With an inner sigh, Alex changed tack, a wry smile on her face. "I fear, my lord, you are too easy to speak with. I should not share so much of my thinking. I must be boring you."
"Not at
all
, my lady." The Frenchman looked distractedly into the distance, lost in thought. "The elder earl was a fine man
—
a great hero. I'm sorry to hear of his loss."
"You are not alone. He was much revered by those who knew him
well
."
"May I ask ... ?" The question hung in the air between them, th
e normal
y poised baron seeming uncertain of the proper etiquette in this particular situation.
Alex took pity on him and did not wait for him to finish his query. She knew what he was asking. With a tiny nod, she spoke. "It was an accident
—
the earl was thrown from his horse at the Blackmoor estate. He
fell
to his death." Without thinking, she continued, "One almost cannot believe that it was an accident." She waved a hand in dismissal at his surprised look. "It's
silly
, of course. The earl had few, if any, enemies."
Alex couldn't help but notice that the old man had gone white as a sheet. "Baron, are you
all
right?" She looked back with alarm toward Vivi and
Ella
.
"I am quite
well
, yes, my lady. Unfortunately, the hour grows late, and I must regret
full
y take my leave." Bowing low to the trio of girls, he made quick work of his farew
ell a
nd hurried off, as though he couldn't get away fast enough.
His abrupt decision to depart underscored his obvious discomfort with Alex's frank conversation. She watched his speedy exit across the greensward, feeling slightly sorry for herself and, with a sigh, turned back toward the little group on the
hill
.
Hearing Penelope's giggles and the boys' laughter, she had a sudden desire to be far away from there, far away from that place that required so much effort, so much thought. She found herself exhausted by the entire charade of this first week
in society. She had always known it would be a struggle to be the perfect company
—
to say
all
the proper things without appearing too opinionated, too frank, too much herself
—
but now, watching her friends and her brothers laugh and joke together,
all
so seamlessly integrated into their roles as members of London society, she couldn't help but wonder if there was something wrong with her.
She watched as Blackmoor leaned in to say something just out of earshot to Penelope, and felt a flash of irritation as she responded with a
well
-practiced demure smile and shy dip of her head.
Ugh.
Yes. Alex had definitely had enough of society for today.
She
caught Stanhope's eye and, gall
ant as ever, he stood and moved toward her. "Are you unwel
l
, Lady Alexandra?"
She couldn't stop herself from looking past his broad shoulders, from meeting Blackmoor's unreadable gaze as he looked up from his cards, distracted for a moment. A warning flashed ever so briefly in his grey eyes
—
gone so quickly that Alex might have imagined it.
She ignored it anyway and replied, "Not at
all
, my lord. Just a slight headache. I think I
shall
return home, and by tonight, I should be right as rain. Would you mind very much escorting me to Worthington House? I wouldn't like to ruin the afternoon for everyone else."
Fear was foul company.
especially
at night.
He prowled his darkened apartments, playing his actions over and over in his mind, desperately attempting to find some misstep that, when rectified, would bring him closer to the answers for which he was searching. He had to find out what the new earl knew.
His lip curled in an unconscious sneer as he paced the floor. He now knew from multiple sources that the young pup remained unconvinced that his father's death was an accident, and that Blackmoor continued to search for evidence of foul play. He was unconcerned about information that the boy might find in the public record about that cold January day. It was easy enough, after
all
, to bribe a local constable or two. Instead, he worried that young Blackmoor's search would turn up information uncovered by the former earl... information that w
ould reveal his part in the vill
ainy. Information that would indict him not simply for murder
—
but for treason as
well
.
Turning to a looking glass, he stared at his reflection, noting the paleness of his skin, the sunken state of his eyes. It had been an eternity since he had slept through the night, unplagued by the demons that haunted him in the darkness. He had been able to take a
small
pleasure
in Blackmoor's death ... but now, as this suffocating blackness surrounded him, he found little comfort. He was becoming consumed by fear from all
sides
—
fear of the powerful men to whom he answered, who were losing their patience with each passing day, who would soon be unwilling to hear his
excuses and would take their revenge by any means necessary ... including blood.
He swore fiercely and, with force borne of frustration, lifted a candelabra from a nearby table and hurled it at his reflection, embracing the sound of
shattering glass
—
enjoying the way he looked in the fractured mirror. He saw himself repeated in each shard and, for the first time in months, felt as
though he were not alone.
Events beyond his control were taking place across the Continent. Napoleon was pressing north and war was again imminent. Time was running
out. If he didn't find answers for his powerful partners, he would lose everything for which he had worked. He was left with little choice
—
not that he was
saddened by what he knew he must do next. He could not let another Earl of Blackmoor ruin his well-laid plans. No, he must prevent that at all costs,
by any means necessary. If the young earl knew anything, he would soon share it... or pay the price.
