Authors: Bryce Courtenay
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A week later we are back in Sydney, where Maggie receives me with joy and tears. I too am overcome. Oh dear, how very much I love her and, from her joyous reception, it seems she loves me too.
'Oh, Hawk, ya lovely bastard, I loves ya!' she says, jumping into my arms.
'Maggie, what would you say to giving up your work?' I ask her after we've made love.
'What's ya mean?' she asks, horrified. 'Become respectable-like?'
'Well, yes, sort of.' I cannot quite imagine Maggie completely respectable.
'Jesus, Hawk! What's you on about? Respectable? Is you ashamed o' me?' Her lips begin to tremble, but then she gains control and her big blue eyes come to fire. 'You bastard! You nigger bastard!'
I hold her tight against my chest as she yells at me in anger. 'Lemme go, you black shit! Lemme go!'
'Maggie, Maggie! Hush! I'm asking you to marry me! To have my children.'
Maggie goes totally still in my arms and I release her.
'Brats?' she asks.
'Aye!'
'Me own brats? Oh Jesus!' Maggie begins to sob.
I don't know what to do. I thought to see her anger or scorn, but not these tears. I pat her on the back. 'You'd like to have children, then?' I query, anxious that I may have said completely the wrong thing.
Her head buried in a pillow, Maggie nods. Then her sobs begin afresh. 'Brats,' she howls, 'oh, shit! Oh, oh, oh!'
I continue patting her and then begin to stroke her back and thighs. My hand wanders over her tight, sweet derriere to the inside of her legs, and I let my finger slide into her warm and creamy place. Maggie opens up to receive me, and I push her gently onto her back and enter her. Her sobs turn to whimpers and moans, and I think how beautiful she is and how much I love her. 'Oh, Hawk,' she cries, wrapping her legs tight about me. 'Oh darling, Maggie's coming! Oh, Jesus! You bastard, you lovely bastard! Brats! Me own!'
Afterwards, she sits up almost immediately. 'You wants me to marry you? Be respectable-like?' she wonders. 'I ain't never been respectable. Don't suppose I've got the knack.'
'You'll get the hang of it soon enough,' I laugh.
Maggie makes a pair of dainty fists and knuckles away another rush of tears. She's sitting cross-legged on the bed, her blue eyes red-rimmed from crying, but her pretty mouth is set firm. 'On your wages? No bloody fear, mate! Respectable takes money. I ain't gunna be respectable washin' the bleedin' floor, scrubbin' pots 'n' pans. I'm a respectable whore, not a bleedin' respectable scullery maid!' She looks at me fiercely. 'You can shove yer respectable up yer arse, Hawk Solomon! I'll work and keep ya 'til you makes somethin' out o' your life!' She stops and thinks for a moment. 'And not out o' fisticuffs neither, I ain't marrying a prize-fighter. O' course, you can fight this once against the Bolt!'
'Then you'll marry me? Oh, Maggie!' I go to embrace her but she pushes me away.
'Only if I stays what I am 'til we can afford better. I ain't gunna scrub no floor for no one! I loves ya, Hawk, with all me heart, but I ain't gunna go down on me knees for no bastard!'
'Maggie, it doesn't matter to me what you are. I love you with all my heart too.'
'Yeah,' she says, 'it don't matter to you. I know that now. I didn't never think it could 'appen to me. Oh sweet Mary, Mother o' Jesus, I loves ya, Hawk Solomon!'
I hold her for a while. 'Maggie,' I say eventually, 'now you must meet our mama.'
Maggie draws back. 'But she don't like me!'
'Of course she will. Mary will love you, you'll see!' Then I see Maggie has brought her hand to her lips and wears a look of consternation. I hear again her last words in my mind. 'What did you say?' I ask slowly, my heart pounding.
'I said what if she don't like me?'
'Maggie! That's not what you said!' I frown.
'Orright,' Maggie says tremulously. 'We has met. I'll tell ya the whole story. Tommo think yiz gunna get beat. Hurt bad. He asked your mama to come up here!'
'What, here? To Sydney?'
Maggie nods and sniffs. 'We needed her help!'
'What for?'
'Oh, Hawk, don't ya see? There's only one way yiz can win. The Bolt's got to take a dive, least that's what Tommo thinks!'
'And you? Do you think that?' I ask her. Maggie drops her eyes but says nothing, her fingers playing with the corner of the pillow. I grasp her by the shoulders. 'Answer me! Is that what you think, Maggie?'
'Leggo, yiz hurting me!' she cries, but I continue to hold her. 'Please! Yiz bruisin' me, Hawk!'
I cannot bear the idea of hurting Maggie and all the anger goes out of me. I sigh. 'I can't possibly win no matter how much training I do, so Tommo's going to fix the fight! Is that it?'
