Unveiled (19 page)

Her father's hand came to a standstill. But if he had ever had the capacity to hear the dangerous note that touched Margaret's voice, he'd lost it with age and
illness. Or maybe he'd always had that irritable lift to his chin, and she'd not noticed.

“I said you were worthless, girl.”

He was ill. He was old. She turned away from him, her hands shaking on the laudanum bottle with the sheer effort of restraint. She was not going to abandon him. Damn him, she would not do to him what he'd done to her. If she did, she'd be almost as worthless as he called her. She set the cloth down on the table.

“Can't even hold your own against an old man, confined to bed.” His voice came from behind her, taunting. “What must I do to get a response from you? Or are you so tainted with your mother's weak blood that you can do nothing about an insult except lie down and die in response?”

At those words, her control broke. A fist seemed to clench around her heart, so tight it felt like to burst with rage.

Margaret whirled around. She was across the room in half a pace. “Don't you dare.” Her voice was a low tremble; her chest was about to explode. “Don't you
dare
talk about my mother in that manner. You killed her, you and your foolish unconcern. Don't you dare tell me it's an insult that I have her blood in my veins. I'll not have it.” She clenched her trembling hands on the edge of his coverlet, twisting it, while some violent part of her wished she could shake him instead.

“Ha.” He smiled at her—not a friendly expression, but an almost ferocious grin. But his smile lasted too long—stretching from fierce triumphant growl into something harder, more painful. His lips drew back in a thin, painful rictus. And then, he let himself fall to the bed, simply crumpling into a heap before her eyes. “Fetch horde benedictive,” he snapped.

“Pardon?” In her rage, she must have misheard him.

He was looking up at her, his eyes as fierce as ever, piercing into her. “Cord defiant misled to pivot the gunnery. Fidelity lost fortune under witness putter delight wiggle detritus with the obsequious toll for who bunting pole over the witches to view like sea.”

“What does that mean? Is this some new and unfortunate way to mock me?” How many had there been over the last weeks? How much resistance and malingering had she suffered? “It won't work.”

He continued to gaze at her, trembling. He almost looked helpless. “Homonym! Homonym!”

Helpless? He was terror-stricken. And with the chill of that knowledge penetrating Margaret's fury, she could see now what she'd missed earlier. He hadn't let himself fall; he'd fallen, his muscles useless. His limbs trembled now, little vibrations passing through his hands. He wasn't speaking nonsense to mock her. This was not mere recalcitrance on his part. Something was wrong. Something was dreadfully wrong. He kept talking, a string of gibberish issuing from his mouth, nonsense words strung together as if by a madman.

It had been only a few seconds since he had begun to babble, but she felt as if she had been staring at him for an eternity. She broke her gaze away and ran for the door. When she wrenched it open, the footmen bracketing each side turned to her. They must have seen the dismay that lit her eyes, because their shoulders tensed.

“Josephs. Fetch a physician. Fetch a physician
instantly.
”

The man on the left started down the hall without waiting for further instruction. Thirty minutes to go
to the village on horseback. Thirty to return. And in the interim, she was going to have to keep him alive. How was she to do that, when she didn't even know what was transpiring? Worse yet: was this her fault? She'd finally lost her temper and turned on him.

A clap of thunder sounded overhead, breaking through the oppressive heat, and Margaret shivered.

Behind her, her father's voice continued. “Liquor to the fires offput less…”

“Tollin,” she commanded, “come with me.” The other footman followed.

Her father was shouting now, words thrown into a maelstrom of syllables, devoid of sense. He lay in bed, looking upwards, and Margaret felt cold steal over her hands.

“Should we dose him with laudanum?” the footman asked.

“I don't know.” It would keep him quiet, but laudanum was tricky—too much at the wrong time, and he might lose hold of his grasp on life instead.

And what if this was the beginning of the end? What if, after all this time, the words he spouted were an apology, and she just couldn't understand it? Could she simply cut them off? What if he still loved her and would not be able to say it at the end because she'd drugged him?

