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He couldn’t have told her, because he needed her: not the humiliating fivers, not her ‘love’, necessarily; but because on one level he was resuscitated by the breath he breathed, the saliva he drank, out of her mouth, and because on the purer plane, they solved together equations which might have defeated his tentative mind, and which probably never entered Nance’s consciousness.
Poor Nance, there were other material developments he would have to explain. As an introduction, he bought her a little ring, of two gilt serpents intertwined. He found it in a junk shop on Church Hill; apart from the prettiness of the conceit it was of little value.
‘What is it?’ she asked dubiously. ‘Is it gold?’
‘Eh? Looks pretty tinny to me. But it must have cost money, antique jewellery like that.’
They had sat down on the grass in the Domain and her face was darkened, with shade from the fig leaves.
‘Why did you spend all that dough on me? Eh? Even if it was me own.’
The way she drew down her mouth, loaded at one corner with a cigarette, she appeared to be trying to make herself look particularly coarse.
‘Or wasn’t it my money, cock? Where else did yer strike oil?’
He might have felt insulted if he hadn’t been holding the knife to Nance. ‘I made some,’ he said. ‘I sold a couple of paintings.’
‘Oh, you did, did yer?’ She had almost eaten off her lipstick. ‘Who in hell would buy a couple of
your
bloody paintuns?’
He must be very patiently gentle with Nance. ‘A woman,’ he said.
‘What sort of woman?’ she hawked, spitting out a shred of tobacco. ‘A lady?’
‘I don’t know. I was told a woman.’
‘What sort of woman or lady would buy one of those nutty paintuns?’ Then she considered: ‘How d’you mean you was “told”?’
‘By the dealer.’
‘What—does anybody deal in rat shit?’
She was panting by now, unsticking the hair above her forehead, freeing the grass- and fig-stained frock her haunches had pinned too tightly to the ground.
‘Which of the pictures did the person buy?’ Her ears were pricked.
‘The one I call “Electric City”.’
‘Oh,
that!’
She sniggered, and tossed away her cigarette. ‘What else, Hurt?’
‘I don’t think you saw it. One called—’ he hesitated because he was about to expose himself—‘ “Marriage of Light”.’
They sat staring out from under the Moreton Bay fig at the dazzlingly iridescent water.
Nance was holding her head at an angle which made her neck look brittle. ‘That was my painting,’ she said, or gasped.
‘You never looked at it.’ He could have flattened her. ‘Or once, I think, you kicked at it.’
‘I saw it,’ she insisted. ‘I know I’m supposed to be too big a dope to see. I’m only good for stretchun out on the kapok. But I seen
you,
didn’t I? In the fuckun dark!’
She took a handkerchief out of her bag and rubbed her mouth very vigorously; then she spat; and sat with her hands palm-upward in her lap.
He lay chewing grass, hoping the blood wouldn’t burst out of his veins, the breath explode in his chest: it would be terrible, if Nance enjoyed glimmers of sensibility.
‘I liked it,’ she said in a dead, even voice, ‘it had sort of sparks in it. It was my paintun.’ Suddenly she was shielding the last rags of her aggressiveness. ‘I practically painted it with me own bloody tail—’ her voice rising before dropping.
Seated beneath the giant fig, she was the first original work of sculpture seen in a Sydney park.
Around them was a sound of what could have been pure silence, out of which she dredged up her voice to ask: ‘What did they fetch?’
‘One of them twenty-five. The other thirty: it was a bigger painting.’
‘Good Christ, you’re not much of an investment! Or else somebody’s a shyster.’
He couldn’t answer her.
‘But whichever it is, I gotter have my whack. That was in the agreement.’
‘Not yet, you can’t, Nance. I’m buying a piece of land.’ He swallowed a gusher of green spittle before rejecting the empty grass. ‘Up the line,’ he added desperately.
He couldn’t explain that the suburban bush, probably Africa to her, was in a sense of Mumbelong.
‘And wotcher gunner do—“up the line”?
Paint?

