Authors: James W. Hall
For My Parents
J. Noble Hall, Jr.
Anne Welbom Hall
Here are your waters and your watering place.
Drink and be whole again beyond confusion.
—R
OBERT
F
ROST
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Directive
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On Friday night, January the third, Thorn put on a clean T-shirt and cutoffs and drove his ’69 VW convertible to Coconuts, a new waterfront bar behind the Holiday Inn. He ordered a beer, and the bartender brought him a Tecate, a slice of lime on the top of it. He sipped it, watching the pretty tanned women swirl around the dance floor and the bar.
Thorn had gone to Coconuts because his loneliness had begun echoing too loudly, and he thought he wanted to fill himself up with rock music and empty chatter. It was the first weekend of the new year. He thought maybe he was ready to come home with a warm body.
He’d been there only a few minutes when a dark woman with her hair clenched back in a ponytail took the stool beside him. She swiveled around to face him and began tapping her Corvette key chain on the bar.
“I’m a dentist,” she said. “Does that bother you?”
“Not yet,” he said.
She smiled at him and he smiled back. She tapped the key chain against the bar, keeping the beat to a loud song he didn’t recognize.
She laughed and set down her frothy red drink.
“You know it’s funny,” she said. “A guy like you, all raggedy, sunburned, and unshaven, if I saw you up in Miami, I’d probably say to myself, Look at that syphilitic loser. But down here in the Keys, damn if you’re not romantic. You’re a water bum, living on your sailboat, and I’ll probably wind up in the sack with you tonight, getting my eyeballs fucked out.”
Thorn rose, picked up his Tecate, and moved down three stools.
A green-eyed blonde in a black Danskin top and a denim skirt was sitting next to him. She sighed, shook her head, and turned on him. She told him she’d used her Christmas break to drive all the way from Minnesota to Key Largo to scuba dive on the reefs and she was shocked by the decay of the coral and the degrading of the water. The damn locals were doing a lousy job of protecting the ecology. This place was a national treasure, and they were letting it get ruined. Thorn nodded, set aside the lime wedge from his new beer, and tried to interest himself in her eyes. A warm light seemed to be filling them.
She looked back at him, getting quiet, leaning slowly toward him, peering strangely at his face. He was about to speak, to ask her if she’d like to analyze the moonlight from his hammock, when she reached out and touched his cheek with a cool finger.
She said, “You really ought to have that crusty red patch looked at.”
He stared at her.
She said, “Melanoma. You know, the big C?”
He got the bartender’s attention, paid his bill, and left Coconuts. He drove south a couple of miles and turned into a dark street where the palm fronds stirred against the one working streetlight. Papa John’s Bomb Bay Bar was at the end of that dark rutted street, past a weedy trailer park. The bar was in a sagging shack on the edge of the Atlantic.
He parked the VW next to a shrimp truck and went inside. No women there. No dating rituals or ferns or foreign beers. The only decorations were some framed black-and-white photos on one wall.
It was a rogues’ gallery. A much younger Papa John stood out on anonymous docks with his cronies: politicians, baseball players, movie stars. All of them sunburned, posing beside their marlin or holding up a string of game fish.
Thorn leaned against the bar and watched Papa John in his white captain’s hat and rumpled white shirt going about his work, drawing beers for the two shrimpers sitting at the end of the bar. Both of them wore stained undershirts, tattoos on their arms, baseball caps; one had dog tags. Thorn nodded to the men, and they nodded back. One of them said his name.
When Papa John brought Thorn his Busch, he asked Thorn how the fly-tying business was doing.
“I’m carving plugs now,” he said. “Cutting back on flies.”
“Plugs,” said one of the shrimpers. “Shit, whatta you want to waste your time carving plugs?”
“Silhouettes,” said the other shrimper. “That’s all the goddamn fishes care about. They see a shape they like, they’ll hit it. Fish don’t give a shit if it’s made out of wood or plastic.”
“Well, I give a shit,” Thorn said.
Papa John said, “Hell, I’m with Thorn. Give me wood every time. That plastic crap, man, a good-sized fish hits plastic, the thing blows up on you.”
Papa John and the shrimpers started in on it, who knew more about catching fish. As Thorn washed away those Tecates with his Busch, he watched the three men. They were in their sixties, and there was still a pioneer gristle in their faces. But the flesh on their arms was loose, their fingers thick and clumsy with gout or arthritis. Thorn knew these shrimpers, and he knew their sons. They were paler than their fathers, less hardy specimens, men whose only calluses came from golf, or tapping buttons.
He drank his beer and watched these men argue. These men who had done every rough and difficult thing a man might be expected to do in the Keys. Everything but replace themselves.
In a few minutes Papa John came over to him again and asked if he wanted another beer. Thorn said he reckoned he’d done enough celebrating tonight. He dug some change from his pocket.
Papa John squinted at Thorn, gave him a long, searching look. He said, “You know what, son. I believe I could use somebody like you around here.”
Thorn laughed.
“I’m serious, Thorn. I am.” He looked back at the shrimpers, then leaned forward into confidential range. He said quietly, “I could teach you some things, Thorn. I could.”
