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Authors: Delsheree Gladden

Tags: #Juvenile Fiction, #Action & Adventure, #Survival Stories, #Love & Romance, #Paranormal

Wicked Hunger (3 page)

“Yeah, sure. It’s fine.”

He frowns at me, not taking my lame answer at face value.

I sigh. He won’t back down. “It’s
…family stuff. I’m just worried. No big deal.”

Ketchup’s gaze goes from probing to compassionate. Talking about my family is generally off limits, and he respects that. There’s just too much I can’t explain to him. But he knows enough to understand that my family is precious to me, and that we’re all walking a fine line to stay together. I don’t know how he has stuck by me all these years not knowing our secrets, but his support means everything to me.

“If you need to talk…”

Tears singe the inside of my eyelids. “Thanks, Ketchup.”

He walks away, then, leaving me at the mercy of my hunger. It takes monumental effort to turn around and face Ivy without launching myself at her throat. I have to force myself to remember why I wanted to follow them outside to begin with.

“Hey, Laney, I have that khaki skirt you wanted to borrow in the truck. You wanna come grab it?” When she nods, I turn away and start walking before Ivy can get too close to me. I know I’m not wrong about her.

When I see the familiar silver truck, the outrageously gigantic one I’m forced to be driven around in, I pick up speed. He’s only a few steps ahead of me. My brother’s height matches the truck, and so does his build. Zander always reminds me of a tree…tall, massive, and immovable. That’s not the only tree-like thing about him. His expression is as interesting as bark. Nothing affects him, good or bad. I think a nice way of putting his emotional blandness would be even-tempered. The only time anyone ever sees any kind of emotion out of him is when he plays sports, when he channels his own hunger into pounding his opponents into the ground.

Zander sees me coming and pauses
. His eyebrow crooks up at my approach. I must look like a lunatic half running toward him, but I don’t care. I push forward and nearly burst when I make it to his side.

“In a hurry?” he asks flatly.

“There’s someone I need you to meet,” I say in a rush.

Before he can ask any questions, Laney stumbles up behind me. “Good grief, Van, I wasn’t in that big of a hurry to get the skirt. You didn’t have to run like that. My feet are killing me bad enough already.”

“Sorry, I…”

Ivy moves from behind Laney and I never get the chance to finish. My body convulses with the renewed urge to hurt. I’m shocked when I feel Zander react as well. Nobody else can ever feel the hunger rising inside of us, but we can feel it in each other almost as strong as within ourselves. It ripples over me in a massive wave that combines with my own burning desires and makes me stagger forward. I don’t even realize his hand has clamped around my arm until he jerks me back to his side. The throbbing pain in my arm barely even registers in the face
of our combined urge to rip Ivy apart. Suddenly, I realize Zander wasn’t just pulling me to his side, he’s holding me back, still.

Laney is staring at the both of us with wide eyes. “Uh
…Ivy, this is Van’s brother, Zander.”

“Hey,” Ivy says. The uncertainty is clear in her voice and expression.

The pain in my arm spikes. I look down to see Zander’s fingers turning white under the force of his grip. Suddenly, he releases me and storms away, around the truck to the driver’s side. He yanks open the door without a word to anyone and climbs in. The slam of the door makes me jump. I just stare at him for a moment. His reaction is completely unexpected, frightening even. Ivy affected him enough to break his indomitable cool, but the really scary part is that he shouldn’t have reacted to her at all. I am stunned. He felt it too. That’s not supposed to happen.

My fear of Ivy’s real intentions amps up even more. If Zander is reacting to her, there is definitely something wrong. She didn’t leave the sand and ocean behind for just plain old desert sand for the heck of it. I’m more convinced than ever that she came here for a reason. She came here for us.

Determination to stop her steels my resolve. Whatever she wants with us, she’s not getting it. I’ve lost too much already to let some pink haired freak take anything else.

Voices from behind pull me out of my plotting slowly. I can’t seem to take my eyes off Zander’s hulking form sitting in the truck, staring dead ahead at nothing, his fingers slowly strangling the steering wheel. My ears, though, manage to catch a few bits of their conversation.