Maggie's eyes grow big. 'Hawk, yiz the bravest man I've ever known. It's just...'
'Just what?'
'Well, Tommo says you can't learn enough technique in time to fight the Bolt, no matter what. I know prize-fighters and I thought you could win but he's made me believe you're gunna get hurt.' She tilts her head at me. 'Oh, Hawk, I don't want them to hurt you! The Irishman will be too crafty and cunning. You don't have the skill to take him on! You said so yerself, remember?'
'Yes, but I've changed my mind.'
'That don't change nothing!' Maggie exclaims. 'Think the Irishman's gunna shit his pants 'cause you've changed your bleedin' mind?'
'You're wrong. It changes everything,' I say. 'We're going to set it up so that Mr Sparrow lays down all his money against me, and then I'll take on the Lightning Bolt fair and square and win - even if I get killed in the process.'
'But why?' Maggie pleads. 'I can take care o' yiz. And you'll soon get on in yer job, get a raise! We don't need to do this bloody fight!'
'Maggie, you forget what Mr Sparrow's done to Tommo! He's a mongrel. You can't let the mongrels win.'
'Oh bull!' Maggie exclaims. 'What's been done to Tommo he's done t' himself! There's always a Mr Sparrow. Get this one and another'll take his place soon enough. World's full o' bastards what you calls mongrels - always has been, always will be!'
'It's more than that, Maggie. It's what happened to Tommo and me when we were brats. Mr Sparrow's a part of that. It's time to change our fates.'
'I dunno what yiz talkin' about, I'm sure,' Maggie sniffs.
'Yes, well, be that as it may, Tommo's got to answer for himself, and so do I. Part of the answering is believing the mongrels don't always win. You can't just give in to evil, you have to fight it! If you don't, it destroys you. If I have to fight the Irishman to beat Mr Sparrow, then I shall. And I mean to win.'
'But you will win!' Maggie insists. 'That's it, ain't it? We bribe the Irishman to take a dive, and Mr Sparrow loses all his loot on the betting ring. Abra-bleedin'-cadabra! You've won!'
I sigh. 'Maggie, you have not heard a thing I've said. I can't win by cheating!'
'Shit, why not? What's wrong with cheating, all of a sudden? What's Tommo been doing these past weeks to raise your stakes if it ain't cheatin'?' Maggie asks.
'That's different! To bribe the Irishman to lose is to be just like Mr Sparrow. All the things that have destroyed us -me, Tommo, even you - are the result of good men standing by and watching, while mongrels like him corrupt the human soul!'
Maggie shrugs. 'Well, I shouldn't worry about it too much. Nobody's gunna bribe nobody. She ain't got the money.'
'She? Who hasn't?'
'Mary bloody Abacus!'
'Maggie, you've met our mama, then?'
Maggie sticks out her chin. 'Yes I has. Tight as a squid's bum, that one! I don't mean t' insult yer mama, Hawk, but Tommo said she'd be willin' t' pay the bribe.' Maggie pauses, then meets my eye. 'Well, it ain't so.'
'Maggie, what has Tommo told you about Mary?'
'He told me she were rich.'
'Oh Lord. And then?'
'I started t' cry, 'cause if she were and you also, then you wouldn't love me when ya went back to Hobart Town. Rich blokes fuck whores, but they don't marry 'em. But now I knows different. She told me she ain't got no money.' Maggie looks at me, still near to tears. 'She don't like me, Hawk. She said I were a whore!'
'Well, you are, aren't you?' I say, cuddling her. 'You say so yourself!'
'Yes, but the way she said it, it were different.' Tears begin to roll down Maggie's cheeks. 'At least she can't think me a gold digger if she ain't got no money to give ya.'
I can see in my mind what's happened. Mary's arrived dressed in a simple black dress, hair brushed tight under a dark bonnet, looking plain as a crow, hoping to seem a respectable working class woman. She's taken one look at Maggie and made up her mind in an instant. So she cried poverty, thinking to send the little gold digger away.
I sigh at these thoughts. 'Maggie, you aren't marrying Mary Abacus. You're marrying me, Hawk X Solomon!'
'I suppose,' she says doubtfully. 'But I'm glad she ain't rich after all. I can look after ya, Hawk, honest. I'll work harder. We'll save a bit, we've got me rooms and we won't starve.'
'How long has Mary been in Sydney? Does Tommo know she's here?'
'Tommo knows. She's at the Hero of Waterloo. She only came in last night. Mr Harris sent a lad to tell me. I got her a nice room, paid a week's advance meself, full board.' Maggie looks accusingly at me. 'She didn't even say ta!'
