Treasure of the Celtic Triangle (12 page)

“Mary … Edward!” said Katherine, approaching with open arms. “I’m sorry we aren’t able to welcome you with a more pleasant day.”

“Winter in Britain is a universal trial to us all!” laughed Edward. “We Scots are used to it, you know as well as I do. We both grew up in worse than this.”

Behind her mother, Florilyn shook hands with her aunt and uncle then glanced toward Percy where he waited at their side.

“Florilyn!” he said, bounding forward and wrapping her in his arms.

She said nothing, slowly stretching her arms around his back, though without corresponding pressure to answer his embrace. They stepped back. Florilyn smiled, though somewhat awkwardly, then turned toward the carriage. The others followed. Whether it was by design or accident, Florilyn scrambled onto the rear bench between her mother and aunt, seemingly by intent to avoid finding herself at Percy’s side, while father and son took their places in front.

A moment later Steven jumped up to join them, sat down between the two men, grabbed the reins, and they were off. The ride of a mile and a half passed quickly. Before they knew it, the gray stones of Westbrooke Manor were looming through the bare trees before them.

N
INETEEN

A Conversation in the Library

T
he three Drummonds had arrived at Westbrooke Manor on the morning before Christmas Eve. Percy returned to town with Steven to retrieve their bags. By the time they returned and were safely back inside, it had begun to rain and the temperature had dropped several degrees. There was no talk of walks or rides outside for the rest of the day.

The company remained indoors and mostly together after lunch and for most of the afternoon. Courtenay, however, did not grace their Scottish guests with the honor of his presence.

Even though they were together nearly the entire rest of the day, Percy and Florilyn were never alone, and their conversation remained light. Florilyn was friendly though subdued. By day’s end, Percy was more convinced than ever that something was amiss.

Florilyn made no appearance on Christmas Eve morning in the breakfast room. She had never been an early riser. Nevertheless, Percy was surprised. As much as they had anticipated seeing one another, it was almost—though how could that be—as if she were avoiding him. Her exuberance after his arrival on his previous two visits was nowhere in evidence.

Early in the afternoon, Percy wandered to the library. The familiar sights and smells greeted him with a wave of pleasant nostalgia. He smiled as he breathed in deeply then began absently wandering through the rows of tall shelves, glancing up and down and sideways at the spines of the old volumes. He was in no frame of mind at the moment to sit down and read, though he recalled fondly his first excursion into this bookish wonderland more than five years before when his aunt had first introduced him to author George MacDonald.

He turned a corner at the end of the row of shelves and saw a figure in an alcove with her back turned. She stood staring out the tall bay window. This time it was not his aunt but the young woman whose quiet behavior had been occupying his thoughts. Slowly he approached from behind. “A penny for your thoughts,” said Percy softly.

Florilyn heard his step and was not startled by his voice. She remained still as a statue.

Percy came to her side and stood looking out upon the wet, dreary winter’s day. It was an altogether depressing outlook. It was nothing, however, compared to the desolation at that moment in Florilyn Westbrooke’s heart.

They stood for a long while in silence.

Finally Percy turned toward her. His movement at last broke the pent-up dam in Florilyn’s heart. She turned to face him with the most forlorn expression he had ever seen on her face. The look in her eyes was pleading … fearful for what she knew she must do.

“Oh, Percy!” she said as she broke into tears.

Still with no idea what was the cause of her dismay, Percy said nothing. He merely opened his arms and received her into his embrace. Florilyn laid her head on his chest and softly wept.

They stood thus for several minutes until the initial storm passed. After some time Percy led her to a small couch in one of the library’s several reading nooks. They sat down together. He waited.

“There is something I must talk to you about,” said Florilyn at length. Her voice was shaky and halting.

“I know,” said Percy, smiling.

“You know?”

“I knew
something
was on your mind. Your letters changed. I knew you would tell me when you were ready.”

“Oh Percy, I’m sorry. I should have told you sooner. I didn’t know what to say. I wanted to wait until I saw you. But once I did see you yesterday I was filled with so many doubts and fears and I didn’t want to hurt you. I didn’t know what to do.”

