McRae? His chest still heaved.
Thats me. Sorry, the lifts out.
He ignored my humour. You a so-called private dick, then? He made it sound sinful.
I still didnt know he was police, but he had that look. In his first five seconds hed itemised my office, memorised my face, and noticed the door to my bedroom.
At your service. Can I help? Need a debt collected? Lost a wife?
I watched his mouth twist. Im Inspector Wilson. Detective Inspector, CID.
Youre on my patch. Wanted to see you, what you were up to. I dont like what you do.
What the hell was a DI doing making house calls?
Im honoured, Inspector, and its really nice to be made welcome. But Im a bit puzzled; we havent met, and yet already youre pissed off with me. Isnt that a wee bit unfair? And before we continue this nice chat, can I see your warrant card, please? Cant be too careful these days.
I could see his jaw muscles tighten. We were getting on famously. He hated me and I loathed him. Id seen too many of his kind; theyd been in the force too long, got too used to throwing their weight around. Wilson let his fell gaze roast me for the obligatory five seconds, then he reached into his great overcoat and pulled out a card. He strode over to my desk and rammed it under my nose. DI Herbert Wilson. I wondered if hed let me call him Bertie?
Satisfied?
Thank you, Inspector. Now, shall we start again? What can I do for you?
You can tell me who you are, where you come from, and what youre doing here.
I thought wed established who I was and what Im doing? And my accents a bit of a clue, is it no? I needed a job after getting demobbed. This palace is it.
You could have got your old job back. What was it? He settled his great bulk into my chair. He seemed to take up the whole view from my desk. I sighed. He wasnt going to let this go until he found out.
I was in the force. In Glasgow. Thought Id try the private sector. More money. Potentially, I thought, potentially. I thought it smart not to tell him Id been a detective sergeant.
He didnt look surprised, which was surprising. He chewed on the end of his moustache for a bit, then wiped it dry with a big paw.
Ok, McRae. Heres my warning. I dont like private investigators. Especially dont like former coppers doing private investigations. Only one who investigates around these parts is me. I cant stop you. Not until you do something illegal or get in my way. He leaned over my desk, and his bloodshot eyes held mine. Just dont get in my fucking way. His breath would have stripped paint.
I didnt blink. Id been through worse sessions with real bullies. Much worse.
They hadnt made threats, just carried them out.
Im sure theres room for both of us on these gold-paved streets, Inspector.
And Im prepared to give you a big discount if you ever need help looking for Mrs Wilson.
I thought my poor visitors chair would explode under the pressure. Wilson wrenched himself clear and lowered over the desk at me, leaning on his knuckles.
He singed my eyebrows with his blast.
I also dont like a smart arse, McRae! Youre on my list, boy. Im looking out for you. You hear me? One foot wrong and youre visiting my nice nick. The lads will enjoy you. They dont like smart arses either.
I decided Id done enough goading and kept my mouth shut about five minutes too late until hed stomped off down the stairs. A little later the cats head appeared round the corner. She meowed angrily. She hadnt been impressed by Wilson either.
Just one more question, Mary. Did you know the name of the last girl who was killed? Know where she worked?
Name was Jasmine. Round corner. Marsh Street. 43. Only single girls work there.
They all gone now. Her brows knitted as though she worried what became of that flock of flushed birds.
Thanks, Mary. And thanks for the tea. I stood to go.
You sure, Danny? Wake Colette? She like you.
Ah, Colette; real name Betty; aspiring actress and Windmill girl, but her curvy legs were too short. It was tempting, so tempting to take some comfort from skin on skin, but I declined. Not while I was working. Even in my dirty line of business I try to have some professional standards. Mary closed the door on me with a last admonishment. You come round soon, you hear. And keep your head away from Jonny Crane and big fat bastard!
I should have listened harder to Mama Mary.
FIVE
Marsh Street paraded its usual collection of street artists. A man in a doorway sleeping it off, his empty bottle by his side. A publican with his braces round his knees and a fag stuck to his lip opening up to let out the fetid air. A pair of spivs with darting eyes, oiling each others business with cash and information. And a couple of big women tottering along in party frocks and last nights make-up, clinging to each other for dear life. If one fell, theyd both go, and would probably die there on their backs, limbs flailing uselessly like upturned turtles.