“I don't know anything. He's not thrashing about. If he had gone mad, wouldn't he be thrashing?”

Tollin looked at her, frozen in horror. And that much recalled her to her position. It didn't matter that she wasn't really a nurse. It certainly didn't matter that she wasn't Lady Anna Margaret any longer. She had to
act
like her today. An untrained, inefficient girl would be
of no use here, and so she couldn't be an untrained girl. There was no room for her anxiety.

She took a deep breath.

Miss Lowell, you magnificent creature, I want you to paint your own canvas. I want you to unveil yourself before the world.

Margaret straightened her spine and walked briskly forwards.

She took his wrist and felt for his pulse. His hand trembled in hers, but she found the beat, steady despite the tumultuous flow of his words. “No,” she pronounced, with more sureness than she felt. “He's not mad.” She laid her hand against his forehead. “The only thing he's doing is talking, and there's no harm in that.”

“But—”

Margaret looked behind her to discover that Tollin was no longer alone. Several other servants had joined him—two of the upstairs maids, their hands clasped together, and behind them, Mrs. Benedict. Word would spread. This was how panic started. The last thing she needed was a household in chaos. She had to hold them together, to make sure that her father lived until the physician could come and see what was wrong. The physician would fix everything.

Until then, she needed to keep the servants orderly. They all needed something to do.

Margaret pulled her hand from her father's forehead. “He's overly warm. Tollin, I am going to need you to fetch some ice water. And extra ice from the icehouse, while you are down there.”

A few seconds of faint patter at the windows, and then came the sound of rain, pelting from the sky. Margaret shut her eyes and thought of Josephs, who was
no doubt riding for the physician on horseback through the breaking storm. She felt that thread of fear pulling at her, and tamped it down. He would arrive safely. He had to.

Tollin nodded, his muscles relaxing slightly. He seemed grateful to be given something to do. She would have to assign them all tasks until the physician arrived. Yet another wave of people crowded through the door. If Margaret didn't act, her father would be smothered by well-meaning servants.

“Mrs. Benedict,” Margaret said, “we'll need a posset. Something sustaining—the duke will need to keep up his strength. I'm sure that Mrs. Lorens can arrange something suitable. Please send someone to the kitchens.” Mrs. Benedict met her eyes and then nodded.

Margaret leaned over her father. He was still speaking, but he was no longer shouting. Now his words came out on a whisper, a wistful stream of babble flowing over her with as much meaning as the passing water of a brook.

“I believe,” she announced with as much conviction as she could muster, “that his chest has taken an ill humor, which has caused his lungs to react in this unfavorable manner.”

Nobody contradicted this blatant idiocy; instead, heads nodded, pleased to be able to put words to his condition. Even
she
felt better, and she knew that she'd just invented the mysterious problem herself. Not madness, nor failure; just a lung condition, like a cough or a cold.

“We're going to need to prepare something to draw the inflammation from his chest.” Something harmless. Something with a great many ingredients, which
would keep everyone occupied until the physician arrived. “I'm going to need a brazier for the fire and some heated water. Willow water,” she said, because that would take longer to fetch. “Then cloves. A handful of crushed calendula flowers…”

She rattled off every innocuous ingredient that came to mind. So long as they kept him cool and comfortable, it was unlikely to hurt.

Outside, thunder rumbled again, and rain continued to splash down.

As an afterthought, Margaret tasked two of the maids with standing outside the room and barring entry to anyone else.

As the servants streamed out to fetch their respective items, one more person ducked his head in. It was Ash.

He frowned at Margaret and leaned against the door frame. “Miss Lowell. What's happened?”

For the first time, a thread of fear crept through her. She'd stayed behind in part to watch over her father. The notion that Ash might do the duke harm seemed ludicrous now that she knew him. And so she didn't fear Ash himself. But she did fear
for
him. She pointed her finger at him. “Don't come any farther into the room than that chair, Mr. Turner. I mean it. Stop moving.”