“You have nothing to fear from me,” he said. “Surely you know that.”

“I know, Percy,” rejoined Florilyn. “You are so good to me. You were always better to me than I deserved.”

“Now don’t let’s get started on that again!” said Percy with a light laugh. “We’ve been over all that before.”

“You know what I mean. I’m just grateful, that’s all.”

“So what is it you have to tell me? Let’s get it out. It’s Christmas Eve, you know. Big dinner planned tonight. We don’t want to cast a pall over the festivities.”

“It’s not so easy,” said Florilyn with a sad smile. She drew in a deep breath and exhaled slowly. “Oh, Percy … I love you so much. You know that, don’t you?”

“I do,” replied Percy. “The feeling is mutual.”

“That’s what makes it so hard. Percy … How much of the MacDonald novel have you read? You haven’t finished it, have you?”

“I’m afraid not. I bogged down probably about halfway. There’s always a big push with papers and assignments before the Christmas break. Why? What does the book have to do with it?”

“Everything. Didn’t you see the similarities in it … you know, with us … between you and Hugh and everything?”

“Hmm … actually, no,” said Percy thoughtfully. “You think I am like Hugh?”

“You aren’t
like
him—but the circumstances … his going to university in Aberdeen just like you … his meeting Margaret.”

“I, uh … I didn’t think about that. And you see a parallel between you and Margaret?”

“Not me … Gwyneth.”

He stared back at her, confused at the point she was trying to make. “In the story, Hugh …” Percy began. “Hugh is in love with Euphra,” he said. “What does Margaret have to do with it?”

“He
thinks
he is in love with Euphra,” rejoined Florilyn. “Oh Percy, this would be so much simpler if you had read the ending. It’s all in the book.”

“All what?”

“Oh, Percy!” Florilyn blurted out. “I think we may have made a mistake!”

Percy looked at her in disbelief.

Again Florilyn began to cry.

“You … don’t think we should marry?”

“That’s not it! I can’t imagine anything more wonderful than being your wife. Who wouldn’t want to be your wife? But I think maybe we rushed into it too quickly. Perhaps we
are
meant to be husband and wife. But I think we decided too fast. I suppose that … Well, I’m not
completely
sure I’m in love with you, Percy. I mean … I
do
love you, but … I think I may have been, I don’t know, so flattered that you asked me to marry you, that maybe I was too caught up with the
idea
of being in love that I never stopped to ask myself if I was
actually
in love with you. I thought I was, all those years after your first visit. But once we were engaged, and after finishing the book … I just wasn’t sure anymore. I’m so sorry. And then … I also cannot help asking … whether you are truly in love with me.” She paused.

Percy waited, still reeling from what he had heard.

“Do you remember telling me about you and your father talking about how God uses circumstances to lead us in making decisions?”

Percy nodded. “Of course,” he replied softly.

“What I have been sensing,” Florilyn went on, “is that perhaps we rushed too quickly into it last July. Perhaps we misinterpreted what the changing circumstances were supposed to mean.”

“What changing circumstances?” asked Percy.

“Gwyneth’s leaving,” answered Florilyn. “You told me then that you had to wrestle through what it meant.”

“I remember. And I did wrestle through it,” said Percy. “What does Gwyneth have to do with it now?”

“Percy!” said Florilyn almost in frustration. “She has everything to do with it.
She
is the reason we have to wait. I should say she is the reason
you
have to wait. I have to wait to be sure of my
own
heart. We both have to wait for different reasons. Don’t you see? You
think
you wrestled it through, but it was only a week. Then the decision was made. I’m not sure that was enough time for either of us to fully know our hearts.”

Percy exhaled a long sigh. “I think I see what you mean … in principle at least. The idea is going to take some getting used to. I still don’t see what you mean about Gwyneth and the MacDonald book.”

“Gwyneth is Margaret in the book, Percy! Hugh thought he was in love with Euphra … but all along he was meant to discover his love for
Margaret
. Don’t you see? In the same way, what if part of your heart still belongs to Gwyneth? You have to find out. You have to discover what is deep in your heart, just as I have to discover what is in mine.”