He smiled wickedly into the broken mirror, then spoke aloud.
"Let's not fool ourselves. The brat will pay the price no matter what he knows."
***
"It's hard to believe my hair can do this!" Alex was unable to keep the wonder from her voice as she craned her neck to see the back of her head in the candlelit mirror of her bedchamber. "Of course," she continued drily, "it's hard to believe that much about this picture is the product of nature."
It was the evening of the first Worthington House dinner of the season
—
an affair renowned by those lucky enough to receive an invitation, and Alex's first formal dinner of the season. For some reason, tonight's festivities made the thought of eating the evening meal in the home she'd known
all
her life somewhat unnerving. Her reflection did little to change that.
Wrapped in another of Madame Fernaud's masterpieces, this time a pale pink silk that
fell
in luxurious waves to matching silk slippers, Alex had just been released from Eliza's highly
skilled
hands, her hair now twisted and tucked and pinned and curled in an intricate design that left her long neck exposed in one of the most fashionable styles of the season.
Alex couldn't help but feel that
all
this elaborate pampering was rather unnecessary
— especially
considering she'd known most of those who planned to be in attendance for the great majority of her lifetime
—
but she'd already learned in this short season to pick her battles with her mother. And this was not one into which she was
willing
to enter.
A knock on her bedchamber door snapped her from her thoughts. She
called
out for her vi
sitor to enter, and smiled brill
iantly when she saw her father reflected in the mirror. Standing, she turned toward him, dropped into an exaggerated curtsy, and, smiling broadly, said, "Your Grace. I trust I pass inspection?"
He chuckled at her use of the ducal address and offered her a hand to lift her from her position. Tilting his head, he answered in a voice rich with humor.
"Far be it from me to answer that particular question. I wouldn't dare risk removing that opinion from the purview of the duchess. You know that." Lowering his voice to a conspiratorial whisper, he continued, "Suffice to say, my lady, that I believe you are the most beautiful of my offspring."
Alex burst into laughter and leaned up to kiss her father's cheek.
«Well
said ... ever the diplomat. Although I rather think it shouldn't be that difficult to be the most beautiful when compared to the hulking brutes you
call
sons."
"Not diplomacy at
all
, daughter. You look lovely. And, sadly, very grown up. When did you get so
tall
?"
Alex was just a few inches from her father's height, and she smiled at the question. "Strong Stafford blood, of course, Father. Are you certain we're not descended from the Vikings?"
"Looking at the four of you, one does wonder. But then there is I, the diminutive duke ... pathetica
ll
y
small
and not at
all
Norse." He spoke with exaggerated self-pity to gain a laugh from his daughter, then changed the subject. "Are you ready for your entrance at your first Worthington House dinner?
Wrinkling her nose, Alex replied, "I'm afraid as ready as ever. I'm surprised you came to fetch me instead of Mother. I would have thought she'd want to appraise my appearance."
"Your mother is busy making last-minute changes to the seating arrangements to ensure complete perfection."
He paused as Alex
rolled
her eyes. "And, as the Duke of Worthington, it
fall
s to me to escort the most beautiful young lady at the gathering to the festivities."
Alex smiled. "Ah, you forget, Father, that I am a graduate of an obscene number of hours of instruction in Proper Conversation, which includes the voluminous rules and regulations regarding dinners and escorts. I know you lie. Your job, as the host, is to escort the highest-ranking lady to the festivities." She queried innocently, "Perhaps you would like for me to arrange a refresher course for you?"
"Ah, but
you
forget, daughter. The best part of being a duke is that one can change the rules at one's whim ... and no one dares disagree."
"An
excellent
benefit."
"I've always thought so.
shall
we go?" He offered an arm for his daughter, then stopped as she took hold of it. "Wait. I've forgotten something."
From his coat pocket, he removed a long string of jewels and held it up for Alex to see. She gasped and looked at her father incredulously.
"Grandmother's sapphires?" She couldn't help herself from reaching for the stunning strand of pink sapphires. "But, Father ... they were so much a
part of her ... they're virtuall
y iconic. I don't think ..."
"Nonsense. Your grandmother was headstrong and
brilliant
and took the
ton
by storm. I'm told she spent her first season breaking a score of hearts and boldly inserting her opinion where it wasn't desired. Frankly, you remind me entirely of her, and she would be as proud of you tonight as I am. She'd want you to make your debut at a Worthington salon in these. Of that, I am certain." And then, with the regal tone perfected by years of expecting
all
within earshot to do the ducal bidding, he ordered, "Turn around."