“I don’t know, Ivy. He doesn’t usually act like that,” Laney says. “I mean, he’s always kinda quiet and standoffish, but that was just weird. I don’t know what was with Van, either. I’m really sorry.”

“No,” Ivy says, her voice carrying a tiny tremor, “I should have expected it.”

Expected it? What does she mean by that?

“Expected what? For them to both give you such a bizarre welcome?” Laney asks.

“No, uh, I just meant…” Ivy suddenly sounds like she’s trying to backpedal. “You told me Van was a little different. I should have expected it to take a while for her to warm up to me. That’s all I meant. Her brother’s probably the same. They just…surprised me.”

When they both quiet and fall into an awkward silence, I finally manage to get my mind and body back on the same page. I open the door of the truck and grab the skirt without looking at Zander. I make a quick exchange of the skirt with a hasty apology for Zander and use work as an excuse to ditch them both.

I turn back around to get into the truck and freeze when I catch sight of Zander’s eyes drilling into me. An involuntary flinch runs through me. I got what I wanted out of this plan, but I broke the rules to do it.

 

I watch as Van, my little sister who is always getting herself into trouble, climbs into the truck with her head hanging. She looks plenty ashamed already, but I’m not about to let this slide. “What were you thinking?” I demand through gritted teeth.

“You felt it,” she whispers.

She doesn’t say it in the form of a question, but I answer anyway. “Yeah, I felt it! Why on earth would you bring her around me if you knew I would react like that? I could have hurt her! I could have killed her, Van! I was this close,” I say, holding up my first two fingers bare millimeters apart from each other. “I was so close to grabbing her and tearing her into little pieces. You know better than to bring someone like that around me. Do you want me to end up like Oscar?”

“No!” Tears start dripping down her cheeks. “Of course I don’t want you to end up like Oscar. I’m sorry, Zander, but I had to. I had to know if you felt it, too.”

Another string of threats and fury are about to slip out of my mouth when her words sink in. “Too?” I ask slowly. “What do you mean you had to know if I felt it…too?”

Van sniffs and wipes her nose, still refusing to look at me when she talks. “When I met Ivy at lunch today I almost jumped over the table at her.”

My stomach churns at the mental image. Van has always had much bloodier tastes than I have. More dramatic, too. Her hunger craves blood and gore just as much as pain. The messier the better for her. I know all too well that the girl’s throat would have been removed with Van’s teeth, like a predatory animal. Van is predictable in that way, fast, adrenaline driven, and deadly. My hunger has a totally different taint to it. Just thinking about what I wanted to do to that girl makes the steering wheel crunch under my hands. My whole body is shaking with the desire to jump out of the truck and follow her. I can still see her walking away from me, the pink stripe in her hair bouncing lightly with each step.

I shake my head and try to clear my thoughts of the girl so I can focus on what Van is telling me. “Your hunger wanted that girl, and so did mine. It’s never worked like that before.”

Van trembles and hugs herself. “I know.”

“What made you even think to bring her to me then?” I ask, my body finally starting to relax.

“I’ve never felt such a strong desire to kill anyone before. That was the worst it’s ever been for me. She’s different. Something’s wrong with her. I thought I was losing it, but I thought that if you could feel me respond so much it would at least mean it was real. I never expected you to react to her. I’m so sorry, Zander.”

I manage to get one hand off the steering wheel and rub it against my forehead. Was seeing that girl, Ivy, a worse reaction for me than usual like it was for Van? I shiver at the mere memory of it. The hunger for her is going to stay with me for a very long time. Van is always looking for something more, something to explain what’s wrong with our family. She wants our problems to be bigger than us. She wants an explanation. I do too, but I came to face the reality that we are alone a while ago. There is no secret behind our disastrous existence. We’re freaks, mistakes, oddities. No one is going to come and explain the purpose behind our design. I understand that, but Van doesn’t. That’s why I’m not about to admit to her how much Ivy affected me.

