Authors: Madeline Hunter
Gareth was not a man to fill silences with small talk. They sat and drank together in companionable quiet.
Gareth finally spoke. “Is there a particular reason you concluded you could
not
be patient? Why you have given up your plan?”
He told Gareth about Carlsworth's revelation. “I will still investigate the truth about Percy's death, but I
cannot count on learning anything fast enough. I need to take Radley up on his bargain, is how I see it.”
Gareth's expression reflected concern now. “They would not dare make a move to try you. It isn't done on such flimsy evidence.”
“Because I am a duke? I doubt most of the peers even see me that way yet. Nor have I endeared myself to them, have I? No, if they start down that path, and the lying informant is foundâ” He pictured it, as he had for several days now. “I do not choose to be the leading man in the public theater it would create. I will not risk it. Furthermore, I want to be done with this. The effects on my mind are not healthy.”
“I will not cajole you to think again, Lance. I hope, however, that you have some true affection for Miss Radley. You are choosing a lifetime with her.”
“I like what I know of her. As for a lifetime, your existence is proof that for a man, and especially for a duke, that need not be an unrelieved burden, should it become a burden at all.”
“Of course. Since I am fortunate to know better in my match than my father did in his, I assumed you had hoped for better, too, that is all.”
Had he? He could not remember forming any expectations. Like most dukes, his father had married an appropriate daughter of an appropriate peer, a girl recommended to him by his parents. It was how such things came about then. How they still came about. If the daily living of that marriage had soon proven impossible, if what little affection that existed died within a few years,
if his father's bride had proven herself vain and selfish and unkindâthat was not unusual either.
“I had formed no hopes at all. Not before I inherited, and certainly not since. Miss Radley will suit me well enough.”
Gareth raised his glass. “Then I congratulate you on your engagement, Lance, and hope that fate surprises you with more than well enough.”
M
arianne stood utterly still while the servants fastened her wedding dress. Mama had gone immediately to the modiste and demanded the best of the new wardrobe be finished within two days. On hearing some of the garments would be worn at a duke's wedding at week's end, the modiste had put all of her seamstresses on the chore.
Now the dress, creamy and lacy and luscious to see and touch, all beribboned and embroidered, flowed down her body.
“You look like a princess,” Nora said from her chair in the dressing room.
Nora's willingness to share this ritual touched Marianne. Her cousin refused to attend the wedding, however. Nor had Nora expressed true happiness about the
engagement. She had not said anything at all, if truth be told. Since Marianne had feared the news would send Nora into one of her turbulent spells, Nora's blank acceptance had reassured her.
At least she was here. She served as a reminder, however, that this marriage would start under more than one cloud. Although Marianne no longer felt that she betrayed Nora through her relationship with Aylesbury, his history with Nora was never too far from her mind.
She sat at her dressing table, so the final touches could be done with her hair and her headdress could be attached. In the glass's reflection, she saw Mama enter the dressing room, resplendent in her own ensemble.
Mama came over to inspect her hair, then handed over a little box. “This just came by messenger. From Aylesbury.”
The box contained a beautiful and expensive necklace. Carefully worked gold links formed a chain from which was suspended one exquisite diamond in a simple rope setting. A note was tucked beneath the stone.
A diamond of the first water, for a woman who matches its clarity, purity, and worth.
Aylesbury
Mama exclaimed over its beauty and cost. Nora barely took a look at it.
“Such a lovely note too,” Mama said. “And to think you were inclined to reject his offer.”
Marianne hoped to one day forget the argument with Mama after she left Uncle Horace. They had both been in tears by the end of it.
Abject poverty, that is what we face. Do not doubt he will cast us out, daughter. Would you do that to me?
“If she does not want to marry him, she should not have to.” Nora voiced the opinion in a dull, bland voice. “Men are so crude and cruel by nature, it is a wonder any woman wants to marry. Except Vincent, of course. He is not like that.”
Mama turned to her. “A lot you know about any of it, Nora. You should keep your ignorant opinions to yourself.”
That dragged Nora out of her private reverie. “I know more than you think. I think you and Papa browbeat Marianne into this, for the money. Look at her. She appears terrified, not happy. And well she might be, being forced to give herself to such a wicked man.” A spark of panic entered Nora's eyes. The spark that often heralded one of her fits.