She did, and soon felt the cool weight of the necklace that had been so integral a part of her grandmother. Turning toward the mirror, she caught a glimpse of someone she barely recognized.
Was that really she?
The duke nodded firmly at the reflection. "Now you're ready to make your appearance as the Stafford you are."
There was something about the moment that struck deep at the core of her, something that
filled
her heart with equal parts nervousness and pride
—
nervousness at the responsibility she had not just to her father or her mother, but to a line of remarkable, honorable men and women who could be traced back to the earliest days of Britain, and pride that she had such a noble line to
call
her own. Taking her father's arm, she made a silent vow to try her best to make them proud.
***
There was a reason why an invitation to a Worthington House dinner was one of the most highly coveted of the season. They had been hosted for years, in a tradition that had been handed down from duchess to duchess for generations. On these evenings, the enormous dining table at Worthington House was
filled
with the most impressively titled members of London
society,
as well as
with those deemed most interesting. This, of course, infuriated any who held an ancient title or an obscenely large estate and were left off the invitation list...
all
the while making the invitation itself one that was not to be declined.
Over centuries, the dinners had been attended by some of the most
well
-known and
well
-respected people in history, from playwrights and poets to politicians and royalty and everyone in between. Family lore spoke of one such dinner that had hosted
William
Shakespeare and Queen Elizabeth
—
legend had it that it was on this particular evening that the Queen had commissioned a play from Shakespeare for the royal Twelfth Night festivities, resulting in one of the playwright's most famous comedies. The proof? The then Duke and Duchess of Worthington were Seb
astian and Olivia, coincidentall
y the names of two of the play's main characters, who
fall
deeply in love.
Alex had heard the story countless times and never entirely believed it, finding it a little too outlandish for her taste, but tonight she was coming close to changing her opinion. Looking around her, she saw that this evening her mother had outdone herself. In a far corner, the Duke of Sunderland, revered for his ability to raise the best racing horses in England, was being introduced to Marcus Sinew, the common-born publisher of the
Times,
who was rumored to be one of the smartest and most charming businessmen in
all
of England. By contrast, the Duchess of Sunderland, a powerful voice in the movement to stop child labor, was receiving a young member of Parliament who was expected to become prime minister in his sure-to-be-impressive future.
Everywhere she turned, amidst impeccably mannered servants laden with refreshments, people with vastly different but fascinating
skill
s were deep in conversation
—
laughing, chattering, and enjoying themselves. There was no inane flirting nor boring discussion of fashion or livestock. No, these were the thinkers and doers of London society. Her mother had achieved what few other hostesses could boast
—
frank, exciting, honest conversation with fascinating company, and Alex was relieved by how comfortable she felt in the room.
She took a tiny sip of her champagne and soaked in the atmosphere. Across the room, she saw
Ella
in a heated conversation with
will
and Vivi's father, the Marquess of Langford. She smiled at the clear admiration on the men's faces, realizing that the trio must be talking politics ... and
Ella
was clearly holding her own.
A rumbling from her stomach interrupted her thoughts. Attempting to be subtle, Alex looked toward the ancient clock at the end of the room and wondered when dinner might begin.
"Hungry?"
A blush rose on her cheeks as she turned to meet Blackmoor's amused gaze. "You caught me. I'm famished
—
but you mustn't
tell
my mother. Ladies aren't supposed to
have physical needs. Or, at least, they're not supposed to express them."
"I see.
well
, then, I
shall
endeavor to keep your mind off the one at hand."
She gazed at him, taking notice of his handsome frame. He was wearing a stunning coat, a deep midnight blue so dark it was almost black. The crisp white of his shirt and cravat brought out the bronze of his skin and the blue-grey of his eyes
—
so serious and adult. But deep in his eyes, beneath his hardened exterior, she saw a hint of the same boy who'd been her savior her whole life. She let out a tiny sigh. Frankly, it was exhausting to argue with him
—
she rather missed him. The
challenge
of the season, combined with the demons she was sure he was fighting, had gotten the better of them both.
She was about to say something
all
uding to that when he spoke, his tone clear and earnest. "We seem to have started off this season on the wrong foot."
She was flooded with relief that he shared her sentiments. "Exactly my thoughts, my lord." Their gazes locked, clear green and rich grey, and Alex felt warmth rising in her cheeks at the honesty of the moment. Theirs was a friendship which
—
until recently
—
had never been strained, had never been complicated; it had always been
filled with fun and humor and sil
iness. She
still
hadn't a thorough grasp on how or why it seemed to be undergoing such an oddly emotional change. Did he understand?