‘Yes, Nance. Paint.’
‘And live by the ladies that take yer down?’
He couldn’t answer that either.
‘Or Poncess Nance!’
Her coil of hair was halfway down; her eyelids might have been walnut shells.
‘Am I ever gunner see yer?’ she asked.
‘Whenever you feel like it.’
So it was settled beneath the spreading fig, on the uncomfortable fruit, some of it still sticky, some already petrified. From big blubbering orphaned baby who needed comforting, Nance became the insatiable goddess, who only didn’t think of tearing bits off her victim and throwing them into the blue waters of the cove.
It was a wonder they were able to recover their identities merely by his stuffing in a shirt, and her harnessing a torrent of hair; but they did: they bared their teeth at each other, lowered their eyes once, and resumed their actual lives.
 
Caldicott advanced him money against three more paintings; so it was possible to buy the strip of scrub on which, he had begun to feel, his creative life depended. The dealer, a mild creature of indeterminate age and sex, ran a little gallery at the top of some stairs not far from where Duffield lived. The gallery itself was almost always empty, except on occasions when ladies in twos and threes tried out their taste on the several paintings exposed for that purpose. The muted ladies appeared almost paralysed by their own daring.
Duffield couldn’t arrive quick enough at the office or cupboard across the gallery where Caldicott the dealer usually sat, wearing a leather eyeshade the colour of milk chocolate above his hairless, milky face. Caldicott was in such practised taste he practically couldn’t give an opinion on any subject, but would sigh and giggle his kind regrets he side-stepped.
‘I can’t say there’s any actual rush, Duffield, for your work.’ Caldicott tried to adjust the eyeshade so that it would give him greater protection. ‘But there’s a more
general—growing
interest in painting amongst people of the better class—and where
one
has rushed in,’ he sniggered, and stroked his hairless jaw, ‘there may be others preparing.’
The risk he had just taken encouraged the dealer to remove the eyeshade for a short spell. It had left a crude red mark across the milky forehead, at which Caldicott began to dab with a beautifully initialled handkerchief. His eyes, in contrast to the shade, were bitter chocolate, and in spite of the delicately discoloured lids, not as weak as you would have expected.
‘It takes time and you are ahead of it.’ He lowered his eyelids on his own epigram.
‘In the meantime, I’ve got to live,’ the painter suggested.
‘Oh yes, by all means—to live.’ The dealer showed his teeth in amusement. ‘You have employment, haven’t you?’
‘Yes, I’m a cleaner—at Morgan’s.’
At this contact with life Caldicott bowed his head over the blotter: though he had never laboured, he had been reared in a country where labour is theoretically a sacred rite.
‘Then you will always be able to eat. Nobody need starve in Australia.’
‘But when I withdraw to the scrub, how am I to paint and eat, Mr Caldicott? Unless, of course, I live off the immoral earnings of a woman.’
Caldicott almost fell apart. He enormously enjoyed someone else’s joke in doubtful taste. Though his latest painter was so unknown, so unfashionable, he might begin to cultivate him in a tentative way: ask him to dinner with a broadminded few; bad taste in a protégé could be a social asset.
The hushed ladies in their striped voiles and black-and-white polka-dot crêpe-de-chine adored Mr Caldicott. Instinctively they recognized ‘Maurice’ as one of themselves by the way he tweaked at his non-existent string of pearls; while on a grander, terrifying plane, they accepted him as a guardian of a world of art they could never hope to enter, married as they were to barristers, bankers, physicians, graziers even. So the ladies no more than hovered round his cupboard door, entrance to a desirable, though forbidden, Hades, murmuring felicities such as: ‘Thank you, Mr Caldicott—so stimulating—so gratifying to see we are coming of age in the arts.’
Once, a lady more perspicacious, more informed, than the others, stuck her head inside the cupboard, and announced in a whisper made to carry: ‘I’m glad we’re not going as far as
Picasso!