“What? How to be a scoundrel?” Thorn said. He put the change down on the bar. “A rapscallion?”
Papa John smiled. “Yeah,” he said. “That, and a lot more.”
“No, thanks, John. I got myself a vocation already.”
“Carving plugs,” Papa John said.
“It keeps me busy,” said Thorn.
He said good-night to the shrimpers, nodded to Papa John, and left.
When he got home, he wasn’t feeling sorry for himself anymore. He was feeling sorry for Key Largo, for Florida, for North America. For men and women everywhere. For the race of lonely creatures that walked upright.
He knew what his problem was. It’d been too damn long since he’d been in love. It was three months ago that he’d kissed Sarah Ryan good-bye. She’d moved to Tallahassee, taken a job with the Sierra Club to fight for the rights of the manatee and wood stork.
All through that September she’d talked about it, what a chance it was, a bigger impact on things, no more Miami public defense work. Let the slime and sleaze fend for themselves. Thorn said yeah, it sounded great, a great job. Both of them acted this through, some tears, some long hugs. The damn job splitting them up. Thorn even started to believe it at times.
But he knew when she drove away that afternoon, waving into her rearview mirror, he knew that was all shit. They’d burned it up, whatever had fueled their love, making it so bright and hot and fast. All though September they’d raced through the motions. Sexual seizures, biting, pinching each other as if to squeeze out that extra drop. Gripping tight while the G-force died, while their rocketing hearts slowed back to normal. Then even slower than that.
And since that afternoon Thorn had been living aboard the Chris Craft, relearning the language of his own solitude, while he and Jack Higby rebuilt his house, plank by plank, peg by peg, leveling, squaring up the edges.
Back in August his house had been destroyed. A bomb meant for Thorn had blasted it, sprayed his belongings across the entire five acres of Thorn’s property. And now and then, as he and Higby worked, one of them would stumble across a charred and twisted tool, an old reel singed by the fire, the door from the broiler, and Jack might hold it up, trying to figure out what it had been, and Thorn’s heart would flare, miss a beat.
It’d been in August that he’d tracked down his foster mother’s killer, untangled a snarl of greed and hate. And now strangers came up to him, patted him on the shoulder, standing there in the Largo Shopper on the produce aisle, saying, all right, bud, way to get ’em. Like it’d been a baseball game and he’d hit a grand slam. Six people dead. A lot of damn blood on the stage at the end of it. And every hand patting his shoulder left a burning print.
It was getting close to midnight. Thorn’s beer buzz had died to a hum, and a sharp headache was easing up the back of his neck. He was on the
Heart Pounder
, his thirty-two-foot Chris Craft, anchored in the basin at the end of his dock on Blackwater Sound. He sat at the swing-up table, listening to the hiss of the Coleman lantern.
He was sanding a six-inch piece of hickory that he’d cut from a broom handle. For two days he’d been whittling on that hickory. It was to be a replica of a ballyhoo, that oily black demon with a two-inch sword, the prey of dolphin, sailfish, marlin.
His craft had always been in tying flies. Steady fingers, miniature knots, attaching sprays of fur or horsehair with garish synthetic threads. But that was before. That was six months ago, before things went from quiet to deafening.
He still filled the orders he got from fishing guides and a couple of friends who ran local tackle shops. Those flies still paid his meager bills. But it was a labor now. He’d lost the heat.
The fishing guides still came aboard, made small talk, told their quiet stories of scorched reels and melted ball bearings, from the lightning first run of bonefish or permit. And when Thorn brought out those flies and handed them over, the fishermen still touched them with a cloaked reverence as if they were handling icons.
But it was just mechanical. His passion had drained off. The surge, the hot focus as he worked, the afterburn that lasted into the evening of a successful tying day. All of it had evaporated. So he had taken up plugs.
He had worked first on darters. A blunt-nosed, stubby plug, it was shaped to dig into the water and then dart when the rod was jerked. Darters imitated distressed fish back in the channels and canals. Those popeyed snook would watch from their safe cages of mangrove roots, thinking no, no, no, no. Until sometime during the final retrieve, because they believed the wounded minnow had recovered and was swimming away: Yes!
He’d moved on to poppers, the torpedo-shaped dancers, then floaters and divers, and crawlers. He had a drawerful of them now, some without their final treble hooks, several half painted, some still naked wood. None had been in the water yet, to have their chance to trick or fail. But that didn’t matter. What mattered was that he felt eager and fresh, learning this new craft.
In the distance Thorn heard the muttering of a small outboard. He drew back the red-and-white checked galley curtain and saw the running lights of a bonefish skiff.
As it approached Thorn’s dock, he made out Captain Bradley Barnes, probably on his way back from a night of drinking up at Senor Frijoles, running home to Rock Harbor. Barnes was a cranky retired M.D. who chartered his sixteen-footer, the
Lucy Goosey
, out of Papa John’s Bomb Bay Marina. Barnes had erected a sign on the lintel over his dock that said,
DISCOUNTS FOR THE SPEECHLESS
.