“I am not terrified, darling,” Marianne lied. The truth was she feared she might throw up. “It is normal for a bride to be nervous. Isn't it, Mama?”
“Indeed it is. Nora, you should leave us now. I want to speak with my daughter alone.”
The maids needed no such instruction. They departed with Nora, and closed the door.
Mama fastened the necklace, then made an inspection of Marianne's appearance. “Perfect. Beautiful. No daughter of the ton would surpass you.”
“You exaggerate.” She did feel beautiful, though. Expensive, perfectly fitted dresses did that to a woman. The diamond now hanging below her chin did not hurt either.
“Now, before we go down to the coach, I need to explain a few things to you, regarding your behavior as a wife.”
Marianne could not suppress a laugh. “I am not a girl. I will not be shocked when it comes to the marriage bed.”
“
Really
, daughter. To think I would speak aloud of such things! I was going to explain how to manage your pin money, and how to wheedle more funds out of him.”
“Ah.” She stood and draped the strip of silk that would serve as her wrap, then picked up her silk and lace reticule. “That is something I do need to learn. You can share your considerable expertise on the topic while we ride to St. George's.”
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T
he wedding proved less small than planned. Word had spread. Even before Marianne took her place for the ceremony, the nave of St. George's had filled with attendees besides those invited. The stream of people only caused curious passersby to wander in too. Right up front, having procured the best views, three men watched and scribbled, much the way Marianne did when she attended events as Elijah Tewkberry. She assumed they were from newspapers or scandal sheets.
Aylesbury took his place at her side, and suddenly the crowd distracted her no longer. The rector approached in his vestments. Panic shook down her center, like a plucked harp string sounding a loud note.
She glanced over her shoulder, at the crowd and at her mother and Uncle Horace. And at the door, heaven help her, to see if she could dart out before anyone caught her.
“Do not look at them. Ignore them,” Aylesbury's voice came low and soothing. “They are all mere observers. Only you and I matter.”
He did not appear at all nervous, or worried. He definitely did not look like he wanted to run away. No doubt he had fortified himself the way men were allowed to do, with a quick gulp of spirits. It really was not fair that women were denied that solace.
Then the ceremony began, and to her surprise it really did become only about them. She forgot about her family and the onlookers, and even about those men scribbling right behind her. She did not hear much of the ceremony, either, however. A daze descended on her like a sparkling cloud.
It heightened her perceptions of all the wrong things. Of the texture of the rector's garments, and the timbre of his voice. Of the stones in the church's walls, and the dust dancing in the light flowing in the windows. Of Aylesbury standing beside her, of his height and strength and mostly of his sheer presence.
He overwhelmed her in every way. Yet, as they stood side by side within the daze, and said the words that bound them, she found some peace because he was there. His strength supported as well as dominated. She wanted to believe he willed that to happen, in order to help her.
Then it was over, and he was kissing her. The bright
fog disappeared, leaving her in front of a crowd of strangers being kissed by a duke who was, unbelievably, her husband.
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“A
t least Tewkberry wasn't here,” Ives muttered as they walked out.
Marianne's head snapped in Ives's direction. “Tewkberry?”
“A correspondent to the
Times
from Gloucestershire,” Lance explained. “One of his letters caused a stir for me here in town, that is all.”
She frowned. “What kind of stir?”
How charming. His new, little wife already displayed loyalty on his behalf. “Renewed gossip about my brother's death. Do not concern yourself.”
Her mother came over to embrace her then. Sir Horace took the opportunity to catch Lance's eye and give a big wink.
Lance took that to mean that with the bribe now paid, Sir Horace would complete the bargain.
The wedding breakfast lasted hours, through most of the afternoon. Lance enjoyed the company more than he had in memory. When not chatting with the others, he watched Marianne. Her poise impressed him. He thought she looked lovely, and happy enough. She would indeed suit him well enough.
Happy enough. Well enough. Those were the foundations of this marriage. He supposed it was all most couples had. Whether enough was enough
for him
remained
to be seen. At the moment he was not inclined to wonder about it. Mostly because he wanted her. Not just enough, but a lot.