I looked for number 43. It was three stories high and had a block of six bells each with a name on it, except for the top one. There was just a blank where I guess Jasmines nom-de-guerre had been. I walked in and began to climb the stairs. I had no idea what I would do at the top. I had no idea what I was doing here in the first place. The stairs had a rough carpet for the first three flights and then bare boards the rest of the way. They creaked and groaned as I made my way.
It had been four days since theyd found her. Jasmine. Probably christened Jean.
Wee Jeanie. Jeanie with the light brown hair. Somebodys daughter. The door was closed. I knocked and got no answer. I turned the handle and it opened. I stepped inside. There was a short hall. A bathroom to the left and ahead a bedsit area. Theyd cleared everything, bedding, carpet I could see the tidemark of dirt where it had lain and all the drawers were hanging open, empty. A mattress stood against the wall. There were two huge brown stains on it, one where a head might lie and the other in the middle.
Id seen a few murders in Glasgow. Though each was different in detail and context, Id begun to find a dreadful familiarity. Same here. On the surface this was just a sad, empty room with dirty windows and red net curtains.
Jasmine/Jean had left no mark on the world except the headlines in the papers for a few days. But as I stood there, absorbing impressions, picturing where he stood and where she lay, my imagination detected a spoor, an afterimage hanging in the air. An aura of violence and death.
They share a cigarette while she tells him how much it costs. He puts the money on the dresser. He takes off his coat and then his jacket. Its going to be warm work; warmer than she knows. She stubs her fag.
She sheds her floral dressing gown and her pants and bra. She lays herself back on the bed and offers herself. He unzips and tells her to turn over on to her stomach. She smiles and tells him hes naughty. Maybe he smacks her bum a little, to see the flesh colour and tremble under his stinging hand. She is being paid to be used so there are no screams at first, just the thought that the client is being a bit rough, something hed have to pay more for.
Theres a pause and she hears him move to his coat. She turns her head and sees the knife and knows this is way beyond naughtiness. He shoves her face into the mattress to stifle her screams. He squats on her back, feeling for the spot on her neck where the skull starts, and drives the weapon up and into her brain. He mounts her as her body spasms. He
And just what the hell are you doing here, McRae?
I whirled round, feeling my guts flip. His bulk filled the door. I hadnt heard his big feet.
Im waiting.
Wilson was indeed waiting. I was in the flat of a murdered prostitute on New Year s Day, and here was an inspector of police asking me what I was doing here. It was a fair question. I didnt have a fair answer. So I tried the truth.
I was just curious, Inspector. I was out for a walk and found myself wondering what happened here. The old law enforcer in me, eh? I tried to smile in camaraderie. Hed understand, policeman to policeman.
I warned you. I fucking warned you not to get in my way. And here you are. In
my fucking way! His moustache quivered with the violence of his last words.
Ill get out of your way. Right now, if youll excuse me? I made to go round his bulk but he blocked out the entire doorway and much of the room. I could smell tobacco and stale drink on him, and old cloth. I didnt expect the punch.
It caught me full in the mouth and I went backwards on to the floor. My hat rolled away from me and I tasted iron. I wondered if hed ever had an exchange posting with Glasgow; this was their style. I clambered to my feet, my fists clenched ready to have a go at the evil bastard. He was smiling.
Come on, Jock. Take a swing. And itll be the last thing you do before you hit the floor of my nick. Assaulting a police officer. Disturbing the scene of a murder. Obstructing justice. And anything else I can think of. Come on. Here it is. He stuck his fat jaw out and pointed at it.
I stood wiping the blood from my mouth, swaying with anger. He knew he had me. I picked up my hat and straightened my clothes.
My mistake, Inspector. I could already feel my lip thickening.
His smile dropped. Your second. The first was setting up on my patch. Now beat it, Jock. Before I really lose my temper. Its just as well Im still full of new year spirit, or I might have taken you in as a suspect.