“It’s probably just because you’re getting closer to your birthday. You know the hunger gets worse once you hit sixteen.”

“No,” Van says shaking her head, “this was different. I’ve felt it all day. She knows something, Zander. She’s been acting really strange. There’s something off about her.”

My frustration with her bursts out of me in a growl. “There’s nothing wrong with her, Van. There’s something wrong with us! Or haven’t you figured that out by now?”

I don’t wait for her to answer. I jam the gearshift into reverse and plow out of my space without checking for cars or pedestrians. The truck powers out of the parking lot and into the busy afternoon traffic like a bulldozer. Everyone gets out of my way.

The quiet roar of the truck’s engine is the only sound as we drive. Van sits quietly, tugging at a loose string on the hem of her shirt. Part of me wants to put my arm around her shoulder. I’d like to tell her that everything will be okay. I would give anything to be the comforting big brother I know she’s desperate to have. But I can’t. Not after Oscar. I learned my lesson with him. Van needs to grow up, and the sooner the better. She needs to accept that if she doesn’t figure out how to control her hunger now, it’s going to change her into something neither of us will recognize.

I pull up to the dance studio and turn off the engine. Usually, I just hold the brake and wait for her to jump out. She looks over at me with a question in her blue eyes.

“I want you to stay away from that girl,” I say.

“But she’s Laney’s cousin. I can’t avoid her without doing the same to Laney.”

“Maybe that’s just how it has to be, then. When you turn sixteen and your hunger really wakes up, it will be too intense and you’ll have to give up all of your friends anyway. You know that, even if you won’t admit it.” Giving up friends, it’s something Van should get used to, now, because it isn’t going to stop any time soon.

Van shakes her head. “No, Zander. She’s my best friend. I’m not going to bail on Laney like that, no matter how bad my hunger gets.”

“You think she’ll be happy you stayed friends with her when you kill her pretty little cousin?” I snap.

Her head drops down, but I can still see the corner of her mouth twitching. “I can control it. I won’t hurt her.”

“You can’t guarantee that.”

“I won’t live like you,” she says quietly. “I won’t live alone for the rest of my life because I’m scared of hurting people.”

I sigh and close my eyes. “It’s not about being scared, Van. It’s about being smart. Stay away from her.”

For a long moment, she doesn’t say anything. Deep down, I’m hoping with everything I have that she’ll listen to me. I can’t go through it again. Oscar nearly broke me. She can’t expect me to go through that with her. I won’t make it. Please just listen to me, I beg.

When she finally speaks, her voice startles me. “She knows something.”

It’s just a simple sentence, but it ignites my anger like a match to a fuse. “She doesn’t know anything! Nobody does. Get that through your head and quit looking for answers, Van!”

My sister’s head snaps up and my hands tighten into fists at the determination in her eyes. “She knows something, and I’m going to find out what it is.”

Then she throws open the door of the truck and runs away.

A pair of little girls, who can’t be more than four years old, bounce into the studio behind Van with their tutus and ballet slippers. The urge to run in after my sister and shake her until she changes her mind dissipates as the tiny ballerinas start pouring into the building. She’s not going to escape me, though. I still have to pick her up when she’s done working, and take her home, and drive her to school tomorrow. I’m going to crush this out of her eventually.

Since my crusade is going to have to wait until at least eight o’clock, and football practice starts in twenty minutes, I pull out of the parking lot and speed back toward the school. When I burst into the locker room, it’s almost empty. Only a few stragglers are still pulling on pads and practice jerseys.

A quick look around confirms to me that Carson Davis isn’t one of them. Carson is the only one of my teammates that stirs up my hunger this year. Last year, two of the seniors nearly made it impossible to control myself on the field. Luckily, Carson plays on the offensive line, opposite my usual starting position, and we have very little contact. Carson is the least of my problems today.

Curses run through my mind as I rant at both myself and my sister. Outwardly, I’m calm and controlled. My movements are efficient as I shrug into my gear. As quickly as possible, I am stalking out of the locker room.

