The Story Until Now: A Great Big Book of Stories (37 page)

The Marine will remember the afternoon as a bizarre, agonizing progress on foot, her striding ahead with those black gauze skirts flying and him struggling along behind, heading for the next town. No cars pass them but he understands that she would not accept a ride. In the outskirts of the big town or large city, she stops at a marked bench just as the bus comes along.
DEEP CAVERNS
, the marker says. He is about to tell her he’s never heard of the place when she turns on the step and pulls him on board.

So they ride out to the caverns side by side on the cracked leatherette back seat with engine fumes boiling up between their knees while the woman thinks whatever she is thinking and the singing Marine finds that even the relentless monotony of the song cannot crowd out the mishap that separated him from his platoon last night and put him on this road. He is grieving for them. “What?”

“I said, when you get there, I want you to go inside for me.”

The thick fumes make his eyes water. “Ma’am?”

“I can’t,” she says. “You have to. Understand, you won’t be sorry. In the end, I’ll make you very happy.”

“You … want me to go into the caverns?”

“It’s cool,” she says. “Believe me, you won’t be sorry.”

“You want me to go in and get …”

“The tinderbox. It’s an old fashioned firestarter.”

“What would you want a thing like that for?”

Her eyes glow. Something behind them begins to smolder. “Just do what I say. Then you’ll see. Get it and I’ll start your fires.”

“I was on my way back to the base,” he says.

Her smile is touched with malicious humor. “What would you want to do a thing like that for?”

He chooses not to catch her tone. Instead he starts telling; like the song he
sings, it’s something he has to do because he needs to hear it. “I have to report. I have to let them know it wasn’t my fault. I have to forestall the court-martial. It was my platoon. I. God, the sergeant!” He stops and starts again. “We were on maneuvers near Ocracoke. He marched them into the marsh.” He does not tell her that the marsh gave way underneath them and half his men are still out there somewhere, either mired to the knees or drowned in mud and confusion; he does not tell her that in another few hours he will be
AWOL
. “I have to report. I do.”

Without even looking at him, she divines the rest. She knows what lies at his center. She is brusque, almost matter-of-fact. “Your platoon’s
OK
. They found everyone. It’s in all the papers.”

His heart leaps up. “You’re sure?”

How cleverly she plays on him. “tv this morning. Interviews.”

“But I’m not there.”

“Oh you,” she says. “They think you deserted.”

Maybe I have
. It’s too much to contemplate. “I have to go back and explain it.”

“Do this and you won’t have to go back at all. You’ll be rich enough to buy your way out of anything.”

But when Taps sounds tonight the Marine will go back, slouching over the causeway like the returning prodigal in his muddy fatigues and the boondockers that won’t stop squelching water. When he does, he will be richer. He knows that when a beautiful woman you don’t know asks you to do her a favor, you do what she asks soon enough, but you never, ever let her know what you’re thinking.

Right now he says, “I’ll think about it.”

“No time for that. We’re getting off.”

They are in the woods for more than an hour, during which the lieutenant’s boots get heavier in a geometric progression toward eternity. The heat is intolerable. Gnats crawl into his ears and clog his nostrils; mosquitos feed on the exposed back of his neck, sliding down the sweaty surface to feed on his most vulnerable parts. By the time the woman reaches the cave mouth and gestures, he’s ready to plunge in without question: anything to escape the humidity that is pressing down on him and steaming in his throat and in the space between his regulation cap and his skull.

She turns as if she’s already explained this: “You understand why I can’t go in there.”

He shakes his head. The shadowed opening at her back lures him; he wants to throw himself down on the worn stone floor and sleep until December.

“The dogs.”

He blinks sweat out of his eyes saying politely, “Ma’am?”

She says impatiently, “I can’t go in because of the dogs.”

“Dogs.” Does he hear anything? Smell anything different? The place is still and if there’s anything living inside, there is no hint of it. “Are you sure there are dogs in there?”

She turns that neatly feline face at an angle that makes it impossible for him to read her intentions. “Don’t worry. There are only three of them. They have big eyes.” When she looks up again her eyes gleam. “And they have what you want. Watch out for the last one, though,” she adds. “He can make you or break you.”

“It will be dark.”

She shakes her head. “It’s lighted. They were going to turn this into Luray Caverns until they found out the air was toxic.”

“Toxic!”

“It won’t bother you,” she says with such sublime assurance that he believes her. “And what you find will solve all your problems.” She lays out the details.

This is how the singing Marine finds himself descending into Deep Caverns while his companion reclines like a figure carved in the rock at its mouth and waits for him to come back with the tinderbox. “My mother m-m-m …” Not his mother. Gerda. For the first time since he came back to himself after the business with the linden tree, the song sounds right. The faces of his platoon recede and he is alone, singing in the cavern.

It is as she told him. At the widest point he finds three little niches opening off the tunnel like side chapels in a subterranean place of worship, but instead of religious statuary or mummified corpses they contain bits of blackness that stalk back and forth inside like furred furies; when the animals see the Marine they lunge for him and are hurled back into their niches as if by invisible barriers. Glowering, they mount their mahogany chests like reluctant plaster saints returning to their pedestals.

He does not like the looks of the first animal. Its eyes are big enough but when he says, “Nice doggy,” it stirs in a tremendous effort to please him, and scratches up a storm of pennies that lands at his feet like so much gravel.
Pick up that junk and I won’t have any room in my suit for the real thing
. Thus he throws out his first set of instructions. “Nothing doing,” he says, and goes on to the next. The eyes are even huger, but in its attempt to win his attention the next animal scratches up a shower of dollar bills, shredded by sharp toenails and worthless as confetti.