Percy sat staring back at Florilyn dumbfounded. Slowly he began shaking his head. “I—I don’t know what to say,” he said softly.

“Finish reading the book, Percy,” said Florilyn. “Then you will understand.”

“What do you want to do then?”

“I think you should talk it over with your father,” replied Florilyn. “Then I think we should simply call off the engagement … for now at least. Please understand, this doesn’t mean that my feelings for you have changed. But I have to be sure about those feelings. I have to be
certain
I am in love with you. And I want you to discover your own fir wood.”

“My … fir wood?”

“Finish the book, Percy. You have to find out who is the angel waiting for you in the fir wood.”

“I will talk to my father,” he said, nodding. “He will probably want to talk to us both. I’m sure he will want to hear what you are thinking from your own lips.” Percy rose and walked again to the window. “It looks like the rain may be letting up,” he said. “Perhaps we shall get a ride in eventually.”

“It’s still chilly out,” rejoined Florilyn. “It was so cold yesterday I was surprised to wake up this morning and not see snow on the ground. I was certain snow was in the air.”

Percy turned and walked back to the couch. He extended his hand. Florilyn took it, and he pulled her to her feet. “We’re still friends, right?” he said, trying to sound upbeat, though still more than a little confused by this sudden turn of events.

“Oh Percy, we will always be much more than just friends! It is only that I want to be sure that we read God’s leading in the right way. Marriage is too important to rush into.”

“Then we will continue to talk and pray … and talk to my father. In the meantime, why don’t we bundle up and go outside, and you can introduce me to this new colt of Grey Tide’s that you are so fond of.”

T
WENTY

Edward Drummond

H
aving disclosed the burdens that were pressing upon her, Florilyn’s spirits immediately lifted. She was gay and lively again. After dressing for it, they went outside to visit Percy’s old friends in the stables, as well as little Nugget who was growing rapidly. It took Percy an hour or two, however, to absorb and readjust to the suddenly altered outlook on his future.

Midway through the afternoon, as the women were busy with Adela Muir and Mrs. Drenwydd and Mrs. Llewellyn in the kitchen and dining room with Christmas food preparation and decorating, Percy sought his father. “Dad,” he said, “there’s something important I need to talk to you about. Could we go for a walk outside? It’s not raining at the minute. I need your advice.”

As she had once before, Florilyn watched from one of the windows as Percy and his father, bundled up against the cold, walked away from the house in earnest conversation. A fresh wave of sadness enveloped her. A few rapid misty blinks of her eyes followed. She could not prevent a nagging fear that she had relinquished her best and only chance to be married at all. But mostly she was relieved to have at last released the anxiety that had consumed her for weeks. Whatever the future held, she knew she had done the
right
thing. She was content now to leave the matter in the hands of the two men and God.

She turned away and tried to distract herself with candles and ribbons and the Christmas tree and a few last gifts to wrap. But it was no use. She could think of nothing but the conversation taking place outside.

At length she went upstairs to her room. In her present frame of mind, she would rather be alone. Absently she picked up a book and sat down in her favorite chair and tried to read. But she could not concentrate.

She started at the sound of a knock on her door twenty minutes later. She jumped up and ran to it.

There stood Percy. “Hi,” he said with an almost embarrassed expression. “My dad would like to talk to you … both of us, actually.”

“Sure,” nodded Florilyn and left the room with him.

They walked in silence together. Florilyn’s spirits were subdued. She felt awkward beside Percy’s somber silence. It was so unlike him. She feared for what he might be thinking. He led her into the small sitting room adjoining the guest room where his parents were staying.

Edward Drummond stood at the window, his back to them as they entered. It was a big afternoon for staring out of windows. He turned at the sound of the door and strode across the floor. Whatever Florilyn might have been expecting, an affectionate greeting from Percy’s father was not it. A warm smile spread over his face, and he embraced her with genuine feeling. “My dear!” he said, holding her tightly. As he released her and stepped back, Florilyn saw tears in his eyes. He smiled again as he blinked hard. “Shall we sit down?” he said. “We have important matters to talk and pray about.”