A second later it buzzed. She picked it up, listened, then said, “Fine, Laura. Send him in.”
The principal rose from her chair, eyes on the door. When it opened her eyebrows rose in surprise. She shot a quick look at me, rapidly composed herself, smiled and purred, “Mr. Lane? Come in, please.”
She had, naturally, assumed my father would be black. Surprise, surprise, Ms. O., I thought.
My father walked into the room with the graceful ease of an athlete. He was wearing a cardigan over a white cotton shirt, tan cords and loafers—his usual academic garb. When the introductions were made and hands were shaken he took the remaining chair. He looked vaguely irritated, the way he did if I interrupted him when he was writing a paper or making notes in his cramped, neat handwriting, deep in concentration, surrounded by stacks of books and periodicals with slips of yellow paper sticking out from between the pages.
Bringing my father in was going a little too far, but I kept my mouth shut. It might be fun, I thought, to see how this little drama plays out.
“Mr. Lane,” O’Neil began, her composure regained, “we’ve called you in because we feel we have a rather serious problem on our hands.”
She paused to heighten the drama. Slowly, Jenkins’s odoriferous presence made itself evident. He
studied his knuckles some more. My father crossed his legs, ankle on knee, and fiddled with his shoelace.
O’Neil removed a diskette from her desk drawer and placed it on her desk as if it was Macbeth’s bloody dagger. Nodding towards the computer notebook on the corner of her desk, she said, “I’d like you to see the material that your son captured from the Internet this afternoon when he was supposed to be … what was the lesson today, Mr. Jenkins?”
“Er, weather patterns,” Jenkins replied solemnly. “Through the satellite link.”
O’Neil popped the disk into the laptop and turned it so Dad could see the screen. She scrolled slowly through the pages, giving him lots of time to get the picture.
The first page showed the front of a pamphlet.
The Jewish Conspiracy: The Truth Will Out!!!
by Ernst Krupp.
“Significant name,” my father muttered, drawing a blank look from O’Neil. I had no idea what he meant either, but I was used to him making cryptic comments when something going on around him connected with something he was thinking about.
Next on the screen came a photo of a middle-aged man with thick grey hair and a florid complexion, wearing some kind of military cap with a logo on it. He stood in the centre of a small crowd and someone was holding a megaphone to his mouth, which was wide open. It was summer, and trees almost hid the
courthouse behind him.
Mr. Krupp tells all in his trial
, the caption under the picture read. The following pages of dense print were headed
The Lie About the Holocaust That Never Happened!!
“You get the idea,” O’Neil said, removing the diskette and shutting down the laptop. She closed the lid firmly.
“Ms. O’Neil, I’m not sure I understand why you’ve called me away from my work,” my father said calmly. “You said something on the phone about Zack breaking a computer-use contract—”
O’Neil seemed put out that Dad hadn’t raged and foamed at the mouth when he’d seen the stuff I’d downloaded. “Well, yes. We ask that all students sign a contract before they’re issued a password and login. The contract requires—”
“I’m familiar with the concept. We have the same policy at the university.”
“Indeed. Then you’ll agree with our rule against accessing information of an obscene or hateful nature. Zack copied this … this
material
on the sly. It’s obviously neo-Nazi garbage. Wouldn’t you agree?”
“Certainly.”
“To be frank, Mr. Lane, we’re always worried when we see this kind of thing. Aside from Zack’s own opinions”—she spat out the word like a piece of rotten meat—“which, I suppose, he has a right to, I have the school’s reputation to consider. I don’t want the community to think that hate
literature originated in this building.”
Dad’s voice was still calm and reasonable, a sign that he was getting angry. “Has anyone asked Zack why he wanted this literature?”