The Snow Child: A Novel (32 page)

But the child was gone.

Mabel lowered herself into a chair, hands clasped in her lap.

“Doesn’t she understand that we love her?”

Jack went to the open door. It was a clear, calm night, the moon shining through the branches. He saw the child at the edge of the forest. She had stopped and was looking back at the cabin. Then she turned away and, as she began to run, she shook her hands out from her sides in a gesture of frustration. Snow began to swirl.

Snow devils. That’s what they had called them as children.
Wind-churned funnels of snow, almost like white tornados, but these had sprung from the child’s hands.

The girl vanished into the forest, but the snow devils circled and circled and grew. Jack watched in wonder, fear even. The snow churned toward the cabin, growing and circling, until it consumed everything. The yard darkened. The moonlight disappeared. The wind howled and the snow whipped at Jack’s pant legs.

Into the night, the snowstorm beat itself against the cabin, and sleep would not come to Jack. He lay staring at the log ceiling of their bedroom and felt Mabel’s warm body against his. He could wake her, slide his hands beneath her nightgown and kiss the back of her neck, but he was too distracted even for that. He forced his eyes closed and tried to stop his brain from spinning. He rolled from one side to the other, then climbed out of bed. He fumbled until he was in the kitchen. He lit a lantern, dimmed it as far as he could, and took the book down from the shelf. At the table, he turned the pages of illustrations and foreign letters.

He did not notice Mabel until she sat down in the chair opposite him. Her hair was loose and untidy and her face creased from where it had pressed into the pillowcase.

“What are you doing awake?” she asked.

He looked down at the book. “It is strange, isn’t it?”

“What?” she asked, her voice hushed as if there were others to wake.

“The child we made out of snow. That night. The mittens and scarf. Then Faina. Her blond hair. And that way about her.”

“What are you saying?”

Jack caught himself.

“I must still be half asleep,” he said. He closed the book and gave her a small smile. “My brain’s muddled.” He hadn’t convinced her, but she stood, straightened her nightgown, and returned to the bedroom.

Jack waited until he heard her crawl into bed, pull the covers up, and then, after some time, breathe the deep, slow breaths of sleep. He opened the book again, this time to a picture of the snow maiden among forest animals, snowflakes falling through the blue-black sky above them.

He had said too much, but not as much as he could have. He hadn’t told Mabel about the snow devils, or about how Faina had scattered a snowfall like ashes on her father’s grave. He didn’t tell her how, as she stood over the grave, snow fluttered against the child’s skin as if she were made of cold glass. The flakes did not melt on her cheeks. They did not dampen her eyelashes. They rested there like snow on ice until they were stirred away by a breeze.

T
he boy’s brought you something, Mabel.”

Jack opened the cabin door wider so Garrett could follow with his bundle, wrapped in leather and tied with a string of rawhide. It tucked easily under the boy’s arm, and it didn’t look to have the stiffness or bulk of a dead animal. All the same, maybe he should have asked before letting Garrett bring it inside.

“Well, good morning. Come in. Come in.” Mabel wiped her hands on her apron and tucked a few strands of hair behind her ear. “Would you like something hot to drink?”

“Yes, thank you.”

“So how’s trapping?” Jack asked.

“I’m just getting the sets out now. But Old Man Boyd said I could have his marten line. He’s retiring down to San Francisco.”

“Is that so?”

“I guess he found a small run of gold in a creek up north, and now he’s set. Says he wants some warm sun for his old bones.”

“Are you running his line, then?”

“Not yet. But it won’t be long. He’s got all the poles in place.
And he’s selling me his number-one long-springs. Says he won’t be trapping anything but good-looking women in California.”

Mabel was taking coffee mugs out of the cupboard and didn’t seem to be listening, but the boy flushed a sudden red. “I mean… that’s just what he…”

“Is it a long trail, his trapline?” Jack asked.

“It’ll take me two days to check it. I’ve got a wall tent I’ll put up so I can stay overnight when the weather’s bad.”

“Are you frightened?” Mabel asked from where she stood at the window.

The question seemed to confuse the boy.

“When you’re out there, alone in the woods,” she said, “aren’t you frightened?”

“No. I can’t say that I am.”

Mabel was quiet.

“I mean, I suppose I’ve been scared a few times,” Garrett said. “But not for no reason. Fall before last, I had a black bear act like he was hunting me. Followed me all the way home, but I couldn’t ever get a clear shot at him. I never saw anything like it. I’d holler at him, try to chase him off, and I’d think he was gone. But then I’d see the top of his head through the shrubs. All the way home it was like that.”