The third dog does nothing. Sitting on its chest of treasure, it regards him with eyes bigger and more brilliant than anybody’s attempts to describe them. The effect is of lemon neon.

It is like looking into the eye of the beholder.

Without knowing what he means, the Marine says, “Then you know.”

Although the dog makes no sound, the singing Marine takes its meaning:
Everything.

Flowing like velvet, the creature jumps off the chest, fixing him with its intense yellow glare. Although the dog is kept in the little cavern by a shield he can’t see, the singing Marine climbs up on the ledge and enters easily. Now that they are in the same space he knows that if it wants to, the animal can destroy him.

“I didn’t want to come back from the dead, you know.” He thinks about his platoon. “You know being dead is easier.”

The silence is profound. The Marine stands with his arms at his sides, waiting. There is a stir as if of air masses colliding. Huge and silent, the dog surges into the space between them. Still he does not move. He does not move even when the massive brute pads the last two steps and presses its bearlike head against him. Startled by the warmth, the
weight
, the singing Marine feels everything bad rush out of him: the violent death and burial, the strange reincarnation that finds him both victim and murderer, song and singer, still in the thrall of the linden tree and the spirits that surround it. The great dog’s jaws are wide; its mouth is a fiery chasm, but he doesn’t shrink from it.

When you have been dead and buried, many things worry you, but nothing frightens you.

“Stay,” he says, and without caring whether it attacks him, he opens the chest. On top he finds the object in question—firestarter, she explained, an antique tinderbox, looking crude and insufficient in its bed of thousand-dollar bills. Something glitters—diamonds scattered among the bills as if by some supremely casual hand. He picks up the tinderbox.

“This is what she wants,” he says to the dog. The neon eyes won’t let him lie; he couldn’t. “I’m supposed to take the rest, but it’s only money.”

The lemon eyes glimmer like paired moons.

“Money isn’t everything.” The song is back; he can feel the leaves of the linden tree stirring overhead and one more time replays out the perpetual round of death and survival. He is afraid of repeating it into eternity. He slams the lid and looks at the dog. “Money isn’t anything.” He looks up, puzzled: the box. “But neither is fire.”

There is a stir; blacker than shadow, even blacker because of the neon eyes, the creature nudges him again. Its great plumed tail is wagging.

“Good boy.” He tries to pat its head; the dense fur is so deep that his hand won’t stop sinking into it. “You keep it. But this.” Studying the tinderbox, he turns it over in his hand. “I wonder what she wants with it.”

There is seismic thunder—a growl so profound that he forgets the eyes. Then the animal becomes a fury of deep fur and warm flesh and compressed muscles. Planting its head in his chest, it pushes the singing Marine to the edge of the little niche and to his astonishment, nudges him so he falls back into the tunnel. Its growl makes the lights flicker. Without knowing how he knows to do this, the Marine slips the tinderbox deep into his fatigues, storing it in a spot nobody can reach without his express permission. Then he looks up at the great moon eyes. Unlike most animals, this one meets his stare; he feels himself disappearing into the glow. Trapped though it is behind invisible bars, the brute makes a low purr, almost like a tiger’s. The tail moves like a flight of banners. He doesn’t know what it’s trying to tell him. Then he does; it is amazing.

Therefore when the Marine comes up from underground and the beautiful woman slips both arms around his neck and thanks him, he is wary. When he realizes she’s patting the many pockets of his fatigues, he is even more wary, but he’s not surprised when she says, “You didn’t take any money.”

He shakes his head.

“But you got the box.”

“I did,” he says.

“Where is it?”

He only shakes his head.

“I see.” She is already fumbling in the depths of her black gauze skirt; she pulls something out of her pocket. Because they are beyond apologies or explanations she says, “Gerda didn’t die in a rockfall, you killed her,” and as she brings out the knife and raises it high he sees that she looks enough like the dead murderess to be her sister.

He has no choice but to kill her. Marines know how to do this without weapons. Inside, not far from the cave’s mouth, there’s a chasm so deep that when he pushes her in—sexy, but vindictive,
Gerda’s sister
, he listens and listens and never hears her hit bottom. The singing Marine, who hears the same old song unfurling, but louder. “That should be the end of it,” he says, but it isn’t. He takes the box and without much minding that he’s left behind the treasure in the cavern, he does what he should have done in the first place. He goes back to the base.

It is night by the time he gets there, and instead of marching through the main gate like a good officer, he turns off the road and runs along the fence. When you’ve been dead and buried and come back, you are beyond going out looking for trouble. Instead, you go to earth and wait for it to find you.

He snakes under the cyclone fence at the spot his platoon found during exercises early in training. He runs like a fox through the gullies and comes to earth in the deep gulch behind the senior officers’ quarters, where he lies down too tired for thought and sobs until sleep comes up from behind and takes him. One by one the houses at the top of the cliff go dark; from down here they all look alike and it will be noon before the singing Marine realizes that the general’s daughter must be only a few houses away, in the back bedroom of the biggest house at the end of Officers’ Row. She lies north to south in her bed while face down, the singing Marine lies north to south in the rocks and wet earth near the bottom of the gully. Although she doesn’t know he exists, their breathing is synchronized. Breath for breath, she matches him.

At reveille he hears the base waking up: the military motor humming, gears meshing so smoothly that he might never be missed here, and for the first time since they buried him under the linden tree, he is profoundly lonely.

Last night he had imagined it was only a matter of hours until the MPs found him, thus relieving him of any decisions. This morning he understands this place is secure; if he wants to, he can live here forever. The idea has a certain appeal to him. When you have been dead and buried you lose your tolerance for changes.