As soon as my feet hit the turf, the other players come alive. I never join in their rowdy behavior and general excitement, but my team’s enthusiasm to see me makes me smile inwardly. They all know their chances of winning double as soon as I step onto the field. When I finished my freshman tryout, Coach Benson walked up to me and simply asked what position I wanted to play. It didn’t matter that the team already had a senior playing quarterback, another one at wide receiver, and juniors at most of the other key positions. I could have my pick, no questions asked.

I think my answer surprised him. Safety isn't the most glorious position in football. Coach Benson didn’t seem to appreciate my choice, and all but refused at first. He wanted me in a more active, gaming determining position. His suggestion was runningback. I wasn’t thrilled about the idea of playing runningback, and it took a deal with Coach Benson to finally make me agree. I got to play safety on defense as long as I tore up the field as a runningback on the offense. Offense doesn’t interest me that much, because I’m always running away from the other person, but as long as I get to be where I know I will get to hit a lot of people on the other side of the ball, I don’t mind as much.

Nobody gets by me, which is how I ended up the team captain as a junior instead of the senior playing quarterback. We all pile out onto the field together, the others jogging excitedly, me walking with my thoughts more focused on Van and Ivy than football. It’s almost impossible to stop thinking about my sister and the effect that strange girl had on me until the first real play kicks off. The massive bodies of the offense charging down the field reaches down inside me and grabs onto the hunger I keep so carefully hidden.

Hitting people hurts. The person getting hit feels it the most, but the person doing the damage gets a piece of it as well. It’s nothing compared to willfully and maliciously causing pain to another human being. Nothing can replace the all-consuming feeling of stripping away life, but this is a substitute that keeps me from indulging in things I shouldn’t.

Samuel keeps the ball tucked under his arm and against his chest like he’s supposed to. He’s got guts. I keep my eyes on him as his body speeds toward me, judging my position and trying in vain to get around me. The hunger I felt at the sight of Ivy rebuilds inside of me. It’s so hard not to let it fill me, to carry me over the limit of my endurance. My vision tints red as I burst forward. Samuel’s eyes widen as his body turns slightly to prepare for the impact he knows is coming. The strength in my arms wraps around Samuel to the point that I can feel all the breath rush out of him. Whatever air was left comes bursting out as I fling him to the ground with me.

We roll a couple times across the grass before coming to a stop. There’s still so much hunger left that my fingers dig into the grass in an effort to keep them from acting. It takes me a moment to realize Samuel hasn’t gotten up yet, either. The familiar feel of panic pulls me up from the ground. I crawl over to my teammate in a rush. I let myself drink too deeply. My hunger will take me on a ride I can’t control if I’m not careful. I touch his shoulder gently, praying to a god I have no belief in, desperately asking for him to be alright.

I sigh in relief when Samuel coughs and struggles up to a sitting position. “Crap, Zander,” he says, “that was worse than usual. What’d you eat today?”

It’s not what I ate, but more of what I didn’t get to consume. I shake that thought away fiercely. “Sorry, man.”

“No, problem, just promise me you’ll do that to Los Lunas next week.” He winces as he pulls himself back up to his feet.

“You okay?”

He claps me on the back and nods. “Overheard Coach Benson telling Coach Falk to work you hard the next couple weeks. Couple scouts are coming to the season opener next Friday, I guess.”

“I’m just a junior, Samuel. I’ve still got another year here.”

“You should be a senior. If it weren’t for all the stuff last couple years that put you behind, you’d be out of here at the end of the year.”

“Well, things are what they are. They’re probably interested in Thompson or Sanchez.”

“Right,” Samuel scoffs. “How many scholarship offers do you have already? Five? Six?”

There’s no jealousy in his voice. Samuel is a tough kid and he loves the game, but he has no delusions of making a career out of it. He just hopes that when I go pro I’ll get him season tickets. He’s the closest thing I have to a friend.

“Twelve,” I say in answer to his question, “but some of those are for basketball.”

He just shakes his head. “The scouts aren’t coming for Thompson or Sanchez.”

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