Read The Legacy: Making Wishes Come True Online
Authors: Lurlene McDaniel
He followed her line of vision. Far in the distance, he saw the lights of Boston Harbor, and beyond
that, the dark expanse that he knew was the sea. “Very different.”
“I wonder how we look to God. I wonder if he sees us from a different perspective, the way I can see the kids down there. I know so much about them. I know how they feel and what they want. It’s an odd sensation.” She shook her head to clear out her thoughts and glanced up at Richard’s face. Everything inside her yearned to press her lips to his, but she lacked the nerve.
Richard gazed down at Jenny. It took every ounce of his self-control not to kiss her. He knew if he did, their relationship would be forever changed. She’d know his passion, and then there’d be no returning to the safety of their childhood friendship. He feared she might not want to handle the added pressure. Nor would it be fair to require her to deal with their intensified relationship and cancer too. He took a long, shaky breath. “We’ll have this summer to make up for last one. It’ll be like old times, all right?”
“Sure. Just like old times.” She didn’t want old times. She wanted him to see her as a woman, not as a girl who was sick. She wanted
him
with all her heart. The Ferris wheel lurched and began to coast downward toward the ground, toward her everyday life.
“Looks like our time’s up,” he said, “Twenty minutes wasn’t long enough. I’ll have to remember that if I ever get you alone again.”
Alone
. The word echoed in her head as the wheel stopped at the bottom and Richard flashed a knowing grin. Her friends would be leaving soon, and so would Richard. Jenny would once again be alone.
* * *
Boston’s Logan Airport teemed with people returning from Easter vacation. “You two write to me,” Elaine said. “I’m going to miss you both so much.” She glanced over her shoulder to the doorway where people were boarding the flight to Burlington, Vermont.
“We will,” Kimbra told her.
“Maybe we can get together one time before we go back to school,” Jenny suggested.
“I can’t.” Elaine said. “My parents are sending me to a cancer camp. I’d rather do something with you all, but Mom’s making me go.”
“You’ll have fun,” Jenny said halfheartedly. She glanced up and waved. “There’s Richard. I guess he finally got the car parked.”
“My car keys set off the security alarm, and the security guards had to frisk me,” he explained as he reached them. “I’m glad I got here in time to see you off, Elaine.”
“You take good care of our friend here,” Elaine said, sniffing back tears.
His arm circled Jenny’s waist. “No problem.”
After another round of hugs, Elaine hurried to join the line of passengers. Jenny turned to Kimbra. “You’re next.”
“My gate’s down that way.” Kimbra pointed.
The three of them arrived at the gate for the plane to Baltimore just as the first boarding call was announced. “I’m glad you came,” Jenny told her friend.
“I had a great time. Your grandmother’s something else—there’s nothing she wouldn’t do for you, you know.”
“I know.” Now Jenny felt like bursting into tears. She hated saying good-bye. At least Richard would
be around for one more day. She couldn’t bear having everyone abandon her at once. “You have fun at that basketball camp.”
Kimbra leaned closer. “You have fun in Martha’s Vineyard this summer.” She lowered her voice to a whisper, and continued, “And let’s try and get some action going with the hunk. You know how I count on my friends to help me live romantically through them.”
“There’s someone out there just for you, Kimbra. I know there is.”
“Well, I hope this is the year he finds me.” The final boarding call was announced. “Thanks for spreading some of your money around, Jen. I really had a ball.”
“There’s more where that came from. Maybe we can do something wild and crazy during the holidays, since we didn’t get to do anything last year.”
“Such as?”
“It’s so cold here. Maybe we could all go to Florida.”
“Florida!” Kimbra grinned broadly. “Lead me on. We’ll look like anemic cucumbers.”
The two of them laughed. “What’s so funny?” Richard asked.
“Salad,” Jenny answered. He looked perplexed, and she and Kimbra giggled. Yet once Kimbra was on the plane and she and Richard were driving home through the snarl of traffic in the Logan Airport tunnel, Jenny felt a lump rise in her throat.
“You okay?” Richard asked, glancing sideways.
“I miss them already.”
“Sounds as if you’ll all be pretty busy over the summer. Think about going out to the Cape. Things will be different for you this summer.”
She knew what he said was true. This summer she could catch up on all the things she missed out on the year before. “You know, the one good thing that came out of this misery has been meeting them. They’re the best friends I’ve ever had.” She sighed and leaned against the headrest in Richard’s father’s Mercedes-Benz. “Noreen too. I miss her every day.”
He reached over and took her hand. “Once I come home from college in June, the first thing we’ll do is go sailing. We’ll pack a picnic lunch, go to the cave and then out on the water. Would you like that?”
“Of course.”
“Then think about that. Don’t be depressed over what you can’t change.”
What he said made sense. Nothing could bring Noreen back, and she still had Elaine, Kimbra, and Richard. She squeezed his hand in return. “Write me. I like getting your letters.”
“I’ll write. You can count on it.” He drove back to her grandmother’s holding her hand.
Jenny shifted nervously in the chair in Dr. Gallagher’s office. “What’s taking him so long? How long does it take for him to go over my dumb lab reports?”
“Calm down, dear,” her grandmother said soothingly. “Maybe he was paged. He’s got a hospital full of patients, and you’re an outpatient, so sick people get attended to first.”
Jenny chewed her lip. With only two weeks left before they went out to the summer house, she was especially tense.
Don’t let anything spoil this summer
, she pleaded silently.
Dr. Gallagher swept into the office. He banged his
chair into his desk and slapped a manila folder against the cluttered top.