'I'm sorry, Maggie. Mary's pretty plain-spoken, that I'll admit, but she is not usually rude. She's a good woman, Maggie, you'll see. Did she truly call you a whore?'
'Good as! It were the way she looked at me. I wore my best outfit too and me new magpie hat from Mr Myer's Emporium. It were me red silk gown, what I bought from Farmer's after the Ben Dunn fight. I wanted to do ya proud, Hawk, so your mama'd think I were pretty enough for yiz! I even wore one o' them Chinee silk shawls what Barney Moses give me, so she wouldn't see me tits.'
I close my eyes. I can just imagine the set of Mary's thin lips when she first set eyes on my darling Maggie in all her finery. As to what she'll have to say to me when we meet, I am loath to think!
Tommo
The Rocks
July 1861
Hawk's flaming mad about our plan to bribe the Bolt. He says I've lost me marbles. He even threatened to get Caleb Soul to take charge of our side of the arrangements. I tried to tell him I didn't think he could win no matter what, 'cause he don't have the experience to fight a pug like the Bolt.
And Ho Kwong Choi's turned out to be no help to us. On me first visit to Tang Wing Hung's opium den, after we gets back from Lambing Flat, old Ho tells me he can't help us none. He said he couldn't remember nothing what could be useful to Hawk. But I reckons it's a set-up - he spoke to Mr Tang Wing Hung after all, what told Mr Sparrow, what warned the old man not to help Hawk.
I should've saved me breath, tryin' to persuade Hawk to my way o' thinking. Hawk's a stubborn bugger and once he's made up his mind he don't change it too often. He reckons if we win by cheating, we ain't beaten greed, greed's beaten us. And if it ain't a straight victory over the Bolt, then we'll still be in Mr Sparrow's power - and he'll have won after all. As usual he's done a measure of practical thinking about the whole set-up too. What he's come up with isn't half bad, even if it won't be of any use in the end.
Hawk points out that the Bolt has now fought and won against most of the champions of the various states. He's already beat Ben Dunn as well as Fred Woods and Jimmy Shanks, and all of them stopped well short of twenty rounds. Ben Dunn did best, lasting nineteen rounds before his corner threw in the sponge. Bell's Life in Sydney reckons the local champs have given the Lightning Bolt no trouble whatsoever - his ringcraft and cunning had them well and truly beat.
'The Bolt boasts that he hasn't done a lick of training and that against Jimmy Shanks he took a bottle of Irish whiskey into the ring to drink between rounds!' Hawk looks at me most earnest. 'Don't you see, Tommo? He's well cashed from the bouts and from betting on himself. He's ready to return home after one last easy fight. Maybe I can't match his cunning but I've got height and reach and strength. I reckon I can outlast him, wear him down 'til his legs give in.' Hawk smiles. 'The Bolt hasn't yet had an opponent who could do that. All of them have been old pugs, not one of them a day younger than thirty-five, and not trained for stamina.'
'Hawk, it won't come to that,' I argues. 'Bare-knuckle fighting's a dirty business. There ain't no rules for sportsmen! It's a free-for-all in the clinches. He'll stamp on your insteps, knee you in the bollocks and head butt you as he pulls you in. It ain't about stamina or about outlasting him. It ain't even about punching. It's about fighting cunning!'
But Hawk won't listen to none of what I tells him and so I've done me best to see he gets the right training. Most of the past two weeks I've been waking early so I can watch him spar before I goes for me smoke and night of poker. It ain't left me much time for Mary, what's been in Sydney since we got back from Lambing Flat. She's still at the Hero o' Waterloo and after telling me she ain't gunna get involved none 'til she's seen for herself what's goin' on, we've barely spoke - what suits me just fine, thank you very much.
Since he started training proper, Hawk's built his strength up and has shown himself a quick learner. Bungarrabbee Jack and Johnny Heki, the Aborigine and Maori blokes what's training him, are old-timers and knows all the dirty stuff what's likely to come his way.
Johnny Heki loves Hawk like a brother and they chatters away together in the Maori tongue for hours. Hawk has Maori tattoos of a very high order and so is much respected by Johnny, who imagines me brother is fighting for his people's honour. In a way that's true. I reckon Hawk's fighting for all of us what's been wronged - all what's been taken advantage of, as he sees it.
Johnny tells Hawk how the dirty fighting's done in the clinches, when the referee's to the back of you so he can't see what's going on below the belt. He shows Hawk how to stand with his feet wide-spaced, so that he can lean against his opponent and still keep him from getting too close. Johnny Heki and Bungarrabbee Jack reckons the Bolt will try to draw Hawk in, and that's where Hawk can do his best work. They teaches him how to use his knee in a groin and grab his opponent's bollocks. But it's not the kind o' fighting me brother takes to, it's too low-down and dirty for him.