She stood there flickering her eyelids, waiting for her measure of praise: and the dealer laughed the conniving laugh his client expected, and rearranged his invisible pearls.
‘Oh, Mrs Farquharson,’ he suddenly remembered, ‘this is one of our artists you’re going to hear more of—Mr Hurtle Duffield.’
The lady flickered appreciatively, and recoiled. It was difficult enough to introduce to her barrister, her banker, or her grazier, a water-colour of grazing sheep, without the artist who had painted it.
On one occasion when a fair gaggle of ladies was appreciating an exhibition, the painter asked the dealer: ‘Is she any of these?’
‘Is she—who? Oh, Mrs Lopez! No. She’s young, and,’ he averted his face, ‘some consider, dashing. She was here recently; but went away again. She lives away. She was widowed soon after her marriage in Ecuador. Or was it Peru? Very tragic—though I can’t say anyone ever met Mr Lopez. (She intends to remarry, I believe, and live in Berkshire.) But don’t let that discourage you. The word carries when a lady buys a painter—if the lady has means—and Mrs Lopez has very substantial means of her own. All these,’ Caldicott’s bitter-chocolate eyes darted out at the tasteful ladies, ‘are chicken-feed.’ Vulgar for Maurice: it must have been the humidity.
His only patron removed, Duffield plunged downstairs. He could feel the sweat running down his ribs, probably rotting the seams of his shirt. To take courage, he tried to visualize his strip of scrub, and the house he had begun to build—it wouldn’t be much more than a shed—in which he proposed living. His blood-blisters and scabs were positive reminders; but the house, founded on an Australian instinct he hoped he possessed, rose only groggily in George Street.
Nance hadn’t seen the house. He hadn’t been seeing much of her: they had started on the phase in which each considers the next move.
Along the street the asphalt was heaving and undulating, a flickering of deck-chair stripes on colourless ladies, one of them half-emerged from the chrysalis of widowhood; heat on summer oceans was the colour of jade, in Sydney, brutally blistered brown. What could an Australian lady of means have married in Ecuador—or Peru? Berkshire was the more likely place.
The careering trams didn’t prevent him becoming involved with his ‘Marriage of Light’, which the faceless Mrs Lopez had carried off. Nance Lightfoot took him by the hand. There was no mistaking the heat they generated together, as he re-enacted the details of his painting; but neither Nance, its source, nor Mrs Lopez, its buyer, nor any future owner, could lay claim to what was sprinkled with drops of his blood. The taste of it on his tongue made him draw back his lips, out of repulsion, or exhilaration. Suddenly, in plate-glass, there he was: more than real. He might do a self-portrait with warts. He had never contemplated it before. The prospective orgy of knowing himself encouraged him to run up the stairs, to the room he was soon going to leave.
 
However crude and basic the house or shack on the edge of the gorge, it was the artifact he had made. Helped by its primitive nature it soon settled into the ironstone and eucalypt landscape. The rocks might have been fired on a primordial occasion before it was decided to disguise the cleft of the gorge with its austere fringes of vegetation. It remained an oven in summer. Not surprisingly, trees sown in rocky crevices had taken the colour of smoke, of ash, their leaves narrow and listless, but tough. Even now, smoke would unravel without warning, its pungent strands threading through the bush. The whole of one night he stood by his unfinished house and watched the gorge snap and gnash at its own flames, as the trees went up in a clatter of fiery blinds. In the first light he himself felt ashen, not to say emotionally charred, while he still waited with a hacked-off branch to protect, if necessary, his timber skeleton of a house. It continued standing. The half-empty water-tank glittered as the morning clapped its eye on the unpainted iron corrugations.
The bush never died, it seemed, though regular torture by fire and drought might bring it to the verge of death. Its limbs were soon putting on ghostly flesh: of hopeful green, as opposed to the ash-tones of a disillusioned maturity: the most deformed and havocked shrubs were sharpening lance and spike against the future.
He liked to scramble down the face of the gorge through the evening light, chocking his boots against rock, clinging to the hairy trunks of trees, his fingers slithering over the slippery, fleshier ones. Once he caught his mouth trying out the response of one of the pinker, smoother torsoes. He was never so happy as in the communicative silence of the evening light. Sometimes he remembered he had been a painter before growing physically exhausted: musclebound, woodenheaded, contented.
He hadn’t seen Nance Lightfoot for months when he was handed her letter at the post-office store.
 
 
Dear Cock,
What are you up to ‘up the line’! I bet the art ladies are bringing you picnics of champers and chicken mayernaise. Well good luck to them and art, but not all the mayernaise on Darling Pt is going to paint my painting back the marriage one.
I am wondering about you dear Hurt, whether you have got enough to eat—and bush fires on top. I will come up to see you one of these days, so dust the art ladies away, I am a bull where ladies is concerned.
I am hungry I don’t mind telling you after a diet of commercial travellers and railway porters. I lie there. I let them look at my armpits.
There was a bloody Irish merchant seaman bilked me out of the money and pinched half a bottle of gin. You could of stood his socks up on their smell.
Dear love and Cock, I will die of you if I don’t soon see you, just the shape of it. Course I don’t mean that, I mean more than that. I could eat you up raw.
NANCE
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