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Unspoken

 
 
 
 
Unspoken
 
 
SAM HAYES
 
 
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Copyright © 2008 Sam Hayes
 
 
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First published as an Ebook by Headline Publishing Group in 2010
 
 
All characters in this publication are fictitious and any resemblance
to real persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental.
 
 
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eISBN : 978 0 7553 7661 2
 
 
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Sam Hayes grew up in the Midlands, and has lived in Australia and America. She now lives in Warwickshire with her husband and three children. Her first novel, BLOOD TIES, was highly acclaimed and is also available from Headline. For more information about Sam Hayes, visit her website
www.samhayes.co.uk
For Joe, my brother, with love.
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
Huge thanks and respect must go to my agent and my editor, Anna and Sherise – two talented, insightful and hardworking women. Heartfelt thanks also to the wonderful Becky at Headline for getting me ‘out there’. And, of course, I am eternally grateful to the entire team at Headline. Thanks, guys!
As ever, my love to Terry, Ben, Polly and Lucy. Couldn’t do it without you! A special thank-you to Audrey for Wednesday tea; Gwen Richard at SARDA Wales for invaluable search and rescue advice; Vicki for insightful chats about the human mind; the White Watch crew – you know why; and Sandra – your magic goes on.
PROLOGUE
As a child, there are things you learn not to talk about; that the very utterance of certain words sends some people into a flat spin.
I was four when I first spoke of my father, having just started nursery. ‘Where’s
my
daddy?’ I asked my mother. It appeared that all the other little girls had a father, and until I discovered this fact, the absence of my own had meant nothing to me. It was simply never spoken of. As if he never existed.
That first day at nursery, we’d been asked to paint a picture of our family. I’d done one entirely of him; just my daddy standing tall and proud and gazing at me with handsome blue eyes, exactly the same shade as mine. He was smiling, his arms outstretched, as if he was beckoning to me to run into them, knock him back a few paces as I hurled myself against his body.
‘Look, it’s my daddy,’ I told my mother, waving the paint-wetted paper at her. We were walking home. She suddenly let go of my hand. I squinted up at her, the brightness behind her protecting me from focusing on her fierce scowl.
All my life, she only ever said one thing to me about my father and it was then, the sun flashing on our backs that September day, completely alone down the lane that led to the farm. ‘You do not have a father, Julia. Never, ever speak of him again.’ And she pressed her forefinger to her lips and whispered a firm
shhh
, silencing me eternally.
Now, grown up and with children of my own, I am left wondering, from that brisk walk home with my mother all those years ago, how you can speak of something you’ve never had. How do you know which words to use when they simply aren’t there?
It’s the very nature of language, the shape of the syllables, how they slide off the tongue and linger in the air, that makes each of us unique.
But it’s when those words take on a life of their own that the real story begins to unfold. When the unspoken past collides with the present.
JULIA
I discovered her completely by accident. She was lying in the field, twisted on her side in the brittle iced grass. Her lips were violet and her eyes wide open, drilling holes in the winter sky.
She lay perfectly still, her pale skin sparkling from frost and her red nails spread like a broken string of beads.
‘Grace!’ I fell to my knees, fumbling in my pocket for my mobile phone. I tore my jacket off my back and made her into a parcel. Her bare legs protruded, askew of their natural position. ‘Grace, what happened to you?’ I still wasn’t sure that she was alive.
She turned her head and a tendon in her neck snapped against my wrist. Her mouth opened, revealing a salty crust on her lips.
‘What
happened
, Grace?’
Last time I saw her she had dropped her English essay on my desk and left the classroom in a flurry of teenage urgency. It was the end of term and everyone was full of Christmas excitement.With everything going on in my life – with Mum, with Murray – I’d not even marked her work yet.
‘Doc . . . tor,’ she rasped without breath to force out the word.
‘I’ve called for an ambulance, Grace. Sit tight.’ I pulled her broken body closer and encased her in my arms, my legs, my hair. Milo bounded across the field and instinctively slumped on her legs, panting, his breath falling in bursts of steam on her knees. Warming the life back into Grace.
It was twenty minutes before the paramedics crowned the rise that splayed from the end of the footpath. Everyone walked their dog down Lightning Lane but not all got as far as the unnatural quarry bowl of amphitheatre-like proportions beyond. As a kid, I used to run down, my knees buckling, my hair a mess, our dog barking at my madness as we descended into the man-made hole. Murray always pretended to race me and always let me win.
‘Can you hear me, sweetheart?’