“But bears don’t usually go after people,” Jack said with a glance toward Mabel.

“Oh, sometimes. You hear about that miner down toward Anchorage? Grizzly bear took his face right off.”

Jack frowned at the boy. Mabel was stiff and silent at the window.

“Oh, sure. I mean, that’s not real common, though,” the boy fumbled. “Most often a bear will hightail it in another direction.”

“But are you lonely?” Still Mabel did not face them as she spoke.

“Ma’am?”

“Lonely. When you are all alone in the wilderness, there must be something terrible about it.”

“Well, I don’t spend all that much time in the woods by myself. I’d like to. Longest I’ve been gone is a week, when I went salmon fishing downriver last summer. And I liked it just fine. I fished all day and sometimes all night ’cause the sun never went down. I dried and smoked the fish on alder poles. That was the first time I saw a mink. It came down a creek and tried to steal a whole salmon right from under my nose. I was laughing too hard to take a shot at it. It was tugging and dragging that salmon away as fast as it could go.”

“But if you have a safe, warm home with a family, why would you want to be out there?”

The boy hesitated and looked to Jack.

“I don’t know,” he said with a shrug. “I guess maybe I don’t want to be warm and safe. I want to live.”

“Live? Isn’t this living?” She let out a long sigh.

No one spoke again until she came to the table with the pot of coffee, and it was as if the boy had just arrived. “So now you’re here. And what’s this you’ve brought?” she asked.

Garrett’s face brightened, and he turned bashful.

“Well, I uh, well…” and he pushed it across the table toward her. “It’s for you.”

“Shall I open it, then?”

The boy nodded, and Mabel untied the string and folded back the leather. Inside, Jack saw fox fur. Silver and black.

Mabel was expressionless as she touched it with the tips of her fingers.

“It’s a hat. See?” And the boy took it from her and lightly punched it from beneath, so the crown stood up.

“Betty sewed it for you. It’s got earflaps you can tie on top, like this, or you can pull them down and tie it under your chin.”

He gave it back to Mabel, who turned it slowly in her hands.

“I hope it fits. We used my mom’s head to measure.”

“I can’t… I can’t accept this.”

The boy’s face fell.

“It’s all right,” he mumbled. “If you don’t like it.”

“Mabel.” Jack put a hand on her arm.

“It’s not that,” she said. “It’s too much.”

“It didn’t cost me a dime. I traded her out in furs.”

“It’s too fine. I have no place to wear it.”

“But it’s nothing fancy,” the boy said. “Trappers wear them. You don’t have to save it for trips to town or anything. It’s warm.”

“Try it on, Mabel,” Jack said quietly.

He wasn’t ready for the effect. As Mabel pulled it down and tied the strings beneath her chin, the dense black fur, tipped brilliantly in silver, framed her face, and her eyes shone gray-soft and her skin looked like warm cream. She was stunning. Neither he nor the boy said a word but only stared.

“Well! The way you two gawk, I guess it must not suit me,” she said and tugged off the hat in an angry fluster.

“It suits you fine,” Jack said.

“You could be in one of those fashion magazines from Back East,” the boy jumped in. “And I’m not just saying it, either.”

“He’s right. It suits you better than fine.”

“You’re not just flattering me?” She touched her hair with one hand.

“Put it back on, so we can see again,” Jack said.

“It does fit well,” she said, “as if it were tailored for me. And it is warm.”

Jack stood and showed her how to tie the flaps up so that it fit like a Russian fur hat.

“I guess I’ll be the finest-dressed farmer’s wife you ever saw,” she said.

Mabel sent the boy home with several books from her trunks. When he had gone, she sat by the woodstove reading. Jack came up behind her and softly touched the nape of her neck.

“You’re tickling me,” she said and brushed distractedly at his hand.

“I think the boy was smitten with you in that hat.”

“Don’t be silly,” she said. “I’m an old woman.”

“You’re still beautiful. And you don’t seem to mind it being made of fox. I’d thought you’d object.”

“It is practical. I’ll be warmer with it.”

W
here were you, child?

Just now? I was at the river. That’s where I found this.

In her hand, Faina held a wind-dried salmon skull. Mabel was trying to draw it, first this way, then that.

No. Not just now. Always. This past summer. Where did you go then?

To the mountains.

Why? What is there for you?