“What’s wrong?” Jenny felt her heart thudding ominously as she looked at his face.
“Your blood work shows blasts, Jenny. I’m sorry, but you’ll have to check back into the hospital.”
June 4, 1979
Dear Kimbra
,
The worst thing about being put back in the hospital is realizing that I know too much. Last time I was ignorant—I had no grasp of what was happening to me. But this time, I do know. I know every test, every consequence of every test, every drug, every pain waiting for me. Sometimes, I get so depressed that I just want to give up
.
Don’t panic. I’m not giving up. Honest. There are two things keeping me going. Grandmother—who’s practically driving Dr. Gallagher crazy with her suggestions—and Richard. He was so upset when he heard about my test results that he almost came right back home as soon as he got to Princeton. I begged him not to dump a whole year’s worth of classwork for my sake. He has finals in a week and promises he’ll remain and take
them. I’m glad. I don’t want my illness to be a burden on him
.
It certainly doesn’t look like I’ll be going anywhere anytime soon. My cancer is stubborn. Dr. Gallagher’s throwing everything at it, but it just doesn’t want to take a hike. My head hurts so bad after the spinal injections that I’m practically blind from the pain
.
But enough about my fun times.… How’re you? Please don’t stop writing. The letters from you and Elaine mean everything
.
Love
,
Jenny
July 10, 1979
Dear Jenny
,
Mom forwarded your last letter to me at basketball camp. I can’t believe you’ve got to go through this a second time—and you’ve got to go through it all by yourself too! I swear, if I wasn’t here at camp, I’d fly down and move into your grandmother’s and come visit you every day
.
Things are pretty good for me. The one arm isn’t the handicap the coaches thought it would be. I’ve learned how to shield with my body and duck under the person guarding me and dunk from the outside. It’s a pretty good maneuver, and believe it or not, I’ve been a high scorer
.
Don’t get too discouraged. I know how much you wanted to go out to your summer place, but it’s only July. You can go into remission and make it out there yet. Just think. If the seas are choppy, you won’t get seasick, because your stomach is so used to upheaval!
Love
,
Kimbra
July 25, 1979
Dear Jenny
,
Cancer camp is a whole lot more fun than I ever thought it would be. I’ve met a bunch of girls, and I actually like a few of them. Not to worry. No one can ever take the place of you and Kimbra. We’re the Three Musketeers, aren’t we?
I met a cut guy here too. His name is Tony, and he had a brain tumor removed when he was twelve. He’s doing fine now and has been coming to this camp for three years. He took me on a moonlight canoe ride, and it was positively magnifico. (Tony’s teaching me Spanish. If fact, he’s teaching me plenty of other things too.) If the three of us get together at Christmas like we’re planning, I’ll tell you and Kimbra all about it. Maybe
.
Did I tell you that I’ve been recommended for my school’s gifted program? What a joke! Me, gifted. Maybe it was all those chemo treatments. I don’t know if I want to be gifted or not. Being smart is such a social downer in my school. Oh well … what’s a person to do?
Love
,
Elaine
August 5, 1979
Dear Elaine
,
I’m jealous. Canoe rides in the moonlight sure beats elevator rides down to chemo. I’ve lost all my hair again. Somehow, it’s not as important to me this time as it was last. All I want to do is get out of this place
.
Richard’s working at his dad’s law firm again, and he comes by every day to visit. I can’t believe I was such a dope about keeping him away last summer
.
I
mean, he doesn’t care how I look (which is pretty awful). And it’s so wonderful to have him around. Grandmother’s a little jealous, I think, but she’s tolerating it
.
By the way, congrats on your gifted status. Noreen would have loved to blab it all around. Don’t be afraid of being a “brain.” Think of all the college offers you’ll get. Brains are worth scholarship bucks, according to Richard
.
Love
,
Jenny
August 17, 1979
Dear Jenny
,
Mom took me out to buy school supplies today. How do you like my purple ink? I’m actually looking forward to my junior year. I learned so much at basketball camp, and my high school coach is talking about my starting in January. I really think we have a shot at the state title this year. Keep the faith! I worry about you
.
Kimbra
August 26, 1979
Dear Kimbra
,
I never thought I’d be jealous about someone returning to school, but I am. This was supposed to be the September I went back, but it looks like I’ll be tutored again
.
The good news is that I’m going home! Dr. Gallagher doesn’t say much except that he wants me to get lots of rest and be comfortable. I have so many pills to take that Grandmother’s hired Mrs. Kelly to live in and watch over my medications
.
The one thing I’m looking forward to is Labor Day
weekend on Martha’s Vineyard. Grandmother’s flying us over even though the season is all but officially over. So what? Fewer tourists to bump into. Richard’s coming too, and we’ll finally get in a sail and a picnic. Can you believe we’ve been talking about doing this for a whole year? I only wish I felt better. I’m tired, Kimbra. Tired of being sick, tired of taking treatments. Sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever get well. Dr. Gallagher talks about new treatments coming along all the time, but some of them are a long way off. Right now, I’m simply trying to make it to 1980. Don’t worry so much about me. I’m doing the best I can. Having Richard around helps, but I wish I could see you and Elaine too
.
Love
,
Jenny
PS. Elaine says she’s got some flu bug, so she won’t be returning to school on time either
.
September 1, 1979
Dear Jenny
,
Hope you and the hunk have the time of your lives. Have you ever thought of tying him to the mast of that sailboat and making him your love slave? It was just a thought
.
Have fun, and then write and tell me all about it. And I want details!
Love
,
Kimbra