Grace was levered from me by a paramedic. There were three of them, two men and a woman, while a couple of police officers left staccato prints on the white-green grass.
‘I just found her like this,’ I said, fumbling for an explanation. Nothing seemed real. ‘I was walking my mother’s dog.’ I wasn’t shivering, even though Grace was shrouded in my coat; even though the breath fell from my mouth in icy clouds. I was already used to being numb. ‘I thought she was plastic.’ A mannequin, dumped. A useless shop dummy, fly-tipped.
‘What’s your name, love?’ the female paramedic asked.
‘Grace. Grace Covatta. Her father’s Italian,’ I said when Grace didn’t reply.
‘Grace, can you hear me, sweetheart?’ While the woman coaxed her to talk, the other paramedic wrapped her in foil blankets and opened a small case containing portable monitors. She was hooked up to a mini oxygen canister and a machine beeped, registering her barely alive. ‘Has she told you what happened?’
I shook my head. ‘I was walking my mother’s dog. He started to chase a rabbit and I turned to call him off and that’s when . . .’ That’s when my eyes had blurred, squinting through the morning mist, disbelieving. ‘That’s when I saw Grace. Will you take a look at her feet? They’re hurt.’
‘She’ll be looked after in hospital. She’s not bleeding now.’ The paramedic turned to Grace and spoke to her as if she were deaf. I should know. People do it to Flora all the time, as if she’s stupid. ‘We’re going to put you on a stretcher, Grace. We’re taking you to hospital.’ His mouth was big and wide, a goldfish trying to communicate.
Grace said nothing. She stared. Her tongue, swollen and dry, tried to lick her lips as if she was about to speak. She didn’t. ‘Oh God,’ I cried and turned away, yanking on Milo’s collar. It was something familiar, purposeful, reminding me of the reason I was out in the fields early on a freezing December morning.
The crew moved fast while the police cordoned off the area and called for backup. Grace was loaded on to a fold-up stretcher and I followed beside as they carried her down the footpath. She said nothing, just jolted in time with the steps of the paramedics, her tongue caught between the roof of her mouth and her dry lips.
‘Grace, your English essay was fabulous. I gave you an A.’ I touched her foil shoulder, hoping I might register a link of normality. I’d got the class to write a two-thousand-word essay on their interpretation of evil. It was a broad-spectrum assignment, a shot at inspiring my lazier students. I hadn’t marked them yet but I already wanted Grace to have an A.
‘Do you have any idea what might have happened to her?’ I asked as we headed back to the village. ‘Is there any evidence of . . . ?’ I couldn’t say it. I panted, half running to keep up, pulling hard on Milo’s lead so that every breath rasped in his throat. I wanted him close.
‘The doctors will examine her. Are you a relation?’
‘I’m her English teacher.’
Lightning Lane eventually dissolved into the road at the edge of the village in an estuary of mud and frozen leaves. It’s always been called that, since way back when I was a child and beyond. Mum said it was because for three winters on the trot an oak, a beech and a chestnut were taken down by storms.
Mum said
.
Mum also once said that bad things come in threes. Neat triangles of trouble. In all that mess, I was reminded of her, of Murray, of me. Our own triangle of pain.
An ambulance and a police car barricaded the lane, their blue lights ticking through the murk. The sight had drawn a crowd of curious onlookers and I knew that the ripple of news would already be reaching neighbouring villages, towns, journalists, front pages. Within hours the local presses would be rolling, Grace’s name at the top.
We marched up to the vehicles like a team of Arctic explorers and just the very faces that I would have expected to be there came hustling forward for news. They reminded me why we had moved from the small village with its tittle-tattle and messaging system faster than email. Had Grace not been on the stretcher, I would have walked on, thankful not to be a part of it any more. Eight miles wasn’t much, but living in Ely provided enough anonymity.
I ushered the onlookers back – I was a storm wall against the tide, protecting Grace from their invasion – but because of this, I didn’t see the medics get her into the ambulance. I didn’t wish her well or bon voyage or let her know I hoped to see her at school soon. Just what
are
you supposed to say when someone’s like Grace?
Within seconds, the vehicle was pulling off down the lane with a single blast of its siren to clear the gathering. Extra police had arrived. As I slumped on to the frozen grass, they asked me to make a statement. I told them what had happened and they wrote it all down, including the single word Grace had spoken.
That was Friday and I’m still here, staying at Mum’s farm, coping on her behalf. It’s what you do, isn’t it? Walk the Labrador, discover the victim of a brutal attack, come home and read the paper. A nightmare threaded through normality.
‘Mum,’ I say gently. I clasp her hand in mine; bring it to my lips. ‘Grace is still in hospital.’ Four days she’s been there. She can’t walk or talk. She has head injuries and the tendons in her feet were damaged. They don’t know how long it will be before she recovers. No one likes to hazard a guess about Grace.

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