"I am
thrilled
we are in accord.
shall
we swear a truce?"
Clearly he was less concerned about their changing relationship than she was, and now certainly wasn't the time to discuss it anyway.
falling
back on the comfort of humor, Alex cocked her head, pretending to consider the proposition seriously. He laughed, attracting attention from the other guests, and whispered, "Minx."
Alex rewarded him with a grin and
all
was forgiven
—
her rudeness to Penelope, his arrogance, their mutual distractions over the past several weeks.
They shared a moment
filled
with silent pleasure, a moment lasting just long enough to once again raise the color on Alex's cheeks.
The dinner chimes rang, interrupting their private moment, and Alex, despite years of training in the proper method of being escorted to dinner was suddenly lost ... a stranger in her own home. She watched as those around them paired off
—
highest-ranking men with their highest-ranked female counterparts
—
and she felt panic begin to rise in her chest as she realized she had no idea where her place was in this moment. Who was to escort her into dinner?
Her father was escorting the Dowager Duchess of Lockwood into the dining
hall
; he was
followed
by her mother, escorted by the Duke of Sunderland.
She watched as Vivi and
Ella
both took the arms of their escorts
—
no help there, as the gentlemen in question were
will
and Nick. She couldn't be accompanied to dinner by Kit
—
he was her brother. It was like watching an elaborate dance to which she had forgotten the steps
—
she knew she should have given more attention to her governess's droning.
Her mother was going to have her hide. Perhaps she could beg off and cry headache
—
- that would solve the whole problem.
Lost in her own mental hysterics, Alex had forgotten Blackmoor, standing at her side. Turning, she saw his calm smile
—
he was clearly amused by her panic. He waited for her to realize what he'd known
all
along ... that he, as an unrelated earl, was a perfectly proper escort for the daughter of a duke.
With a sigh of relief, she took the arm he offered, whispering, "That was cruel. I thought you declared a truce?"
As they made their way to dinner, he replied, "On the contrary. I
offered
a truce. You did not accept."
"Mere words, sir."
"That may be. But this is London in season
—
words are paramount."
She chuckled. "Either way, I must thank you
—
you seem to be ever saving me from getting myself into trouble."
With an exaggerated sigh, he replied, "It's a task I resigned myself to long ago, Alex."
She couldn't help but think of the first time he'd saved her. "Lucky for you, you don't have to catch me jumping from trees anymore. I daresay your more recent missions have been rather more easy."
"I wouldn't be so
certain," he spoke enigmaticall
y.
She didn't have a chance to ask him what he meant, because they had arrived in the dining
hall
and were immediately swept up in the energy of the conversation and the extraordinary food.
Alex found herself seated at the far end of the table, to the left of the Marquess of Langford, sure to be a fascinating dinner companion. It didn't hurt that he was the father of one of her closest friends, which served to put her at ease. She sent a silent offering of thanks to her mother for the seating arrangement. On her left was Mr. Sinew, whom she almost immediately decided she liked
—
the newspaper publisher was clearly
intelligent
and unpretentious, a welcome change to most members of the
ton.
Across the table was Lady Charlotte Twizzleton, a
brilliant
woman who, at the age of six and twenty, was considered very much "on the shelf" and who very much didn't seem to care. Instead, she had traveled the world, attended salons with the greatest minds of the era, and spent her days talking with whomever she chose about whatever she chose.
Alex had always found Lady Charlotte a particular inspiration and she was pleased to note that, while the duchess was clearly obsessed with seeing her only daughter married off without delay, it didn't seem to have diminished her admiration for such a freethinking young woman ... or else why seat Alex near such a risky influence?
Vivi and
Ella
were seated farther away, a fact that Alex noted with slight disappointment, but she threw herself into the vibrant conversation, which ran a gamut of fascinating topics, from art to politics to the ever-present war. Her excitement and interest in the discussion were soon joined by the remarkable realization that these particular gentlemen seemed
actually
to listen to the opinions of the women around them! What was this strange new world that her parents had been hiding from her?
Turning, Alex looked down the table at her mother, who was holding court at the end of the room. She watched with fascination as the duchess said something witty, garnering a round of laughter from her companions. She caught Alex's eye over the feast laid out between them, and with a slow nod of acknowledgment, she shared a knowing look with her youngest child, as if to say,
Your mother isn't all she seems, is she?
Alex felt admiration burst in her chest. For
all
her frustrating qualities, her mother certainly was a remarkable hostess. For the second time that night, she felt very proud to be a Stafford ... and very honored to have received an invitation to this particular gathering.