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Authors: Brenna Yovanoff

Tags: #Love & Romance, #Juvenile Fiction, #Fantasy & Magic, #General, #Fantasy, #Fiction

The Space Between (28 page)

Truman closed his eyes and didn’t answer.
“You’re very lonely,” Moloch said and for once, his tone wasn’t sarcastic or mocking.
Truman nodded. The booth was too small, suddenly. His throat hurt. “Yeah.”
When he looked over, he was surprised to see that Moloch’s palm was pressed against the screen, fingers spread. The gesture was strangely tender.
“I’m not a holy man,” Moloch said from behind his hand. “I’m not pious, and I’m not good. But if I were, your penance would be to start reaching for the things you want and giving up the things that will destroy you.”
Truman didn’t answer right away. He was no stranger to self-destruction, but running around with demons seemed pretty bad, even for him.
When he did speak, his voice sounded dry and hoarse. “What if they’re the same things?”
THE THEATER
CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
T
here was a time when I would have been relieved to see Beelzebub standing in the lobby with Moloch, waiting to tell me what’s happening and how to fix it. But now, his face is stony, and I can only square my shoulders and wait for the consequences.
As soon as we’re through the lobby doors and out on the street, he stops and takes me by the shoulders. “What in the name of two unbridled hells do you think you’re doing? I’ve been worried sick about you! No one even knew where you were.”
We’re standing in the middle of the sidewalk, surrounded by tourists. Every now and then, I think I see a flash of white skin, black hair. Sisters who could die in the shadows as easily as Myra or Deirdre. I don’t tell him that my mother knew and that she’d gladly have told him, just to see him look disappointed in me. All he had to do was ask her.
“I came to find Obie.”
That makes him shake his head in exasperation. “I’m taking you home.
Now
.”
“No,” I say, and it’s strange to know that he can’t make me go. The realization is liberating and a little sad. He’s always been the one to make the rules and give the advice. The voice of authority.
Beelzebub raises his eyebrows. Then he takes me by the elbow and I think he’s going to shake me, but instead he turns me away from the strip, toward the darker, narrower streets, waving me along in front of him.
“Where are we going? I told you, I’m not going home.”
“No? Then you and I are going to have a little talk.”
We follow the same general route I walked earlier when my mother guided me to Myra, and for a little, I think that he’s somehow taking me back to the empty lot. Instead, he stops in front of a boarded-up building. It’s tall and windowless with a rickety, unlit marquee. The sidewalk in front is deserted and the glass doors are dark.
When he approaches the entrance, I expect him to do some trick that vanishes the glass or melts the chain that holds the door, but he just takes out a set of keys and tries them one after the other until he finds one that works.
“Come on,” he says, ushering me into the dark, abandoned lobby.
There are crumpled playbills everywhere and empty popcorn boxes scattered here and there. Beelzebub ignores the mess and leads me down into the theater.
The stage is shabbily grand, with a festive array of colored footlights. Most of them are broken and the orchestra pit is littered with glass, but the remaining bulbs flare to life when Beelzebub touches a switch, providing enough light for me to look around. The curtains are a deep, volatile red, heavy with dust. The whole place smells distinctly unused.
“Where are we?” I say, gazing at the painted ceiling, the worn velvet seats. The upholstery must have started out red, but now the cushions have all faded to a dusty pink.
Beelzebub doesn’t answer immediately. He’s standing with his back to me, looking around the empty theater. “This used to be our place, Las Vegas. This whole city was a gangland once, and they welcomed us with open arms.”
“But not anymore?” I recall Moloch’s performance in the lounge, lighting the napkins on fire. “No one even looks twice at us here. And they have that garden—the Kissing Garden—at the Passiflore.”
“Oh, the Passiflore still accommodates us, and there are a few other haunts, but the fact is, Vegas is nothing like it was in the old days.”
He helps me up onto the stage, leading me toward the center, where a huge, heavy block of wood sits alone, almost as high as my waist. The top of it is rough, crisscrossed with grooves, and stained a dark, unsettling brown.
“What is it?” I ask, running my fingers over the gouged surface.