I looked at him blankly. He continued. I still dont have a proper answer to what youre doing here. That makes me wonder. And when I wonder, I start delving. Do you want me to do some delving on you, sonny Jim?
It sounded rhetorical; my wants were irrelevant to Wilson. Can I go now, Inspector?
He stood aside slowly and I sidled past him, feeling his malodorous breath on me and waiting for a second blow. It didnt come, and I escaped down the stairs and into the outside air, angry at Wilson and angrier at myself. What a shitty start to the new year. You lose the girl and get beat up by the police. What next?
Next, my head began to hurt, displaying all the early signs of one of my episodes. Wilsons punch had set something off. It was getting dark by the time I got home, and my neck was rigid with the pain that flowed from behind my eyes, back along my skull and into the top of my spine. Ive seen iron hoops with screws in them that the Inquisition used to encourage heretics. I wore mine inside my head and wondered what Id done wrong and who was tightening the screw.
Light from my office pooled down the stairs as I slowly climbed, gripping the banister like a blind man. A visitor, or maybe my eyes; theyre usually the second sign. Everything goes bright and then pitch dark. I slowed and tried to walk quietly on my toes. Friend or foe, or maybe old Mrs White from downstairs.
She does my laundry but wouldnt leave the light on. She hates extravagance.
I stood swaying at the doorway and saw there was no one in my office, but the door to my bedroom was open. There was no light on, but a fire threw guttering shadows against the wall. I slid softly over to the door and pushed it wide.
She was sitting on my bed. There were few alternatives; it was that or the sagging old armchair that the landlord should have burned to curb the fleas.
Shed made the fire. The room was warm and welcoming.
Hello. Youre back, then? I said stating the glaringly obvious, and feeling stupidly pleased to see her.
Val smiled. Am I welcome?
Seems youve made yourself welcome. I nodded at the fire. A couple of briquettes were half-eaten.
Do you mind? She frowned.
I shook my head, then clutched it as the pain ripped through the base of my skull. I took a deep breath. Depends how long you stay and why youre here.
I wasnt going to give in so easily to a womans warmth. There were things I hadnt noticed last night: her hair wasnt just black, it had chestnut depths; her eyelashes were the longest Id seen; and though she was as skinny as a ferret, she had nice legs. I didnt want her to vanish again.
Im here, now. Isnt that enough? She should have known it was enough. Women usually have a true sense of their worth to men. Whats wrong? she asked.
Head. Got a bit of a headache. I could hear the words slurring.
Any aspirin?
They dont work. Not on these.
I struggled off my coat and tried to hang it up behind the door. It fell in a heap, like I would any second. My words sounded a long way off. Want some tea?
Dont have much food. Couple of sausages, maybe. Wasnt expecting company.
Teas smashing. I dont want to eat all your rations.
I fumbled in the little shelf above my two ring stove and found the little package. Three. One and a half links each. Lets shove them on. Theres some bread. Brown sauce too.
I smiled as encouragingly as my head would let me and she got up. I took my jacket and tie off and wrestled with the collar stud until I wrenched it off and dropped it on the chest of drawers. We found the dripping and dropped the bangers in the pan. The rich smell of hot fat quickly filled the little room.
There are few finer sounds than sausages sizzling. I lit two fags and gave her one.
Ta. What happened? She pointed at my lip.
Ran into a fat policeman.
I brewed the tea and filled two mugs. Milk? Sugar? I asked. She gave Churchills salute.
We sat there on the bed, supping like a couple of old marrieds, not speaking, just enjoying the sight of each other and the sounds from the frying pan.
Despite my head, and for the first time in a long time, I felt a bit of hope gather. I even felt the black weight lift a little from behind my eyes and wondered if she was some magic talisman against the pain that would normally have begun to incapacitate me.
The bread was a bit stale so we put four slices under the grill. Made two rounds each out of the toast and sausages. Made a bit of a mess with the marge, and the sauce ran down our fingers. Didnt mind licking it off. Not something I could have done with Kate Graveney. Those white gloves. Not sure Id want to. The pain was steady now, but bearable. The food helped. Sometimes it does, sometimes it just makes me throw up.