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M
arianne found herself wishing her mother had given more advice than how to spend Aylesbury's fortune for him.
After the breakfast ended, close to dinnertime, she retired. The housekeeper brought her upstairs and gave her a tour of her new home. The duchess's apartment consisted of five chambers. In addition to one for her bed and another for her dressing, there was a private drawing room, a withdrawing room, and an entire chamber just for her wardrobe.
Her trunks had been delivered already, and they awaited her attendance. The household provided a maid, but she intended to call for Katy to join her if they stayed in town long.
The housekeeper behaved with unwavering deference. All the servants treated her likeâlike a duchess, she realized. Because she was one. Only she did not feel like one. She felt out of place, and lost in that apartment, and terrifiedâyes, Nora had been correct in that wordâterrified of her marriage night.
“Would you like to rest, Your Grace, while we unpack for you?” One of the servants asked the question while she began to turn down the coverlet on the enormous bed.
Was she supposed to rest? She had no idea. When she
saw Mama again, she intended to scold her for neglecting to explain all the rituals.
They helped her out of her dress and into the bed. She stared up at the drapery of the tufted silk canopy. From the adjoining dressing room, she heard the servants dealing with her wardrobe.
Was she supposed to just lie here until it was night and Aylesbury joined her? It could be a few hours still.
Exasperated, she rose from the bed and walked over to the dressing room door. “Have you unpacked the yellow muslin yet? The one with long sleeves? I want to wear it now.”
They found the muslin. One of them got her into it. She stuck her feet into shoes, and left the apartment to explore the house. From the looks the maids gave her, she guessed she was not expected to do that, but she needed to do
something
, or she would go mad.
It was a very big house. It had two drawing rooms, one very big and one not so much, and a library that could swallow the cottage in Cherhill several times over. She thought the public rooms old-fashioned in their decorations, all full of gilt and heavy fabrics.
They had eaten the wedding meal in a nice-sized dining room. She discovered it was not the only one when she found the official dining room. She had never seen a table so big. She did not know such tables even existed.
“What do you think of it?”
She pivoted to the voice. Aylesbury stood just inside the door. Dark, handsome, and intently interested, he watched her. In that instant, the reality of the day cleaved
through the festive theatrics created out of lace and silk and ceremony. Even speaking the vows had not made the change in her life so starkly real.
Married. His. Forever.
What had she done?
“It is very large,” she stammered. “This could be a ballroom.”
“The ballroom is much bigger.” He gazed around. “There will be dinner parties that fill this table. Or there are supposed to be.”
She tried to imagine herself hosting a party here.
“Does it frighten you, Marianne?”
“I feel more a trespasser right now than I ever felt that day we met, when I truly trespassed.”
“You will rise to it. I do not doubt that. I would not have married you if I questioned it at all. It will be strange at first, and then it no longer will be.” They strolled around the large chamber. “If you have questions, ask me.”
“You know how to be a duchess?”
“I barely know how to be a duke. I can find someone for you who does know, however.”
She calmed from the way he reassured her. Perhaps the first few times she got it wrong and made a fool of herself, he would not be angry with her.
Why?
The word had been nudging at her again while she took this house tour. It would be nice if she were so vain that she did not know there had to be a why, and a good one, for her to find herself mistress of this mansion.
He drew her into his arms and kissed her, as if answering the question. Before passion clouded her mind, two
truths asserted themselves. First, desire, though strong, was not the reason why, and second, this was not the day to press for the real answer.
His arm holding her close, he guided her to the big staircase. “Go tell your maids that you want to retire. I will join you soon.”
Twilight had come early and so, apparently, had the rest of this day's ceremonies. He kissed her again, then released her. She walked up the stairs, not daring to look back at him.
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T
he maids left her alone, in bed, in a nightdress with more lace than five dresses needed. The modiste had shown Mama this ready-made garment upon hearing about the wedding.
Très jolie
, she had said while she unfolded the dress like it were made of gold.
Très elegante
.
Also
très
transparent, being made of the thinnest lawn. Its rows and flounces of lace were not placed where one would choose if modesty were the goal. Mama must not have noticed that.