“It was the finale to a very popular magic act. A pair of demons with a rare and quite appalling gift would cut themselves in half. Then, to the wonder of the audience, they would join the severed halves together again, not always being particular about whose parts were whose.” His expression suggests that the notion is distasteful.
“What happened to the show? Did they retire?”
Beelzebub shakes his head, looking out at all the empty seats. “They died. They got accustomed to living on Earth, and when it was clear that they had no intention of leaving, Azrael had them slaughtered, and he had every single one of the wretched demons who ran the theater destroyed. I’m showing you this because you need to understand that Dark Dreadful is real. She’s incredibly dangerous, and if she catches you, she will
kill
you.”
“I know,” I say, and my voice is so low and hard that I almost don’t recognize myself. “I’m not stupid.”
Beelzebub nods heavily, lowering himself to sit on the edge of the stage. After a second, I sit down next to him.
“I can make you a door,” he says. “I can send you home right now, safe and sound. We’ve got ways of finding Obie, if you’ll just let me take care of it.”
But I know with grim certainty that he can’t. If he hasn’t found Obie by now, he’s not going to. He doesn’t have Truman’s dreams. He doesn’t know about the church.
When he says he’ll take care of it, he’s telling me the thing I wanted to hear more than anything, but it’s too late now. I’ve seen Obie on the table. I stood over Myra’s body, looked into her dead eyes, and these are things he can’t fix. I reach into my pocket and drop her bracelet on the stage between us.
Beelzebub looks mild and quizzical in the footlights, squinting down at all the little vials. “What is this?”
“It was Myra’s. I know you want me to go before things get bad, but they’re bad already. Dark Dreadful’s been here, so don’t tell me that everything is under control or that Obie’s going to be fine. I saw her body. Nothing is fine.”
Beelzebub runs his fingers over SLOTH, AVARICE, ENVY. He doesn’t say anything for a long time. The sins lie spread out on the stage between us.
“Was it horrible?” he says finally.
“No,” I tell him, staring down at the bracelet, remembering. The threadbare blanket, the crown of thorns. I knelt over her in the dirt, but it doesn’t devastate me. It doesn’t feel like anything.
I expect him to tell me I must be wrong, that I’m just reacting badly to the discovery of Myra’s body. In shock, maybe. I realize with a kind of unhappy surprise that it’s what I want to hear, but he doesn’t say it. His face is sober and I can see that in some way, I’ve disappointed him by my failure to feel grief.
He nods heavily. “Then you really are your mother’s child.”
“Yes,” I say, because there’s no denying it. I’ve always been my mother’s child.
The theater is still and empty. The spectacle is gone now. A pair of minor demons will never stand in the pale glow of the spotlight, never cut each other in half and join together again.
Beelzebub glances over at me. “I appreciate your determination, you know. But it’s not going to do your brother an ounce of good if you end up dead.”
I nod. He’s right, but not in the comforting, authoritative way that proves everything is under control. He’s right in a way that makes me feel tiny and helpless, like something terrible is coming.
“I guess I have to let you make your own decisions,” he says finally, and his voice is soft and almost sorrowful. “But remember, if Dark Dreadful comes for you, there’s no way to protect yourself and there will be no one here to help you.”
“I’ll be all right,” I say, because sometimes saying something aloud is enough to make it feel true.
Beelzebub nods and in the dim glow of the footlights, his expression is stark. He sits looking down at me with grave, troubled eyes, and I know he’s not convinced.
THE PAIN TREE
CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
B
y the time I get back to the room, Truman is already there. On television, the screen is flashing ads for fabric softener and convenience foods. Raymie is in her box with a blanket over her head, like she does when she’s thinking about something or wants to pretend she’s a rabbit.
I sit down on the velvet couch with my knees pulled up. Truman is on the bed, leaning against the headboard and staring at the mirrored ceiling. His arms are bare and I realize that since last night, he hasn’t been so vigilant about wearing long sleeves. I watch the contour of his lower lip and don’t realize that I’m doing it until he glances at me. The look he gives me is puzzled and I feel like I’ve been caught doing something shameful.
“Are you okay?” he says, standing up.