“Good God, Margaret.”

“The duke is in serious condition. If anything happens while you're present, they will say you killed him. If he dies before Parliament votes on the Dalrymples' Act of Legitimation, you'll inherit everything. You have a reason to harm him. I'll not let anyone say you took the opportunity.”

Ash's jaw set. “You don't think I would actually do him harm.”

Margaret put her hands on her hips. “No. Of course not. But if you imagine I'll let anyone say you did, you've gone mad. And so not another step. If you don't come into the room, I can attest that you didn't come within ten yards.”

“What difference could your testimony make? You and I—” he glanced urgently at the other servants in the room “—we're friends.” His voice was low. “The Dalrymples will never believe you, not when they learn the truth of our relationship.”

“They'll believe me.” Her jaw set. “Trust me. They'll believe. Stay there, Ash.” Her father stopped babbling, his voice trailing off into nothing. The duke didn't move—which frightened her even more than his nonsense words had done. She reached for his wrist again, and was gratified when she still found a steady pulse. The fingers of his hand contracted.

And then: “Anna?” he said. His voice was quiet. “Anna, where are you?”

“I'm here.” Margaret took his hand and held it. There was nothing else for her to do, nothing but to offer this scant comfort.

From his vantage point against the wall, Ash spoke. “Why is he calling you Anna?”

Tell him. Tell him now.
But this wasn't the time for it, not now, not when all of her strength needed to be concentrated on her father.

“He thinks I'm his daughter.” Margaret held her father's hand in hers. “Or, perhaps his wife.”

“Anna,” her father said. “Don't leave me.”

Perhaps this was what she'd waited for, all these weeks. Margaret bowed her head and sank into the chair beside the bed. Somewhere, somewhere inside this demanding stranger who had taken her father's
place, there was someone who still remembered her. Someone who still took comfort from her presence. The man he'd once been hadn't disappeared entirely.

She held on to his hand, afraid to squeeze for fear that her father would disappear before she had a chance to greet him again. She wasn't sure how long she sat there, with the rain beating against the window pane. Long enough that the servants came and went; long enough that his forehead grew hotter, that she soaked a towel in ice water, over and over, in an attempt to cool him. Long enough that the useless herbs she'd ordered steeped in the brazier and released their wild scent into the air.

Through it all, Ash stayed in the room, leaning against the entryway, watching her. He'd made no effort to come any closer. But then, he hadn't gone away, either. No doubt he had things to do—far more important things than watching her pray for his bitterest enemy.

From behind him, Josephs pushed past him in the doorway, dripping water. He'd obviously just returned from his errand.

“Thank God, Josephs. Where is the physician?”

She saw the despair in the man's eyes before he shook his head briefly. “He's off in Witcombe, my lady, twelve miles distant. Attending a birth, his housekeeper says. No doubt with the storm, he'll spend the night. No point risking his horse returning in this weather.”

Behind Josephs, Ash pushed off from the wall. “Lower Odcombe has a physician.”

“Yes, sir, but Lower Odcombe is seven miles away. And with the rain and it being night and all…” Joseph trailed off, eyeing Ash uncertainly.

But Ash wasn't even looking at the man. He was watching Margaret.

“You care.” His words had the ring of steel. “For whatever reason.”

She had to tell him. “Ash, I—”

He cut her off with a jerk of his head. “Then I'm going.” He sketched her a little bow, and before she could do more than gaze after him in confused wonder, he slipped out the door.

The duke stayed silent as the candles flickered in darkness. His spirit seemed to withdraw into his body, and the silence grew. He seemed almost corpse-like beside her. He was pale and thin, lying in the bedclothes.

She'd wondered what she thought of her father before. Now she knew. She hated what he'd done, wished he'd not retreated into arrogant incivility in his illness. She didn't understand who he'd become these past months. But as confusing and heartrending as the present was, she loved the man he'd once been. And she didn't want to believe he wasn't coming back.