I want to tell him that I’m fine, but his gaze is tender and something catches in my throat, so I look away, hugging my knees.
“What’s wrong?” he says, coming over to the couch. He drops down next to me and then moves closer. “Did you get in trouble or something?”
I shake my head, struggling to put voice to the thing that Beelzebub told me about myself.
“What’s wrong, then?”
“I wasn’t sad when Myra died.” The admission is thin and high-pitched, this tiny, shameful thing.
For a moment, Truman just looks at me, looks into my face like he’s seeing the coldness and the guilt there. When he speaks though, his tone is kind. “Sad can look a lot of different ways. You don’t have to cry or make a big scene just to prove you’re sad. I know it when I see it.”
“How?” I say. “How can someone be sad without knowing?”
He doesn’t answer. Our heads are close together and he leans in. His eyes are the palest, clearest blue, irises patterned with tiny cracks, like glass covered in hairline fractures. He smells like smoke and something warm and spicy.
“Daphne—” Then he stops. His voice is hoarse, suddenly. Cracked.
He opens his mouth, just a little, and maybe I’m not prophetic, but I know what’s going to happen. His eyes are uncommonly transparent. They make it so easy to see the ache in him. It waits in the hollow of his chest, in the dark space between his lips. I can almost taste it.
He leans closer and I twist away and slide off the couch, keeping my head turned so I won’t see how he looks at me.
In the bathroom, the light fixtures are shaped like brass tulips, jutting out in a row above the long mirror. I drape a bath towel over them so it hangs down in front of the glass and I won’t have to see Lilith.
Then I turn on the taps and stand at the sink with the water rushing down the drain. The sound helps me block out my tingling hands. The towel blocks out my reflection, how it seemed to stare back at me with naive reproach.
Water pours into the sink and I’m leaning over it with my eyes closed when Truman knocks softly on the half-closed door. Then, when I don’t answer, he pushes it open.
“Daphne.” His voice is low and hesitant. “Please, I need to talk to you.”
I turn off the faucet and the room is suddenly very quiet. “Don’t.”
If he reaches for me, I know that I won’t be able to resist it. He’ll kiss me and I will let him. I’ll kiss him back. I won’t be any better than my sisters with their hungry smiles. I will know for sure who I am, and it’s someone I don’t want to be.
He crosses the room and turns me gently by the shoulders. When he touches me, I feel my blood get strange, too hot and like it’s moving faster. He runs his finger along my cheek and I breathe out because if I don’t, I think my bones will break.
His hand is warm against my skin, cupping my shoulder, and inside, my blood is racing—racing until I’m sure that I won’t be able to stand it any longer. I need him to stop just so I can breathe without suffocating.
When I jerk away, he looks hurt but unsurprised. In a moment, he’ll leave—walk out, and then the room will feel big enough again and I can go back to being calm and separate. Safe.
Instead, he puts his arms around me and pulls me close. “Hey,” he says against my ear. “Hey, what’s wrong?”
“If I kiss you, I might ruin your life.” My voice is so small. “I might take all the parts that are worth something. Anything that makes you human. My sisters do it all the time.”
When he shakes his head, his cheek brushes mine. “I don’t care.”
He slides his hand to the back of my neck, tangling his fingers in my hair. His heart is beating hard against my body, thudding in my chest. It almost feels like mine.
His mouth against my ear is warm and I can feel him breathing. “You have no idea how much I don’t care.”
“I’ll see you,” I whisper. “Not just your sadness or your scars, but really see you. Everything about you.”
Truman lets me go. Stepping back, he gazes down into my face. Then he nods. “Okay.” He stands in front of me with his arms at his sides, held a little away from himself. Offering.
When I lift his shirt, I do it slowly. His skin is soft-looking and I touch him because he’s beautiful and because, because I want so badly just to touch him.
His arms are wiry, but well-defined. Muscular. He stands in front of the porcelain tub, bare-chested, jeans low on his hipbones. His smile is cautious, and all his normal impatience and his irony are gone. “How do I look?”
“Beautiful.”
He glances away shyly, shaking his head. “Do I get to see you?”

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